LOGIN~Amber’s POV~
“I need you to suppress my wolf.”
Never in my life had I thought there would be a time when those exact words would leave my lips, nor did I think that they would be the first words I would say to the man I hadn’t seen for three years.
Surprise flashed across his face before it gave way to a big grin that lit up his entire features, making him look even younger as he spread his hands.
“Before you start spewing nonsense, come give your best friend a hug.”
The word best friend sent a string of pain through me, making me stand still.
But Tim didn’t care because the next second I was lifted off the ground in his arms and spun in a way that made a giggle leave my lips before I could help it.
Then he dropped me down just as fast. “When your father told me you were returning, I couldn’t believe it. I have missed you so much, Amber.”
The truth in his eyes melted away the pain and anger for a moment and I sighed. “I missed you too. I’m sorry that I couldn’t talk to you often.”
“I know,” He sighed pushing his flopping black hair out of his face.” Communicating with the Royal Palace frequently would have blown your cover.”
He shoved me back to lay emphasis on our relationship. “You are such an asshole for leaving in the first place. Most especially because of that scumbag that…”
He stopped talking, reading the look on my face.
Tim might not have been born to my family, but he was my family. More than a best friend tag could quantify. And he had been the first person I came to find as soon as I stepped foot in the palace because the family he was born into had the ability to do magic.
And I needed him to do another spell for me. A stronger one than he had done three years ago.
Because he could read my mind, he shook his head. “I do not know what happened, Amber, and I have every intention of continue to pretend I didn’t hear the nonsense you said when you walked in here.”
“Timothy.”
“No.” He shook his head. “Don’t go calling my full name. I already did a spell that I spent the last year worrying about. I kept thinking, what if something happens and she can’t fight back because of her suppressed Alpha female strength and aura and…”
“Tim,” I cut in gently. “No questions asked. Remember?”
He looked like he wanted to say something, but I grabbed his hand. “Please.”
“Amber, if this has something to do with Ian, with you not wanting to feel again I understand. But this is your wolf—“
“I should have been more specific. I just need you to do a spell to suppress my scent, not Roxanne entirely.”
I stopped, sucked in a deep breath, then focused on the link between the two of us, feeling her disagreement with it like she had been pushing towards me since I decided this on my way here.
But I felt it.
The mix of understanding that I was hurting from the actions of our mate even though she was struggling against me to be with him, especially with the mark hidden underneath my hair still pulsing.
And more importantly, my mate was an Alpha, which meant he would be in attendance at the gathering. I was lucky enough that my Alpha female aura would not let the mark nor the bond hold as long as I didn’t mark him back, but that didn’t mean he wouldn’t be able to sense the bond.
So I sucked in a harder breath, hating that I couldn’t tell him about my mate, and reached for his face, making him stare at me.
“No questions asked. Please.”
He closed his eyes, then nodded. “I will make you another necklace. But once you do this, I cannot tell the long-term effect of the spell. It might change your scent and you might never find your mate.” He paused. “Once you do it, there is no turning back, Amber.”
No turning back.
Those were the only words that rang out in my head as I slowly kissed his cheek and walked out.
No turning back as I made it back to my room, fully washing out the brown color from my hair and taking out the contacts that hid my brilliant blue eyes.
No turning back as the hours went by and I finally put on the dress that had been laid out for me, made my way out to my father who hadn’t sought me out.
Who understood that I needed space to breathe and maintained his silence even as he led me out to the grand hall.
No turning back as I secretly put on the necklace Tim slipped into my hands just before I stepped into the grand hall and every single person turned their head in my direction.
“Smile,” My father said finally, breaking his silence. His hand never once leaving mine.
He didn’t need to tell me. I had been trained my whole life for this, so the smile already graced my face as he led me forward.
“Amber,” he started, not breaking stride. “I know you do not want to talk about it and I have given you space. Respected that you would do what was expected even though it hurt that you didn’t come to see me as soon as you arrived.”
“Dad,” I tried to say, but he stopped me. Stopped moving completely as he faced me, not caring for the audience, lifting my head with his finger so I stared into his eyes that held only love for me.
“I hate that I knew this would happen, but you have always had a spark that I could never tame and the only way you would understand, see what Ian Declan was was if you experienced it.”
I kept quiet, feeling a pain clench in my chest that was becoming all too familiar.
“The marriage is necessary, but we do not have to go ahead with it now.”
“No. It is my duty. I intend to follow through.”
“Amber.” He exhaled.
I shook my head ignoring it. “I wasn’t interested in knowing his name before. I am now.”
