Hundred Shades Of Love

My heart thumped as I walked up the stairs. I was certain the panties and bra, as well as the dress lying on the floor of our living room, weren't mine. My anxiety was over the roof, I walked quietly to the bedroom and pushed the door open. It was at that moment my heart sank to my stomach, the world paused for a second and I couldn't control the tears that flowed freely from my eyes. 

“Marcus, how can you do this to me?”I yelled in tears and that was when I noticed the lady he was in bed with was my best friend, Camilla. I felt the air suffocating me and I couldn't control the burst of anger that overwhelmed me. 

“Camilla, you snake!”I screamed and began to throw things at them on the bed. Everything my eyes came in contact with, I picked up and threw it at them. Camilla tucked herself underneath the duvet and Marcus hurriedly came to hold me down. 

“Are you crazy, Sienna?”he asked, holding my arms tightly. 

“Do you want to get us injured?”he asked. 

I couldn't believe it, my husband was having an affair with my best friend and yet it was I who seemed crazy? 

“You're a mess Sienna, your life is messed up, I can't deal with you anymore. We've been married for five solid years and yet no child, it's driving me crazy”, he yelled and punched the wall. 

“Sometimes I wonder what the problem is, but I'm certain it's not me, Sienna. You are the problem, go and fix yourself somewhere else but I can't do this anymore. What's a marriage without babies?”. Marcus's words pierced through every corner of my heart. I knew our childlessness was disturbing but he always assured me that he would be patient until God decides to bless us with our own child, yet here he was venting at me. Tears continued to flow effortlessly down my cheeks. 

“I want a divorce”, Marcus said, staring at me from across the room. 

I was struck. “You can't be serious about this, Marcus. After everything we've been through? After giving up my family for you? You want to give up the nine years we've shared together just like that?”, I asked in disbelief, hoping to hear him say he didn't mean what he said, but it was inevitably clear that his mind was made up. 

“My lawyer has prepared the divorce papers already, all I need is for you to sign them”, Marcus said, pulling out some documents from the drawer beside the bed. He walked up to me with a pen in his hand and my life flashed before my eyes. 

“Don't make this difficult for both of us. Here you go”, he said, handing the papers over to me with the pen. I was still in awe and Camilla’s smile was more salt to my wound. I took the papers from him and signed on everywhere he asked me to after carefully reading through. 

“You can come back to pick up your stuff, but you'll have to excuse us for now”, Marcus said, going back to Camilla on the bed. 

“One more thing. Camilla here is pregnant for me, she's going to be the mother of my child soon. I hope this clears your doubts and prove that you're the problem, not me” Marcus said with a smirk on his face

That was the last straw that broke the camel's back. I burst into a loud cry and ran off away from the house. I ran as fast as I could, crying and sniffling. I had no idea where I was going but I just knew I wanted to be away, far away from all of this. I finally stopped when I ran out of breath. I couldn't help but cry some more, my whole life had been destroyed.

I called my friend, Jess and she immediately came to pick me up when she heard me crying on the phone. Even she couldn't believe that Camilla would do something like that but I couldn't kill myself. Life had to go on. I stayed up all night, vomiting and crying and I felt sick as hell. Jess had to take me to the hospital the next morning even after I convinced her it was nothing to worry about, I was just going through a lot of stress. The doctor ran some general checks, I was sent to the lab for some tests and an hour later when the results were out, I was confirmed pregnant. 

Like I hadn't been through enough in the past 24 hours. I was really excited about the pregnancy, Jess was even more excited for me but considering the circumstances between Marcus and I, I had to make up my mind. He made his choice already and I respected that. I decided I'd move to a new city and have a fresh start for my baby and I. I made Jess promise me that she wouldn't tell anyone about the pregnancy, especially not Marcus or Camilla. I just wanted to be away from all that drama and heal so I could be a good parent to my child regardless and Jess respected my decision. I made some reservations online for a hotel in California and also made contact with some housing agency so I could get a house there. I was assured that in less than a week I'd get a place that suited my preferences and budget. And that was it, my mind was made up, I also contacted a towing company to get my things from Marcus's house and move them to me in California and in less than 48 hours, I was on my flight to California. 

"Ladies and gentlemen, this is your captain speaking. We're beginning our descent into Los Angeles International Airport. We're currently 8 minutes away from touchdown…” the pilot's announcement cut through my daydream. 

It was all so overwhelming for me, just two days ago, I had planned the most romantic dinner to celebrate I and Marcus's fifth wedding anniversary and it all turned into my worst nightmare and here I was, Pregnant, Divorced, betrayed by myself best friend, completely without any family and I was starting my life afresh.