LOGINLeon is the pastorās perfect son quiet, obedient, and pure or at least that is what everyone thinks. But Behind closed doors, Leon lives a dangerous secret life as the anonymous author of scandalous BL novels⦠and the inspiration for his filthy stories is none other than Damian, his own schoolās beloved golden boy. But when Leonās darkest secret is abruptly im the open, someone starts blackmailing him with humiliating evidence and now his carefully controlled life begins to fall apart The worst part? The one person who seems to know everything⦠is Aaronāthe campus bad boy with a reputation for breaking hearts. Now Leon is trapped in a dangerous game of secrets, desire, and obsession. Because the more Aaron pushes him, the more Leon realizes something terrifying: The bad boy who ruined his life might be the one person he canāt stop craving. And once Aaron decides he wants something⦠He never lets it go.
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The room was lit up by the steady light from the laptop screen.
āDamian slammed his huge, veiny cock into me...ā
I chewed on my bottom lip as I typed the words with shaking fingers, my breaths coming out fast in the silent room.
My heart was racing so hard, it felt like it'd burst out of my chest at any second.
Below the draft, the comment section was a chaotic hive of digital lust.
Marlo18: God, just imagining the Golden Boyās hard length makes me lose it.
SinnersSanctuary: Author, can you please answer this, and tell the truth... have you actually slept with Damian? This feels too real.
āIf only,ā I whispered to myself as I read that, my voice a breathless whisper in the cramped bedroom.
I leaned back, caressing the heavy bulge in my crotch before slipping my right hand slipping into the waistband of my stiff, black trousers.
The fabric was like a cage against my erect dick.
The heat of it was almost too much.
Fuck, I was harder than a steel pole.
I closed my eyes, letting the blue light of the monitor burn against my eyelids. In my mind, the pristine, saintly image of Damian began to shift.
That wasn't the image I needed right now. I didn't want the boy who helped old ladies cross the street. I wanted the monster Iād created on my page. I wanted a rough palm sliding over my skin, bruising the so-called purity my father prided himself on.
I was a Pastorās son. The melted iron that was supposed to be twisted into a shape that pleased a God I was terrified of.
āUh,ā I groaned deeply as I squeezed the thick mushroom head of my dick, spreading the precum over the throbbing length before slipping it out completely out of my pants.
Everything else blurred as my hands began to move. The guilt, father's warnings, the fear.
They all became nothing as the tightness beneath my sternum grew.
I hissed out in pleasure as my hand moved faster, desperately.
Pausing, I quickly reached into my drawer for a lotion, almost knocking my diary down in my haste.
The added smoothness felt like heaven, and the plop-plopsounds of my hand sliding up and down my cock, drew me even closer to the edge.
āOh fuck,ā I groaned. āYesā¦fuck, ohh yeah.ā
I was so close, so close to the feverish pitch where the smell of the room transformed into the musky scent of a locker room.
āDamian,ā I moaned, feeling my dick jerk once as the release built, making my balls feel heavy.
āLeon? What are you doing in there?ā a voice boomed from outside my door, followed by a knock and then the jangling of the doorknob.
And just like that, that voice broke both the fantasy and my soul.
āWhat did I say about locking yourself in your room, Leon?! Privacy is a breeding ground for the devil!ā He jangled the handle again, āopen this door or I will.ā
The baritone voice of my father was the bane of my existence. I can't even count how many times I'd heard that same pitch right before receiving the beating of my life.
In those moments when he hit me, it was extremely hard to believe that this was the same man who left a congregation of three hundred every Sunday.
My heart stopped, and my blood turned to ice.
Swiftly, I slammed the power button with the heel of my hand. The monitor died with a soft whine, plunging the room into a tomb-like darkness.
āOh Lord,ā I panicked, scrambling and fumbling with my zipper. My fingers felt numb, my movements sloppy due to the release I didn't get.
I was trying to tuck away the still hard and pulsing evidence of my sin, when the was pushed open.
Das stood in the doorway, like an angel of punishment.
The faint scent of church incense trailed behind him, clashing violently with the smell of my own sweat and arousal.
āYou have exactly twenty seconds to explain yourself,ā he muttered flatly, glancing at his watch.
āIām... I was studying for a quiz,ā I stammered, keeping my head down as I stared unblinkingly at the scuffed floorboards. My heart was thumping so hard I was sure he could see my shirt vibrating.
āIs that so?ā Dad stepped into the room. Each footfall felt like a hammer blow. āThen why did you lock your door for that?ā
āI wanted to be able to concentrate, sir,ā I answered, trying to keep my voice steady.
āAnd why is your light off?ā
The light switch flipped as the question left his mouth. I flinched against the sudden brighteness that flooded the room.
āHard work is a virtue, son. But the mind must not wander in the dark,ā dad added calmly.
That calmness never meant well for me though.
āI'm sorry, father.ā I swallowed hard, holding my hands firmly down in front of me to hide the bulge.
Stupid thing had a mind of its own, because why couldn't it recognise the danger I was in and justā¦go soft?
Dad didn't say anything else as he moved closer. Then he reached out, his hand coming to rest on the warm plastic of the computer tower. I felt the air leave my lungs. If he turned it back onā¦he merely had to read the first few lines and I would be toast.
