Heart Beat Louder

{FAIR WARNING, THE CHAPTER MAY BE SENSITIVE TO SOME READERS. PLEASE READ WITH CAUTION!} 

Thither, my eyes dilated with aggressive aghast whilst, on the other side, my heart throbbed in my ears — so loud and irregular. 

There I stood with legs that were slowly becoming numb. I felt an awful rising in my chest that hindered my breathing — my chest heaved heavily as I looked into space. Bit by bit, beats of sweat were gathering on my forehead as I frowned at the heaviness in my head. 

It was peculiar — I suddenly felt like smiling every now and then without a comprehensible reason. He was close, Alpha Xenos was close to reaching me, how I wished to shrink into nothingness. It was ominously hushed in the room, only his movements made obvious sounds that broke into my heart. 

"Oh, how enchanting you are!" Alpha Xenos aired as soon as he had halted just a breath away from me. Unintentionally, I inhaled his pungent smell that sharply travelled down to my oesophagus, nauseating me instantly. His warm breath shamelessly kissed my cheeks immediately after I had closed my eyes in disgust. I could see him — he was wearing nothing but a silky bathrobe, the same colour as the dress I wore — white. 

It was out of the blue that my vision became blurry — everything I saw was double, including Alpha Xenos's treacherous smile. "Come on, dear!" He aired and I quickly felt his hand rest on my shoulder, before trailing down to my arm as he pulled me towards the bed. 

"W-what…! No…!" I spoke inarticulately. My lips were suddenly numb and too heavy for me to lift. The alpha put me on the bed, making me lie with my hands spread across the bed. I felt it — my vision was on the edge of blackening out, but why all of a sudden? 

"The…candles!" I thought whilst closing my eyes only for a moment that would help me gather my thoughts and energy that was slowly running out. Breathing as heavily, I reopened my eyes that were overwhelmed by tears and caught Alpha Xenos who was wearing a quivering smile, stopped only a second away from my naked feet. He was just standing there ogling at me — how dare he?! 

His eyes were twinkling happily with ecstasy, as he slowly climbed the bed that abruptly released a pitiful squeal. I swiftly closed my eyes again, my heart was still pounding heavily against my chest and this time, I had lost track of its sharp, quick beats. A sharp pain quickly punctured through the walls of my heart, slightly breaking it apart. 

The old man was breathing heavily as if he had been running — hoarsely just like those many past days I first laid my eyes on him. "Open your eyes, dear Ophelia! You shouldn't be afraid." Softly as he could, the alpha urged. Again, he called my name, my real name — he has never done something like that or was it because of…the ceremony? Is it that he has to call my name for everything to take place?

Those were the questions I had asked myself and without hesitation, I opened my eyes to meet his piercing blue eyes, almost white, staring deeply into my eyes with newfound pleasure. "Ophelia!" I called out my name in a whisper shortly after a frown had boldly stood up across my forehead. 

I was nauseated — it was disgusting to hear my name escape from his mouth and how evilly it echoed in my head. There, he laid his weight on my tiny body and without shame, the werewolf wore a dangling smile that exposed his unsteady, yellow teeth, albeit rotten. This was the hour everyone was talking about — an hour that was meant for me and the alpha to conceive a baby; an alpha I did not love even a bit. 

So far, I had been praying for a miracle that'd stop him from doing anything to me — I was scared as I quietly witnessed my chest heave with hopelessness while nervously staring at Alpha Xenos caressing my face with his pale eyes that were almost teary with thrill. A long, rough finger slowly glided over my face — from my sweating forehead to my cheeks that burnt with agony. 

"This is…why they had cheaply…sold me to him. I worthed nothing but only five dollars to them — They sold my life away without my permission…!" I silently cried as soon as Alpha Xenos began to paste his dirty, broken kisses on my neck that I had exposed to him by turning my face on the other side — away so I did not have to meet his eyes. He boldly and shamelessly covered every part of my neck with his kisses as if I was just a candy — a cheap one, of course. 

Closing my eyes deeper and tighter, my trembling hands swiftly and roughly clenched the bedsheets. There quickly was a bitter taste in the back of my mouth — Beat by beat, Alpha Xenos's hands began exploring my breasts and off, they trailed on my stomach while he continued to glue his kisses on my cheeks, this time. 

A muffled whimper escaped from my mouth when I felt his hand slowly slip under the dress and stop on my thigh — I knew he felt it was shaking uncontrollably. 

"This…is a beautiful gift. A colourful night that is meant to be carefully taken care of and celebrated." Soon when he stopped pasting his kisses on my skin that was now overwhelmed by goosebumps, Alpha Xenos mercilessly chuckled, having this moment to look at me again but I was not looking back. My eyes were shut tight in fear of looking back into his eyes. I could smell his rotten breath all over my skin — it was sickening. 

Small ragged gasps were escaping my throat a second I felt him take off the bathrobe, swiftly summoning piercing pains that spread everywhere else in my system. I could not feel my hands or legs, I was pinned on the bed with no escape route and my vision was playing games with me. 

I kept seeing double and I knew that sooner or later, my vision would blacken out. "No…! I need to stay…awake! A miracle! Anything plea…!" I barely finished my sentence when I heard a deafening loud booming sound that came with the effect of making everything shake vehemently. 

A loud, intimidating pang suddenly vibrated in the chambers of my ears. My eyes darted from one place to the other and all that I could see was smoke hissing from everywhere. My body suddenly felt light — Alpha Xenos was nowhere near me. There on my right, I spotted him as he tried to get his naked body up and surprisingly, I remained paralyzed on the bed. 

Everything around me was shaking and hopelessly breaking into thousands of pieces. "We are under attack!" A familiar voice vibrated somewhere from a distance and that was everything I saw and heard before my vision blackened out — finally.