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Chapter 30: One Night, Endless Graving

Author: Queen jessy
last update publish date: 2026-06-07 14:21:11

Ethan sat at the hotel bar like he always did when the grief got too loud. Whiskey in front of him, half-empty already. The ache in his chest was sharper tonight. Two years since Sarah died and some nights it still felt like yesterday. He drank faster, trying to dull it, trying to forget the way her laugh used to fill their apartment, the way her hand used to feel in his.

By the time he stood up the room tilted. Bad idea driving. He booked a room instead. Just to sleep it off. Nothing more.

He
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