LOGIN~Bonnie
I woke up earlier than usual, the pink G-string already on my mind before my eyes even opened fully. The house was quiet, Mum was still asleep downstairs I guess. I slipped out of bed, showered slowly and hot, letting the water run over me like it could wash away the nerves. It didn’t. Back in my room, towel dropped, I stood in front of the full length mirror. The pink lace sat low on my hips, thin straps framing my ass, the front barely covering anything. I turned side to side, heart already racing. Wrong. So wrong. But the wrongness felt like fire under my skin. I grabbed my phone, angled it behind me, snapped a few shots, back arched, ass out, the pink string disappearing between my cheeks. Then one from the front, my clothes not on yet, just the lace and my bare stomach. My thumb hovered over the screen for a full minute. Courage. Or stupidity. I opened the contact card he’d given me yesterday, his private number saved as M and attached the photos. No caption, I just sent it as a view once. The second the little delivered appeared, I smiled so hard my cheeks hurt. Stupid, reckless smile. I didn’t wait for a reply. I dressed like I was going to war, or maybe to surrender. The crop top was white, tight, low cut, pushing my breasts up high, the neckline dipping to show the swell of cleavage and a hint of underboob if I moved wrong. Or right. The skirt was black, ridiculously short, pleated just enough to look like a uniform gone bad. It barely skimmed the tops of my thighs, riding up every time I took a step. Stockings next, black, sheer, with a thin lace band at the top. No garters today, I wanted it simple, tight, obvious. There was a sports workout session on campus later, but I didn’t care. The outfit screamed anything but athletics. It screamed for him. I checked myself in the mirror one last time. Cleavage pushed high, tummy bare, skirt so short I could feel air on the curve of my ass. I looked like trouble. I felt like trouble. And I wanted whatever was coming so badly it scared me. I headed downstairs, heels clicking. Mum was in the kitchen, stirring tea, still in her robe. “Bonnie!” she called, turning. Her eyes went wide when she saw me. “Where are you going dressed like that?” I froze mid step. “School, Mum. Normal day.” She raised an eyebrow, smiling slowly. “Normal? You look like you’re going on a date.” I rolled my eyes, laughing it off. “Please. You know your daughter doesn’t just go out with any man.” She set the spoon down, came closer, and hugged me quickly. “Speaking of men… I’ve been meaning to tell you. I have someone.” My heart skipped. “What?” She grinned, cheeks pink. “We’ve been dating. Eight months now. I wanted to surprise you, make sure it was real before I said anything. We’re talking about marriage soon.” I stared at her, then laughed, real, happy laughter. “Mum! Why didn’t you say? Who is he? When will I meet him?” “Soon, baby. Soon.” She kissed my cheek. “I’m happy. Really happy.” I pecked her forehead. “I’m happy for you. Whoever he is, I can’t wait to meet him.” She stepped back, eyeing my outfit again. “But seriously, Bon Bon… be careful out there. That skirt is asking questions.” I smirked. “Let it ask. I’ve got answers.” I grabbed my bag, blew her a kiss, and headed out the door. Every step made the fabric shift, reminding me what I was wearing underneath. What I’d sent him. My phone buzzed in my bag as I walked toward campus. I didn’t check it yet. I wanted to feel the anticipation a little longer. I boarded a cab outside the house, gave the driver the campus address, and spent the whole ride staring out the window, thighs pressed tight under the short skirt. My phone stayed silent until the cab pulled up at the main gate. I paid, stepped out, and checked my messages the second my feet hit the pavement. "Wow, you look so hot. I hope you won't mind if I rip that off." My breath caught. Rip that off. The same words from the note. But which version? The literal tear of lace, or... more? I didn't know yet, and the not knowing made my stomach twist in the best worst way. Second message, right below it. "I would like it if you could reach my office without passing through the field." I blushed so hard I felt it in my ears. He knew exactly what he was doing, keeping me off the open paths where people could see me like this, skirt riding up, crop top barely containing anything. He wanted me discreet. Bianca and I had a shortcut we used whenever we were late to class and didn't want eyes on us, a narrow service path behind the old science block, cutting through overgrown hedges and past the back of the admin buildings. No one used it unless they had to. I took it now, heels sinking a little into the dirt, skirt flipping up with every hurried step. The long way felt longer today, my heart pounding louder with every turn. By the time I reached the literature building, the whole floor seemed empty. No voices, no footsteps, just the hum of the AC and the faint smell of old books drifting from under doors. If my guess was right, we were the only ones here. I stopped in front of his office door, hand hovering over the knob. Part of me wanted to turn and run, back to the field, back to normal, back to pretending this was just a fantasy. But my body wouldn't move that way. I turned to leave anyway, one last second