LOGINDMITRY POV
I stare after Caspian’s retreating form, still fuming from the verbal sparring match he coaxed me into having. Or maybe I started it this time. Honestly, it’s hard to tell anymore with every single shitty encounter leading into the next. For the life of me, I wish I knew how to let his crap just roll off my back. Yet somehow, he bends and twists me in all kinds of knots every time he opens his damn mouth, forcing me to engage. He’s the only person who’s ever been able to get a rise out of me. You’d think after four years of playing together, I’d be immune to it by now. The taunts and the jokes and the straight-up insults. But nope, it still works to his benefit. Maybe even easier now, with having to spend so much time around each other. No part of me wants to spend more time than necessary with him. Ending up on the same team with him was so far outside my plans for college, it’s laughable. So imagine my fucking horror when I was getting suited up for my first day of practice freshman year and he walked in. If I was the violent type, heads would have rolled. But we’ve reached the point in this stupid beef where the only thing I truly want is one day where we aren’t at each other’s throats. Who knows, today might be that day. Starting…now. Here’s to hoping, right? Needing to channel this frustration into something a lot more useful, I head out to the rink after the dickhead, knowing one thing’s for certain. I’ll feel better once I’m on the ice. I always do. As far as the first game of the season goes, I can’t complain about how the team is performing as a whole. The chemistry is there, most lines working together seamlessly, both offensively and defensively. The problem is Caspian…and me. We don’t mesh on the ice. Never seem to be on the same page, and sometimes, it feels like we don’t even play on the same team. Then again, With all that time we spent as opponents rather than teammates, I guess it’s a little hard to train ourselves. All I can do is hope that the kinks get worked out as the season goes. Or we figure out how to stay out of each other’s way while being on the ice at the same time. And that appears to be working well, actually. Except that Caspian’s version of staying out of my way entails acting like I don’t exist altogether. And by doing so, he also ignores me when I’m open to take a shot on goal, instead taking it himself—which only ends up being blocked by the goalie—or turning the puck over to the other team before he gets the chance. Either way, we miss out on a chance to score. Something kinda important to, I don’t know, win a game. And it doesn’t just happen once, either. There are multiple occasions over the initial forty minutes of game play, and by the time we’re skating our way off the ice for a second intermission, I’m frustrated beyond belief. And here I thought hockey players outgrew being a puck hog by now. He goes to skate by me after the rest of the team, and in my irritated state, I make an irrational move, grabbing his arm to stop him in his tracks. “What?” he snaps, harsh blue eyes locking with mine. Deep, calm breaths. Don’t bite his head off, just offer a suggestion. It would work except the suggestion comes off a little bit more like an insult. “You’re not the only player on the team who can score, Beckett. You do know that, right?” His nose wrinkles, giving me a look that reads a little something like are you fucking stupid. “Obviously. I’m not a child, Orlov. I know how to share.” I almost laughed at that. We’ll have to agree to disagree, I guess. “Okay, well, pass the damn puck if you see I’m open.” He continues staring at me for a moment, then just skates off to where the rest of the team is heading to the locker room without another word. Okay then… There’s no use getting into it with him here and now, so I just keep my trap shut and follow him to the locker room. But much to my pleasure, I overheard Coach pull him to the side on our way back out for the third period and rip him a new one for not passing the puck when Liam and I are open. “You’re a leader, now,” Coach bit out. “And leaders know sometimes you need to let others step in.” While hearing Coach’s snappy comment made me preen a little, considering I had told de Haas the same fucking thing fifteen minutes ago, it also gut-punched me in the most unexpected way. I’ve always done my best to embody what it means to be a leader and team player, not just playing well and doing my part on the ice but being someone the rest of the team could look to as an example. Something a captain should be. And clearly, everything Caspian is not. The guy’s talented, as much as I hate to admit it. He could make it big— I’m talking NHL big—if he wasn’t such a hothead. Or a raging douche canoe. But his habit for using his fists on the ice as much as his stick makes him more of a liability than an asset. Which is something I thought my mom might’ve realized isn’t the makings of a good captain. Guess I was wrong. If