LOGINMeredith
I walked through the front door of the mansion still wearing the wedding dress Alarick had left me in, no veil, no bouquet, and no groom trailing behind me. The staff froze when they saw me, their eyes widening as they took in the ruined train dragging across the marble floor and the tear stains I hadn't bothered to wipe away. I didn't stop to explain or acknowledge their stares. I went straight upstairs to the room we’d shared since I moved into Bloodmoon three years ago, my heels clicking against the steps with each determined stride. The door clicked shut behind me, and I pulled my suitcase out from under the bed with more force than necessary. Thud. I threw it onto the mattress and started packing. Clothes first, then shoes, then everything else I could reasonably fit without caring about organization or neatness. The room was full of him in ways that made my throat tight. Framed photos on the dresser showed us laughing at pack gatherings, his jacket still hung on the back of the chair where he'd left it this morning, and the cologne bottle he always forgot to cap sat on the nightstand, filling the air with his scent. I kept packing anyway. My hands shook as I folded a sweater and shoved it into the suitcase, but I didn't let myself stop moving. If I stopped, I would think too much about what I was leaving behind. If I thought too much, I might convince myself that staying and waiting for him to come back was easier than walking away for good. My phone sat on the bed next to the open suitcase, its screen dark and silent. I glanced at it once, then picked it up and unlocked the screen with my thumb. No calls. No messages. No missed notifications of any kind. Nothing. Deep inside me, my wolf stirred once, weak and restless, then went quiet again. My chest tightened, and I hated that the silence still hurt after everything he'd done. Part of me had hoped he would realize what he'd thrown away, that abandoning me at the altar in front of his entire pack might finally be the line he couldn't cross without consequences. But Alarick didn't call, and the longer I stared at that empty screen, the clearer it became that he wasn't going to. I wasn't going to wait around for him to decide I mattered enough to check on. I tossed the phone back onto the bed and turned toward the dresser, my reflection catching in the mirror. I looked like exactly what I was: a bride who'd been left behind. The thought made something hot and angry curl in my stomach. The Luna bracelet sat in its velvet box on top of the dresser, silver links gleaming under the bedroom lights and engraved with the Bloodmoon crest that I would never wear. Alarick had given it to me two years ago, back when I still believed we'd actually make it to the altar and that his promises meant something. I picked up the box and stared at it for a long moment, my thumb brushing over the clasp while memories I didn't want flooded back. The night he'd given it to me, he'd told me I would be the best Luna Bloodmoon had ever seen. I'd believed him then. I set the box back down on the dresser and walked away without looking back. I didn't throw it across the room or shove it into a drawer. I simply refused to take it with me, and that felt like enough. I zipped the suitcase shut and dragged it off the bed, the wheels hitting the floor with a dull thunk that echoed through the quiet room. I pulled it toward the door and took one last look at the space that had been mine for three years. The bed we'd slept in, the closet that still held half his clothes, the window seat where I used to wait for him to come home. None of it felt like mine anymore. The staff was waiting when I came down the stairs, and they weren't even pretending not to watch this time. They lined the hallway with dusters in their hands and concern on their faces, but I saw the disbelief there too. Whispers followed me down each step, low enough that they thought I couldn't hear but loud enough that I caught every word. "She'll be back by tonight." "The Alpha will calm her down when he returns." "She has nowhere else to go, afterall." The words stung more than they should have, mostly because they were right. I had always come back before. Every time Alarick disappointed me, every time he chose Clover over me, every time he promised things would be different, I forgave him and stayed. They had no reason to believe this time would be any different. But it was. I stopped at the bottom of the stairs and looked directly at the head housekeeper, an older woman named Margaret who had worked for Alarick's family for decades and had watched our entire relationship unfold from the beginning. She had the grace to look uncomfortable under my gaze. "Tell Alpha Alarick I left," I said, and my voice didn't waver the way I'd been afraid it would. "Tell him that I left the house, the wedding, and the woman who used to forgive him behind." Margaret's mouth opened slightly, but nothing came out. She looked like she wanted to say something, maybe try to convince me to stay or assure me that Alarick would fix everything, but the words seemed to die in her throat. The other staff members had gone completely silent. I didn't wait for her response or anyone else's attempt at placating me. I walked past her, through the foyer with its high ceilings and expensive artwork, and out the front door into the afternoon sun that felt too bright for the day I was having. Hayley's car was already waiting in the driveway, her beat-up sedan looking out of place among the luxury vehicles that usually lined this space. She must have heard what happened at the wedding because she was out of the driver's seat before I even reached the bottom step, her red hair blazing in the sunlight and her expression twisted with the kind of fury I'd only seen a handful of times. "I'm going to rip his throat out," she said, and from the way her hands clenched into fists at her sides, I believed she might actually try. "Don't." I dragged my suitcase toward the trunk, my arms already aching from hauling it down two flights of stairs. "Just help me get out of here before he comes back." Hayley grabbed the suitcase from me and threw it into the trunk with more force than was