Masuk*Cathwulf*
On my way to work, walking through the small town of Azalea in Oregon, I am thinking about all the big things that will or might happen soon.
The rituals and the first change is certain, unless I should happen to not have a wolf, but that is so rare that I do not really fear it.
I don’t know much about the rituals, no young wolf is told beforehand. All I know is that they are sacred, given to us by the moon goddess herself and that they are different for men and women, but equally important.
The butterflies rumble a bit in my stomach, but it is the good kind. I am sure it will be a great experience joining the wolf ranks for real, getting my place in the hiraki.
To be honest I do not wish for much. Not knowing who my real parents are, no one can really guess about my rank. But most orphans are fighters or omegas.
Then there is the other thing, but there is no guarantee at all that I will find my true mate. It can happen that night, if he is there… maybe I will have to visit other packs searching for him. Or I could be like Lyca, she has never found her… maybe he died before they had a chance to meet.
This is something I have been dreaming of since I was a little girl: finding my mate. I hope he is handsome, kind and smart, someone I can talk to as well as snuggle up too. The man who will be my first and only everything.
I smile to myself, thinking of the man of my dreams. My very own Mr. Right… trying to imagine how he might look.
He doesn’t have to be someone powerful or famous… like an Alpha or a top ranked warrior, not that I would complain of course. But I mean, I am nothing but an orphan, so I am happy if he is a good man.
I spend the rest of my walk imagining how our first meeting will be. Will he take my hands and confess his undying love ? Will he kiss me in the moonlight ?
To be honest I have never seen anyone meet their true mate for the first time, as I have not been allowed to attend any first change ceremony, logically, but I have seen Them, the newly mated and they always seem so happy.
That is what I want the most, someone to look at me like I am the most beautiful creature under the moon … someone who will want to kiss me constantly because I am his everything.
Yes I am very much a dreamer and a romantic, my whole family tells me all the time, but I don’t care if they tease me, that is what I dream off and a girl can dream right ?
Reaching work I hurry inside, go to the maschine and clock in, before finding my small desk and starting with my work.
I actually like my job, even if it is for a company producing fur products. Evill Winterbottom Fur, it is called, it is the biggest fur company in Oregon, and the owners are very rich, like actual billionaires.
I guess it is a weird job giving that I will have fur myself soon, but mom needs the money, and it was the only job I could get. Also I only do paper work, and typing up letters and stuff, I do not work with the furs.
Most of my colleagues are also very nice. Especially those working in the same area as me, and we often talk during breaks, even if most of them are older than me and all are humans. They don’t know about werewolves of course.
Humans often come off as very little observant to be honest, they seem to think the pack is some sort of commune or cult, depending if they like us or not.
After having worked for about half an hour someone taps me on the shoulder and I turn to see Mr Evill’s personal secretary Rita. “Mr. Evill would like to see you in his office for some reason”.
To be honest Rita is one of the few People here I don’t like much. She seems to always look down her nose at others.
I smile at her nonetheless. “Oh.. he would. Okay, let me just finish this..”.
“Now !” She barks. “Mr. Evill said he wanted to see you now… you are not gonna make him wait are you ?”
“No of course not”. I hurriedly put my things away and get up. “Coming”.
She strides off with a huff and I follow with my heart pounding in my chest.
I feel myself getting all flustered and I quickly smooth down my clothes and hair, wanting to look perfect for the boss.
For some reason he always makes me very flustered and nervous, and him requesting me to come to his office like this has never happened before.
