LOGIN“What do you mean you still haven’t found her? I’m paying you to do your job, so do it!” I shouted.
Eric nodded helplessly and left my office.
Estelle, where are you? How long are you going to keep tormenting me? I feel like I’m breaking into pieces.
Then I saw my mom walk in, carrying something wrapped in a blue blanket. I froze, my hand still raised. “Mom, what is this?”
She crossed the room and stood right in front of my desk, pulling back the blanket to reveal a tiny infant. He was sleeping, his little face scrunched up and red, his tiny fists curled near his cheeks.
“This is your son,” she announced flatly, holding him out toward me. “Estelle gave birth to him. She abandoned him at the hospital and left the country.”
The room went completely silent except for the sound of my own breathing, too loud in my ears. I stared at the baby, unable to process what she’d just said, my brain refusing to catch up.
“That’s impossible,” I said finally, hoarsely.
“Wouldn’t she?” my mother interrupted coldly. “She gave birth to this boy three weeks ago. She was planning to have him aborted, Harrison. Can you imagine?”
My hands clenched into fists on the desk, my nails digging into my palms. “That’s—”
“She couldn’t afford it, apparently,” my mother continued, her lip curling slightly. “So she decided to give him up for adoption instead. Just hand him over to strangers rather than raise your son herself.”
“No. You’re lying. Estelle wouldn’t—how did you—where did you get him?” I demanded, standing up abruptly.
“I have contacts everywhere, darling. The hospital called me the moment they realized whose child this was.” She smiled thinly. “The doctor was very understanding about redirecting the adoption. After all, why should strangers raise an Emerson heir?”
I couldn’t speak. My throat had closed up completely and I just kept staring at the baby in her arms, this tiny person who Estelle had tried to—
“Look at him,” my mother commanded, holding the infant closer. “Look at his face, his features. He’s the spitting image of you when you were born. Don’t you see it?”
Against my better judgment, I leaned forward and looked. The baby did have my nose, my chin. His hair was dark, his skin tone similar to mine, but that didn’t mean he is my son.
“How do you know he’s mine?”
My mother pulled out a folded document from her purse and dropped it on my desk. “DNA test. Ninety-nine point nine percent match. This is your son, whether you want to believe it or not.”
I picked up the paper and scanned it quickly, my heart pounding harder. The results were right there in black and white. This baby was mine.
“The doctor contacted me,” my mother explained. “They wanted to verify paternity before proceeding. I had the DNA test done immediately. Once I confirmed he was yours, I stepped in. I made sure he came to us instead of going to strangers.”
“You just took him?”
“I rescued him,” my mother corrected firmly. “From being abandoned to people who have no idea what the Emerson name means. You should be thanking me, Harrison.”
I couldn’t speak. I just kept staring at the baby in her arms, this tiny person who was supposedly my child.
“She left him,” my mother said softly. “What kind of mother does that? I always told you she wasn’t good enough for this family, Harrison. Her true nature has finally shown itself.”
I reached out slowly. “Give him to me.”
She placed the baby in my arms carefully and I held him awkwardly, terrified I’d drop him or hold him wrong. He was so light, so fragile. His little hand curled around my finger reflexively and something twisted painfully in my chest.
“Lucas,” I whispered, looking into my son’s eyes. “This is your name from now on. Lucas… you’ll have nothing to do with Estelle ever again.”
“When are you going to finalize things with Lyndsey?” my mother asked briskly, as if this was a perfectly normal conversation to be having. “The girl has been waiting patiently for months now. It’s time to make it official, don’t you think?”
“I’m not thinking about marriage right now,” I said distantly, not looking up from the infant’s face. “Right now, I need to focus on him. He needs proper care, a stable home—”
“Of course,” my mother agreed smoothly. “I’ve already arranged for a nanny and—”
“I’ll take care of him myself,” I interrupted firmly. “Or at least, I’ll be involved. He’s my responsibility.”
My mother’s lips pressed into a thin line but she nodded. “Very well.”
I dialed Eric’s number and told him to stop looking for Estelle.
“Why the sudden change of mind?” Eric asked on the other end.
“There’s no reason,” I replied coldly. “And don’t ever mention her name to me again.”
“You’re making the right decision, Harrison. Focus on your future now, not your past.” Mom smiled approvingly.
“Right,” I said quietly, looking down at my son instead of at her.
So precious, and Estelle didn’t want him at all.
She had given birth to this little baby and left him behind without a second thought. What kind of mother did that?
I sat there holding him, hating Estelle for what she’d tried to do, hating myself more for still wanting to hear her voice.
