LOGIN~Bonnie
I stayed pinned against the door, back flat to the wood, skirt hiked up just enough that the pink lace must have been showing at the edges. My breath came short and shallow, chest rising and falling under the tight crop top. The cleavage he’d pushed up earlier looked even more obscene now, nipples hard against the thin fabric from the cool air, or from him. Professor Marcellus didn’t touch me yet. He just stood there, inches away, eyes roaming slowly. Down my bare stomach, over the hem of the skirt, back up to my face. He tilted his head slightly, like he was studying a passage in one of his books. “You took the long way,” he said quietly. Not a question. I nodded. “You asked.” A small smile tugged at the corner of his mouth. “I did.” He reached past me again, same motion as before but this time his forearm brushed the side of my breast as he turned the lock a second time, double checking. The click sounded final. No interruptions. No escape. He stepped back half a pace, giving me just enough room to breathe, but not enough to move without brushing against him. “Turn around,” he said. Voice low. Calm. The same tone he used in lectures when he wanted the whole room to listen. I turned slowly, palms pressing flat against the door for balance. My ass pushed out a little from the motion, the skirt was so short it barely covered the bottom curve. The pink string would be visible now, thin straps framing everything. He made a soft sound behind me, almost a hum of approval. “Hands on the door. Higher.” I lifted them, fingers splaying above my head. The crop top rode up further, exposing more of my midriff. “Good girl.” The words landed low in my belly, same as yesterday. Heat pooled between my legs so fast I had to press my thighs together. He stepped closer again. I felt his body heat at my back before anything else. Then his hands, both of them settled on my hips, thumbs hooking under the waistband of the skirt. Not pulling it down. Just holding. “You wore it,” he murmured, his breath warm against my ear. “The pink.” “Yes, Professor.” His fingers tightened. “Show me.” I swallowed. “Show you…?” “Lift the skirt. Slowly.” My heart slammed so hard I thought he could hear it. I reached down with one hand, keeping the other on the door and gathered the pleated fabric inch by inch. The material bunched at my waist, cool air hitting the bare skin of my ass, the thin pink string running between my cheeks. He exhaled sharply behind me. “Beautiful,” he said, almost to himself. His right hand slid down, palm flat against my ass cheek, fingers splaying wide. He squeezed once, firm, possessively then traced the lace strap with his thumb, following it down where it disappeared. I bit my lip to keep from moaning. “You sent the photos,” he continued, voice rougher now. “You knew what you were doing by coming here today.” “I… wanted you to see.” His thumb hooked under the string at the back, tugging lightly. Not enough to snap it. Just enough to make me arch. “And now I want to feel it,” he said. “Every inch.” He spun me around, quick, controlled so my back was against the door again. Face to face. His eyes were darker than I’d ever seen them, pupils blown wide. One hand came up to cup my jaw, thumb brushing my lower lip. “Tell me to stop, Bonnie,” he said quietly. “Say the word and this ends. Right now.” I looked up at him. I saw the scar along his jaw, the faint line of the tattoo peeking above his collar, the way his beard framed that dangerous calm. I shook my head. “Don’t stop.” His mouth crashed down on mine. Hard. Hungry. No hesitation. I kissed him back just as fierce, hands flying to his shirt, fingers curling into the fabric. His tongue pushed past my lips, claiming, tasting like coffee and control. One hand slid into my hair, gripping at the roots, tilting my head exactly how he wanted. The other hand dropped to my thigh, hitching my leg up around his hip. The skirt bunched higher. His fingers dug into the soft flesh just under my ass, pulling me tighter against him. I felt how hard he was, thick, insistent, pressing against my stomach through his trousers. He broke the kiss first, breathing ragged. His forehead pressed to mine. “The pink,” he rasped. “I told you I’d rip it off.” His hand slid between us, down the front of my skirt, fingers finding the lace at the front. He hooked two under the thin strip covering me, tugged once, sharp. The fabric gave a soft rip. I gasped into his mouth. He smiled against my lips. “That’s better.” Then his fingers were there, sliding through the wetness he’d already caused, circling slowly. I moaned, head falling back against the door. “Quiet,” he whispered, free hand covering my mouth gently but firmly. “We’re alone… but sound carries.” His fingers pushed inside, two at once, curling just right. My knees buckled. He caught me with his body, pinning me harder to the