Chapter 4

Alexander: Angel... this kind of gift is very rare, this side of me is new too, but I only have to think of what I want to say to you and you hear it just like I hear your thoughts. And since I touched you three days ago at the Estate, I hear all your thoughts, but I know that right now you can't control it, but we'll learn together, okay? As for the rest, ask me whatever questions you want and if I know the answer, I'll tell you, and for what I don't know, well, we'll find it out together. And please keep calling me Xander, you're the only one who has the right, no matter what others say.

Angel: Say?

Alexander: I've always forbidden it, I never allowed anyone, but coming from you…

Angel: But… but… but…

Alexander: Angel, I refused because it's too intimate, but you're mine and I'm yours.

Angel: Okay, I think I'm not hungry anymore, I'm not used to eating so much.

He looked at me adoringly, and I felt a lump form in my throat. I glanced down at my legs and noticed she was naked from my thighs to my toes. The rest of my body was covered only by a white linen shirt that was much too big for me. I swallowed hard.

Angel: You undressed me? But... but... but... for... what?

Alexander: I had to clean your wounds on your back, and I took the opportunity to give you a bath...

I looked at him, panicking, and felt myself go pale. Without being able to stop it, a tear rolled down my cheek. He caught it with his thumb and wiped it away.

Alexander: Nothing else happened, I promise you, okay, but I refused to entrust you to someone you'd never... felt, so to speak.

Angel: We didn’t… do anything, I… we… common sense…

I buried my face in my hands and burst into tears. I felt him lift me up and cradle me against him.

Alexander: Cry, Angel, if it makes you feel better, I’m here, I’ve got you.

I clung to his shoulders and was shaken by sobs I’d held back for too long. It took me a long time to calm down, but he stayed there, holding me close, strong as a rock.

Alexander: My Angel, I’m here for you now, whatever you need, okay?

Angel: I…

My ears were ringing, I swallowed hard, my throat was dry, a glass of cold water suddenly appeared in my hand and I looked at him, puzzled. How had he managed to get it without moving? Then I looked around, I was sitting on a counter near the sink, the ringing in my ears had prevented me from hearing the tap. I drank eagerly and placed the glass back on the counter.

Angel: I'm sorry, I think I wet your shirt.

He raised a mocking eyebrow and looked at his shoulder.

Alexander: You think so? I thought you were going to drown me!

For the first time in my life, I laughed. The sound was so incongruous that it made me jump. I stared at Xander, my eyes wide, and clapped my hands over my mouth.

He took them and brought them to his lips before saying,

Alexander: Don't stop yourself from laughing, Angel. On the contrary, it's wonderful that you can laugh after what you've been through.

I rested my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes.

Angel: Xander, I've never cried in front of anyone, I've never laughed before today, I've never felt anything before you. I would have been so sad if… thank you for not taking advantage of the situation while I was unconscious. I… I've never been… I still am…

Alexander: He never forced you?

Angel: No, he tried. He starved me and then promised me food if I slept with him, but I would have rather starved to death than give him that. It was the only thing I had left…

He kissed me on the forehead, waiting for me to continue.

Angel: The fact that you didn't take advantage of my vulnerability means so much to me, so thank you.

He stroked my arms and said,

Alexander: You don't have to thank me, Angel. I could never hurt you. Besides, the day I make love to you for the first time, I want you to be fully aware of what's happening, and above all, I want to hear you moan with pleasure.

My mouth was dry again. Good grief, this guy was making me lose my composure. Damn, we know each other for what? One day? No, that's right, he said he'd found me three days ago, but I'd barely woken up, and he was already flirting with me. Okay, I have to admit he interested me a lot. I didn't understand why, but maybe it was because of this connection I couldn't feel yet. But I knew I wanted to cuddle up to him, in his arms. I barely stopped myself from throwing myself against him. I looked at him and saw that he was looking at me intently. I then remembered that he had total access to my thoughts.

Angel: I’m really going to have to learn to limit my thoughts…

He smiled mischievously and said,

Alexander: Why? I really enjoy hearing what you’re thinking.

He moved closer to me and placed his hands on the counter on either side of me. His face drew near, and I couldn’t tear my eyes away from his lips.

Alexander: Don’t look at me like that, Angel, at least not now.

Angel: Like what?

Alexander: Like you want me to kiss you.

Angel: And why not now?

He sighed.

Alexander: Because I think if I kissed you now, I’m not sure that I’ll be able to stop, and, frankly, I’d like to wait until you have your wolf, so you know that you’re the only one for me, and I’m the only one for you.