LOGINThe next morning, I busied myself by doing my duties as the Gamma in the training ground. I was greeted by the sound of steel clashing, and warriors sparring filled the air while others were preparing for the training by rock climbing. Then, I helped to adjust the strap of the harness of one of my fellow pack warriors and taught them how to do it better.
Since I was still on my vacation and couldn't decide what I was going to do for the next few days, I had decided to help with the training. Not only that, but this was to distract me.
It was hard to forget about what I witnessed with Redmund and Lilith. Until now, I still felt the bitterness gnawing inside me, including how I slept with Commander Lucretius.
In my peripheral vision, Alpha Derrick stood near the training grounds, his arms folded as he observed the warriors' progress. His presence was calm yet commanding. He was one of the people I respected the most.
If it weren't for him approving some of the women here to join the royal military, I wouldn't be in this position. He also admired Commander Rachelle Simon for her bravery, which led him to finally promote a few of the women to be Gammas as well.
When I approached him, he turned to me, his sharp eyes softening with recognition. "Greetings, Alpha," I greeted with a bow.
"Euphyllia." He nodded, acknowledging me.
"What brings you here, Alpha?" I asked politely. As far as I know, he was handling some business in town with our Beta.
Not to judge why he came here to the training ground, but I had a feeling that he wouldn't come here for a reason. I noticed that Beta Rocco wasn't with him. Perhaps, he had an errand to do that made Alpha come here.
He studied me for a moment before speaking. "Two matters. First, patrols found fresh rogue tracks near the eastern ridge. I'd like your assessment. You've always had a keen eye for these things."
I straightened, feeling honored at what he said. "I'll look into it immediately. If they're close, we can't risk them circling back."
I knew that I was feeling down lately, but with Alpha Derrick asking for insight, I felt energized and was quick to make a response. Being a tactical keeper was such a good investment.
Alpha Derrick nodded, satisfied with my answer, but then his expression changed. This time, it looked heavier and cautious. "The second matter is... less simple." He fished out of his breast pocket and pulled out a sealed letter. When he bestowed it on me, my breath caught in my throat upon seeing the stamped with the crimson insignia of the royal military. "This arrived by messenger hawk this morning. It's addressed to you."
Staring at it, my heart was pounding so fast. I was in the middle of my vacation leave, and the fact that I was receiving a letter from the royal military, could this mean that something had happened?
I paused, not wanting to jump to a conclusion, touching the parchment before breaking the seal quickly.
'To all enlisted soldiers under the Royal Military Order:
You are hereby summoned back to the capital at once. Your leave is suspended. Attendance is mandatory.'
My throat tightened. I knew it. A sudden summon meant only one thing... There could be a war. Or perhaps, worse.
Was the issue about the rogue faction that had been causing these past few months as to why we were summoned back?
I folded the letter slowly, trying my best to keep my composure as I met Alpha Derrick's gaze.
I coerced a smile. "I am being summoned back to the royal military as soon as possible, Alpha," I told him the truth. "I might have to leave tomorrow."
With this kind of summoning letter, leaving tomorrow was the best solution.
He nodded. "I understand. And I always support the path you chose, Euphyllia," he said, placing a hand on my shoulder. "Go and make our pack proud."
My chest tightened at his words. I could also feel my eyes getting misty. Alpha Derrick was always supportive of women pursuing different paths, not just staying at home and doing chores. Because he also supported our Luna, Olivia, who had established her own business. He wasn't feeling ashamed about it. That was why my pack members and I love our beloved Alpha and Luna of the Starry Shadows Pack.
I tucked the letter into my satchel and squared up. "I'll handle the rogues at the northern ridge before I leave, Alpha," I promised. "I owe my pack that much."
Alpha Derrick gave a small, approving nod as a small smile plastered on his lips. "Spoken like a true Gamma right there."
I inclined my head before him as a sign of respect for him, even though something was bothering me about the events for today.
Why did it feel like I had lived this before? Why did it feel like they didn't look new to me, but nuisance?
Perhaps, I really should tend to it for closure... Or that was the thing I should call it.
That night, I had prepared myself for the mission Alpha Derrick entrusted to me. I strapped on my gear, tying my hair back as I went to the northern border for the ridge patrol. The memory of Redmund's lips on Lilith's crossed in my mind, and my wolf howled in pain, but I forced it down to forget.