door. “Stay with me,” he said against my ear. “We’re just getting started.” And then he moved, slow at first, then faster, working me open while his thumb found my clit and pressed. I came apart against his hand in under a minute, biting down on his palm to muffle the cry. He didn’t stop. He just kept going, drawing it out until I was shaking, tears in my eyes from the intensity. When he finally pulled his fingers free, he brought them to my lips. “Clean them.” I opened my mouth without thinking. Tasted myself on him. Salty. Sweet. He watched me the whole time, eyes burning. “Good girl,” he said again. Then he stepped back, just enough to give me air. “Sit on the desk,” he ordered. “Legs open. We’re going to discuss Bataille properly now.” I obeyed, legs trembling as I hopped up, skirt still bunched at my waist, torn pink lace dangling uselessly. He sat in his chair, rolled it forward between my thighs, and looked up at me. “Start reading,” he said, handing me the book from yesterday. “From where you left off. And don’t stop. No matter what I do.” I opened the page with shaking hands. He leaned in. And his mouth replaced his fingers. I read the first line out loud, and lost my voice on a moan. He pulled back just enough to look up at me, lips glistening, eyes dark and locked on mine. My legs were still shaking from the first wave, spread wide on the edge of his desk, skirt bunched uselessly at my waist, torn pink lace dangling like a ruined flag. I was dripping, messy, shameless and he knew it. His mouth returned without warning, harder this time. He sucked my clit between his lips, tongue flicking fast and relentless, pulling a sharp cry out of me before I could bite it back. One hand gripped my thigh, holding me open, the other slid up, fingers pressing at my entrance. Two fingers first, thick, curling deep then he added the third without slowing down. Three fingers stretching me, pumping hard, fast, the wet sound filling the quiet office. He didn’t let up, sucking harder on my clit while his fingers fucked into me, curling against that spot that made my vision blur. I grabbed his hair, hips bucking against his face, chasing the burn. My moans turned into broken gasps, too loud, too desperate but he didn’t tell me to be quiet this time. He just went harder, sucking and thrusting like he wanted to ruin me for anyone else. The pressure built fast, too fast. My thighs clamped around his head, body arching off the desk as I came again, harder than before. I clenched around his fingers, soaking his hand, shaking so violently the books on the shelf rattled. He didn’t stop right away. He kept sucking softly through the aftershocks, fingers slowing but staying deep, drawing out every last tremor until I was whimpering, oversensitive, pushing weakly at his shoulders. Finally he pulled back, lips swollen, chin wet. He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, eyes never leaving mine. He stood slowly, fingers still inside me, giving one last lazy curl before sliding them free. I whimpered at the emptiness. He leaned over me, one hand braced beside my head, the other cupping my jaw, thumb tracing my lower lip. “Are you a virgin, Bonnie?” he asked, voice rough, low, almost gentle. I laughed, breathless, shaky. “Not even close.” He smiled then slowly, dark, satisfied. The kind of smile that said he’d known the answer but wanted to hear it anyway. “Good,” he murmured, brushing his thumb over my swollen lips. “Because I’m nowhere near done with you.” He straightened, eyes raking down my body, crop top askew, breasts heaving, skirt still up, thighs slick and trembling. “Get on your knees,” he said quietly. “We’re not finished discussing Bataille yet.” I slid off the desk on unsteady legs, dropping to the floor in front of him, heart pounding all over again. He stepped closer, belt buckle glinting in the lamplight. “Open,” he ordered. I did.BonnieThe door to my room burst open without a knock.Colette stood in the doorway with her arms spread wide and a grin on her face that could have powered the entire neighborhood. She was wearing pajama pants covered in tiny pizza slices and a t shirt that said I'm not arguing I'm just explaining why I'm right. Her hair was a wild mess of dark curls and she looked like she had just run up the stairs at full speed."I am bored," she announced."You have been here for less than forty eight hours.""Four hours is a lifetime. I need entertainment. I need stimulation. I need you."I looked up from my book. "Me?""You. I need you to talk to me. To tell me things. To be my friend."I set the book down. "I am your friend.""Then prove it. Tell me something about yourself that no one else knows."I thought about it. There were so many things no one else knew. The real things. The dark things. The things I could never tell her."I used to be afraid of the dark," I said."That is not a secret.
