LOGINCicero left the house the same day. By the time I got myself together and went in search of him, he had left.
Papa Ben explained that the NHL would be wrapping up in a couple of weeks. And if Cicero's team, the Islanders, wins their next game, they will qualify for the Stanley Cup finals, which will be coming up next month.
So, Cicero had to leave. He had already missed an important game last week, and his team members barely scraped through.
The truth stared at me. It must have taken him so much to sit by me all through the time I was at the hospital.
That must have been the reason he missed the game. What if the Islanders had lost the game?
Damn!
I decided to show my appreciation by following Papa Ben to the game three days later.
Before I got married, I used to follow up on all of Cicero’s games even though I detest seeing him on my screen.
But Hockey is a beast of a game, and I f*ckin love it.
But after my marriage, I stopped watching and even checking live scores. I stopped everything that would remind me of Cicero, deleting him everywhere around me.
…
We were already seated in a row right across the Islanders' bench before the game started.
Papa is seated comfortably with Lugo, Cicero's best friend. They are having a deep conversation that they didn't want me to listen to.
So, I focus my attention on the ice, biting down on my lips. Papa is wearing a jersey with Cicero's name and even offered me one before we left the house, but I turned him down.
... don't want the bastard thinking I'm a big fan of his.
The ice rink stretches out in front of me, like a vast, frozen lake, shimmering under the bright lights.
The scent of pastries and alcohol fills my nose, making my mouth water.
When the Islanders and Norton Beasts stepped out from the tunnel, a rush of loud cheers followed.
The crowd is riled with excitement. There are loud sounds of whistles, drums, trumpets, and singing.
Everyone is clamoring to be heard above the others.
In a few minutes, the game began. Colorful dots moved across the ice, the players’ skates scraped, and their sticks clacked as they played.
It’s a beauty to behold, and my heart races with excitement. Within the first few minutes, the Islanders get their first goal: a combined effort of Cicero and one of their wingers called Rufus.
"Get them!" I scream, clapping my hands and jumping to my feet absentmindedly.
"Pretty cool, huh?" Lugo asks, a big smile on his face. "Never knew you enjoyed the game this much."
Slowly, I sit back down and run my fingers across my forehead.
I have overreacted.
"Umm, it's a great game," I reply.
"Yes, it is. Makes me wonder why you haven't been coming around to watch Cicero in action."
I shrug. "Never had the time."
Papa taps my shoulder gently. "Now you have plenty of time to watch the game, Jane."
I turn to him and smile. "I guess so."
"Jane will be working in Ci's team pretty soon."
Lugo stared at me disbelievingly, "Tell me Papa isn't joking, Jane."
"He’s joking." I insist.
Food comes at that moment, and I thank God for the distraction. When the server left, Lugo didn't ask me any more questions.
I take a second bite of the tasty donut and focus on the game while the men continue talking. This time around, they switched to Italian.
Cicero chases down every loose puck, makes every pass with fucking perfect precision, and shoots every chance he gets.
I keep shouting and cheering him on, mindless of the people seated beside me. At some point, the Norton Beasts couldn't keep up.
The buzzer sounds for the first period, and that’s when his eyes caught me. He stands right there on the ice staring at me.
The effect of his gaze washes over me, and I swallow a donut bite whole without chewing it.
Goddamnit!
Then he smiles and walks away to meet the others. I let out a deep breath and took a sip of my soda.
When I turn to Lugo and Papa, Lugo is staring at me, a knowing smile on his face, while Papa is looking towards the ice.
"Norton team is doing so bad today." He sighs.
"They can't hold a stick close to Islanders, the real Beasts," Lugo replies. "They barely survived the playoffs. They've just been sailing on luck all this while." He adds.
In the second period, Cicero scores a goal. And then another, and another. He gets a hat trick, but that didn't seem to be enough for him.
With each goal, he'll turn to me with a smile. Papa will wave at him, and Lugo will scream his lungs out.
But the Starboy keeps his eyes on me all through.
Cicero keeps going. The crowd roars as he nears five goals. But the only person he seems to give a fuck about is me.
By the sixth goal, a double hat trick, I jump on the chair, screaming my lungs out. The energy in the arena is too intense. It’s electrifying.
So, when I stand up, shouting, I’m not the only one. But I’m still the only one Cicero sees when he blows a kiss.
The crowd is chanting his name, and when the buzzer goes off, signaling the end of the game, the Islanders are reigning supreme with 8:2 goals.
F*cking phenomenal!
He points to me and blows another kiss. Papa laughs and claps hard for his son. Same as Lugo, and it makes me wonder if they aren’t seeing what he’s doing.
Anyway, I hug Papa happily, and the older man laughs, tapping my back. "Had fun, Jane?"
"Too much fun, Papa."
We sit there and watch both teams leave the ice.
A few minutes later, Frank Hayley, Cicero’s manager, walks up to us. He greets Papa and Lugo and asks me to come with him because Cicero is asking for me.
"What?" I ask, turning to Papa for rescue, but he nods and points ahead.
"Go on, don't worry about me. I'll get home safe. Ci will bring you home, I guess."
"I-"
"Go on, Jane." Lugo cuts me off. "I'll take Papa home."
I don’t want to go to Cicero.
