DIFFERENT SHADES OF HIM (BOOK-ONE)
“And what you tried today,” I winced in pain as he held my nape from behind before turning me around. I peered up at him in fear while he stared down at me with his intimidating eyes. His eyes were thundering. Leaning down further, he made my pulse rise. Being so close to him— a man, no less, I could see the clear spec of blackness inside his dark eyes. They were so raw and so dark and so piercing.
“I would suggest you not try it again,” he added, his bottomless brooding eyes burned into mine, “because no matter how hard you are going to try, you are never going to get out of here without my permission. Away from my sight,” he vowed in a menacing tone that had no expression at all.
“Don't get your hopes high.” Tears split down my eyes while he studied my face.
“You like escaping. Don't you?” He explained to me in a condescending tone. “Let's see how you are going to try now with my eyes on you— all the time."
“You can try all you want, but you can never break my spirits!” I looked at him, directly in his eyes without blinking. His eyes were still focussed on my face as he slowly stepped around me.
“Do you mean it?” His voice was strangely soft, “Maybe I cannot. But.. ” Adding to his intimidating aura.
Shaur.
“No.. ” I whispered. “I can break him.” His gaze met mine in an instant. “You seem to have forgotten your own mental capacity of understanding certain situations. Let me refresh it for you.” His eyes seemed to burn holes at me. “I'd rather not get blood on your dress.”
WARNING: This book contains strong language, dubious situations, deception issues, manipulations, abduction and dark romance.
Basahin
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Huling Na-update: 2024-07-01
Chapter: Horrendous night. Caution: Mature theme ahead. Horrendous night. “I am in no need of a blowjob right now. You can leave.” His tone sounded so cold. So unforgiving. “I-I am..” “You should better leave,” he was barely able to utter in a clear voice. “I don't need your assistance. Not today.” Her face turned red at his blurted reply. Feeling repulsed, she dismissed his words before moving forward to remove the empty alcohol bottle and almost-filled ashtray from beside him. “I- I am not here for that.” “I told you to leave.” A rough touch on her wrist bothered her. She tried looking into his eyes to grasp any gap to support her point. “I came here to check on you, Uzair.” “I am alive. Am I not?” His tone sounded heavy with all the emotional lumps he could feel in his throat, which, in turn, scared her. His behaviour with her. “So, leave.” He commanded. “Just let me check.” “Did I ask you to?” “No.” “Then stay the fuck away!” “You can hurt yourself or cause physical pai
Huling Na-update: 2024-07-01
Chapter: 17— His Insight. 17— His Insight. “It is so simple to be happy yet so difficult to be simple.”Four hours later.There, he sat on the counter in the kitchen, barely sober. With an almost non-touched plate of noodles kept beside him, a plate full of ashes in the ashtray, and two empty bottles of three-year-old Irish whisky laid horizontally near his thigh, he continued to smoke and get intoxicated without pause. The emotional pain he felt was too much to endure in this state. Putting the lean stick inside his mouth, he inhaled, lying down on his back on the oak table along with his spare hand at the back of his head. “Fuck!” He roared angrily. “Damn it!”With a scathing look in his eyes at the burning cigarette that his fingers held, he muttered,“Why does she have to defy my way every damn time?” Gasping the smoke out through his nose, “Why not for once she could do as she is told without me having to force her into listening to me?” He spoke out loudly in frustration, rubbing his face with force.
Huling Na-update: 2024-07-01
Chapter: Prison. Prison. Wiping my tears, I kept mum, listening to him, and my breathing came out warm and dense.Cuddling my baby to me, I sat there nonplussed with fear of losing the only family left: my little Shaurya. Wiping my tears repeatedly from my hands, I steadied my brother, making him sit on the opposite side of him. Away—as far as I could get from him in the provided space.Silence.For a long moment, there was nothing but silence as I sat stiff and horrified with Shaurya on my lap. My crying had diminished with time. Nevertheless, my eyes and throat felt sore. And I found myself feeling dizzy and weak.Later on, there was a moment of pregnant silence in the already heavy air within the car. He spoke softly. "Don't ever cry like that. Ever! Do you hear me?" His voice held emotions of pain and anguish, though.As if he were a human. But I could be wrong. Because, logically speaking, how could someone like him even feel after having done something so monstrous to us? His face went pale w
Huling Na-update: 2024-07-01
