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ELENA
The folder slipped from my fingers.
I didn't even notice until I heard the papers scatter across the floor. I stood there, frozen in the doorway, watching Adrian's hand pull away from Vivian's waist like it had never been there.
"Elena." His voice was steady, composed, like he had not been caught doing anything wrong and i was wrong for entering his office without prior notice.
Vivian turned to face me, and she smiled. It was a practiced smile, one that makes you think she was doing you a favor by merely looking at you.
"Elena," she said softly. "I've heard so much about you."
She let the words sit there between us as the implication was there, glaring for all to see. Like she had known all along who i was to him, and what she thought about it.
"You take such good care of him." She tilted her head, her eyes gentle. "He's lucky to have someone so devoted to him, he deserves that, don't you think?"
The way she said devoted made my stomach turn. Like I was a housekeeper rather than his wife who had been loyal to him all these years.
Something in me snapped.
"I'm his wife," I said. "Not his caretaker."
The smile on Vivian's face didn't falter, but her eyes shifted, just slightly, to Adrian.
"Elena." His voice carried a warning now. The kind that said, 'stop right now, do not make a scene in public'
I didn't stop. Rather i pressed on, feeling disheartened by what i had seen.
"She was laughing against your shoulder, Adrian. Your hand was—"
"She is a childhood friend." He cut me off cleanly. "She came back to help the company build a new business line. That is all this is." He said it bluntly, flat, like he was managing a story, and was sticking to it, no matter what.
Vivian gave a soft, pained sigh like she was pitying me as she shook her head slwoly before adding. "I'm sorry, Elena. I didn't realize my being here would cause you distress. I truly mean no harm." She pressed her lips together like she was swallowing her own hurt. "Adrian is right. Please don't misunderstand."
She was so graceful about it that I almost felt like I was the one who had done something wrong.
Adrian looked at her with something close to gratitude and relief. Then he looked at me, and it was different, his face hardened with disappointment.
"We will talk later....privately," he said to Vivian, quietly.
She left with one last glance in my direction. A smirk playing on her lips, triumphant with how this played out in her favour.
After she was gone, Adrian crossed to his desk and picked up a slim black bag I hadn't noticed before. He held it out to me.
"Happy anniversary," he said.
I stared at the bag for a moment before I took it. Inside was a bracelet, white gold, delicate, the kind of jewelry that cost more than what people made in a year.
He remembered. I hadn't been sure he would.
It wasn't what I wanted. I knew that. What I wanted wasn't something that could be wrapped in silk clothes or packaged but it was something at least. It was from him. From the man I had loved quietly for three years without ever being asked to.
My chest squeezed tightly as i felt hope building in me, maybe this was a sign that he could choose me, and our baby.
I set the bracelet down carefully.
"Adrian." I kept my eyes on the desk. It was easier. "Do you still not want children?"
The silence that followed was instant and tense which made me look up.
The color had left his face. It was not anger or irritation, but something worse. His jaw was tight. His eyes were filled with an emotion that i could not describe.
I felt the familiar shame creep up my throat before he even said a word.
'Too much', the voice in my head said. 'You always ask for too much.'
"Never mind," I said quickly speaking before he could, shaking my head as i willed the tears to not fall.. "Forget I asked."
I picked up my scattered papers from the floor and walked out.
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My desk felt very far away from his office. i did not know how i got there, without bumping into anyone but it seemed the others noticed and cleared out of my path. i managed to sit down and keep my eyes on the screen, rereading a sheet of report, over and over without even understanding it.
Around me, the office hummed with its usual noise. Keyboards. Muffled phone calls. The distant sound of the elevator doors opening and closing as it brought in people and took some out of the floor.
Then I heard her voice.
Vivian was standing beside my colleague's desk, leaning over slightly, pointing at something on the screen. Her voice was softer than it had been with me, like a teacher speaking to her favourite student.
My colleague was nodding, hanging on every word.
When Vivian straightened and turned, our eyes met.
"Elena." She smiled. "You work so hard. I can see why Adrian relies on you." A small pause. "Would you mind making me some coffee? I'm not quite sure where everything is yet."
She was new. I told myself that. She was new and it was a reasonable request and I was being paranoid by thinking otherwise.
I got up and went to make the coffee for her without a word, i carried it back to her and set it on the edge of the desk beside her.
i had no idea how it happened, one moment, the cup was on the dsk, the next second the cup was in the air after being hit by vivian's hands and there was a crash.
I could feel the heat as it splashed on me, burning hot, but i was too startled to even say a word. i thought the cry of pain had escaped from my mouth until i saw Vivian, clutching onto hers, her eyes watering as she looked like she had been bullied. Then she opened her mouth and spoke.
"I don't understand what I did to upset you."
His office door opened before I could speak.
Adrian was across the floor in seconds. There was fear apparent on his face as he looked at VIvian's hands, taking it carefully into his as he inspected it.
"Let me see," he said, low and urgent.
"It's nothing," Vivian whispered. "I'm sure it's—"
"Your hands are everything to you." He was already steering her toward the door. "You need a doctor. Right now."
"Adrian." My voice came out, barely audible as i wanted to explain to him.
He didn't look at me.
"Adrian, it wasn't—she knocked the cup herself, her hand struck the—"
"Ethan." He called out without turning around. "Call an ambulance."