My father stared at me a moment longer, then he let out a bigger sigh, knowing I was his replica when it came to being stubborn. “Axel. Axel Edgewood.”
For some reason, it resonated deep inside me with so much force that it felt as if the air itself changed just from the mention of the name.
No… the air actually did change.
My eyes immediately scanned around, looking for the reason. Then everything in me froze.
Every complete thing froze as the scent hit me. And with an even bigger blast of pure shock, he materialized following his scent, walking through the door. Just like everyone present had done with my father and me, all heads turned in his direction.
In the direction of my mate.
Our eyes clashed immediately across the hall and something inside me cracked open.
My breath stopped. My heart stopped. Then they both started again, too fast, too hard. The mate bond pulled so violently the suppression necklace burned against my skin.
Roxanne silently thrashed, slamming against the spell masking my scent so he would recognize us but with all my might, I fought against it.
I had not seen his face and right in this moment, despite everything I was thankful because I might have melted on the spot.
How could a person look so devastatingly beautiful?
And my heart clenched. This time for a completely different reason.
Because there was no recognition in his eyes. Just curiosity even though that had been exactly what I wanted.
I shoved it down, forcing my face into the mask I had been trained to wear my entire life.
He closed the distance between us, his eyes never once leaving my face.
“Axel,” My father said just as he reached us. “I didn’t expect you to be among the Alphas who were time-conscious.”
It was official. I had surpassed the feeling of shock and whatever had just hit me needed a new word designed for it.
Axel? He was the man I was meant to marry?
I was the fiancée he had been busy preparing to meet that he had sent someone to toss me out like a common whore?
“Your Majesty,” He finally said, looking away and tilting his head in what I would not describe as a bow.
My father barely acknowledged it and in a cheery voice went on, “With the bond that exists between our families, you need not call me that.” He looked back to the few men that had trailed him.
“I thought your arrival would be more pronounced.”
“Due to some unforeseen circumstances, I had to leave most of my men behind.”
He said with that gravelly voice that had wrapped around me while he mercilessly pounded into me and I forced myself to snap out of it just as my father pushed me forward.
“The meeting was meant to be more official but… This is my beautiful daughter. Princess Amber Moon, heir to the throne. Amber, this is—”
“An inconsiderate bastard.” I stilled even more than I already was, hoping I didn’t say it out loud.
One of Axel’s eyebrows raised in question, but from my father going on to say, “Axel Edgewood,” I realized I hadn’t said it out loud.
“I suppose I should leave you two to get to know each other before the formalities begin.” My father laughed and I detected something foreign, nervousness then he practically shoved me forward.
‘No, don’t go.’ I wanted to scream at my father. ‘Don’t leave me with this incorrigible asshole who had no regard for contracts and marriages and had slept with me even though he didn’t know it was me, then completely disregarded me as nothing but a whore.’
But my father disappeared.
The air tensed and Axel’s eyes settled on me even more like he had x-ray powers and wanted to see what was inside.
I kept quiet, feeling eyes on me, but his was all I could focus on.
Thankfully, Tim’s spell had gone through because there was still nothing like recognition in his eyes.
The staring competition mixed with silence turned physical and I started unconsciously taking a step back when he broke it.
His eyes narrowed slightly, his head tilted just a fraction then his voice came out low, dangerous and possessive that had me completely halting.
“Why do you smell like me?”