Chapter: Plead.Plead. "Just—just don't hurt him, sir. Please!" I articulated to him while both hands folded with entwined fingers in front of him beseechingly. “Please… Not him..” "I won't have to, you see, little one.” I stared. “If you will listen to me, I won't have to do a thing," he alluded, gazing yet again. “It's simple; just do as you're told.” The silence was what he got as voices inside my head started to chant out: You have to go with him now. You don't have a choice anymore. Do you? No. You couldn't exactly leave your little brother alone with them. With him! Would you? Another certain voice at the back of my mind shuddered out. Within my own turmoils of my inner notions, I did not realise what happened next as it spurted like flopping birds in the mountains. "We have wasted more than enough time already. I cannot afford to waste more time; moreover, let's just get going." Bending a little more in my direction, he took my hand, which was prodding in the grime of the splotchy road
Huling Na-update: 2024-07-01
Chapter: 16— Home but not ours!16— Home but not ours! In the longest silence that followed, he wanted to tell her a thousand things. . . . Beginning with a plea that she could stay. The need to beg, pulsed in his veins. Yet, hoping against hope, he wished she stayed. — Saumya Tripathi “If it were on me, I would never come with you.” “That's a fortunate thing it isn't on you then,” he bent and whispered in my ear. "Otherwise, that would have turned out to be such a disappointment. Wouldn't you agree?” His words were like a dagger piercing through the heart. With a touch of poison rooted in the tone, I inched back. “Why?” There was a catch in my tone. I wanted him to know what he wanted from me. I would never give it to him willingly. Not until I knew I still had a fight left in me. “Why are you torturing me like this?” He clenched his jaws while levelling with me with an angry frown. Moving closer, he leaned towards me, his hand capturing almost the whole of my already wet face. “Because it's the only ch
Huling Na-update: 2022-12-06
HIS FATAL SHADES (BOOK-TWO)
"I am not used to losing. Never had," he uttered, glaring at her reddish face that was wet with tears.
"But, if by any slight mistake, someone dared to even touch a single hair on your head without my permission, I would lose." His intense gaze became deep. "And when I lose," moving closer until she was just a breath away from him, he ended, "my loss is another's invitation of death."
Her eyes got bigger and wider.
"I will burn this very fucking city down if I have to."
She backed herself feeling totally empty to think of anything. In the middle of everything happening, her wound was torn open. The same wound which was caused by him only a week ago.
"And I mean every word I say." His warmth-radiating fingers on her jaws burnt her skin.
WARNING: This book contains strong language, dubious situations, deception issues, manipulations, abduction and dark romance.
Basahin
Chapter: Author's note. Author's note. I know the last chapter has ended on several cliffhangers. With Radhika's suspicious and dubious thoughts about Uzair’s personality. The shades he carried in himself. With uncle's arrival, the main truth unrivalled at last, inversely the last chapter served as the foreshadowing of what's to come next in book three. The third part of the book will soon be available on my GoodNovel profile, so don’t forget to check it out! I can’t express how thankful I am for your incredible support, love, and patience throughout this journey. There were countless moments where I felt completely broken while writing this story, but your encouragement kept me going. I’m beyond grateful for that. Your reviews, likes, and comments have been a constant source of motivation, pushing me to keep writing. As we move forward, I truly hope you enjoyed this book. Your passion and support mean the world to me, and it’s because of readers like you that I continue to grow as an author. I pro
Huling Na-update: 2024-10-24
Chapter: Stillness of Dread. Stillness of Dread. “It has been a week,” Radhika breathed the words out. “Almost a week of nothing being the same anymore, however.” Almost a week had passed with the presented information she had no hint of before about her own life till she was made aware of it. It has been a week since she had her worst mental breakdown for the first time. A week has passed since there were ineffable emotions she felt that were difficult to understand by herself. A week, after her acceptance of the facts, led to another set of questions that did not quite sit well with her. “A week..” she murmured. A week since she last saw Uzair.. She placed her hand on her chest, closing her eyes. It gave a sudden jolt, thinking of him. She did not trust him, not fully; she could not. Not at all. But she was trying to. Everything was so different now. Or perhaps nothing was the same anymore. All her life she lived with the truth that was never complete to begin with. Even after knowing the truth about eve
Huling Na-update: 2024-10-24
Chapter: 31– His ineffable anger. 31– His ineffable anger. “Our opinions only matter to others as long as they agree to it. Otherwise, they are just words without meaning.”–Saumya Tripathi A week later. Last day of the week.Precise: a day before the departure to Dubai. Uzair was in the middle of a last meeting of the day before he left when he felt the vibration of the phone in the underside pocket of his suit jacket. He ignored it, seemingly sensing nothing significant that could not wait. With that thought in his mind, he gazed at the screen in front of him, projecting the launch of another product presented to him for approval regarding its favourable opportunity and innovative ideas for fruitful results.“Tell me if you have any other ideas of its launch date. Which would be the best day for it to let it out in the market?”“Inform the HR team before any further procedures.”“Yes, President!”His phone rang again while it continued to vibrate; without giving it a second thought, he let it. He ignored it once