*Cathwulf* I do not like forests at night when men have invited me into them.Daylight woods can still pretend at innocence. At night, every tree looks like a witness with bark for skin. The moon hangs low and white over the clearing ahead, and the pack house beyond it glows in scattered windows like something old trying to look civilized.I stop at the edge of the tree line.Therian stops with me.He has not tried to take my elbow on the walk up. He has not tried to steer me. Bram trails behind at a respectful distance, which I appreciate enough to resent slightly, because now I have to admit at least one of them can learn.The clearing smells like pine, damp soil, wolf, and tension. A bad vintage."You can still say no," Therian says quietly.I glance at him. "To the council, or to the little moonlit parade where they all stare at the rare female your kind can't seem to stop treating like public property?"His mouth tightens. "To all of it."That stops me for half a beat.Three mont
*Cathwulf*The delivery man makes the mistake of smiling at me.It is a harmless smile, nervous and apologetic, the kind men wear when they suspect they have brought trouble to the wrong woman but would still like a signature. I cannot even hate him for it."Who sent it?" I ask, though I already know.He checks the little clipboard. "Eviil Winterbottom Holdings."Of course it is not enough for Torn Eviil to be obscene. He has to be branded.Therian's jaw goes hard across from me. He does not stand. He does not rip the boxes apart with his teeth. Gold star for basic civilized behavior."Refuse it," he says.I turn my head slowly and look at him until he realizes what he just did.His mouth tightens. "That was an order.""Yes," I say. "I noticed."He exhales through his nose. "Sorry."The delivery man looks like he would rather be hit by a bus.I hold out my hand. "Give me the card."He passes over a cream envelope so thick it could survive a flood. My stomach turns before I even open it
*Cathwulf*I spend the next three hours serving coffee to my past.Joe's Diner has never looked less like a refuge and more like a badly managed supernatural hostage exchange. Earl complains about hash browns. Mrs. Porter asks for more lemon and pretends not to notice the three dangerous men sitting in a row of booths like a particularly violent barbershop quartet. Ted keeps shouting for runners. Mandy keeps drifting by the window to get a better look at my misery.And Therian sits where I put him.That should not matter. It does.He does not pace. He does not order me around. He does not stalk to the counter every five minutes and make my skin crawl. He just sits there with a black coffee going cold in front of him and those terrible alpha shoulders held too still, like if he moves wrong I will bolt through the wall.Twice I catch him starting to stand when another customer reaches for my arm or leans too close over the counter. Twice he stops himself.Good. Let restraint hurt.At ele
*Cathwulf* The diner's familiar symphony of clattering silverware and sizzling bacon usually grounds me, but today it's just noise. A soundtrack to my internal chaos. Therian's arrival has shifted the very atmosphere, pulling the air taut like a bowstring. His words, raw and unfiltered, echo in the sudden silence that has fallen over our corner of the world. Mr. Eviil's smug presence fades into the background, the other werewolf at the booth now just a prop in the drama unfolding between me and the man who shattered my heart. “Will you let me in?” His question hangs in the air, a fragile thread of hope stretched between us. My heart, a traitorous organ, aches to say yes. Every instinct, every fiber of my being, screams to run into his arms, to let him surround me with the strength and scent I’ve missed more than I’d ever admit. I see the sincerity in his eyes, the raw desperation that mirrors my own hidden turmoil. He looks different. Haunted. Exhausted. The confident, sometime
*Therian* The city blurs around me as I sprint through the streets, my heart pounding with urgency. Each breath burns in my chest, but it’s nothing compared to the ache gnawing at my soul. Cathwulf. Just the thought of her name sends a jolt of longing through me, a visceral reminder of what I had and what I let slip through my fingers. I shouldn’t have pushed her away. I should have fought harder, should have claimed her as mine in front of the world instead of retreating into my own insecurities. But it’s too late for regrets now. The moment I realized she was gone, something inside me snapped. I veer around a corner, dodging pedestrians, my instincts heightened. The scent of her clings to my memory, a blend of cinnamon and something uniquely her… a scent I can’t seem to escape, no matter how fast I run. I can’t let her slip away again. I won’t. With every stride, I push myself harder, fueled by a mix of desperation and determination. The diner is just ahead, its old neon sign
*Cathwulf* The morning light seeps through the cracks in the curtains, casting soft shadows across the room. I stir, the remnants of a restless sleep clinging to me like cobwebs. My body protests as I push myself up, a dull ache settling in my muscles… a reminder of yesterday’s emotional upheaval. I swing my legs over the side of the bed, my feet brushing against the cool floor. A weary sigh escapes my lips as I shuffle to the kitchen, my stomach growling like a feral beast demanding sustenance. Cooking has always been my solace, a way to reclaim a semblance of normalcy amidst the chaos. I rummage through the sparse cupboards until I find a couple of eggs, some stale bread, and a half-open jar of jam. It’s not much, but it’ll do. As I crack the eggs into the sizzling pan, the sound of them hitting the hot surface is satisfying, a small victory in the grand scheme of things. I flip the toast, the golden-brown perfection a brief source of comfort. The aroma drifts through the apar
*Therian* “Good, I prefer not to have an audience”. The young woman wraps her arms around men and tries to kiss me, but I turn my head away, so instead she kisses me down the neck instead. I am looking towards the door, a weird pain spreading inside my chest. I am not sure why I even do this … this
2 weeks later*Cathwulf*&nb
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*Cathwulf*I look at myself in the mirror, smiling at my reflection. I am wearing no makeup, my hair hanging loose and I am only wearing a rope of white silk…and by only I mean no underwear. These are the instructions I have been given. I guess it has to do with the transforma







