Hate to love you: The star's forbidden obsession
There are only three things Zayden Mercer cares about:
Winning.
Protecting his younger brother.
And never letting anyone discover what he really is.
As captain of the Arctic Wolves, Zayden has built himself into UCLA’s perfect hockey prince. Disciplined. Untouchable. Admired.
A lie held together by pressure, fear, and self-control.
Then there’s Ronan Devereaux.
The Northstars captain is everything Zayden despises—arrogant, beautiful, filthy rich, and born an S-class alpha without even trying. Wherever Ronan goes, attention follows. Omegas fall at his feet. Coaches worship him.
And worst of all?
Ronan enjoys breaking Zayden apart.
When Ronan discovers Zayden’s twisted secret obsession, their rivalry turns into something darker. More intimate. More dangerous.
Because Ronan doesn’t expose him, he keeps him.
What starts as blackmail spirals into a brutal game of control, humiliation, obsession, and desire neither of them can escape.
And somewhere between the fights, the blood, and the lies, Zayden realizes the person ruining his life may also be the only one who truly sees him.
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Chapter: New routine: RecoveryST. DOMINIC'S HOSPITALDoctor Grant's OfficeZAYDENIt's been two days since I got Kael's call.Two days of wondering. Two days of guessing what had gone wrong out there.I'd gotten so bored my fingers actually itched.Doctor Leslie had seized my phone the moment I woke up, claiming it was to prevent me from hearing bad news that might worsen my mood and impede my healing.Truthfully, the quiet helped.But it also gave my thoughts far too much room to wander.I couldn't work or write a single line of code.If he wouldn't even let me touch my phone, then getting a laptop was definitely out of the question.All I could do was lie here.Doctor Leslie even brought me books, but they didn't help much.I wasn't used to having this much free time on my hands.Previously, I was always moving. Training, studying, working, anything. Always doing something.Having to stay hidden here like some dirty little secret was beginning to grate on my nerves.My eyes drifted to the clock again.Three in t
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Chapter: Please, preserve his spotRONANMy heart pounded erratically against my chest.There was no denying it. Things were not looking good for Zayden.But I couldn't fall apart now. I had to hold the fort for him here.I had to make sure everything remained smooth enough for him to step back in once he returned. While he focused on recovering.A low hiss escaped my lips, and I clenched my fists tightly.“Coach, the match next weekend... we can say that Zayden already has lots of clubs showing interest in him. So, we're giving the other Arctic Wolves members a chance to showcase their skills.”I paused briefly. “I also won't compete. That will make the excuse more believable.”Coach turned toward me, his interest clearly piqued.“As for the one in two weeks... he should have recovered considerably by then.”“His health has always been great. He recovers faster than normal alphas.”I took a short breath, carefully choosing my next words, fingers instinctively curling into fists. “Furthermore, the injury is on his left
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Chapter: Can't keep things a secret.RONANThe moment I stepped into the office, the coach, who had already made it behind his desk, spun toward me and exploded.“What was that? Why am I just hearing about this now?”His eyes locked onto mine with frightening intensity. “Damon's on your team...”“Why's everyone blaming me?” I fired back without hesitation.I wasn't the type to let anyone shove me around.Normally, I treated our coach with the utmost respect because he'd earned it over the years.But I wasn't about to let anyone pin a twisted crime on my forehead simply because I wore the captain's badge.“He's a grown-ass adult who decided to act up. Now it's suddenly my fault because I'm the captain?”The coach inhaled sharply.For the briefest instant, surprise flashed across his face. He probably hadn't expected me to answer so forcefully.I wasn't particularly a nice person. Nor was I anyone's punching bag.Hell, even my old man back home caught my temper whenever he crossed the line.Most people couldn't even get cl
