LOGINAlora
“I’ll teach you to attack me and try to tell me what the fuck to do.” I hear an angry voice.
Then I’m grabbed by the hips, flipped over onto my stomach, my hips are pulled up, and then suddenly he is behind me shoving into me. I scream bloody mureder at the absolute agony of what he’s doing to me, but with the muzzle on me it’s just inarticulate sounds and nothing more.
“Fuck Bobby, you are hurting her, if you tear her apart she’s never going to be able to carry a pup.”
“She needs to know her fucking place, who the fuck cares. She’s an alpha, she’d never carry our pups anyway. So, now she’s only a hole, the fucking bitch.” He keeps thrusting, and the pain never ends. There’s warmth running down my legs.
Finally he finishes, and he throws me to the side. Then they all leave me here, closing a heavy metal door behind them. What the fuck is happening? I have something across my mouth and head. I feel back and there’s a latch and it has a padlock thing on it. I pull hard but I can’t break it, I can’t get this fucking thing off of me. Then I pull at the chain that is attached to the cement wall and ends with the metal collar that is fastened around our neck.
I hear howling and growling in my head, and then I can sense another presence in here with me. I am different, but I have no idea why. I am still so incredibly confused. I am laying in a puddle of blood, and my body is burning in agony. Soon though I can almost feel myself mending and healing. How the fuck am I healing so fast. I have to be going crazy, that’s the only explanation.
I hear a sound and turn and see a huge dog walking along outside the bars of my cage. I just watched it. It looks at me with eyes that glow a soft golden color. That doesn’t seem right to me. I mean I know animal’s eyes reflect the light and shit, but they don’t fucking glow like this.
As I am watching it lays down, and then the body starts to twitch and shift. The bones break and reform moving around until there’s no longer a big dog there but a naked man in its place. Okay, I am legitimately completely batshit. That’s the only possible explanation. Things like this don’t happen in real life.
He sits up and I recognize one of the men who were here earlier. I glare hate at him and he smirks at me, “So, now you know. You’re a wolf shifter. We bit you and tore you up plenty, you have to cause a lot of damage if you want to start the change. Most people die from it, but we saw you fight the other night. There was a man at the restaurant, he attacked you in the parking lot. You kicked his ass and banged his head against your car. We knew you would be a good candidate. I guess you were actually too good. We want females to breed to help grow our army. The Lakeside pack is taking us out, the fucking goody two shoes bastards. They can’t seem to let us just do what we want, no they come in and take the females we have here. So, now, we have you. Bobby says you’re a female alpha. I’ve never even heard of that. Only now, because of that you can’t be a breeder I guess. So now you get to just be a whore instead.” with that he walks out of the room, or dungeon, or what the fuck ever. I lean my head back on the ground just trying to absorb all that he said. It can’t possibly be real. I saw him though. I have this thing growling and pacing in my head. Is that my wolf or whatever. I hear whining and it seems like it’s telling me that yes, it’s my wolf. Damn, what the fuck do I do now?
Killian
I am sitting in my office going over some financials for the pack. We’re supposed to meet up in a bit. We have another rescue mission planned against the damn bastards that call themselves a pack. They steal women and force the change against their will. Then they keep them and rape them, trying to breed them. We have already managed to rescue about 5 women from them. However, the alpha and his 4 sidekicks have managed to evade us. We got a tip that they were going after another woman and that they had hole up in an abandoned bunker.
So, I am meeting with my beta, gamma, and our lead enforcer to plan our next move against these mother fuckers. I hear a knock and call for them to come in. My sister, Elizabeth, walks in and sits in a chair facing my desk.
“What’s up?” She’s looking at me funny and I have an inkling I know what she wants to talk about, yet again.
“You know what’s up. You are the alpha of the Lakeside pack. They depend on you. You need to find a mate and start working on pups so that they know their alpha has everything well in hand.”
“Liz, as soon as I find my mate, I will be more than happy to do that. However, what I will not do, what I will absolutely never do, is simply take a female, to pop out pups, that isn’t my mate. That has nothing but misery painted all over it. You know what happens to wolves who just mate with random wolves. They end up hating each other, and then if either of them find their mate it is an absolutely agonizing situation. I swore I would never do that, and I very much intend to stand by that. I need you to stop pushing me. I will do my duty when my mate comes along.”
She sighs, “Okay, I know, but I worry about you. Not to mention I am sick and tired of all of the females whispering in my ear about how good a mate they could be for you.”
I wrinkle my nose, “That’s so fucked up. They know better, they’re just power hungry, and I hate that so much. My mate is out there. I’ll find her, don't worry.”