āYou look flushed,ā he noted, his voice turning cold. It was the tone he used right before the ādeliveranceā sessions. āThe flesh is a rebellious servant, Leon. It craves the slavery of desire. It forgets the dignity of the spirit.ā
āI was just... the math problems were really difficult,ā I lied, the words tasting like ash on my tongue. āI have been using the computer for a long time trying to solve them, and that's why it's stillā¦warm.ā
āHm,ā dad nodded. āSo I take it you weren't looking at pictures and videos of naked women?ā
āNo sir,ā I answered.
And that was extremely true, because I had never looked at those.
I was much more inclined to look at naked pictures of men, and I knew this from a young age.
Dad must have seen the truth on my face, or at least hints of it. Because his hand left the computer and moved to his waist. The metallic clink of his belt buckle being unnotched echoed in the silence, sending a cold trail down my spine.
āOn your knees,ā he commanded.
LEON'S POVThe library was my favourite sanctuary.As usual, it was speckled with dust motes and muffled silence. It was the only place where I could truly breathe.I sat in my usual secluded corner at the back, the screen of my laptop casting a pale, bluish glow against my face as my fingers rapidly danced over the keyboard.I was deep in the vibe of the story, in the way the words flowed, the descriptions of skin and desireā¦things that Iād never actually dared to speak aloud.āI knew I'd find you here.āThe voice came out of nowhere just as a shadow stretched across my keyboard.I slammed the lid of my laptop shut so fast my heart skipped a beat, my blood turning to ice. I looked up, prepared to stammer out some excuse about homework or notes, only to find Damian standing there.He wasn't wearing his usual unreadable expression, and he wasn't surrounded by his group of tittering minions. He also looked different in the soft, amber light of the library, more human, almost approachabl
LEON'S POVI didn't move.Not back, not forward, just stood in my doorway in yesterday's clothes at seven thirty in the morning and looked at Reid Calloway on my porch and breathed.The manila envelope was under his left arm, casual, like he'd just picked up mail on his way over. His expression was exactly the same as the libraryāpatient, warm enough to read as friendly if you didn't know what you were looking at.My phone was upstairs.Aaron was across town.It was just me and a door I'd already opened and a person I hadn't invited here."How do you know where I live," I said. My voice came out even, which surprised me slightly."You'd be amazed what's publicly available," Reid said. "Voter registration. Utility records. Nothing nefarious." He said *nefarious* like it was a word he found slightly amusing. "Can I come in?""No."He nodded, unsurprised. "Okay. We can do this out here." He shifted the envelope from under his arm, held it at his side but didn't open it. "I want you to un
LEON'S POVNobody answered or at least not immediately.Which was fine. Some questions needed a moment before anyone should try to answer them, and what do we do about a person who has two years of private letters and a burner phone collection and apparently nothing but time* was one of those questions.I wrapped both hands around my coffee cup and thought.Aaron was doing the sameāI could see it, the inward focus, the way he went quiet when he was actually working through something rather than performing composure. Marlowe was watching both of us with the patience of someone who'd learned to wait."What's in the letters that he'd actually use," I said finally. "Specifically. Not everythingājust the thing he'd lead with."Marlowe looked at the table for a moment. "There's a sectionā" he stopped, recalibrated. "About six months in. I was in a bad place. Notā" he glanced at me briefly, then Aaron, "ānot dangerous. Just low. The kind of low that's hard to write about without it sounding
LEON'S POVI sat in my driveway for a long time.The photograph glowed on my screenāmy car, Aaron's house, the timestamp, all of itāand I made myself breathe through the first wave of it, the cold spike of violation that came with understanding someone had been standing on that street in the dark watching a house and the person I cared about was inside it.Then I forwarded it to Aaron.No explanation. Just the image.His response came in under two minutes, which meant he'd been awake, probably still in the kitchen with Marlowe and the leftover pasta, and had looked at his phone and understood immediately.**Aaron:** *I see it.***Aaron:** *Are you home?***Leon:** *Just pulled in.***Aaron:** *Good. Stay there. Don't go back out tonight.***Leon:** *I wasn't planning to.***Aaron:** *Lock your doors.***Leon:** *Aaron.***Aaron:** *I know. I know, it's Reid, notāI know. Lock them anyway.*I locked them. Not because I was scared exactly, or not only because of that, but because it was
LEON'S POVI sat in the car for five minutes without moving.Just me and those four words glowing on the screen and the distant sound of Aaron's engine starting somewhere behind me, pulling away, his taillights disappearing around the corner without him knowing any of this had just happened.*Keep
LEON'S POVHe opened the door before I knocked, which meant he'd been watching for me, which meant whatever he had to say had been sitting in him the entire drive over, building pressure.He looked different than Wednesday. Not disheveled exactly, but worn down at the edges, like he hadn't slept ei
LEONāS POVI read the message four times.Then I read it a fifth, just to make sure I hadnāt hallucinated it.Aaron Pierce keeps staring at you during lunch. Heās been doing it for weeks.Weeks.Weeks.I lowered my phone slowly, my brain doing that awful thing where it tries to process too much inf
LEON'S POVāLeon, Leon!ā Rose chirped excitedly as we walked out of the third class for the day, āI'm going to sit with Aliyah and Cassie, we have so much to catch up, while me and youā¦ā she paused, giggling, āwe can talk on our ride back home and all through the night, you okay with that?āI smile
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