If he’s asking for me right after a game, then only God knows what he wants to do. And I really do not have the will to find out.
I open my mouth to tell Papa Ben that I want to go home with him instead, but Frank tugs my arm forcefully.
“We need to go,” he says with no pause, and starts dragging me forward even though he can feel me resisting.
“I don’t want to go,” I tell him.
He looks at me pitifully and shakes his head, “I can’t help you, Janelle. I need him focused, well-rested, and refreshed from now till Stanley's cup finals. I saw what your presence did to him today.”
“My presence did nothing.”
Frank chuckles, “Even a blind man would know those kisses weren’t for his fans.”
I try to wriggle my arm out of Frank's hold, and he frowns.
“Look, we need this win. I need this win. Cicero needs this win. This is the best he has been for a very long time. Do not mess it up for me. If he wants to see you, Janelle. You will see him and do whatever the fuck he asks of you.”
“What does he want from me?”
“The fuck do I know? Whatever it is, do it, keep him happy until finals. And maybe,” he turns me around d to face him. “…just maybe I’ll keep that little secret of yours.”
Shit!
Cicero left the house the same day. By the time I got myself together and went in search of him, he had left.Papa Ben explained that the NHL would be wrapping up in a couple of weeks. And if Cicero's team, the Islanders, wins their next game, they will qualify for the Stanley Cup finals, which will be coming up next month.So, Cicero had to leave. He had already missed an important game last week, and his team members barely scraped through.The truth stared at me. It must have taken him so much to sit by me all through the time I was at the hospital.That must have been the reason he missed the game. What if the Islanders had lost the game?Damn!I decided to show my appreciation by following Papa Ben to the game three days later.Before I got married, I used to follow up on all of Cicero’s games even though I detest seeing him on my screen.But Hockey is a beast of a game, and I f*ckin love it.But after my marriage, I stopped watching and even checking live scores. I stopped every
I leave Papa in the dining room and run back to my old bedroom, which, as strange as it might seem, is still intact, with the colors and sheets the same as when I left home, without a speck of dust.The housekeeper must be working overtime.Only a madman would take Cicero's threats lightly. I've lived in this godforsaken house with him long enough to know what he's capable of.If he said he'll send me a picture of Pius corpse, then he definitely will.I try Pius’ number again, and it’s still not reachable. I need to find another way to reach out to him.I haven't forgiven him for what he did to me, but that didn't mean that I wanted him dead.But it's disturbing that I can’t find any of his siblings' contact information in my phone anymore.At what point did I delete their…Suddenly, my body jolts hard as someone holds my neck and shoves my body against the wall close to the nightstand.His scent envelopes me, and I shut my eyes, knowing who it is."Cicero..." I breathe out, my face p
~Two weeks later~The drive from the airport back home was done in absolute silence.After calling Cicero, I don't know how he did it. But some men broke into my home to save me in less than fifteen minutes.Pius left me there and must have gone off to rack up more debts with the money he withdrew from my cards as his backup.The men who saved me took me to the hospital, where I spent two whole weeks. Cicero flew in the next day and stayed with me until I got discharged.Then he bundled me into the plane and brought me back home. All the while, Pius didn't bother to call.It made me wonder if he was wasted somewhere or if Cicero had gotten to him. If the latter were to be the case, then he would probably be dead by now.As we drive away from the Mayhaven airport, heading back home. I sit crunched to the farthest part of the limo while stealing glances at Cicero.Tired of the silence, I clear my throat and ask him. "Did you see Pius?"He turns to me with a frown. "If I did, you know w
•Janelle••~EIGHT MONTHS LATER~Walking into our living room, my heart breaks as I stare at Pius seated on the floor, close to the living room center table.He places some colored substances on the table, splitting them into tiny portions so that he can sniff them one after another.He sees me and laughs, looking up at me. His bloodshot eyes stare at me, and I swallow down the tightness in my chest."Pius?" I whisper.He promised he won't do this again.The last time, he broke my arm. And when I agreed not to tell Papa Ben, he swore not to ever go near the substance again, and stupid me believed him."Will you get more money from your father, Jane?" He asks in response to his name.I don’t bother answering him. I just stand there staring at him."Janelle!" He yells, startling me.I break into a sob. "We've taken so much money from him in just eight months of our marriage, Pius. I-I think it's too much already." I try to reason with him.He sniffs another line of the substance, then he
•Janelle••Cicero didn’t let go of me until we got to the VIP hallway of the hotel.The hotel belongs to my stepfather, Cicero's father, Benjamin Russo. And he let my fiancé, Pius, and me use most of the rooms for our wedding guests–one of his wedding presents to us.When Cicero was sure we were completely alone, he caged me against a wall, his gaze so fuckin interested.As always, he made me feel seen under his lens, his attention heady and super addicting.I twist a finger to balance my wedding dress properly before looking up to meet his gaze."Cicero," I whispered. "It's my wedding day, Pius is waiting. I have to go..."He closed his eyes as if he were in pain. "Can't get over the way you say my name, sweet Nell."I absorbed the tenor of his voice, fear washing over me as I wondered if he would ever let me go. I never thought he would come to the wedding, not after I threatened to tell his father what he was making me do.His gaze caressed my skin, leaving goosebumps in its wake.







