LOGINVegas POV
What I wasn’t expecting was the mate bond to be stronger with her than it was Thea. It took every ounce of strength I had to not rush her the moment I smelled her amazing Lavender scent and whatever else sits underneath it that I can’t place yet. Clean. Warm. Familiar in a way that makes my chest feel tight. it calms Echo instantly. This already going bad. The fact that only her scent has Echo reacting says more than any seer ever could. Five years. Five years and he hasn’t relaxed this fast for anyone. She’s feisty and she fights back and that means loss of control. That isn’t an option because no control means things go wrong and someone dies. She thinks her bringing her friend will change something but all it did was give me a different way to control her. Not because I want leverage over her. Because if she starts spiraling she’ll need something familiar to anchor her. That’s what I tell myself anyway. I can’t get those eyes out of my head, her eyes make her look like a goddess. The pale blue against her skin doesn’t even look real. It looks like something made up to tempt stupid men into making stupid decisions. “I’m sorry about my daughter Alpha’s she’s not used to not having control over her life, she’s been like that her whole life” her dad says. I smirk. “Don’t worry Alpha Taylor I understand this a lot to take in, I’m sure once we get back to our pack she will feel less like a prisoner” I say. Prisoner. The word sits wrong in my chest. Because the truth is I know exactly why she feels that way. If somebody tried to drag me away from everything I built, I'd fight too. Truth is I’m hoping she doesn’t run, because control is all I know and everything around me needs to be controlled that’s the only way to keep everyone alive. People hear control and think power. Control isn’t power. Control is counting exits. Control is knowing where everyone is. Control is making sure nobody ends up buried because you relaxed for one second. She’s beautiful and the more I try not to think about her the more I do. The defiance in her eyes, the sharp tongue, the not backing down. She should be scared. That would make this easier. When she finally comes down with her friend and her luggage, I have one of my warriors take her stuff to the truck. “You’re in the car with Virgo and I” I say to her. She looks at me and I can see the way her body stiffens. “Actually I think I won’t, sorry mate but I would rather not be suffocating by whatever that is” she says gesturing between Virgo and I. Interesting. Most people lower their heads. She gets mean. “You’re going to make this difficult aren’t you?” I ask. She shrugs her shoulders. “That really depends on you” she says turning to walk to a different truck. I reach out to grab her arm. “If I were you mate I wouldn’t touch me again, I may not have a wolf but I’m the best warrior in this pack” she says and I pull my hand back. Best warrior? With no wolf. That shouldn’t impress me. It does anyway. When she goes to climb in the truck a group of warriors run over to her. “Kalani is it true? Are you really leaving?” a girl asks her. “Yeah kiddo unfortunately you’re all stuck with Adonis” she says smiling. They all groan at her response. “He makes us run too many laps and he’s always yelling” a young male says. She laughs and gods her laugh is beautiful. Get it together Vegas, control. “I will miss all of you so much” she says crying. “Olly make sure you watch those feet during your spars, I will be checking in” She says. They all love her and she is seemingly a big part of this pack which scares me for when we get home. For a second I understand why she fought so hard. This isn't just a pack. It's hers. These people don't look at her because she's the Alpha's daughter. They look at her because she matters to them. People don’t look at us like that. Nobody runs toward us. Nobody cries because we’re leaving. Nobody complains about training and laughs while doing it. Shadow Pack hasn’t looked like this in a long time. What kind of change will she bring. Change is dangerous and the mission is keep her alive, we don’t have the luxury of nurturing a bond that isn’t guaranteed. Because if she starts changing our pack… that means she plans on staying. And I still haven’t decided if that thought terrifies me or not. “She might be different” Echo says. Hope. That’s all Echo ever wants. Hope and a mate and all the things our bloodline keeps proving we don’t get to have. “I don’t have the luxury of waiting to find out” I say back to him. That’s the difference between us. Echo still thinks wanting something makes it possible. I learned a long time ago wanting something doesn’t stop you from destroying it. I watch her take her friends hand and get into the truck with her and close the door. Virgo walks over to me. “She hates us” He says low. I look over at the truck. She should. The problem is I don't like it as much as I thought I would. “Good, then maybe she will live long enough to break the curse, she’s only 18 so that means we have 3 years Virgo” I say. His jaw tightens. He runs his hand over his face. “I can’t stay away from her for 3 years Vegas” he says. That gets my attention immediately because Virgo doesn’t admit weakness. I turn to face him. “Well figure it out because that’s where we are right now” I say. Three years. Three years of distance. Three years of pretending she isn’t ours. Three years of trying not to repeat five years ago. I walk to get in the truck with her and her friend. Virgo climbs in behind me. She sucks her teeth when we get in. “This is not space” She says. Interesting. She didn’t ask if we were riding with her. She assumed she already deserved space. “I never said I was giving it to you, I said you were riding with us that wasn’t up for debate” I say. Her eyes narrow. “This is so stupid, you are already suffocating” she says and puts her headphones in her ear. My eyes stay on her for a second longer than they should. Suffocating. That’s an interesting word. Her friend just looks between Virgo and I. “Well at least you’re hot” she says before putting her own headphones in. Virgo snorts. I stare out the window. That’s the problem. People always think dangerous things are easier to survive when they look good. This is going to be a very long three years. And somehow since Thea… three years sounds way too long.Kalani POV I’m not really sure what Jordan was thinking coming here.Maybe he wasn't thinking at all. Maybe he just heard I was hurting and got in his truck. That sounds a lot more like Jordan than some elaborate plan.I have missed him but I haven’t thought about him romantically since that first year he was gone.Some people become part of your history without staying part of your future. That's what Jordan became to me.Virgo walks into the kitchen and notices Vegas sitting at the island across from me.“What are you doing here?” he asks him taking the seat next to him.“I live here Virgo” he replies.A small smirk crosses my face before I school it.“Yeah but what are you doing here in the kitchen with her?” he asks pointing his chin in my direction.Virgo's eyes flick between the two of us. It doesn't take a genius to see whatever happened before he walked in wasn't exactly friendly.“She had a visitor” Vegas says voice tight.“Who?” he asks eyes locking on me.“Her ex” he says
Kalani POVFive minutes later, Tati and I are standing outside the house as Jordan’s car pulls up.The second I see his beat-up truck turn the corner, I know it's him before I even make out his face. Some people just have a way of showing up exactly the same no matter how much time passes.The moment he steps out, we both run over to him.Tati jumps into his arms first.“Hey, little sis, I missed your mischievous self,” he says, and she slaps his arm.“Mom said you weren’t coming back until next month,” she says.He smiles at her, but his eyes find me.“I was, but then Adonis called me and told me about Kalani, and here I am,” he says.That makes my heart stop.The thing about Jordan is... he never stopped loving me. I’ve known since we were pups, and before he left for school, we dated and were sure we were each other’s mates.Back then, forever seemed simple. We were kids making promises under the stars, convinced the Moon Goddess had already written our story. Life had other plans.
