LOGINHAZEL
In the end, I decided not to go downstairs for breakfast. Am I hungry? Yes. I really, really want to eat something. But going down there… I decide it’s not worth it. So, I just stay on the bed, lazy and full of thoughts I can’t quite name. By the afternoon, Angela walks into my room. Like I said, she’s not the talkative type. She goes straight for the laundry basket, cleaning quietly, deliberately avoiding my eyes. That’s her signal; no eye contact means I don’t like this. When she's in a good mood, she'll give A soft “Good morning,” maybe, or a dry comment about the weather. But today, nothing. Just silence. So I don’t talk either. I ignore her because, honestly, I’ve got my own shit to deal with. She’s almost at the door when she stops. “You didn’t come downstairs for breakfast,” she says finally, still facing the hall. “I wasn’t angry,” I mutter. “Well, you didn’t eat last night either,” she continues. I take a deep breath. “Maybe I wasn’t angry then, too.” “So what now? You’re going to starve yourself?” she asks, her tone sharp but still soft enough that I know she cares. “Maybe,” I say flatly. She hums under her breath, that little sound that means she’s annoyed but done arguing, and walks out. I lie there, seething. Angry at her, at me, at everything. Five minutes later, the door opens again. Angela walks back in, carrying a tray of food. Still no words. She sets it down on the bedside table, turns around, and leaves. Door closes. I smile. This is kind of our thing. When I first got here, Axel practically handed me over to her, my warden, my caretaker, my reluctant friend. Her job was to make sure I was alive, fed, and not trying to hurt myself. As if. We have this push and pull between us. She pretends she doesn’t care. I pretend I don’t notice. But this, her bringing me food, is her way of saying, Eat, idiot. And because I’m so damn hungry, I do. I grab the tray, sit on the bed, and finish everything. Then I lean back, sighing hard. There isn’t much for me to do in this bedroom. I’m allowed to go outside, of course, only inside the property—where there are “enough people to watch over me.” It's for my protection, Axel told me...... Oh my God, I could laugh. I have books I can read, though. I asked him once if I could get a television in here, and he said— No. That was it. If I want to watch a movie, I have to go downstairs to the movie room. But I’m not going out there. Not today. Not after what happened. So, I pick up the novel I’ve been nibbling at for days and decide to finish it. It’s thick, beautifully written, and for a while, I get lost in it. The story becomes my escape, the only one I have left. By the time it gets dark, the automatic lights flicker on, but I’m still buried in the pages, my body curled up on the bed, my mind far away. Then—knock, knock. I pause. I already know who it is. Angela, probably to remind me about Dinner. “Come in,” I say weakly. But then the door opens, and it’s not Angela. It’s Axel. The moment I see him, I freeze. Seeing him again after yesterday, after that.....my body goes still. He doesn’t look like the same man. The one from last night had been raw, unguarded, at the edge of control. This one? He’s perfect. Every button fastened. Not a strand of hair out of place. He looks like the man I know and hate....handsome, composed, calculating. And that perfection makes him cold. I swallow hard, my gaze darting anywhere but at him. I can't meet his eyes for some reason.... He slides his hands into his pockets and exhales, the sound reluctant. “I was told you didn’t have breakfast this morning.” I don’t answer. “Angela also told me you refused to go down for lunch. Apparently, you haven’t eaten since yesterday night.” His voice is calm, clipped. “Would you mind telling me what the problem is?” “Nothing,” I say. “I just didn’t feel like eating.” He studies me for a moment, jaw flexing. “I thought we were over this phase where you throw tantrums and refuse to eat.” He’s still standing there, all calm and in control. I pick up my novel and open it again, my silent way of saying, Leave me alone. Suddenly, the book is snatched right out of my hands. Before I can react, Axel throws it behind him. It hits the wall with a sharp thud and collapses to the floor. “Hey! I was reading that!” I snap. The anger I always feel for him is back. It precedes every other feeling and doubt after what happened between us last night. He gives me that cold, almost mocking smile. “I was waiting for you for half an hour, so we could have dinner.” “Not my problem,” I