strictly necessary, the car rocking slightly from the impact. "He left you at the altar, Mer. He doesn't get to just walk back in here and apologize his way out of this one." "I know." I climbed into the passenger seat and pulled the door shut, the sound final and absolute. "That's why I'm leaving." Hayley slid into the driver's seat and started the engine, the old car rumbling to life beneath us, but she didn't pull out of the driveway yet. She turned to look at me instead, and her expression shifted from anger to something sharper and more clinical. Concern mixed with professional assessment. "Your scent is off," she said carefully. I frowned and turned to face her. "What?" "Your wolf." Hayley leaned closer, her nose wrinkling slightly as she caught whatever it was she was detecting. "She's weaker than she should be. How long has this been going on?" "I don't know what you're talking about." I buckled my seatbelt and stared straight ahead at the mansion I was leaving behind. "Can we just go?" "Meredith." Hayley's voice dropped into her doctor tone, the one she used when she wasn't going to let something slide no matter how much I deflected. "How long have you been feeling unstable?" I didn't answer right away because I didn't want to admit it out loud. My wolf had been quiet for months now, her presence reduced to a faint hum in the back of my mind instead of the solid, constant weight it used to be. I'd thought it was stress or exhaustion from constantly worrying about when Alarick would disappoint me next, but I hadn't wanted to admit it might be something worse. I hadn't wanted to face the possibility that loving him was literally making me weaker. "A while," I said finally, the admission feeling like defeat. Hayley cursed under her breath and gripped the steering wheel hard enough that her knuckles went white. "It's the bond. Alarick's bond." "We were never fully bonded." I kept my eyes on the mansion, watching as one of the staff members peeked through the curtains before quickly pulling back. "No, but you were close enough that his rejection hurt you anyway." Hayley put the car in reverse and backed out of the driveway, gravel crunching under the tires. "Every time he chose Clover, your wolf felt it as rejection. Every broken promise weakened the bond. He didn't just break your heart, Meredith. He broke your wolf." The words crushed the air out of my chest. I'd known something was wrong, had felt my wolf retreating further and further away with each of Alarick's betrayals, but hearing it said out loud by someone who actually understood wolf physiology made it undeniably real. "How bad is it?" I asked, my voice quieter than I wanted it to be. "Bad enough that you need a stable bond soon, or your wolf might not recover at all." Hayley glanced at me as she turned onto the main road, her expression grim in a way that told me she wasn't exaggerating for effect. "Alarick could still fix this if he marked you properly and actually committed to the bond, but I'm guessing that's not an option you're willing to consider." "No." The word came out sharper than I intended, carrying all the anger and hurt I'd been holding back since he answered Clover's call at the altar. "I'm not going back to him. Ever. I'd rather lose my wolf completely than let him mark me now." Hayley nodded slowly, like she'd expected that answer and had probably hoped for it. "Then you need another Alpha, and you need one soon. Your wolf can't sustain herself like this indefinitely." I stared out the window as the Bloodmoon territory blurred past us, familiar streets and buildings that I'd called home for years now feeling like they belonged to someone else's life. The houses grew smaller and more spread out, the trees thicker and wilder, and the scent of Alarick's pack faded with every mile we put between us and the mansion. Another Alpha. The only option left was the one I'd been running from for five years, the path I'd abandoned because I thought I'd found something better with Alarick. The arranged marriage. My father had set it up before I ever met Alarick, back when alliances and bloodlines mattered more to him than anything resembling love or happiness. I'd rejected it because I thought I'd found something worth choosing instead, something real and lasting. I thought Alarick was worth the risk of defying my father's plans. I was wrong about that. "I'm going home," I said quietly, the words feeling strange in my mouth after years of considering the Bloodmoon mansion home instead. Hayley didn't ask if I was sure or try to talk me into other options that didn't exist. She just kept driving, her hands steady on the wheel and her presence solid beside me. I watched Bloodmoon disappear behind us in the side mirror, the mansion shrinking into nothing more than a distant shape on the horizon, and I let myself accept what came next. The life I'd built with Alarick was over, finished the moment he chose Clover over me one final time. The future I'd imagined, the one where I became his Luna and we led Bloodmoon together, was gone like it had never existed at all. All that was left now was survival, and if that meant facing my father and the arrangement I'd once rejected, then that's what I would do. I had run from my father's arrangement once for love. This time, I was running back to it to survive.KieranI didn't answer her right away.I looked at her hand instead. It was resting near the edge of the bed, close enough that I could have reached it without stretching, and that small fact bothered me more than the wound pulling under my ribs. She'd stayed the night in a hard chair. She'd stood in that hall and heard the man laugh from the doorway. And now she was standing here asking me for the truth, and I couldn't hide behind the pain without knowing exactly what hiding would make me in her eyes."You should rest," I said. "This can wait until—"She didn't move. She just looked at me, level, and let me hear how thin it sounded.My jaw tightened, and the pain pulled hard enough that I had to breathe around it before I could speak again. She caught that too. Her anger flickered into worry for a second, the way it kept doing, but she didn't soften enough to hand me the exit."Garron," I said.Her expression shifted, because it was the first real thing I'd given her, and even his n
