LOGINAthena
“I should be the one asking that.” His eyes narrowed,
I racked my brains for answers, my brain felt foggy, but bits and pieces of last night's encounter came back.
I shot up from the bed instantly, a whimper escaped my lips, I hadn't felt it cause the bed supported me but now I did.
My back ached, my entire body felt sore and incredibly tender, heat crept up my cheeks.
“I won't blame you for what happened last night, considering I pounced on you. Name your price.” I mumbled the words out, my heart sinking with each word.
Oh the scandal this could turn out to be, to think I sacrificed my precious gift to my mate on a whim.
Hold on, my eyes glimmered as they locked on him, I took a step forward, limping slightly, “bastard” I cursed under my breath.
“Sorry” he replied with a sheepish grin,
I rested once more on the bed, focusing my strength and waiting to feel that energy or even the scent from last night. I needed a confirmation that it wasn't merely a figment of my imagination.
He propped himself upwards, just staring, maybe for a reaction or something but he was quiet, lost in thought.
“Not much of a talker huh?” I laughed nervously, the air was already awkward enough.
He sighed, then without a word stood in all his glory, walking into the restroom to freshen up I presume.
“You're not a pervert, you're not a pervert” I chanted like a mantra, leaving my eyes shut before my eyes wandered to unwanted places.
Just I felt his presence cross by, his skin brushing against mine, the spark, the electricity, it all cracked to life, roaring fiercely against my heart.
My eyelid flung open, I watched his retreating back, traced it down to his spine, his skin was ridiculously flawless, except for the snake-like tattoos that covered his back and the one that filled his biceps down to his forearm.
Something warm bloomed in my chest. Finally, I had my mate. I can prove them all wrong. Someone would finally want me. Oh, I can't wait to see that smug smiles freeze from all their faces when I finally present my mate to the court.
The shower stopped, then he stepped out, a white towel wrapped around his waist, I trailed his movement with my eyes, he threw on briefs and a handless black singlets, flexing his features.
“Done drooling?” His tone sounded bored, flat, a smirk tugged on his lips.
I snapped out of it, “I wasn't drooling” I scoffed.
“Yeah right” he eyed me, his expression screaming, I'll be a fool to believe that.
“Take a shower, then come out, let's talk,” the broody expression on his face was back.
It dimmed his features, my eyes which were locked on his face, trailed down, from his thick lashes to his silver eyes, perfect jawline, nose straight and pointed out, to his red plushy lips.
Was he even real? I wondered.
“And yet she's not drooling.” Amusement flickered past his eyes, he looked like he was withholding a chuckle.
“I wasn't” I snapped.
“Of course princess. Whatever you say.”
My heart skipped, how did he know?
“Take a shower, wear one of my clothes from the rack back there. Then come out to the outer room. We should talk about this.” He said and walked out before I could throw a comeback.
I rolled my eyes, limping to the bathroom, he put me in this position and couldn't even be bothered to help me.
Wait?
I took a look at my surroundings, everything was foreign but familiar, I was in one of the guest rooms. How come I didn't notice? I would have loved to see the expression on Sara's face once she realized I wasn't available.
The bath had already been prepared, the water warm, with a fragrant scent drifting into the air.
I smiled, “okay. I take it back, he's not a bastard. Maybe has a little difficulty with showing care, but at least he's nice.” I mumbled.
It wouldn't be so bad to have a mate that cared about me after all and not one that was bothered with how I look.
I went through my business quickly, feeling fresh once I stepped out, an outfit was surprisingly laid out for me.
I picked up the shorts, a quiet giggle slipping through my lips, “life with Mr grumpy doesn't seem so bad after all.”
I stopped just at the door, the shorts hugging my waist perfectly, a muffled sound came through the door.
Curious I placed my ears on it, straining to hear what was going on,
“Is she your mate?” A foreign voice asked.
“Yes.” My mate replied bluntly.
I smirked, “take that stranger” I did a short victory dance, I have had a million ways of meeting my mate play out in my head, but none played out like this. With him accepting me and declaring me his mate.
“You can't possibly accept her, Rowan, aside from the fact that she's on the bigger side you're already engaged. It's bad enough you cheated right under the King's nose, this could destroy everything we've worked for” the strange voice was slightly high pitched now, with panic at its edge.
“Just say it out Lake, she's fat. I know,” my mate who I now identify as Rowan said flatly, seems like that was just a default setting.
“You can't seriously be thinking of completing the mate bond with her, what of the engagement.”
“Let me think, Lake,” he groaned. I could hear the frustration in his voice.
“Well you have to make your decision now, I'm sorry, but we're out of time and options, this needs to be dealt with and under wraps before the meeting with the king.”
Why were they talking about dealing with what happened between my mate and I as if it were something shameful.
My hands flew to my neck, my brows furrowed, he didn't complete the mating.
“I never said anything about having her as my partner. I'll pay her off to go leave somewhere with someone more her class.” He replied coldly.
Something hard cracked in my chest, as the words dropped.
“He can't be serious right?”
RowanHe was already in the east hall when I arrived.Sitting at the far end of the table like he owned it, one ankle crossed over his knee, a glass of something dark in his hand at eleven in the morning. That was Rurik. Always already there, always already comfortable, always making sure you noticed both things.We shared a father. That was the beginning and end of what we shared.He looked up when I walked in, smiled with all his teeth. “Brother.”“Rurik.” I pulled out a chair on my side of the table and sat. Didn’t pour a drink. Kept my hands visible and still, an old habit from negotiation training. Show them your hands, show them nothing’s coming, let them relax just enough.“Congratulations are in order I hear.” He swirled his glass. “The runaway princess has returned. And with a gift.”“Watch your mouth.”He raised both hands, the picture of innocence. “I only meant the child. A daughter, yes? She has your eyes, they say.”“Who says.”“People talk.” He shrugged. “Palaces talk.