it wasn’t for the hit I took at the end of last season—resulting in a broken collarbone and tear in my rotator cuff—I’d probably be the one leading this team. Hell, every person on the damn team knows it should be me. Yet here we are, with the title I’ve coveted for myself in the hands of the one person who shouldn’t have it. My sworn enemy. But at least Caspian seems to take Coach’s demands at face value, playing a lot more like a team player than a solo act to start off the third period. Even passes the puck off to me on a breakaway, allowing me to run with it and—Out of nowhere, I’m slammed into the boards by one of their defensemen, and the impact sends a jolt of pain lancing through my shoulder. I freeze on impact, the defender taking the puck with ease, leaving me empty-handed and in a panic as the dull ache continues to spread through the entire limb. It takes a couple minutes for the throbbing to subside, so I know the hit probably tweaked a muscle or something, but it’s not any less nerve-wracking. The last thing I need is a re-injury during the most important season of my career. “Pass you the puck, only for you to pull that shit?” Caspian snarls. “Nice. Jackass.” I watch as he takes off down the ice, attempting to stop Ice owls from scoring while irritation vibrates through my chest. Caspian’s inability to keep his fucking mouth shut on the ice is the same reason I was injured. Instead of focusing on his game, he was too busy running his damn mouth to one of the defensemen from Tennessee during the playoffs last season. All games. Until he finally had enough of Caspian's crap. Unfortunately, that happened in the middle of a change on the fly, and instead of slamming Caspian into the boards and breaking his collarbone, it was me. The fucking guy even told me he was going for Beckett, but the shuffling of all our players caused him to lose sight for one second and…well, the rest is history. Yet another thing on the ever-growing list of reasons why this guy is the bane of my fucking existence. I’m about to skate back toward where the rest of the guys are helping Vak defend the net, the forwards for Ice owls on an aggressive offensive attack. That’s when vaks center, Paul , checks Caspian into the wall. Hard. A lot harder than necessary. Meanwhile, the puck is sent sailing to the other end of the rink. Instincts tell me to skate after it, but the whistle blowing catches my attention and drags it back to where Caspian is crumpled to the ground. A hush falls over the arena as everyone holds their breath, something that always happens when a player goes down. Shit. “Give him some room,” one of the officials commands, creating space around Caspian as he pulls his helmet off. When Beckett raises his head, I catch it. The fire in his eyes burning brighter and hotter, just like when he’s about to fight. Caspian lunges from the ground, grabbing Paul around the waist. They both go tumbling back to the ice, and Beckett rips the helmet right from Paul's head as he’s pinned beneath him. I know what’s coming, and from the look on Paul's face, he does too. And with the first punch thrown by Caspian , the hockey arena has turned into a boxing ring. Utter pandemonium breaks out as Caspian continues to land blows on Paul. The team boxes clear, everyone moving to the ice to either help break up the fight or start one of their own. The officials do their best to block anyone from getting closer, meanwhile a couple of our guys attempt to stop Beckett from using the ice owl's center as a punching bag. Paul must get a shot in on Caspian too, because when vak and brax try to pull Caspian away, his eyebrow is split, blood starting to spill down the side of his face. That doesn’t seem to faze him though, because he shoves our guys away from him and surges toward Paul all over again, who’s only just gotten to his feet. Okay, that’s enough. I skate toward the hot-headed idiot, grabbing him by the collar yanking him away from Paul. “What the fuck are you doing?” I snap, my teeth bared as I back himnagainst the glass. From the corner of my eye, I catch Brax and one of the wingers for Ice owls both holding back Paul, doing their best to keep the two from going in for a third round. Meanwhile, Caspian is still seething in my grip. “He had it coming,” He bites, his eyes still two furious balls of red fire. “That might be, but you don’t need to escalate the situation,” I hiss, pushing against the boards harder as he fights against my hold. “You might’ve just cost us the damn game with this shit.” A sneer paints his face. “Nah, Orlov. You’re the one who doesn’t want to play like a team, needing to be the star of the show. Telling Coach I never pass you the puck? Turning it over when I finally do? That’s not a team player.” He scoffs. “If we walk away tonight with a loss, that falls on your shoulders. Not mine.” He’s kidding me, right? I’m the one not wanting to play as a team? I’m the one costing us this win? “You are heavily