Kalani POVAfter he leaves I go find Hannah and the rest of the day flies by with learning how to set broken bones and doing sutures.By the time Hannah dismisses me, my shoulders ache and my stomach is growling. It feels good though. Every day I spend here I feel a little more confident that this is exactly what I want to do with my life.When I leave I run back to the house to start my test.I race up to my room and open my laptop to take the test.An hour later I'm waiting for my results.The waiting is somehow worse than the test itself. I keep glancing at the screen every few seconds like staring at it harder will make my grade appear faster.I make my way downstairs to see what I will be cooking and I find Heather in the kitchen restocking.“Hey Heather I didn’t hear you come in” I say.She smiles.“Hey Kalani, I actually just got in, I came in through the back door” she says.“Everything okay?” she asks.“Yeah just came to start making dinner, but I can wait until you are done.
Kalani POV I eventually get my shit together and make my way to the pack hospital. The walk over gives me too much time to think. Every few steps my mind drifts back to Vegas, then to Virgo, then right back to Vegas again. By the time the hospital comes into view I am mentally exhausted, but at least work will give me something else to focus on. The moment I walk in the receptionist at the front greets me. “Good morning Luna” she says. I wish they would just call me Kalani. I already gave them all permission. “You are their Luna whether you acknowledge the role or not” Astra says. “Still don’t like it” I reply. Especially when I still don't feel like I belong in that role. “Good morning Clara, how are you today?” I ask leaning on the desk. “I’m good Luna, are you?” she asks eyes darting to the bruise around my neck. Fuck I forgot to cover it before coming here. I smile brightly. “I’m fine, I should go find Hannah. We will talk about that party later” I say win
Vegas POVI stand there watching her walk away.She never looks back.Not once.“Why would you lie to her?” Echo roars at me.“this is how it has to be” I retort.He growls before blocking me out.The silence he leaves behind is almost worse. Echo never blocks me out unless he's truly angry and lately that's happening more often than I'd like to admit.What happened last night with Virgo is exactly why she needs to think that kiss was a mistake.I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it truthfully.I couldn’t sleep thinking about how easily she gave into it.How easily I gave into it.One second she was pulling me back onto the couch and the next I couldn't remember why I thought staying away from her was supposed to be easy.I still remember the look on her face when she kissed me. There was no fear. No hesitation, just trust.Trust that I didn't deserve.I didn’t realize how much I actually wanted her.I was drunk when I walked through that door but completely sober when I saw h
Kalani POV After he gets dressed I start walking again. “Okay what do you want Vegas?” I ask looking at him. The walk back toward the pack house is quiet except for the sound of our footsteps. A few warriors we pass immediately look away when they see us together and I know the entire pack is probably already talking about training. Wonderful. “We need to talk about last night” he says. I roll my eyes. “Which part?” I ask. Because there are currently several disasters from last night to choose from. “Everything. Kalani do you see what happened when he gets too close? He could have killed you” he says. I take a deep breath. “The point is that he didn’t, he stopped himself and besides I could have gotten out of it” I say shrugging my shoulders. His glare immediately deepens. Apparently that was the wrong thing to say. “This is not a game Kalani, it will only get worse the more time he spends with you” he snaps. I stop short. The frustration that's been building inside me
Virgo POVI hate that no matter how many years have passed, no matter what we did to make up for it. When people see us they see me killing Thea, they see death.It doesn't matter how many wolves we protect. It doesn't matter how many years go by without another incident. The second people hear our
Kalani POV It’s been about a week since the conversation I had with Vegas in the kitchen and he’s been trying to be less of a brute. Virgo has been eating breakfast with me in the mornings and Vegas has been trying to fight the urge to be around me. Not that he's doing a particularly good job o
Vegas POV I stand there staring at the door trying to not break it down and drag her out and lock her in the cells. My jaw is so tight my teeth hurt. She is going to make this difficult. Nobody has ever slammed a door in my face before. Nobody has ever looked me dead in my face and decided m
Kalani POV The drive to The Shadow Pack was long and annoying. Clearly they don’t realize how suffocating they are to be around or they just don’t care either way. I was able to get all my assignments done, I was also able to work something out with my professors about moving my classes online and







