LOGIN~ Alex~
Lila. Had to be her.
I was still staring when the lights flickered once, twice. I spun around. Damien stood in the doorway, holding a couple pieces of my shredded jersey like they were nothing.
“Looks like someone’s jealous,” he said, voice calm but his eyes were anything but. “But don’t worry… I’ll handle it.”
He stepped inside. The door slammed shut behind him so hard the walls shook.
“What the hell are you doing here?” I snapped, backing up a step without meaning to.
“I saw Lila leaving the building looking like she wanted to kill someone. Figured she pulled some shit. Guess I was right.” He tossed the torn jersey onto the ruined bed. “Nice artwork on the mirror.”
“And you just happened to follow her all the way here? Or were you following me?”
He shrugged, moving closer. “Maybe I like keeping tabs on where you are. Makes things easier.”
My back hit the wall. He stopped right in front of me, close enough I could smell his soap. “You don’t get to just walk in here and act like you’re doing me some favor. You’re the one who slammed me into the boards like you wanted to break me.”
“Yeah, and you liked it.” His voice went quieter. “Don’t lie to me. I felt you react. Your pulse jumped under my hand. You got hard right there on the ice.”
“Get out of my room.”
“Make me Alex, I own this room..” He put one hand on the wall beside my head, caging me in without touching. “Or admit you want me to stay and finish what I started out there.”
I shoved at his chest. He didn’t move. My hands stayed there longer than they should’ve, feeling the muscle under his shirt. “You’re such a fucking asshole.”
“Tell me something new.” He leaned in, breath brushing my mouth. “But you still want this. I can see it. So who’s really the mess here, Alex?”
I wanted to knee him in the balls. I wanted to yank him in and shut him up but I knew his game. He’d do anything to accuse and throw me out of here. So Instead I just stood there breathing fast, angry and turned on and hating both. “You’re such a petty asshole. Please leave me the fuck alone.”
He laughed softly, right against my lips almost. “Keep telling yourself that.” Then he stepped back, grabbed the rest of the shredded jersey, and headed for the door. “Clean your shit up. I’ll talk to Lila. And Rivera? Next time you try to show me up on my ice, I won’t be nice about reminding you who runs things around here.”
The door clicked shut. I slid down the wall, head in my hands, heart still racing like I’d just finished suicides. “What the actual fuck is wrong with my life?”
I didn’t sleep for shit. When I finally passed out it was into this screwed-up dream, Damien’s hands rough on me, pinning me down, claiming every inch, mixed with these softer flashes I couldn’t pin down. Someone else’s touch, gentler, like they actually gave a damn. I woke up gasping, sheets twisted around me, dick hard and aching so bad it hurt. I punched the pillow hard enough to make my knuckles sting and got up. No way was any of this getting to me. What was going on with me.
Practice the next morning was brutal. Damien was already out there barking orders at everyone like he was god. During drills he tripped me, and sent me sprawling. Then he hauled me up by the collar, bodies pressed together for way too long, his grip tight on my jersey.
“Fight back harder Alex baby,” he whispered, smirking right in my face. “I like it when you squirm.”
I yanked free, breathing hard. “Call me baby one more time and I’ll make you eat that puck Damien.”
He just laughed and skated off, leaving me standing there with the whole team staring. Great. Exactly what I needed.
In the showers after, steam thick everywhere, I thought I was finally alone. Then Damien cornered me under the spray. Water ran down his chest, over every line of muscle, and he braced one hand above my head, caging me against the tile.
“You think you can ignore this?” he said, voice low and rough over the water noise. His thumb dragged slowly across my lower lip, pressing just enough. “This thing between us? You feel it every time I get close.”
My breath hitched hard. I almost leaned in. Almost let it happen. Then I snapped out of it, kneed him in the thigh, and bolted, grabbing my towel on the way out. “Stay the hell away from me!”
His laugh chased me through the steam. “You wish, Rivera. You fucking wish.”
I got dressed fast, hands still shaking, cursing under my breath the whole time. “This is bullshit. Total bullshit. I’m not doing this. Not with him. No way.”
But my body hadn’t got the memo yet, and the way my heart kept racing told me this was only getting started.