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Chapter: Are they really brothers?RONANMy heart lurched, unease settling heavily in my chest.Coach was someone who believed in fairness above everything else.Suggesting another teammate be dismissed for selfish reasons would only make him suspicious of Zayden.This idiot really only knew how to create trouble.“Is that what Zayden wants too?”Even though I was eavesdropping from outside the office door, I could hear the disappointment woven into the coach's voice.And beneath it was something even harsher, suspicion.Kael, that idiot, wasn't actually going to walk straight into the trap and implicate Zayden now, was he?“I've not seen my brother for three days. When would he even have the chance to tell me anything?”Kael let out a frustrated groan. A second later, I heard the muffled sound of someone collapsing onto the sofa.“My brother has been missing since that day. I can't find him. I...” His voice cracked.The words caught in his throat as though he were desperately swallowing back the tears threatening to s
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Chapter: Kick them out, coachRONANThe coach stood rooted before the doorway, both fists clenched so tightly the veins stood out along the backs of his hands.His face had gone pale. His chest rose and fell in hard, uneven breaths.Rage blazed in his eyes with such intensity that even the air around him seemed to grow heavier. “What did you just say?”His voice dropped so low it was almost a growl, his nostrils flaring. “You did what to Zayden?”I instinctively retreated deeper into the locker room and immediately pointed at Damon, my eyes widening. “It wasn't me. It was him. I would never do something like that.”Damon had frozen where he stood.His mouth hung slightly open.The fury that had consumed his face moments ago had melted into unmistakable apprehension.Good. That was exactly what he got for being so mule-headed.“Coach...” Damon whispered, his lips turning noticeably pale.The coach's gaze swept slowly between Damon and me.It lingered on each of us for several long seconds before settling back on me
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Chapter: I insist on pushing onRONANFor a fleeting moment, rage surged through my veins like molten lava.Every instinct screamed at me to close the distance between us, wrap my hand around his throat, and squeeze until he could no longer spit out another word of trash.Make him pay bitterly? That was exactly what you deserved, you bastard.Damon was the one who had broken Zayden's hand.Or rather, he had worsened an injury that already existed after whatever the hell had happened that day.Anyone in Kael's position would have wanted revenge.Anyone would have been furious.So how dare he stand there in front of me, acting like he was the victim?Like he was the wronged party?I slowly drew in a deep breath before turning to face him.“Zayden is UCLA's star player. Do you think the school will stay quiet if they discover you intentionally aggravated his injury to render him incapable of playing?”A long hiss escaped between my teeth as I dragged a hand roughly through my hair.The frustration I was struggling to c
Terakhir Diperbarui: 2026-07-26
Chapter: Ch. 022 Cracks formingRYKERThe room was cold, colder than I remembered, and tidied. It appeared someone had gotten inside to clean it. The room was called mine but never felt like it. Perhaps, it was because deep down, I recognized it for what it was. A giant gilded cage with an air con and soft bed. After a quick trip to the bathroom to wash up, I opened my laptop to continue my work. My mind drifted to Summer, I didn't call her tonight. It was already so late. It must be almost morning in Hong Kong. Let's wait a few more hours. My fingers flew over the key pads, going through the slides and messages I had missed. I need to make a trip to the office, maybe tomorrow. I've stayed out of Zero tech holdings for more than a week now. Even with competent staff driving the boat, I still know nothing beats overseeing things yourself. Howard's move to botch our new chip development meant he had someone working on the inside, and that person needed to be found and flushed out. He must be furious because of the s
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Chapter: Ch. 021 Acting strange, like a lost puppyRYKERI had barely crossed the threshold when I heard the sound of running feet. My eyes moved towards the stairs while I extended the car keys to a maid waiting by the door. It was Zarek Lachlan. He rushed to me. I tried to draw back, but he was already holding my arm. His face lit up, eyes filled with genuine joy and relief. “You're home.”I scoffed, lips curling. “What? You thought I would run away. You sure know your own nature.”He shook his head, totally missing the sharp insults hidden in my second sentence. “It's not like that. I wasn't thinking you would run away.”The expression on his face let me know even he wasn't so sure of what he was spouting. “If I want to leave, I will just move. No need to sneak around or run like a fugitive. You're not so powerful that I will run away in fear when you approach.” My tone was harsh and grating, but he nodded, totally not minding my attitude. He clutched my arm, the smile on his face made me sneer. He looked like a teenage girl ou