KieranI came back slow, and it wasn't gentle.The pain reached me first, a deep drag under my ribs that pulled with every breath. The bitter smell of silver still hung off the bandages. My wolf was awake under my skin, restless and angry and weaker than it had any right to be, scratching at the inside of me for a fight it couldn't find. The lamps were turned low, and for a moment I didn't know if I was in my own bed or still out on the ridge with the smoke in my eyes.Then I turned my head.Meredith was asleep in the chair beside me.Not gracefully. Not arranged the way a soft bedside wife arranges herself for the picture of it. Her neck was bent at an angle that was going to hurt her when she woke, her hair had come loose from whatever she'd done with it hours ago, and one hand was tucked up near the edge of the mattress, fingers half-curled, like she'd fallen asleep reaching for me and hadn't quite made it. There was still a faint smear of dried blood near her sleeve.My blood.Tha
AlarickThe report came in broken, half a sentence at a time, and I sat in the back of the car with the wine going warm and forgotten in my hand.Silverthorn's north ridge. Fire. Gunfire on the ridge road. The pack had sealed its outer routes inside the hour and nobody on the outside knew the shape of it yet.I should have thought about what it meant. Bloodmoon and Silverthorn and the coalition, the borders, what an attack on the Rogue Alpha's ground did to the balance of every territory around it. That was the Alpha's thought, and it should have come first.It didn't come at all."Was she seen?" I said.A pause on the line. "No, Alpha.""Was she hurt?""We don't—" Another pause. "No one's saying. Not because she's clear. Because no one knows yet."That was the part that got its fingers into me. Not she's hurt. Not she's safe. Just nobody knew, and I was three territories away with a glass of wine in my hand.I called her.It rang. Once, twice, the sound of it going out into a room I
MeredithI was already moving, and there was a roar in my ears, and all I could see was his face.I don't remember deciding to cross the floor. One second I was at the table with Kieran's blood drying on my hand, and the next I was halfway across the hall with my whole body aimed at the man in the doorway. His words were still in me, lodged somewhere they wouldn't come loose. Should've stayed dead at the pass. Kieran was bleeding behind me and this man was laughing about it, and my wolf had gone somewhere past thinking, somewhere I couldn't reach to call her back from.Sera caught me, but not easily.My nails cut the air close enough to his face that he jerked his head back before he laughed at me. A guard got hold of my wrist and twisted it facing it down while Sera locked an arm hard around my waist and took my feet right off the floor, and still I strained against both of them, reaching, and for one long breath the whole receiving hall got to stand there and watch their Luna try
MeredithI was crossing the hall before I could even think.They had him up between two wolves, his weight hung off their shoulders, the blood gone dark and stiff on his clothes and smoke worked into his hair. His head hung so low that even now, this close, some last desperate part of me tried to make him into someone else. Then the firelight caught the scar by his left eye, and everything in me dropped through the floor.I was almost at him before I'd decided to move.A healer's aide stepped into my path with his hands up. "Luna, we need space here, you can't—""Move."It came out of me low and flat and cold, nothing like my own voice, and the boy went white and stepped aside without another word.People turned. I felt them turn but honestly? I didn't care who saw it.Elara reached us, and she saw him properly then.Whatever had been in her face went out of it all at once. The warmth, the dry amusement, all of it just emptied, and what was left underneath was so still and so cold th
MeredithI was still standing where he'd left me, and the yard had already changed around me.Guards crossed it fast. A vehicle door slammed somewhere off to the side. Orders went from one wolf to the next, low and quick. And underneath all of it, where it had no business being, I was in a stupidly good mood, and I hated myself for it. My wolf was stretched out warm and pleased at the back of me, still humming over the kiss like the rest of the world hadn't just gone loud and wrong.He'd left right after. I knew he'd had no choice. It still sat crooked in me.His laugh kept coming back, the way his whole face had changed around it."Pull yourself together," I muttered. "He's gone to a border alarm and you're standing here thinking about his mouth."Someone cleared their throat behind me.I spun around with a sound I'd deny later. "Fuc—"Elara.She stood there with a small, knowing smile, and heat went straight up my face.I stiffened. "Are you going to say something?""I was being ki
MeredithKieran’s words hung in the air like a sentence already passed.We leave for Silverthorn at dawn.The arrangement wasn’t just ink and blood and arguments anymore. I was actually going to leave with him. The reality of it settled over the room like weight pressing down on everyone standing t
MeredithThe foyer went silent after Alarick’s declaration.I felt the weight of the challenge even before I fully understood what it meant. I knew enough about pack customs to know that challenges were serious, binding, and not something thrown around casually.Alarick stood there with his wolf pr
Meredith The front door opened, and one of the servants stepped into the foyer with Alarick behind him, looking like he already regretted letting the Alpha inside. His eyes found me immediately. He barely glanced at Kieran standing beside me. His focus was entirely on me, like I was still his pro
Meredith Kieran Croft. The name wouldn’t stop repeating in my head. Stories came with it, the kind whispered across territories when people thought no one important was listening. The Rogue Alpha. The leader of Silverthorn who’d been accused of betraying the coalition. The man other packs avoi