Duty came first, Euphyllia. We must not let this betrayal be a burden!
I dispatched two pack warriors to scout the northern forest. "Circle wide and flank from opposite ends. If you sense anything unusual, don't engage. Report back. Understand?"
They nodded. "Yes, Gamma Euphyllia." With that, they disappeared into the shadows.
I heaved out a sigh, feeling a little better that I got to execute being a gamma here. My fellow Gammas weren't here as they had their own function. I was the only one available at the moment, as to why Alpha Derrick asked me to take care of it.
Minutes passed, and the faint hoot of the owls and the soft breeze from the forest became the music to our ears. I was alerted by our border guards when someone was approaching, and my guy twisted upon seeing only one scout, who was in his wolf form, emerge from the treeline, breathing heavily when he returned to his human form.
Alone.
"Where is Rivan, Ives?" I demanded, maintaining my calm and composure.
Back in my training days as both a Gamma-in-the-making and a soldier of the royal military before choosing the path as a tactical keeper, one lesson was drilled into us above all. It was to maintain composure, understand the situation, and assess it carefully.
Ives shook his head, panic registering in his eyes. "H-He never made it to the checkpoint, Gamma. We separated at the ride, but... but I didn't hear a fight. I-It was like he vanished."
I cussed under my breath. "Stay here." I tapped his shoulder. "If I don't return in thirty minutes, alert Alpha Derrick immediately," I commanded. "That's an order, Ives," I emphasized and glared at him when he was about to protest.
I transformed into my wolf form, my bones starting to crack with no hint of pain as my four paws hit the ground. I reclined my head so my snout could smell the scent of my fellow pack member before I began running through the forest.
As I evaded the trees, the moonlight became my guide as I looked up, seeing how it was shining beautifully. And it was like it was leading me to where my fellow pack warrior was.
That was how I found Rivan leaning against a tree trunk, not far from the ridge. My heart dropped as I rushed to him. "Rivan!" I immediately placed my hand on his wrist, pressing the pulse while my other hand was on his nose to feel the breathing.
"He's unconscious," I mumbled under my breath, sighing in relief. "Thank the Moon Goddess. He's alright."
Then, I checked if he had any signs of wounds or struggle because I found it suspicious. But then, I came to see a familiar rich pink petals, realizing it was a chrysanthemum peeking at his breast pocket.
As I gently pulled, my brows furrowed upon seeing a small rolled parchment tied in the stem. My pulsation hammered as I unfolded.
For one second, I held my breath as I read the words written beautifully.
'It's good that I finally caught your attention. You're even more beautiful up close than only watch you from afar, Lady Euphyllia. But don't worry. I'm a patient person. I'll wait till you're prepared to meet me. And until then, I'll be watching.'
A chill rushed down my spine, making me freeze in my tracks. "What... What the hell is this?" I muttered in disbelief.
For a long while, none of us spoke. The wind continued drifting quietly across the cliffs, carrying with it the endless murmur of the sea below.I lowered my gaze. Everything they had told me... About Elixane. About the Moon Goddess. About the endless cycle of reincarnation. About my own curse.It answered questions I had carried across countless lifetimes.Yet somehow, it also created new ones.I finally understood why every Euphyllia had carried the same name, why every face had been different, and why every death had returned my memories only after I had already lost her.The Moon Goddess had answered my prayer. Just not in the way I had expected.She had granted me another chance. Again and again. But every chance demanded the same sacrifice.My memories.Everything I had learned. Everything I had built. Everything I could have used to save her.I closed my eyes as a bitter smile tugged faintly at my lips. Moon Goddess had granted my wish. I had merely failed to understand the pr
Death was not the end. It never was.When darkness finally swallowed my consciousness within the lake manor, I expected to awaken beside Lady Euphyllia in whatever world awaited beyond mortal life.Instead, I opened my eyes beneath another sky. Another family. Another name. Another life.I remembered nothing. Not the lake manor. Not House Caedex. Not the promise I had whispered beneath the moon.Only an unfamiliar emptiness lingered inside my heart, as though something precious had been taken from me before I had even learned its name.Years passed.Then, she appeared again. It wasn't the same face, same family, or even the same kingdom.Yet, she was still Euphyllia.Always Euphyllia.The moment I heard that name, something inside me stirred with an indescribable familiarity. I could never explain why my eyes sought her within every crowded room, nor why my heart quieted whenever she smiled.I simply knew.She was important.Every lifetime unfolded much the same. She would meet anoth