delusional Beckett” He arches his brow as if to ask but am I? My voice comes out in a snarl. “You’re the one in charge on this ice. Not me. So instead of worrying about what I’m doing, why don’t you start showing some qualities of an actual leader?” His brows clash together, nose wrinkling back in disgust. “I think it’s time you get over the fact that your last name wasn’t enough to get this position for yourself.” Wow. He actually went there. Again. “You’re unbelievable, dude . Classy as fucking ever.” I nod over toward the penalty box. “Enjoy watching me lead this team to victory while you’re in time out.” He glares at me, wiping away the blood from his eyebrow with the back of his hand. I’d hope getting punched in the face might teach him a lesson, but if history has proven anything, it won’t make a damn bit of difference. “Captain material, my ass,” I mutter under my breath as I watch him skate his ass over to the penalty box. Unfortunately, I’m full of shit by saying I’d lead the team to victory. It’s actually the complete opposite of what happens when we get smoked during the five-minute power play, thanks to the captains temper. And to make it worse, his absence on the ice makes it possible for ice owls to score not one, but two goals. Giving them the win. The atmosphere in the locker room afterward depressing you could smell the depression from a mile away, especially since we haven’t lost a home opener in years. Since well before any of us came to play at Silvercrest. After the dressing down we get from Coach in our post-game meeting, most of us keep to ourselves, either jumping in the shower or ice baths to get cleaned up, as if that’s enough to wash away the stench of loss. Knox, who is one of my roommates, sidles up beside me as I redress. Both of us are aware of the way Beckett is banging around at his stall like the temperamental child he is, still unable to get ahold of his rage, though we do our best to ignore it. It’s embarrassing. “Am I actually seeing this?” I mutter more to myself than anyone, but from the way Knox nods in agreement, I know he heard me. “I wish we weren’t.” He pauses, and we trade a quick glance. “We gotta do something about this, man. Or we’re gonna be in for a long season.” “Like what? It’s not like we can just impeach him or something. Hockey isn't a democracy.” “It fucking should be.” He makes a point. I’m at a complete loss here, just like I bet half the team is. Because this sure as hell isn’t the way a captain should act or perform on the ice. Or off it. “If we were still in high school, we’d just have to plant some weed or booze in his locker and he’d be done for.” I sigh, slipping into my shoes. “If only it were that easy now.” “You’re telling me,” Knox grumbles, falling in step beside me as we head for home. “But we’ll get him outta here. One way or another.”CASPIAN POVI come harder than I have in my entire fucking life.I come with the taste of him still on my lips.Not allowing myself to linger in a blissful, post-orgasmic state, I make a move to clean up the remnants of my release still coating my hand and stomach, all the while a low, churning feeling settles low in my stomach.One I recognize as frustration.Climbing back into bed, I yank the sheets over me and slam my head against my pillow with enough force, I'm able to feel something hard beneath it.My lucky puck.My superstition.I shift, shoving my arm beneath my pillow until I find it. My fingers travel along the cool, smooth rubber disk, allowing the texture to calm the countless overwhelming emotions ebbing and flowing through me.Taking a deep breath, I fiddle with it more until my racing heart subsides into slow, steady beats. And it works. Soon enough, I'm relaxed again. As much as I can be, focusing on the things I know and have control over rather than all the unanswer
CASPIAN POVThere are days I really wish I was less of a manwhore.It's not often, seeing as the benefits far outweigh the drawbacks when everyone involved is on the same page.But today?As I'm shoving my way out the door of the frat house?Well, let's just say I wish I would've mastered the art of self-control. And willpower.My only saving grace in this whole scenario is that I bolted before Dmitry had a chance to: A, make himself presentable again. And B, follow me. Not that I think he'd follow me, necessarily. From the way he stared at me somewhere between pure bliss and abject horror when I told him he could get a repeat if he played well tomorrow, I don't think following me would've been high on his list of things to do.Unless it were to kick my ass for the stunt I just pulled. Either way, I wasn't about to stick around and find out once his orgasm high wore off.Fuck, what the hell was I thinking?I wasn't. That's the problem.My brain was all over the goddamn place. The shit
