LOGINROWENA
I hoped that death would take me and I would never wake up to such a wretched world, but alas I did.
As the icy wind slapped me across the face, I awoke. My throat was patched with thirst and my lips were dry and cracked. My wrists hurt from the tight rope it was bound with but as I looked around, I saw I wasn't alone.
There were six of us in the small moving cage-like wagon, sitting shoulder to shoulder. The women were filthy looking; with their hairs tangled and their dresses torn. Their faces were marked with silent desolation, as if they were aware of the fate that awaited them- the kind that tears could not rescue them from, no matter how long and heart wrenching it was.
“Where are they taking us?” I asked the woman seated beside me. She looked a little older than me with brown hair and blue eyes. She took some time before she answered me in order to save what little strength she had left.
“They are taking us to Ravenshallow–the Western clan, there we will be sold as slaves,” her voice broke. Fear gripped my heart and it made it hard to breathe. At that moment, I saw my mother's melancholic face as she helped get me ready for my mating ceremony. I never got the chance to say goodbye to her and, finally spit in my father's face.
I had never been outside my clan nor had I ever heard anything about the other clans. I was from the Eastern clan of Eldoria. From the little knowledge I was able to absorb from reading books and looking at the maps in my father's chambers, I knew that the nation of Eldoria was made of three clans but was formerly made of four.
The Northern clan of Crimonfrost, which was the former seat of power of Eldoria, was suddenly wiped out. No one really knew what happened to make a whole clan cease to exist but when the news broke, all the other clans diverged into their separate factions and remained that way.
They all became strangers to one another and let hostility fester and grow between them. Wars became a constant activity; lands were claimed and reclaimed in a bid to have more dominance over the opposing clans until, eventually, each clan grew weary of the constant conflict and reached an agreement, a truce of some sort, to never interfere with one another. To become separate independent entities.
I sat in the silence of her words and let them soak into my skin. The Western clan was notorious for its ruthless treatment of its subjects and overall cruelty. It was rumored that slaves in the western clan were forced to fight against the clan's strongest warriors. Putting a feeble slave before a well trained warrior was murder. And that was exactly what happened.
As the moments passed, I wanted to ask this young lady I sat next to more about herself but the expression on her face told me otherwise. She looked as if she was trying to recollect her most fondest memories and hold on to them so tightly that it would never leave her. I moved to hold my sapphire necklace but that was when I realized it was gone. Tears fell down my eyes as I remembered Darius stealing it from me. That was the only thing I had left from my mother and now it was gone.
“Save your tears girl,” the woman across from me said. “You are only wasting your time and what little strength you have left. There is no hope here for us.”
We had been on the road for what felt like days, surviving on scraps of food and barely enough water to wet our tongues. The two slavers knew exactly what they were doing, keeping us weak enough to remain human, too drained to fight back in our wolf forms.
The roads were carved through steep terrain. When night fell and the cold crept in, we huddled together for warmth, our bodies pressed close out of desperate necessity. With each passing day, the thin thread of hope we clung to frayed a little more.
One day I awoke to find Mannia, the girl who always sat beside me was gone. All the other captives said they had all woken up to find her gone and that they had no idea where she was. I couldn't believe it and I felt some was amiss.
That night, I dreamt I was walking through the forest which lined the road we were traveling on. Suddenly, I heard a piercing scream in the distance. I ran in the direction of the sound to one of the slavers on top of Mannia, strangling her. I tried to intervene but there seemed to be an invisible barrier allowing me to see what was happening but preventing me from saving her.
I watched helplessly as the slaver drew a dagger and struck her in the chest several times. I screamed for him to stop but all my protests fell on deaf ears.
When I woke up, I wept. I told the others what I saw in my dream and no one said anything for a long time. Their silence irritated me. “She was one of us and now she is dead and now we are going to do nothing about it,” I said in anger.
“What do you suppose we do, ehn? Fight the slavers with our feeble bodies based on a mere dream. Do you want to get us killed?” one of the women replied. The other women mumbled in agreement.
“What if she managed to escape at night, ey?” another woman added.
“Managed to escape? How would that even be possible? These men watch us like a hawk. And have you noticed that they have not uttered a word about Mannia’s absence?” I replied.
I knew that the idea of Mannia running away at night was unbelievable. And they knew it too. The slavers would have hunted her down with her scent and taught her a lesson. But to these women, it was easier to believe that she had escaped-that she was well on her way to a better fate than we were.
That night, because of my persistence to avenge Mannia, the other captives avoided me. They didn't allow me to come near them for warmth as we slept. Deep in my heart I knew I was right but what was the use of being right in a wicked world?
I was left to sleep on my own, with only the peaceful image of Mannia and my mother to keep me warm.