AthenaI made a mistake.Not a catastrophic one, nothing that couldn’t be managed, but I let my guard down for approximately forty minutes in the east grounds watching my daughter befriend a wolf, and now I was paying for it by standing in my room thinking about what Rowan had said.I’m bad at this. I’m working on it.Six years ago he wouldn’t have said that. Six years ago he wouldn’t have crouched down to her level in a corridor and answered questions about wolves for twenty minutes with the patience of someone who actually had it and not just the performance of it.People changed. I knew that, had lived it myself, had changed so completely from the girl who’d broken a bond on her knees spitting blood that sometimes I barely recognized her.That didn’t mean I had to do anything with the information.I changed out of the east grounds clothes and sat at the small desk by the window with my sketchbook. Drawing helped me think, always had, my brain settled when my hands were doing someth
RowanVera had apologized.I hadn’t told her to. Lake had, apparently, on his own initiative, which meant I was going to have to have a conversation with him about overstepping, except that the outcome had been fine so the conversation was going to be difficult to frame correctly.I’d watched it happen from across the dining hall. Athena walking over, sitting down, the whole thing done quietly and without spectacle, no raised voice, no scene. Just her, a chair, and whatever she’d said that had made Vera’s face do what it did.Then Vera crossing the room twenty minutes later to apologize and Athena accepting it like she was signing off on a document.Lake slid into the seat across from me. “She handled that well.”“I saw.”“Better than expected.”“I expected her to handle it well.” That wasn’t entirely true but I wasn’t going to say that out loud.“Rurik wants a meeting.” Lake said, moving on with the efficiency of someone who knew when not to linger on a topic.“Of course he does.”“T
AthenaI found the dining hall on my own.Took two wrong turns and ended up in what I think was a weapons storage room before I got my bearings, but I found it. Small victories.It was early enough that I’d expected it to be mostly empty. It was not mostly empty. Maybe thirty wolves seated at various points across the long tables, the low hum of conversation that stopped in sections as I walked in, like someone turning down a volume dial one notch at a time.I kept walking.Chase was behind me, Amara’s hand in mine, and I could feel her looking around with that wide open curiosity of hers that hadn’t yet learned to be self conscious. I envied her that.I found a spot at one of the side tables, not the head, not the far end, somewhere in the middle that said I’m not hiding but I’m not performing either. Chase sat across from me, Amara beside me, and I picked up the menu card on the table and looked at it like thirty pairs of eyes weren’t doing what they were doing.Food came. We ate. A
AthenaThe east wing was nice.I hated that it was nice.I’d been prepared to find something to complain about, some deliberate slight in the room choice, something that would confirm what I already believed about being here. Instead I walked into a suite with high ceilings and wide windows overlooking a garden, furniture that was heavy and dark and clearly expensive, and a connecting room that had already been set up for a child.Amara walked into it and stopped dead.There was a small bed with carved wolves on the headboard. A window seat. A shelf with books on it that someone had clearly placed there recently because the spines were too neat, too deliberate.“Mama.” Her voice came out hushed.“I see it.”“There are wolves on my bed.”“I see that too.”She turned to me with an expression that was trying very hard not to be delighted and failing completely. Then she ran and threw herself on the bed and the stuffed rabbit flew somewhere and I stood in the doorway watching her and felt
RowanShe arrived on the third day.I knew before anyone told me. Something shifted in the air around midday, some low pull at the base of my skull, faint enough that I could have ignored it if I’d wanted to. I didn’t examine it too closely. Just set down the report I’d been reading and looked at the window.Lake appeared in the doorway twelve minutes later. “She’s at the gate.”“I know.”He opened his mouth.“Tell the council the meeting is postponed.” I stood. “And keep Rurik away from the east wing.”“He’s going to ask questions.”“Let him ask.” I straightened my jacket. “Just make sure he asks them from a distance.”The courtyard was half full when I got there. Word moved fast in a palace, it always had, and I could see the staff finding reasons to be near windows, near doorways. I ignored them. Walked to the front steps and stood there with my hands clasped behind my back and waited.The car came through the gate and stopped.Chase got out first. I’d known about Chase, had him lo
AthenaDami cried.I hadn’t expected that. Dami was twenty two and sharp-mouthed and acted like nothing touched her, and she stood in the middle of the emptied shop with her arms folded and tears running down her face like she wasn’t even aware they were happening.“Stop it.” I said.“I’m not doing
RowanLake wouldn’t stop talking.That was the thing about him, he filled silence like it personally offended him, and the drive back from the human quarter had been forty minutes of him cycling through every possible angle of what had just happened while I sat in the passenger seat and said nothin
Six years.I had turned every stone in three kingdoms, burned through favors I’d spent a decade accumulating, and she had been here. Here. In the human quarter, behind a glass door with her name stenciled in gold ink like she hadn’t dismantled two kingdoms with her disappearing act.I stood across
Athena“Useless”“She's a disgrace to the royal family,”“A wolf less hybrid” “She caused the death of her mother.”“A curse.”“A fat one.”Nameless faces whispered around me, drowning me in their curses.“No, No, I didn't, I'm not” I protested weakly against the sea of voices drowning out mine.