KillianWe’d been moved into the house for about ten days now, and it seemed like it was going really well. She seemed more relaxed not being front and center around everyone all the time. She was still going to the packhouse to check in with people who were working there and asking how everyone was doing. She was trying to believe what their and her wolf told her about their reactions to her, and not just believing they were blowing smoke up her ass as she’d put it. She was starting to see that pack members truly did think about and care about other pack members. That was such a foreign concept to her that she was still trying to absorb it. My sister had been trying to be there for her while being understanding that she was a totally different person than our mother had been. So, she no longer tried to coach her in her “luna duties” as she put it. Alora had ended up asking about the other women in the pack who were expecting, and Elizabeth had introduced her to a couple. One girl w
AloraI was walking, okay waddling, next to Killian through a house he had wanted me to look at. He’d talk to me about us moving out of the packhouse to something more private, especially with the babies coming soon. I heard Mani echo pups, and wag her tail, and I chuckled to myself. I could never think if I should call them babies or pups, because I guess they were both. Apparently wolf shifter children were born as babies but could shift as early as five, but more often it was closer to seven. They would however already have their wolf; it just wouldn’t come all the way out until they were older. Dr. Martin had been trying to talk me into another ultrasound. He said he really needed to get a check on them and measure how far along everything was so he could pin an approximate date of arrival better. He wanted to make sure nothing was wrong. I knew Killian wanted to know the gender as well, so I was trying to figure out how to do this. The house was nice, it had a really nice kitch
KillianWe’d been home for a few days and I knew Alora was really trying. We’d had to remind everyone please not to just come up and touch her. They had a tendency to want to reach out and feel her belly, and it was freaking her out. Honestly, probably a lot of people would be freaked out about it, but as wolves, we were a touchy feely bunch all the time, but throw pups into it and we normally went nuts. There weren’t enough babies born really, so now it became a bigger thing, even though it’d always been greatly celebrated. I was actually thinking it might be a good idea for us to move out of the packhouse and be somewhere just us for a while. Not only would it keep her from being front and center with everyone so much, and at risk of stray touches, but it would give her more of the peace and quiet she seemed to often need. Also, we needed to set up for the pups to arrive, and that meant getting a nursery set up. I think she would feel better about that in our own home rather than
AloraI only have eight weeks left in the pregnancy. Only two more months until they will no longer be inside of me, so when he finds me and gets me, he won’t get them as well. So, now, I can see Killian is anxious to have me back at the pack. Part of that is because he’s afraid something will happen and it will take too long to get me to Dr. Martin in time. I have been thinking a lot over the last few days. He does so much for me. Do I think it’s wasted on us and there is no way in hell this will work out the way he wants. Yes, but that doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate what he does or what he has been trying to do. “We should go back to the pack. I know you’re anxious about me not being close to Dr. Martin with the babies or pups, whatever, being due in such a short time. So, let’s go back so you can relax. We’ll see how things go, but Killian, please don’t expect a lot from all of this. This is about them, not so much about me.” He looked at me for a few moments, and then nodded h
Alora I felt like a nutcase. I am sure I acted like one at least part of the time as well. I had been trying really hard to pull myself back from this ledge I had been teetering on for weeks now. It wasn’t that my fear really abated, but perhaps I was able to work around it some. I don't honestly know. It had still been hard when Siril mounted Mani, but it was easier to try and separate myself out from what was happening. Killian helped as well. Then when I felt the tell tale movement of a baby fluttering in my abdomen, I had to just stop and catch my breath. Then I knew Killian was worried so I explained my reaction. Seeing him get all emotional and happy over the baby or one of the babies moving, surprised me. Then he told me he just needed to hold me when I explained why it had caught me the way it had. It had actually ended up helping me, and I hadn’t been able to say that about touch much in my life. I do remember before things went to shit with the whole pregnancy thing, he’d
KillianWe were doing good and having a pretty good night, so I hoped what I was about to ask wouldn’t mess that up, “I don’t want to upset you, but I know you are feeling some of the same things I am. Siril wants out and I have a feeling Mani does as well. We haven’t let them be out together in a while now. Do you think you would be able to handle that? You know what happens when they are around each other. I mean they have a problem not being all over each other, so you know that’s what would happen.” She paused for a moment, and I saw her getting pushed by Mani and she rolled her eyes, “Okay, she’s now about to have a fit as she wants out so bad. I know she hasn’t been out other than when you commanded her to shift, but you weren’t able to let Siril out with her that night. So, she’s not the one who has issues with all of everything, it’s me. She won’t run on you or anything you already know that. I have to just get used to them being together, as I don’t know what else to do.” I
KillianWell, that was interesting to say the least. I think she shocked the shit out of everyone yet again. Not to mention, they keep expecting her to worry about what they think of her, and she honestly doesn’t give a fucking shit. She honestly doesn’t even care what I, her mate, thinks of her. In
AloraI grab his arm, “The same as before, we don’t alert him, as he isn’t the only one. He doesn’t know you heard, so is there a way to pull him away without alerting him to what you heard? We can rip him apart after we get all of his buddies with him.” I saw him grit his teeth, and he turned to l
AloraI was cycling between too many emotions to really get a handle on. I was reeling from being so triggered by the wolves mating. I knew Mani initiated that, but it still threw me into so much, but Killian was able to help me not completely lose my shit, but he didn’t keep me from falling apart
KillianAs she passes out and drops to the floor, her body twitches, so I have no idea if this is a flashback and her mind is overwhelmed and that’s why her eyes rolled back and she dropped, or if this is just a way her body has of shutting shit down if she gets severely triggered.I’m going to have