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Chapter: Ch. 020 Please don't run awayZAREK 1:00 P.M [Eleven hours earlier] My eyes were fixed on the slide, watching for flaws. Two assistants stood behind me, pens moving in silence. Beside the slide, an omega man stood, giving the presentation. His voice was steady but faint tremors could be seen on his hand. For gatherings such as these, I’ve always tried my best to keep my aura and pheromones restrained to avoid affecting the staff. People outside call me demon, forgetting that the demon they spoke about ran most of the organizations that offered equal compensation and favorable working conditions for everyone in the ABO system. Some omegas earn way higher than alphas in my companies, depending on how well they discharged their duties. Numbers didn’t care about rank. “The fifth slide…” The man’s breath caught, his face going pale as if I was going to eat him alive. His throat worked. Before I could point out my observation or request a correction, my personal phone rang. My brows furrowed. Few people knew thi
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Chapter: Ch. 019 HypocriticalRYKER Rage was the first emotion that hit my heart the moment I heard their absurd suggestion. Hot and fast, scorching the inside of my chest. Then embarrassment followed right behind it, crawling up my neck and burning my ears. “You’re really treating me like a gigolo, aren’t you?” I spat the words out, eyes blazing. My voice came out rougher than I meant it to. Japheth chuckled and spread his arms wide, like he was offering me the world. “Come on, what’s so strange about that? He’s your husband for fuck’s sake. If you don’t take advantage of him, is he supposed to give it out to other people? Just ask him to sponsor. His money is now shared marital assets.” “Shared marital assets?” I gasped, half anger, half disgust. His absurd suggestion was biting hard on my nerves, teeth sinking deep. Me, beg Zarek for a favor? That wolf dog would finally find a leverage to keep me shackled, like some lowly consort waiting for scraps. I would never give him that kind of power over me. Not
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Chapter: Ch. 018 Absurd suggestionRYKERMy eyes drifted shut, and I inhaled a ragged breath. I cut the call, and set my phone to silence. A strong stomp to Caelum's foot followed. He howled in pain and turned the other side, doubling over as he shook his leg, still laughing beneath the pain. “For the final time, he's not my husband.” I spat through gritted teeth. “This is just a temporal arrangement till I figure out better ways to keep my sister out of harm's way.”Japheth sneers. Malik laughs. Most of them didn't seem to believe me. “Who knows, you might end up,” Toby gestures with two fingers in the air. “Falling in love.”“Pah!” I almost choked on my drink, then I burst into laughter, slapping my thighs, shoulders quaking with mirth. “Me…” I pointed to myself, lips curled. “Fall in love with Lachlan?”I laughed some more and shook my head. “You really have a taste for bland humour.”The omega hostess brought a plate of the roasted chicken, and pulled a stool beside me and placed it on it. Then she squatted bes
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Chapter: Ch. 017 Best place to be—homeRYKERReluctantly, I began to wash the pots and dishes. I loved my place sparkling clean. Taking out the trash followed, then sorting through my wardrobe. Just my bad habits at work. It didn't need much touch up. Once I was satisfied that everything was perfect. I turned on the air con, kicked off my shoes and dived into my bed. Within seconds, I was knocked out, sleeping with such comfort and happiness that I never felt in Zarek's castle. This was the difference between home and prison. A prison was still a prison, no matter how luxurious it appeared to be. My ringtone was what woke me up. I yawned, hating the idiot that interrupted my heavenly nap. I pulled the blanket over my head and tried to go back to sleep. The caller was persistent, causing the phone to ring over and over. “Which mother fucker is this?” My hand reached for the phone, simultaneously kicking the blanket aside. It was Caelum. I should have known. The idiot was the only one thick headed enough to invade my per
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