shoot back, my voice sharp. “You had one rule,” he says quietly, calm. “I have a lot of rules,” I fire back. “Like the one where I can’t even step outside this property unless you’re there? Isn’t that something?” Now we’re locked eye to eye. Anger and heat between us, breathing the same air. He nods slowly, as if he understands, but I know that look. It’s not understanding. He breaks eye contact and glances at his watch. “You have five minutes. I want you dressed.” For a split second, my heart skips. Is this it? Has he had enough? Is he finally going to tell me to leave? Maybe, just maybe.....he’s going to let me go. A girl can dream, right? Right. As he walks toward the door, I ask behind him, “Are you finally letting me go?” He doesn’t answer. He just repeats, calm and clipped, “Five minutes, Hazel.” Then he closes the door behind him so quietly that I almost wish he’d slammed it. At least then I’d know he felt something. I walk to the closet and run my hand across the clothes. He goes all out with me, gives me my own personal shopper, and new deliveries every month. There are clothes here I’ve never worn, clothes I would never wear. Sequins, silk, lace, all of it feels like costumes for a life that isn’t mine. I touch the fabrics and ask myself, Am I really going to do what he wants? And then I decide, no. I’m not. I go back to the bed and sit there, defiant. And then I think, You know what? I can do one better. So I return to the closet and pull out my fluffy teddy pajamas, the soft, cozy kind that make you feel like nothing bad can touch you. I slip them on, crawl under the covers, and start turning off the lights. That’s when the door swings open and Axel walks in. The moment he sees me lying there under the covers, his eyes narrow, and I can literally see the anger growing there, slowly. “What the fuck do you think you’re doing?” he asks, a little too calmly. “I’m sleeping,” I say simply. “It’s my bedtime.” “I told you to get dressed.” “I did.” I pull the blanket down to reveal the fuzzy pajamas with a bright smile.HAZEL There was so much hope."I don't want to ruin tonight," I admitted quietly."I don't either." He took another careful step toward me. "Then let's not ruin it."His voice was almost tender."We don't have to prove anything. We don't have to rush..... We can just be together tonight."I searched his face. The sincerity in his eyes made it so much harder to untangle the knot in my chest. Part of me wanted to throw my arms around him, and another Part of me wanted to cry. Because I loved him. I really did, and yet... That small voice inside me still hadn't gone away.It wasn't screaming, and it wasn't even warning me. It was only whispering....Slow down. I couldn't explain why; I couldn't justify it. I only knew it was there.I looked at him for a long moment before taking a slow breath."I..." I began."Don't overthink it." He whispered, pulling me towards him. "I know you're scared because it's your first time....""I....""Shhh..."His arms settled around me as he rested his for
HAZEL But the truth was... I wasn't sure I understood anything. I simply didn't know what else to say.He leaned forward and kissed my forehead."So..." He smiled. "Are we okay?"I looked into his eyes. This was Harris, the man I loved, the man who had risked everything to get me out."Yeah," I said quietly. "We're okay."His entire face brightened."Good."He stood, wrapped me in a hug, and took my hand."So," he asked with a grin, "what are we doing today? Watching a movie?"The rest of the day, he seemed determined to erase the memory of the other night. He made me laugh, he teased me, he cooked with me, and he held my hand whenever he could.At first, it was difficult. I caught myself watching him more closely than before, trying to understand what had happened between us. But little by little... The familiar Harris came back, or at least, I believed he had. By evening, I'd almost forgotten about the argument entirely.That night, when we went to bed, Harris wrapped an arm around
HAZEL Our eyes locked, but neither of us spoke. The silence seemed to stretch on forever.Then, all at once, something in him changed. The tension slowly left his shoulders, and His expression softened. Almost as though he had realised he'd gone too far. He let out a slow breath before sitting back down on the bed, but his posture had lost its edge."Relax," he said quietly.He rubbed a hand over his face."You just need to clear your mind."His voice was gentle again."This is it, babby." A faint smile touched his lips. "This is us moving forward."I wanted to believe him. I really wanted to. But in that moment... Something I couldn't name... Something I couldn't explain... Stopped me. It wasn't him.At least... I didn't think it was. He watched me quietly, waiting for me to say something. "I'm sorry," I whispered."I don't want you to apologise."His voice was calm again. Almost too calm."I just want you to trust me.""I do trust you.""Then why are you doing this to me?"I lowe