~Amber’s POV~“Jesus Christ, Tim, do you never ever fucking clean?” I snapped, kicking away the pile of no doubt dirty clothes from the floor to create a path through.He stepped out of the bathroom at that exact moment in a towel wrapped at his waist and shot me a look. “First off, what happened to the permanent break from cursing, and two, I have told you not to bring that tone in here. I don’t need that negativity clouding my space.”“I don’t have time for this, Tim. I need you to get the coin and put Roxanne’s bitchy ass right back into me and—”“Hey. Hey.” He cut in, crossing the room until he was right in front of me, taking my face into both his hands. “The worst kind of anger is the kind that comes from grief. So I need you to take a breath.”I closed my eyes at that, deflating, and did what he said.The moment I did, everything hit me without warning or mercy. My father’s still body. The kiss. His fingers. His complete blankness after. Me going on the attack to survive the m
~Axel’s POV~I was in deep shit.I knew it the moment I watched her close off completely in my office after I had said I would feel nothing but relief, which was the truth, but I had only said it to get that exact reaction from her.The moment I saw it happen and wanted nothing more than to undo it just as fast, I knew I had been wrong about whatever this was.Being inside her once would not fix it. It would only make it worse. So as much as I had felt her, memorized every pattern of her day over the last four months, known exactly when she stepped into a room seconds before she did, her closing off and staying away from me had served me well.If serving me well meant resulting in irritation with every single thing in existence.I had known I was in deep shit before, the kind that could not be undone, but the moment my lips touched hers — not like during our mating ceremony when it had been to get a reaction out of her, this time because something would have burned through me if I h
~Amber’s POV~I didn’t know if I pulled away or simply pushed him the hell away from me and the rapid blinking started again even though my brain had caught up.Definitely because my brain had caught up.And I went through that same brain looking for some words, any word that would be a fitful reply for what he just told me while he stared down at me with a closed off expression.‘Come on Amber. Come on. You can do this, find your zeal to speak, find speech, find something.’“Are you fucking kidding me?”‘There it is.’The question came out so loud that for one imaginative moment, I could have sworn my father’s body actually stirred from how loud I was but it was all in my head.I didn’t expect him to answer because it was rhetorical.“No.”And there it was again, that damn two lettered word and the exact same way he had said it when he shot me down when I offered for us to do the exact same thing he had offered a night before, right before he told me that he would feel relief if he h
~Amber’s POV~It felt like I could not remember a time when I was not crying.And even though every tear I had inside should have dried up by now, even though my eyes burned and my throat was raw and my chest ached from the force of it, I could still feel myself crying. Like my body had decided it was never going to stop and had simply committed to it.My hands reached out, shaking so badly I could barely control them, and pushed the hair on his forehead away from his face.His skin was warm.That was the cruelest part.Because warm meant alive. Warm meant he was still in there somewhere. Warm meant there was something left to hold onto even though the healers had looked at me with that expression, the one they tried to hide behind professionalism but could not, the one that said they had done everything they could and everything they could had not been enough.The tears came again.Fresh and violent, like the first wave had never happened, like my body had found some reserve it had
~Axel’s POV~“Start talking.”The head warrior standing across from me was older than most of the men I commanded. Grey threaded through his hair at the temples, his posture was rigid with the discipline of decades, and his face carried the specific expression of a man who had failed at the one thing he had been put on this earth to do and knew it.“They came in the early hours, Alpha Edgewood.” His voice was steady but I could hear the fractures underneath it. “Between three and four in the morning. Through the eastern perimeter.”“How many?”“We counted twelve. Possibly more. They moved in coordinated units. Two to disable the perimeter wards. Four to neutralize the eastern guard rotation. The rest went directly for the King’s chambers.”“Directly.” I repeated the word and let it sit in the air. “Which means they knew the layout.”“Yes, Alpha.”“Which means someone told them.”He did not answer that. His jaw tightened.I took a step forward. “How did twelve wolves get through reinfo
~Amber’s POV~“One day when I am big and stroonngggg.” I drew the words out in the singing tone and gestured with my hands, flexing arms that had nothing on them worth flexing, tiny muscles that did not exist yet no matter how hard I squeezed.My mother picked it up without missing a beat. “You will be a Queennnn.”I burst out laughing and threw myself forward onto her because that was what I always did when she made me laugh, just launched myself at her like she was the safest place in the world.Because she was.But this time she winced.It was small. A tightening around her eyes, a breath that caught halfway through, and anyone else might have missed it but I did not miss things when it came to her. I had stopped missing things months ago.The smile fell off my face immediately.“I am sorry.” I scrambled backward. “I am sorry, where did I hurt you? I did not mean to hit you so hard and—”“Amber.” She cut through the panic with a gentle smile that sat on her face like it belonged th
~Amber and Axel’s POV~~Axel~The words landed and I just stared at her.The silence stretched between us, heavy and airless, and my mother stood in the middle of it with her hand pressed flat against her stomach and her eyes still watering, and I could not find a single thing to say that was not s
~Amber’s POV~“Pout all you want now, but I promise when we are done you are going to look so good that you will not be able to help but love me.”Rosella laughed, gleefully and completely unbothered, and received my glare in return the same way she had been receiving it for the last five minutes.
~Axel’s POV~“You do know that it is impolite to leave your own mating ceremony.”She looked up at me from the phone she had been staring at, and continued to stare at me even though I had stepped in three seconds ago.I went on. “Then again, nothing about how you acted out there was polite either.
~Amber’s POV~The feeling of déjà vu hit me, and for a second it felt like I was back at the Alpha’s gathering, when Ian had just walked in and I had seen the recognition flicker in his eyes at knowing exactly who I was.Except it faded just as fast as it came, because there was nothing knowing in