Huling Na-update: 2024-10-24
Chapter: Bound by Obsession. Bound by Obsession. They both froze at her sudden whisper. Confused about how those words made out of her mouth without trying, her eyes instantly widened. It took him a moment to realise how much it would have taken for her to say what she just did. Because it was far from her gullible and apprehensive state, which she always felt while he was near her. It was none other than her honest side. “It has been your room since childhood.”Her eyes became wider as his insinuated statement. “Oh? I used to live here?” “Very much so. You were stubborn, wanting to have this room as your own.”“Was I always drawn to this garden as well?”Squeezing her a little between his arms, he replied. “This garden was precisely made for you on your instruction.”“Wasn't I too small for that?”He gave a light laugh before starting. “You were. You saw it in a cartoon, desiring to have the same garden for yourself. So, here we are.”She lightly gasped at his nonchalant reply. For once, her mind was empty;
Huling Na-update: 2024-10-23
Chapter: A Vow of Protection. A Vow of Protection. She barely gave a nod. Swallowing the lump, she stuttered out, “Will he be okay if-if I don't try..?” She trailed with a trembling voice. More scared thinking about happening something like that again to her uncle. “As long as you don't put your life in danger. No one will get hurt.” He nodded her way, giving a curt nod. “I will make sure he is,” gently cupping her hands, he initiated. “He probably is in danger all the time.”“I will make sure that he will be looked after.” She gazed up at him with her large, innocent, hesitating eyes. Asking him as if he was really telling the truth. “I will not let anyone harm him either.” Her gaze moved before she let her head fall back on her knees. His heart fluttered in his chest at her hopeful look. Indeed, she was his only weakness; he could not afford to have her hurt herself. “No matter the hardships, I promise to keep you and your family safe by standing by your side through the adventure of our lives,” he vowed
Huling Na-update: 2024-10-23
Chapter: Shattered Calm: His Unexpected Rage. Shattered Calm: His Unexpected Rage. “Let me clarify two things for you,” he uttered at a slow pace.A chill sliced her ribs.“One, I did not take away your freedom. It's the people who treat other people's lives so carelessly. It's their own greed that other people's lives don't matter while the said people could do nothing but take refuge wherever they can to save their lives.”At his brutal grip and harsh words, Radhika couldn't muster up the strength to retort to that. “Two, neither have I taken anything away from you. Only I know how much effort I am making to control myself because your accusations have no facts! They are just plainly stating unreasonable remarks and nothing else! Have I ever lied to you about anything?”“Do you think telling a lie isn't the only way to trick people?”Uzair slightly flinched at her cold gaze. She never looked at him like that before. “No.” She answered her own question. “Telling half-truths can trick people into having false assumptions just
Huling Na-update: 2024-10-23
HIS DARKEST SHADE (BOOK-THREE)
“Don't test my patience. I have been very calm with you.”
“I don't want anything from you. Leave me!” Tears stung in the corner of her eyes as she endured the pain he was inflicting on her. “Nothing! I want nothing from you!”
“It is not up to you now. Is it?”
“It is!”
“Then you know nothing. Let me remind you of something,” he eyed her coldly. “I cannot let you flee because you don't want to stay here. I have made a promise to keep you and your brother safe. And I will.” She reared back. “No matter if you want it or not,” he was purely vicious with the words he was using. “I might scare you but they are very much formidable, vicious and willing to do to avenge whatever it takes,” he gestured to her trembling figure through his roaming eyes, “with that.”
“Never,” she shook her head. “I am not scared of your words. You are just trying to scare me with your words to make me listen to you!”
“Oh?” leaning forward, he almost shouted in her face, “I am not just trying to scare you. No. I am speaking the truth that you are willing enough to neglect!”
She shook her head violently, her thoughts pushing any logical facts away in her state. She was unwilling to listen to whatever he had to say even when somewhere she knew he was right. Just because he thought if he could use force on her, she would adhere to him? No! She was stronger than he thought she was!
“I don't belong to anyone. You don't have to take–”
“You belong to me.
”WARNING: This book contains strong language, dubious situations, deception issues, manipulations, abduction and dark romance.