Alex The group kept arguing about what to do next. Damien wanted to head straight to the station with the phone and logs. Jax kept saying they needed to loop in his contacts first so nothing got twisted. Mark paced the living room, rubbing his face, muttering how none of it would bring his brother back anyway.I sat on the couch, ribs screaming every time I breathed too deep, head still fuzzy from earlier. “Guys, can we just pick one thing and stick to it? ”Mom walked in from the kitchen, wiping her hands on a towel. “Alex, you look awful.”“It’s just from the stress mama you can…”Before anyone could answer, the doorbell rang. Mom sighed and went to open it. “Probably that gas delivery. I was short this week and figured why wait.”We all paused. I glanced at Jax. He shrugged. Damien crossed his arms tighter.Mom came back a minute later. “They left the canister by the back. I’ll hook it up quick. Dinner won’t cook itself.”Mark snorted. “Gas? Really? Right now?”“Life doesn’t stop
Nancy “Yeah.” I said my eyes lighting up. Sara nodded fast. “Okay come here. ”I looked into her eyes and saw the same deep want that I felt burning inside my own chest. We stood very close together in the quiet darkness of her room, and our hands began to move slowly over each other. I pulled her shirt up carefully, and she lifted her arms so I could take it off completely. Her skin felt warm and smooth under my fingers as I touched her sides gently. She did the same thing to me, and soon my shirt came off as well. We stood there in just our pants for a moment, looking at each other with nervous excitement, and then we leaned in to kiss again. This time the kiss felt much deeper than before, with our mouths opening naturally and our tongues touching in a way that sent warmth all through my body.My heart was beating fast and loud in my chest. Her hands moved to my back, pulling me even closer against her. I could feel her chest pressing softly against mine, and that closeness ma
NancyI finished staring at the ceiling and sat up on the bed. My phone felt heavy in my hand like it knew what I was about to do. I typed out a message then deleted it. Then another one. Then a third. The words kept coming out wrong every time. Too much. Too little.Finally I just went with the truth that had been sitting in my chest since I left Sara’s house earlier.I heard everything at your house tonight. Can we talk? I’m not mad. Just scared too.My thumb hit send before I could chicken out. I tossed the phone on the blanket and rubbed my face hard. The seconds dragged until it buzzed. Sara replied right away.Oh god Nancy. I’ve been dying here. You really heard?Yeah. All of it.I waited for her dots to stop bouncing. They did not.I was so scared to tell you. I thought if I said it out loud you would pull away and that would be it. Our friendship gone. I tried dating those guys to make the feelings stop but they never did. It was always you.My heart pounded so loud I could he
Nancy I pushed the front door open and stepped inside. The house was quiet except for the low hum of the fridge in the kitchen. It was already late evening sliding into night and my head would not stop spinning. Everything I overheard from Sara and her mom kept replaying. Sara saying she loved me. Her mom knowing for months. The part about me being the one all along. My chest felt tight like someone was sitting on it. I dropped my bag by the stairs and rubbed my face hard with both hands.I did not know what I felt. Angry. Scared. Maybe something else I did not want to name yet. Sara lied to me for so long and now it turned out she did it because she was fighting herself. I walked toward the living room because I needed water or something normal to do with my hands. The lights were off but I heard soft sounds. I turned the corner and froze.Alex and Mark. Kissing. Like really kissing. Alex had his hand on Mark’s neck and Mark was pulling him closer. My mouth fell open.“What the hell
NancySara stopped in her tracks on the sidewalk. She looked lost.“Why not?” Sara asked. Her voice sounded shaky and small. “I need to talk to her. I have to explain everything. She does not understand yet.”Her mom looked at her for a long moment before answering. She did not sound angry. If anything, she sounded tired.“She needs space. She will come around when she is ready. It is not like I want you guys together anyway.”Sara stared at her in disbelief. She looked as though she had heard the wrong words.“What do you mean?” she asked quietly. “You do not want us together?”“No.”“But… why?”“Because I do not.”Sara rubbed both hands together nervously. She looked toward the house for a second before looking back at her mom.“I am not asking you to approve of us. I just need to explain things to Nancy. She deserves to know why I lied.”“She deserves peace today.”“She deserves the truth.”“She will hear it when she is ready.”“She may never want to see me again if I leave now.”H
Nancy Sara desperately tried to explain. She stood there with the towel still wrapped around her hair. Her hands shook as she reached out but stopped halfway. Tears already filled her eyes and her face looked pale.“Nancy, please. Just listen to me for a minute. Yeah, the crush on Alex was real. It was there for months. I wrote about it all the time because I thought he was cute and funny and confident. I came over to your house hoping he’d notice me. I made excuses to stay longer just to catch a glimpse of him in the hallway or when he picked you up after practice. I even asked you questions about him on purpose.”I sat on the edge of the bed. The diary felt heavy in my lap. My chest hurt like someone punched it hard. I could barely look at her without feeling sick.“But it changed,” Sara said. Her voice cracked right in the middle. She wiped her cheek with the back of her hand. “Hanging out with you more, it was not just about him anymore. I swear it. Things shifted slowly and I di
Alex I kissed him again, harder this time, my hands grabbing the front of his shirt like it was the only thing keeping me from falling apart. His mouth was warm and he tasted a bit like the mint gum he always chewed, and for a second everything in my head just shut up. Then his fingers slid under
Alex I looked at him for a second, then away.“You don’t have to do that.”“I know.”“That was your chance to say ‘but I want to.’”“I do want to,” he said immediately.I rolled my eyes, even though something in my chest felt… weirdly lighter.“Fine,” I muttered.“Also,” he added, “you’re not goin
AlexI didn’t even realize my phone had been on DND until it buzzed so hard in my hand that I almost dropped it, which honestly felt personal at this point because what else could go wrong today, and I remember frowning at the screen like it offended me before I even read the message, and then I
Alex The next day was somehow worse, which honestly felt impressive, because I didn’t think it could get worse than that conversation, but clearly life likes proving me wrong. I should have known something was off the moment I walked into school and people got quiet for half a second before preten







