All Chapters of Lost Our Pup To Save Myself: Chapter 1 - Chapter 8

The month I found out I was pregnant, I excitedly told Rowan. But his reaction was weird. No wild joy. Instead, he frowned. His face went dark. When I brought up the blessing ceremony for our pup, he panicked and changed the subject. Until today. I went to the pack clinic for a check-up alone. There, I bumped into Tessa, Rowan's childhood friend. I finally knew the truth. His so-called "border disputes" were just a cover. He was secretly protecting her. "Don't be scared. I'll hold off the Elders. Just stay in the territory. With my Alpha heir title, no one can hurt this pup." Rowan walked out of the ER, fussing over Tessa like she was made of glass. His face was full of anxious worry. He reached out and gently held Tessa's shoulders. "The pup is still fragile. You can't get worked up." The next second. The intercom called my name. I stood up from the shadows of the lobby. Rowan whipped around. Our eyes met. Pure panic and regret flashed in his golden eyes. His Alpha comp

After that day, Rowan and I lost contact. He was completely tied up with Tessa and Elder meetings. MIA. I didn't reach out to him either. Eventually, the mate bond became a hollow echo. All I could feel from his side was a constant, frantic thrum of anxiety, and none of it was for me.The Pack Healer had warned me. An Omega carrying such a powerful Alpha pup needs the soothing presence of the father to stabilize it. Without his calming scent, the pup's raw power would create a backlash, shattering not just my body, but my very wolf's spirit. But I refused to crawl to him and beg.Until I was three months pregnant. I collapsed in the pack house garden due to the complications of the pup draining my life force. I bumped right into Rowan's mother, the former Luna. Because the complications got worse, Rowan's lingering Alpha scent on me was almost gone. The scent of my dying wolf covered everything. She looked down at me and sniffed fiercely. Pure disgust filled her eyes. "You sm

I watched the fear wash over his face. Pure, desperate disbelief.And I felt a wave of relief.I knew he’d guessed the truth. He just couldn't accept it.I raised an eyebrow, a small smile playing on my lips. I couldn't resist twisting the knife.“As you can see,” I said, my voice light. “What use do I have for a pup whose own father won't even acknowledge him?”I let the words hang in the air, a poisonous cloud between us. Then, I twisted the knife. My next words were venom, squeezed from between my teeth.“Of course I got rid of it.”Rowan froze, looking like he’d been struck by lightning.The muscles in his face twitched. His eyes were wide with terror.His voice was raw and raspy, like he hadn’t used it in ages.“Gwen… that was our child. How could you? Our own bloodline!”“Have you forgotten? We talked about our future under the moon! We were both so excited for this pup!”“Why would you get rid of him? Why didn't you even tell me?”Seven years with Rowan. Over two thousand days a

I’d lost too much blood. I moved into a hidden cabin at the edge of the territory to recover.For days, Rowan showed up outside my door like clockwork.He always brought the best healing herbs and tonics.I never saw him.Every night, he stood vigil on my porch, a ghost of despair swallowed by the dawn.The day I left, a storm was raging.I figured Rowan would hear I was leaving, so I planned to go early.The sky was barely light when I finished packing.I didn’t expect to see him leaning against the gate when I walked out.I don’t know how long he’d been waiting there.He was soaked to the bone, a complete wreck. His hair was plastered to his head, his jacket caked in mud.The moment he saw me, he stood up straight, his eyes full of fear.“Gwen. I’m here to take you home.”I frowned and took a step back, instinctively calling on the power of my wolf.“I, Gwen, hereby formally reject you, Rowan, as my Alpha mate.”As the ancient words fell from my lips, the bond between us snapped. Row