DMITRY POVThere are exactly three things I know for certain right now.One: Caspian Beckett just blew my mind in a frat house bathroom.Two: I let him.Three: I am absolutely, completely, irreversibly screwed.I stand with my back against the vanity, pants still undone, the air thick and stale around me, and I cannot move. Some part of my brain is still catching up to what just happened. The rest of it is stuck on one humiliating truth I cannot talk my way out of.It was the best orgasm of my life.Not good. Not great. The best. The kind that hollows you out and leaves you blinking at the ceiling wondering where your name went for a solid forty-five seconds. And the worst part? The genuinely catastrophic part?It was *him.*Caspian. My rival. The one person at Silvercrest University I have spent three years perfecting the art of hating. The guy who gets under my skin faster than anyone I have ever met, who looks at me like I am a problem he is bored of solving, who said *I'll believe
DMITRY POVMy fingers latch on to his shoulder, and I attempt to push him down. "My dick, not my throat, Beckett. It's time to put your money where your mouth is."His nostrils flare slightly in challenge as two rows of white teeth come out in a hellish grin. Then he drops to his knees on the tile floor and leans forward, not a flinch or pause in sight as his tongue flicks out against the blunt head of my cock, giving him his first taste of me.But instead of easing into it, he goes all Caspian on me and dives in without a second thought of what he's doing or the repercussions of his actions. And for once, I'm not at all upset about it."Holy shit," I groan, counting backward from ten to keep my shit together. It works, but only just, because he's using the perfect amount of pressure and technique to have me primed and ready to explode in less than a minute flat.Which begs the question, has he done this before?For whatever reason, the thought doesn't sit right with me.I'm not able
DMITRY POV"What're you do—"The sudden shove he gives me after the door falls closed behind us sends me stumbling backward blindly. My heart damn near leaps out of my chest while I try to stabilize myself in the dark, nameless room. Which becomes infinitely harder to do when the light is flicked on, blinding me altogether while I grab on to the edge of something.A sink.Bathroom. We're in the fucking bathroom.Fantastic."What the hell, Beckett?" I snap, blinking to help my eyes adjust. When I look over toward the door, I'm even more irritated to find him leaning against it with a smug smile on his face. He says nothing, just keeps on fucking grinning. Like he's enjoying this.But that can't be right, because Caspian doesn't enjoy anything unless it involves a fist fight, puck bunnies, or his stupid fucking motorcycle.None of those things are involved while he's locked in a bathroom with me.Unless...This isn't about to turn into a bathroom brawl, is it?His brow quirks slightly, h
DMITRY POV"Shouldn't you be at home, golden boy?" Caspian said lips curved up in a smirk ,I could tell he was rage baiting me.I don't take the bait on the golden boy thing. Not tonight. "Babysitting duty," I mutter, nodding toward the dance floor where Rafael and Enzo have become completely indistinguishable from each other. "Roommate needed to get his dick wet."For the first time since he planted himself next to me, I feel Caspian's eyes move to my face. Reading me. That particular focused attention he has that I've never been able to decide if I find more annoying or unsettling."What?" I say, turning to meet his gaze."Nothing." He looks back at the crowd. "Just you. Judging the people you call your friends.""I'm not judging him.""Sure you aren't.""I'm not," I say, and it's mostly true. I'm not judging Rafael for wanting to hook up. I'm judging his selection. There's a difference.Caspian's expression makes it clear he finds this distinction unconvincing."Save the bullshit,"
DMITRY POVWhy I'm at a frat party after the ass-kicking we just received on the ice — for the fifth time this season is genuinely beyond me.I sure as hell don't want to be here. Not after the way I played like absolute garbage tonight, and definitely not when we have another game tomorrow where
DMITRY POV The second I pull up to the townhouse, I already know what's waiting for me on the other side of that door.Chaos. Loud, obnoxious, never-ending chaos.Which, on any other night, I could probably stomach. But we just lost again and the only thing I want right now is the inside of my b
CASPIAN POV The locker room was empty,looking so serene and oddly fucking quiet.That was the first thing I noticed immediately when I walked in was the smell of ice and sweat hanging in the air like something permanent, something I find comfort in. My gear was off. So was Dmitry's.I don't rememb
CASPIAN POVHis statement snaps me back to reality as the floor seems to fall from beneath my feet.This is exactly the kind of thing I was hoping to avoid. But here we are,my heart crawling into my throat at hearing the consequences all the same.“Suspend me for something I didn’t do?”His lips fo