Estelle’s POVI was standing near the cake table when Claire passed me on her way out of the room.I watched her go. Then I set my glass down on the cake table and went after her, before I had finished giving myself permission.She was at the far end of the corridor, by the cloakroom door, with her hand flat on the wall.She wasn’t crying. She had done the thing she did right before she cried—the swallow, the chin lift—and stopped herself before the line.“Claire.”She turned slowly.“Estelle.”“Are you all right?”“I’m fine, Estelle.”I opened the cloakroom door. I did not look at her. I held it.She went in. I followed. I shut the door behind us. Claire stood with her back to the sink and I leaned against the door.“I was watching the toast that’s coming,” she said quietly. “I was watching Helena. She has not stood for anything yet. She will stand for that one. She wants me to know she will, and she wants me to feel it.”She breathed out.“Estelle.”“Yes?”“I am not going to apologi
Estelle’s POVI was downstairs before the birds.Five forty-seven on the kitchen clock, which I noted because the clock was the first thing I could focus on after the light switch. I filled the kettle and got to the table before I remembered what day it was.I sat with the mug in both hands.Chloe came down at eight twenty-five in the dress.The dress was yellow. Nobody in the store had sold it to her as aggressive. Chloe had made it aggressive by force of will. It was the color of a highway sign. She walked into the kitchen with her hands on her hips.“Well.”“Chloe, you look—”“Don’t.”“—extraordinary.”“Thank you.”Daisy laughed wetly into her coffee.Lucas came down four minutes later in the bowtie and a plastic shark. I raised my brow, pointing at the shark. He shrugged and walked to the couch. He sat down very straight to wait to be useful.I went back upstairs at nine. Harrison was in the bathroom with the shower running.I put on the dress, zipping it myself. I checked the hem
Harrison’s POVThomas came over at one with his own hammer and a fresh bag of nails.He didn’t bring mine. I noted that and didn’t ask.“You’re early.”“I’m on time,” he said mildly, setting the bag on the patio table. “You’re late, because you haven’t started.”“I was going to start at one.”“It’s one-twelve, Harrison.”“Thomas.”“I brought the right nails this time.”Lucas was already on the step with his shark book facedown across his knee. He hadn’t looked up from Thomas in about ten minutes. Inside, Chloe was shouting at Estelle about a sheet of lists. Lucas had excused himself from that situation at nine. He had not been called back.“Hi, Thomas,” Lucas said promptly.“Hi, Lucas.”“Are you fixing Dad’s fence?”“I’m helping your dad fix his fence.”“Dad did it wrong.”“So I understand.”Lucas sank back into the book.We walked down to the corner section I’d put up for his birthday three weekends back. The slats had bowed out by Thursday. Estelle had noticed. She had not commented
Estelle’s POVHelena Donovan called me Thursday evening.I was on the couch with a cooking show playing on mute, my feet tucked under a blanket, a glass of wine at my elbow I had forgotten to drink. Harrison was upstairs. Chloe was at the kitchen table doing her Spanish homework out loud to herself because she said repeating the conjugations helped. Lucas was in his room reading a book about basking sharks.My phone rang, and it said Helena Donovan.I sat up slowly. I paused the television. I let it ring a second time before I picked up.“Hello?”“Estelle. It’s Helena.”“Yes. Hi.”“I was hoping you and I could have coffee tomorrow morning. Somewhere quiet. I won’t keep you long. It’s about Saturday.”Harrison had warned me she had gone to Claire’s. He had told me about the four rows and the don’t-turn-around. He had not warned me she might call.“Of course,” I said.“There is a coffee shop on Blackwell Road near the roundabout. I can be there at nine.”“I’ll be there at nine.”“Thank
Claire’s POVThe bell rang at ten past ten.I was drying a mug that had dried itself ten minutes ago. That was how my Wednesday mornings went now—I would pour a cup of coffee I did not drink, wipe down counters that did not need wiping, fold a dishtowel I had already folded, and wait for the clock to tell me it was an acceptable hour to telephone someone.I set the mug on the drainer. I went to the door.Through the peephole I saw a cream wool coat, pearl studs, and silver hair pinned the way it had been pinned in every society photograph I had ever seen of the woman wearing it. Helena Donovan. On my doorstep. On a Wednesday.My hand went to the collar of my blouse, checked it, and dropped.I opened the door.She stood on the mat the way she stood in those photographs—back straight, handbag at her shoulder, collar flat—and she did not apologize for coming unannounced. She did not smile. She waited.“Helena,” I said again, because my mouth had not yet caught up with my brain.“Good mor
Harrison’s POVKarl brought a Barolo he’d been saving. Thomas brought nothing, because Thomas never brought anything to dinner except himself and the faint smell of sawdust.The restaurant was a small Italian place on the west side that Karl had chosen for the booths in the back where nobody would bother us. The hostess seated us at seven-fifteen.Karl slid into one side of the booth. Thomas sat next to him.I sat across from both of them, which felt strange for about thirty seconds and then didn’t.Karl ordered the risotto. Thomas got a steak, medium, with a baked potato—the kind of plain, straightforward meal you order when you’ve spent years eating whatever was put in front of you and just want to choose something simple.I got pasta.Karl poured the wine without ceremony. Thomas drank carefully, slowly, as if he still wasn’t entirely convinced he was allowed.“So,” Karl said, leaning back and folding his hands behind his head. “Harrison Emerson is getting married. Again.”“Again,”
Estelle’s POVI picked my clutch up from the table and turned to Karl. “We’re leaving.”I walked out and Karl followed me. I didn’t look at a single person we passed, though I could feel every one of them watching.In Karl’s car, neither of us spoke for a long time. The engine was off and we just sa
Harrison’s POVHis hands were on my face and his mouth was on mine and I shoved at him, hard, both palms against his chest.Then my fingers were twisting into his shirt again and I was pulling him closer and I hated myself, I hated him, I hated all of it, and I kissed him back anyway.This time ther
Estelle’s POVI drove home too fast and nearly ran a red light on Maple Street because I wasn’t watching the road, I was watching my own hands on the steering wheel and hating them for what they’d done twenty minutes ago.They’d grabbed Harrison’s shirt. They’d pulled him closer. They’d twisted into
Karl’s POVI got to the office at eight-fifteen and the first person I passed in the hallway was Tom from sales, who clapped me on the shoulder and said, “Karl, saw you at the showcase last night. Rough crowd.”“It was fine,” I said shortly, not slowing down.“I heard someone gave you a hard time ab