The journey back to House of Caedex passed in silence. I could no longer remember how many times I had stumbled along the road, nor how many servants had crossed my path. Faces blurred together. Voices faded into meaningless noise. None of them mattered.The only thing I remained aware of was the weight in my arms.Lady Euphyllia rested against my chest exactly as she had countless times before whenever exhaustion claimed her during long rides home.Only this time... she did not wake.I carried her through the front gates without slowing. The servants who happened to witness us stopped where they stood, their greetings dying upon their lips before they could even utter them. One by one, horror spread across their faces until quiet sobs gradually echoed throughout the manor.No one questioned me.No one needed to.The answer lay plainly before them.I entered the drawing room and lowered her carefully onto the sofa nearest the windows. My movements were slow, deliberate, as though any
Sleep refused to come that night.I lay awake long after the manor had fallen silent, my eyes fixed upon the ceiling as though staring at it long enough would somehow reveal the answer I had spent days searching for. Every possibility I considered ended in the same cruel conclusion. If I spirited Lady Euphyllia away before dawn, Lord Esteban would pay the price for our disappearance. If I obeyed Alpha Farley's decree and returned her to the Pack, Lady Euphyllia would be condemned instead.Neither path resembled salvation.For the first time since swearing my oath as her knight, I found myself confronted with a truth I desperately wished to deny—I did not know how to protect her.That helplessness lingered long after I extinguished the lamp beside my bed. Exhaustion eventually settled over my body, heavier than my thoughts, and sometime before dawn, I must have surrendered to it, though I doubted I had truly fallen asleep.A violent crash shattered the silence.My eyes snapped open jus
The return journey felt far heavier than the one before it. Three days. Every beat of my heart counted them down.When I finally arrived at the manor, Lady Euphyllia was waiting exactly where I had left her. She had not touched much of the food. The fire had nearly burned itself out.She looked up the moment I stepped through the door. Her silver-blue eyes searched my face anxiously. "Father?"I removed my cloak before answering. "He's unharmed."The breath she had been holding quietly escaped her. I watched relief wash over her features. Only briefly. Because she immediately noticed something else."There's more." I remained silent. She knew me too well.Slowly, I walked toward the table before setting my gloves down. "Alpha summoned me."The relief disappeared. Her shoulders gradually stiffened. I hated what came next. Every word. Every syllable.And yet... she deserved the truth."They know you're gone."The room became unbearably still."They're searching for you." Her fingers sl
She never asked where I was taking her. Not once.From the moment I wrapped my cloak around her trembling shoulders and helped her onto my horse, Lady Euphyllia simply remained silent.No questions. No destination. No complaints.Only silence.It was the kind of silence that frightened me far more than tears ever could.The journey lasted until the sun had almost disappeared beyond the mountains. The farther we rode from Graveclaw, the quieter she became. At some point, her fingers loosened their grip around my waist.I glanced back more than once, just to make certain she hadn't fallen asleep. But she hadn't. She was simply staring. At nothing. As if the world itself had ceased to exist.When the familiar lake finally appeared beyond the trees, I gently slowed the horse. The manor stood exactly where it always had. It was modest and uilt far from the territories where nobles constantly concerned themselves with politics and alliances.This place had never been meant to impress anyone
Before the advancement ceremony for the military soldiers who had been promoted, we held the mourning ceremony for our lost soldiers.It was brief, solemn, and heavy with the kind of silence that pressed against the chest. Names were read where some unfamiliar, others spoken with a pause that betra
"Lady Euphyllia, you haven't eaten yet."His voice came from the doorway, as though afraid that even sound might bruise me.I didn't turn.The wind outside my balcony was louder than I remembered, clawing at the stone railings, tugging at the curtains like restless fingers. Below, the cliffs stretc
"Come and sit on my face, wifey. Suffocate me with your thighs," Lucretius said, as he lay on the daybed while I was straddling him with my back turned toward him.A gasp escaped from my lips when his hands on my waist dragged my hips to have it rested on his face. My body instantly shivered in del
His answer almost made me throw a fit and punch him. My breath caught. "That's not what I—""I know," he interrupted gently. He stepped closer, close enough that I could feel the warmth of him, the steady certainty in his presence. His fingers lifted my chin, forcing me to meet his eyes. "But it i