Basahin
Chapter: 35—A Feeling She Couldn't Shake.35—A Feeling She Couldn't Shake."The degree or level of pain is different for everybody. You cannot compare it with anybody else through your own depiction of it."—Saumya Tripathi. "I don't like this." She frowned. "No matter how much I try brushing it off, it keeps bothering me."A pause."Honestly... sometimes my instincts frighten me more than the possibilities themselves."Radhika couldn't help herself from voicing how she felt without even realizing it."Radha? What are you mumbling about?" Suddenly she heard Sabba questioning her. Later she realized she was audible. "Huh? Oh. It's just... there's this feeling." She hesitated, pressing her lips together."Tell me. You know you can trust me, right?"She gulped. Opening up had never been easy for her, but she did trust her. Although, the words sat heavily in her throat, refusing to come out. "Hey."When Radhika finally looked up, Sabba smiled softly."You don't have to explain it perfectly. Just tell me what's going on. What'
Huling Na-update: 2026-06-04
Chapter: A Strange Premonition. A Strange Premonition. The sight alone sent unease curling through her stomach. Somehow, his mere presence seemed to dominate the entire surroundings without him even moving. Her fingers tightened unconsciously. Sabba nudged Radhika lightly, trying to grab her attention. Blinking out of her thoughts, Radhika finally looked at her. “Someone seems awfully busy staring, hmm?” Sabba teased with a knowing wink. “Very unusual, I must say.” Heat rushed almost instantly to Radhika’s face at the accusation. “Don’t worry, mate. I’m not judging.” Sabba winked again, looking far too amused by her flustered expression. Mortified at being caught so obviously distracted. Had she really been staring that openly? Radhika quickly looked away, silently praying the warmth spreading across her cheeks would fade soon enough. “At least pretend to listen when I’m talking,” Sabba huffed dramatically. Blinking, she said, “I am. I am.” “Anyway, forget that,” Sabba continued excitedly. “Did you know
Huling Na-update: 2026-05-30
Chapter: A Heart Full of Tiny Steps. A Heart Full of Tiny Steps. Later in the day. Four thirty in the afternoon.Radhika sauntered alongside the group of women with hurried steps, keeping pace as best as she could. Beside her, Shaur rested happily in Neelam aunty’s arms while she pushed the stroller he currently seemed to despise. The little boy was far too delighted bouncing in her lap to tolerate sitting still for long.A smile tugged helplessly at Radhika’s lips at the sight. Watching him happy was something she doubted she would ever grow used to. It warmed something deep inside her every single time.It was hard to believe he had already begun learning how to jog. These days, setting him down on the floor felt less like letting him walk and more like releasing a tiny whirlwind into the world. With his unsteady toddling steps and endlessly curious eyes, he could wander anywhere in the blink of an eye.And just like now, even from the safety of Neelam aunty’s lap, he squirmed impatiently, eager to get down and roam
Huling Na-update: 2026-05-28
Chapter: Borrowed Warmth. Borrowed Warmth. “One week from now!” Neelam aunty gushed excitedly, her eyes sparkling with anticipation over the surprises she had planned. “There are going to be so many surprises for them. I simply cannot wait to see their faces when they receive the most awaited gift of their lives!” Radhika found herself grinning along with her. She was happy too. No—she was absolutely ecstatic. Over the past few months, she had unintentionally grown incredibly close to Neelam aunty, Sabba, and Zara. They were no longer just people she knew. Somehow, they had quietly become the family she now lacked. “You’re more excited than they are going to be,” Radhika found herself laughing from beside her. “Of course I am!” Neelam aunty defended dramatically. “Do you know how difficult it was to prepare all this secretly?” She gasped suddenly. “Imagine if someone accidentally ruins the surprise.” Neelam aunty pointed a warning finger immediately. “Don’t even joke about such terrible things.” “I
Huling Na-update: 2026-05-26
Chapter: Interrupted Peace. Interrupted Peace. A sharp breath escaped her lips before she inhaled slowly, forcing herself back to reality.Snapping herself out of her thoughts, she hurriedly looked away from him, only to realize how long her gaze had lingered.Heat immediately crept across her cheeks, much to her embarrassment.She blinked repeatedly, trying to rid herself of the image of him lingering stubbornly inside her mind.What was wrong with her?She gently shook her head, trying to dismiss the unsettling thoughts crowding her mind.She only wanted him gone.Yes. That had to be it.What else could it possibly be?She just wanted him to leave her alone in peace. But apparently, he had other ideas.Because despite how direct she had been, he still didn’t move a muscle.“How about no?” he drawled lazily. “Doesn’t that sound exciting to you?”The audacity of him to refuse her so casually left her momentarily speechless.“No. It doesn’t.”That only earned a low chuckle of amusement from him.“Little one, I t
Huling Na-update: 2026-05-22
Chapter: Poisoned Silence. Poisoned Silence. His presence came with memories she never wanted to relive again. With a heavy heart, she could do nothing but endure them.Avoiding him was impossible now, and perhaps that frightened her the most. Whether she liked it or not, reality had already returned to stand before her.There was no escaping the truth anymore.And his arrival had disturbed everything.Since the ominous day he arrived, her peace had slowly begun slipping away from her. His unwelcome presence in her room, the cruel sneers twisting across his face, the taunts thrown at her and even Shaur alike—every bit of it chipped away at her ability to remain unaffected.It became intolerable after a point. Frightening, even.It was suffocating. Disturbing.Some days, merely thinking about him was enough to leave her drained. His presence lingered over her thoughts like a shadow she could never fully outrun. Even the quietness of the room no longer comforted her the way it once had.It was infuriating.The d
Huling Na-update: 2026-05-18
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