LOGINKillianWe’d been moved into the house for about ten days now, and it seemed like it was going really well. She seemed more relaxed not being front and center around everyone all the time. She was still going to the packhouse to check in with people who were working there and asking how everyone was doing. She was trying to believe what their and her wolf told her about their reactions to her, and not just believing they were blowing smoke up her ass as she’d put it. She was starting to see that pack members truly did think about and care about other pack members. That was such a foreign concept to her that she was still trying to absorb it. My sister had been trying to be there for her while being understanding that she was a totally different person than our mother had been. So, she no longer tried to coach her in her “luna duties” as she put it. Alora had ended up asking about the other women in the pack who were expecting, and Elizabeth had introduced her to a couple. One girl w
AloraI was walking, okay waddling, next to Killian through a house he had wanted me to look at. He’d talk to me about us moving out of the packhouse to something more private, especially with the babies coming soon. I heard Mani echo pups, and wag her tail, and I chuckled to myself. I could never think if I should call them babies or pups, because I guess they were both. Apparently wolf shifter children were born as babies but could shift as early as five, but more often it was closer to seven. They would however already have their wolf; it just wouldn’t come all the way out until they were older. Dr. Martin had been trying to talk me into another ultrasound. He said he really needed to get a check on them and measure how far along everything was so he could pin an approximate date of arrival better. He wanted to make sure nothing was wrong. I knew Killian wanted to know the gender as well, so I was trying to figure out how to do this. The house was nice, it had a really nice kitch
KillianWe’d been home for a few days and I knew Alora was really trying. We’d had to remind everyone please not to just come up and touch her. They had a tendency to want to reach out and feel her belly, and it was freaking her out. Honestly, probably a lot of people would be freaked out about it, but as wolves, we were a touchy feely bunch all the time, but throw pups into it and we normally went nuts. There weren’t enough babies born really, so now it became a bigger thing, even though it’d always been greatly celebrated. I was actually thinking it might be a good idea for us to move out of the packhouse and be somewhere just us for a while. Not only would it keep her from being front and center with everyone so much, and at risk of stray touches, but it would give her more of the peace and quiet she seemed to often need. Also, we needed to set up for the pups to arrive, and that meant getting a nursery set up. I think she would feel better about that in our own home rather than
AloraI only have eight weeks left in the pregnancy. Only two more months until they will no longer be inside of me, so when he finds me and gets me, he won’t get them as well. So, now, I can see Killian is anxious to have me back at the pack. Part of that is because he’s afraid something will happen and it will take too long to get me to Dr. Martin in time. I have been thinking a lot over the last few days. He does so much for me. Do I think it’s wasted on us and there is no way in hell this will work out the way he wants. Yes, but that doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate what he does or what he has been trying to do. “We should go back to the pack. I know you’re anxious about me not being close to Dr. Martin with the babies or pups, whatever, being due in such a short time. So, let’s go back so you can relax. We’ll see how things go, but Killian, please don’t expect a lot from all of this. This is about them, not so much about me.” He looked at me for a few moments, and then nodded h
Alora I felt like a nutcase. I am sure I acted like one at least part of the time as well. I had been trying really hard to pull myself back from this ledge I had been teetering on for weeks now. It wasn’t that my fear really abated, but perhaps I was able to work around it some. I don't honestly know. It had still been hard when Siril mounted Mani, but it was easier to try and separate myself out from what was happening. Killian helped as well. Then when I felt the tell tale movement of a baby fluttering in my abdomen, I had to just stop and catch my breath. Then I knew Killian was worried so I explained my reaction. Seeing him get all emotional and happy over the baby or one of the babies moving, surprised me. Then he told me he just needed to hold me when I explained why it had caught me the way it had. It had actually ended up helping me, and I hadn’t been able to say that about touch much in my life. I do remember before things went to shit with the whole pregnancy thing, he’d
KillianWe were doing good and having a pretty good night, so I hoped what I was about to ask wouldn’t mess that up, “I don’t want to upset you, but I know you are feeling some of the same things I am. Siril wants out and I have a feeling Mani does as well. We haven’t let them be out together in a while now. Do you think you would be able to handle that? You know what happens when they are around each other. I mean they have a problem not being all over each other, so you know that’s what would happen.” She paused for a moment, and I saw her getting pushed by Mani and she rolled her eyes, “Okay, she’s now about to have a fit as she wants out so bad. I know she hasn’t been out other than when you commanded her to shift, but you weren’t able to let Siril out with her that night. So, she’s not the one who has issues with all of everything, it’s me. She won’t run on you or anything you already know that. I have to just get used to them being together, as I don’t know what else to do.” I
KillianThings in the pack have been somewhat distressed since everything went down with the trial and public executions. I have been fielding questions, concerns, and trying to help sooth as much as possible. Marcus and Paul have been right here helping, and there have been a couple of times that A
AloraI had failed. I had hoped I could make it work. Of course I had no idea that my death could very well result in his own. I didn’t want to hurt him, I just knew I couldn’t fucking do this, no matter what he thought. I was currently pacing the room, and then I heard the clink of the chain and I
KillianI had talked to Marcus more about a possible plan that I had suddenly thought of. I was planning to meet with both him and Paul to get their input on my idea and any extra ideas. In the meantime I was having him do a few changes in my room. I wanted for us to get her out of the hospital bed
KillianI am sitting next to the bed where Alora is now secured. We have her wrists secured to the bed, and though I hate doing it I’m not sure what else to do. I’m not stupid enough to think that she won’t try to hurt herself again if I let her go. So, until I find out what triggered this and try