MarcellusThe sweet smell of bacon woke me.I opened my eyes and blinked at the ceiling. Sunlight was streaming through the curtains. I had not slept this well in months...maybe years. The house was warm and the sheets were soft and for a moment I forgot about everything. The wedding...the secrets... Bonnie.Then I heard Colette's voice from downstairs."Mum! Can I crack the eggs? Please please please please please."Clarissa laughed. "Yes. You can crack the eggs. But be careful. No shells in the bowl.""I am an expert egg cracker. I have been cracking eggs since I was five. I am basically an egg cracking professional."I smiled. The sound of her voice was like sunlight and It filled the house and It made everything feel lighter.I got out of bed and pulled on a shirt and jeans before walking downstairs. The kitchen was chaos. Flour was on the counter, a bowl of eggs was on the table. Colette was standing at the stove with a spatula in her hand. She was wearing an apron that said K
BonnieEveryone had gone to bed hours ago. My mother was asleep in the master bedroom, Colette and Jude in their various rooms. Actually they really did love their new rooms and Jude smirked and I knew we had clearly outdone yourself since someone that gard to crack could give up so much emotion.I should have been asleep too. But I could not close my eyes. Every time I tried I saw Marcellus. The way he had looked at me in the living room. The way he had said thank you for being you. The way his eyes had lingered on my face like he was memorizing every detail.I heard a soft knock on my door and my heart stopped.I did not move neither did I breathe. The knock came again. Softer this time and almost hesitant."Bonnie."His voice was barely a whisper. I could hear him through the wood. The same voice that had said welcome home hours ago. The same voice that had made my mother cry and Colette smile and Jude almost soften.I should have ignored it. I should have stayed in my bed and pret
BonnieThe front door burst open.I have been standing in the living room with my mother and we had been waiting for what felt like hours. The car had pulled into the driveway in less than what felt like seconds ago. Then I heard the doors open and close, heard footsteps on the path and heard Colette's voice before I saw her face."BONNIE!"The scream was so loud I thought my eardrums would shatter. I clapped my hands over my ears and Jude did the same thing beside her. He was standing in the doorway with his eyes wide and his expression caught somewhere between horror and amusement. Colette was already running toward me.She was beautiful. Her hair was still dark and curly and wild and fell past her shoulders in waves that looked like they had never met a brush. And her eyes were filled and they sparkled with something that looked like extreme joy.She was wearing a bright yellow jacket and jeans that had holes in the knees, her sneakers were scuffed and dirty. She looked like she ha
MarcellusThe parking garage was cold and almost gray.I sat in my car with the engine running and my hands on the steering wheel as the airport terminal loomed in front of me. People streamed in and out of the sliding doors, families hugged and cried and laughed, travelers dragged suitcases behind them and flight attendants walked past in crisp uniforms.I had been sitting here for ten minutes. I could not seem to get out of the car.My children were inside. My twins. The ones I had not seen in over six months or thereabouts. The ones who were coming to live with me. The ones who had no idea what kind of mess they were walking into.I thought about Bonnie. About the way she had looked at me last night, about the way she had said I am going to try, about the way she had sat on her bed with her knees pulled to her chest and her eyes red from crying.I thought about Clarissa. About the wedding, about the life I was suppos
MarcellusAfter dinner, I went to my room and set my briefcase down, loosened my tie and found myself walking to the bottom of the stairs and looked up. Her door was closed but the light was on underneath."Bonnie," I called.No answer."Bonnie, I know you are up there."Still no answer.I climbed the stairs. My footsteps were heavy on the wood then I stopped outside her door. I could hear movement inside. The creak of the bed and the rustle of sheets."Bonnie. Open the door.""I am busy.""Busy doing what?""Homework.""Open the door.""No."The word was flat and painfully final. She had said no to me before. But this was different. This was not her saying no to bending over a desk. This was her saying no to me entirely. To my presence, to my existence in her life.I pressed my palm against the door. The wood was warm and I could almost feel her on
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