HAZEL I looked away instinctively. But, of course, Harris wouldn't let that go. His hand came to my chin, gently trying to turn my face back toward him. When I didn't cooperate, he simply pulled me closer and captured my mouth in another hard kiss. "I can't wait to make you mine," he whispered against my lips. "I've been thinking about this for months." He finally pulled back and began getting rid of the rest of his clothes. I didn't know if it was because I was still coming down from everything I'd been feeling over the past few weeks, or because my mind was finally catching up with my body. I just knew that what was happening between us didn't feel fair. Not to him. Not to me. It wasn't that I didn't want him. I did. I thought my body was ready; it had certainly responded to him. It was my mind that wasn't. I knew that once we got out of hiding... once I stopped feeling like I was living as a captive again... once I stopped living a life that, in so many ways, reminded me of
HAZELI could see it in his eyes. The longing. The desire. The hunger for me... for my body.This was the night we were finally going to become one after everything we'd been through.And the thing was...I wasn't sure I was really ready for it.But then again...This was Harris.I loved him.He had risked everything for me. He had been so patient, so understanding. He had never once pressured me before.I looked up at him as he said quietly,"Now... panties off. Slide them off."He held my gaze without blinking."...And spread your legs.""I want you open for me."I didn't make a move.Neither did Harris.He simply stood there watching me.The silence stretched between us.A strange discomfort settled inside me.I couldn't name it.I nodded slowly and pushed myself up onto my elbows."Harris..."He tilted his head slightly."Yes?"My throat felt tight as I searched his face, trying to find the right words."I..." I started, then stopped.His gaze sharpened just a fraction.I swallowe
HAZELI couldn't help it. I laughed, and He laughed along with me."There she is," he said softly. "I've missed that laugh.""I laugh all the time," I argued."Not like that." He tucked a strand of hair behind my ear. "That one... That one's my Hazel.""I missed you," he added.Something warm settled inside my chest."I've missed you, too.""I know we've been together. But... I've missed us." His smile faded into something more tender. "I've missed us a whole fucking lot....."For a while, neither of us spoke. We simply stood there, forehead to forehead. His arms around my waist and mine around his neck."I love you," he whispered.The words came so naturally, so effortlessly. Like he'd been holding them back all day.I smiled before answering."I love you too."His eyes closed for a second, as though hearing those words had permitted him to finally relax. When he opened them again, he smiled."A few more weeks. Then we're gone. No more hiding and no more running. Just you and me, bab
HAZEL“Enough.” Natasha's voice snaps. “You don’t get to talk back. Not now.”"Fine. I am not here to talk back at you, but you have to see things on my end too...""Are you here to apologise or make me understand your selfish side of the events?"I clamp my mouth shut immediately. Little mouse. L
HAZEL“Maybe you didn’t,” Axel replied coolly, “but you live under my roof. You follow my rules.”“And whose decision was that?” I shot back. “Did I want to live here? Did I want to follow your rules?”I stepped forward without realising it.“I haven’t followed a single one of your rules,” I said.
HAZELI stop chopping and listen.... Silence.I wipe my hands on a towel and walk to the kitchen door. I try the handle. It doesn’t open. My smile fades. I go to the front door. I pull Harder. It doesn’t open. I rush to the back door, the one that leads outside.... Locked.That’s when the thoughts
HAZELStill nothing. Axel still doesn't say a word.I push myself back against the bed, using it to steady myself, and look at him properly now. His face isn’t twisted with rage. There’s no cruelty written there, no madness. He looks composed. Controlled. Unaffected....That scares me more than ang