ROWENAWe left Crimonfrost at midmorning.I looked back once, at the top of the ridge, the way I had looked back at Ravenshallow's gate when we departed. The ruins lay in the valley below, quiet and particular in the autumn light, the black stone giving back its iridescence to a sky that had decided, for today, to be clear.I had arrived there a woman who did not know what she was.I was leaving as something else entirely.I turned back to the road and rode on. †††††††††††††††††††The journey back was faster. Four days had become the shape of the terrain in our bodies and we moved through it with the confidence of people who knew where the ground was uncertain and where it held. The wrongness that had followed us through the third day was absent now, the land simply land again, and the horses seemed to feel the difference and moved accordingly.Thane rode beside me.Not at the careful distance of the journey out. Beside me, close enough that conversation r
ROWENAI stepped out of the pool and I looked at him and I knew.Not hoped. Not thought I might be able to. Knew, the way you know things that live in the bone rather than the mind. The power that had filled me in the pool was not the same careful warmth I had worked with for months. It was the full thing, and the full thing could reach what the careful thing could not.I crossed to him."Rowena," he said."Stand still," I said.He stood still.My hands found his chest. The warmth rose immediately, more than I called for, more than I had ever produced, and this time when it reached the empty place where his wolf had been it did not stop.It went in.I felt it working the way I had felt Celdric's wound working, the broken thing recognizing the thing that could mend it and moving toward it. But this was not a wound. This was an absence, and filling an absence was different from closing a wound, slower, more like coaxing than mending, and I held my hands steady and I gave it everything I
ROWENAI went down alone.The others were still sleeping, or close enough to it that the sounds of the camp above were slow and undisturbed, and I moved through them quietly with the necklace in my closed fist and the sword on my back and the specific focus of someone who has been given an answer and is moving toward it before doubt can find the gap between intention and action.The stairway down to the pool was dark. I did not need a torch. The stone gave off enough of its own light that I could see the spiral of the steps below me, faint and silver-edged, and I followed it down. †††††††††††††††††††††††††The chamber was as I had left it, the empty basin at its center, the channels running toward it from every direction in lines so deliberate they looked like script. I crossed to the basin and I knelt at its center on the smooth stone floor and I looked at the necklace one last time.Twenty two years. Carried by my mother from a burning hall to a stranger's door.Kept
ROWENAMy fingers closed around the hilt.The sword did not come free.I had not expected it to be easy. But I had not been prepared for what it did instead, which was to hold perfectly still beneath my grip and fill me with everything I was simultaneously, without order or mercy, the way a flood fills a room. †††††††††††††††††††††††††The dungeon first. The chain on my wrist and the smell of mildew and my father's face telling me I was no longer his daughter. The taste of blood in my mouth and the specific cold of the stone floor and the sound of Darius's laughter echoing after the door closed.The wagon. Shoulder to shoulder with women whose names I barely learned. Mannia gone in the night and the other women's silence and the long terrible days of not enough water and the slavers' jokes carrying back to us on the wind.The arena. The wolf coming at me across the sand and the chain in my hand and the bone I drove into its chest and the girl beneath who bled and
ROWENAI had not slept. I had not tried to.I sat at the ridge's edge through the whole of the night and I watched Crimonfrost exist in the dark below me, and when the sky began to pale in the east and the stars went out one by one I was still there, the necklace warm in my fingers, the warmth in my palms steady and unhurried, as though the ruins had been keeping a fire lit for twenty two years and had simply been waiting for me to come close enough to feel it.When the light was sufficient Thane appeared beside me without a word. He looked down at the valley. Then at me."Ready," he said."Yes," I said.We went down. †††††††††††††††††††††††††The ruins looked nothing like the night before.At night they had been a thing of shadows and held light, the black stone luminous and still, the valley a single held breath. In the morning they were something else entirely. The sun came over the mountain's eastern edge at an angle that struck the stone directly, and the stone re
ROWENAThe fourth day was easier than the third.Not because the terrain was easier. If anything the ground was harder, the exposed rock more frequent, the path less certain underfoot. But the quality of the air had changed. The watching feeling, the weight of something looking at us from the wrong angle, had pulled back sometime in the night, and what replaced it was not safety but something closer to neutrality. The land simply being land again, cold and difficult and entirely indifferent to us.I noticed it before I noticed anything else.Then I noticed Thane had moved his horse closer. †††††††††††††††††††††††††Not significantly. A few feet at most. But the distance between us that had been carefully maintained for three days had narrowed without ceremony, without acknowledgment, and when I glanced at him he was looking at the path ahead with the focused expression of a man navigating terrain, nothing more.I did not say anything about it.But when the path narr
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