A gasp rippled through the open floor at what happened next. He carried her, like it was the most natural thing in the world and he had been doing it for a long time, it was more of a subconscious thing at this point.
I watched the elevator doors close behind them.
The office settled back into noise around me, voices low and curious, careful not to let me hear, but i knew what they were saying, talking about how he had been careful with her and barely spared me a look. i closed my ears to it all, refusing to listen when the pain was more prominent, on my hand making me, look. My skin had blistered already, bleeding from the spill earlier. i made my way to the restroom, and took off my ring, and then washed the wound, feeling the sting even more as i realized that my husband had been putting on a performance all these years with me and Vivian hands mattered more to him than my feelings.
Chapter 27ARIAI was coming out of the small grocery store two streets from the hotel with Eli's hand in mine and a paper bag of fruit balanced against my hip when I saw her standing by the entrance.Ava.She was not dressed for coincidence. She was standing too still, too deliberately positioned near the door, the kind of waiting that told you a person had been waiting specifically for you and not for anything else."Aria Vale," she said, and her voice had none of the warmth I had seen in the park that day with Julian. "Or should I say Aria. I don't actually know what to call you.""Excuse me?" I said, my grip on Eli's hand tightening slightly without my deciding to do it."I think we should talk," she said, stepping closer. "Woman to woman."Eli looked up at her, then at me, his small face doing the thing it did when he sensed adults behaving strangely around him."Mum, who's this?""Nobody, sweetheart," I said. "Go stand by the window for a second, okay? Look at the puppies in the
Chapter 26JULIAN POVSomething had shifted in her and I did not know what.She had been quiet since the day I ran into Ava in the park, quiet in a specific way that I had learned to recognize over five years, the kind of quiet that meant she was holding something and deciding whether to hand it to me or keep carrying it herself.I gave her the space I usually gave her. That had always worked before. Aria needed time to arrange her own thoughts before she could speak them, and pushing only made the process longer, not shorter.But three more days passed and the quiet did not lift.I found her in the dressing room after the Thursday performance, sitting in front of the mirror with her violin still in her lap, not changing yet, staring at her own reflection like she was trying to find an answer in it."Hey," I said, closing the door behind me. "You played beautifully tonight.""Thank you," she said, but it came out distant.I sat in the chair beside her."Aria. Talk to me."She was quie
Chapter 25ARIAI told myself it was nothing for three days.It was a reasonable thing to tell myself. Julian had a life before me, a full life, with relationships and history that had nothing to do with the woman he found half-conscious and nameless in a hospital bed. It would have been strange if he didn't. I had no claim on the years before I existed to him as anyone at all.But the stone stayed where it was, and on the fourth day, while Julian was at a meeting with the venue about the final performance logistics and Eli was occupied with his tablet under the stage manager's supervision, I found myself in our hotel room going through a box of his things.I was not looking for anything specific. I told myself that too.The box had come with us from city to city for the length of the tour, a small archive box of business files and old photographs Julian kept for sentimental reasons, things he sometimes pulled out to show Eli, university photos, early agency photos, the small artifact
Chapter 24JULIANI had Eli's hand in mine and a bag of his favourite crackers from the kiosk in the other when I heard my name called from across the path."Julian? Julian Hale?"I turned. A woman was walking toward us quickly, her face breaking into the kind of surprised smile reserved for people you have not seen in years and did not expect to see again.Ava.It took me a second to place her fully, the years had changed her hair, her style, but the face underneath all of it was the same. We had dated for almost a year, a long time ago, before any of this, before Elena, before any of what my life had become."I don't believe it," she said, stopping in front of us, eyes moving from me to Eli and back. "It's actually you.""Ava." I said her name carefully, the surprise genuine. "It's been a long time.""Years," she agreed, laughing a little. "You look exactly the same. Older, but the same." Her eyes dropped to Eli. "And who is this?""This is Eli," I said. "A friend's son."Eli looked
Chapter 23Vivian had said as much. My mother had said something similar, in the way my mother said things, with less gentleness and more specific instruction about what I ought to do instead.I picked up my phone and put it down again.Julian had threatened to call the police and he had meant it and he had the standing to follow through. I had grabbed Elena's wrist at a public event and it was still circulating online and the narrative was not flattering. Another incident would move from gossip to something with legal weight.I needed to be rational.I was going to be rational.Being rational lasted until Saturday afternoon.I had gone to the park near my building because it was a thing my doctor had suggested in a way that implied I was not managing stress adequately, and I was trying to demonstrate to myself that I could follow reasonable advice.I had been walking for fifteen minutes when I heard him."If you go that way, the ducks get angry. I found that out already."I stopped.
Chapter 22ARIAThe Monday reception was where it happened.I had not wanted to attend and Julian had said it was professionally important and I had agreed and regretted agreeing for the full hour before we arrived. It was a smaller gathering, perhaps thirty people, the kind of event where distance was not available as a strategy.Adrian found me near the windows.He was different that evening. Something slightly less controlled about the edges of him. He had come from somewhere else before this, I thought, some other engagement, and whatever composure management he usually applied had worn thin.He did not start with pleasantries."I want to ask you something," he said."You can ask," I said. "I reserve the right not to answer."Something almost like humor moved across his face. Brief and then gone."Before Elena disappeared," he said, keeping his voice low, "she was injured. Her hand." He looked at my hands where they rested around my glass. "A burn. The back of her right hand. It w