of doubt. And there he was. Professor Marcellus stood at the end of the corridor, arms crossed, black shirt sleeves rolled, watching me like he'd been waiting the whole time. His dark eyes locked on mine, expression calm but hungry. I gasped, spun back too fast, my back slammed against his office door with a soft thud. The wood was cool through the thin crop top. My skirt rode up higher from the sudden movement, the edge of the pink lace probably visible now if he looked down. He didn't move at first. Just watched. Then he walked toward me,slow steps. I stayed pinned there, breathing shallow, heart slamming against my ribs. He stopped inches away. Close enough that I could smell his cologne again, feel the heat coming off him. "Bonnie," he said, voice low. "You came." I nodded, words stuck somewhere in my throat. His gaze dropped, slowly to the crop top pushing my breasts up, the bare strip of tummy, the hem of the skirt barely covering me. Then lower, to where the pink peeked if I shifted even a little. "Good choice," he murmured. He reached past me, hand brushing my hip as he turned the knob behind my back. The door opened inward. I stumbled a step inside from the motion. He followed, closed the door, and locked it with a quiet click. He turned back to me. "Now," he said softly, stepping closer until my back was against the door again, "let's see if you followed all the instructions.”BonnieEveryone had gone to bed hours ago. My mother was asleep in the master bedroom, Colette and Jude in their various rooms. Actually they really did love their new rooms and Jude smirked and I knew we had clearly outdone yourself since someone that gard to crack could give up so much emotion.I should have been asleep too. But I could not close my eyes. Every time I tried I saw Marcellus. The way he had looked at me in the living room. The way he had said thank you for being you. The way his eyes had lingered on my face like he was memorizing every detail.I heard a soft knock on my door and my heart stopped.I did not move neither did I breathe. The knock came again. Softer this time and almost hesitant."Bonnie."His voice was barely a whisper. I could hear him through the wood. The same voice that had said welcome home hours ago. The same voice that had made my mother cry and Colette smile and Jude almost soften.I should have ignored it. I should have stayed in my bed and pret
BonnieThe front door burst open.I have been standing in the living room with my mother and we had been waiting for what felt like hours. The car had pulled into the driveway in less than what felt like seconds ago. Then I heard the doors open and close, heard footsteps on the path and heard Colette's voice before I saw her face."BONNIE!"The scream was so loud I thought my eardrums would shatter. I clapped my hands over my ears and Jude did the same thing beside her. He was standing in the doorway with his eyes wide and his expression caught somewhere between horror and amusement. Colette was already running toward me.She was beautiful. Her hair was still dark and curly and wild and fell past her shoulders in waves that looked like they had never met a brush. And her eyes were filled and they sparkled with something that looked like extreme joy.She was wearing a bright yellow jacket and jeans that had holes in the knees, her sneakers were scuffed and dirty. She looked like she ha
MarcellusThe parking garage was cold and almost gray.I sat in my car with the engine running and my hands on the steering wheel as the airport terminal loomed in front of me. People streamed in and out of the sliding doors, families hugged and cried and laughed, travelers dragged suitcases behind them and flight attendants walked past in crisp uniforms.I had been sitting here for ten minutes. I could not seem to get out of the car.My children were inside. My twins. The ones I had not seen in over six months or thereabouts. The ones who were coming to live with me. The ones who had no idea what kind of mess they were walking into.I thought about Bonnie. About the way she had looked at me last night, about the way she had said I am going to try, about the way she had sat on her bed with her knees pulled to her chest and her eyes red from crying.I thought about Clarissa. About the wedding, about the life I was suppos
MarcellusAfter dinner, I went to my room and set my briefcase down, loosened my tie and found myself walking to the bottom of the stairs and looked up. Her door was closed but the light was on underneath."Bonnie," I called.No answer."Bonnie, I know you are up there."Still no answer.I climbed the stairs. My footsteps were heavy on the wood then I stopped outside her door. I could hear movement inside. The creak of the bed and the rustle of sheets."Bonnie. Open the door.""I am busy.""Busy doing what?""Homework.""Open the door.""No."The word was flat and painfully final. She had said no to me before. But this was different. This was not her saying no to bending over a desk. This was her saying no to me entirely. To my presence, to my existence in her life.I pressed my palm against the door. The wood was warm and I could almost feel her on
BonnieThe phone rang at seven fifteen.I was still in my room. I had not moved from my bed since I walked out of Marcellus's office. As I left his office, I didn't even wait for the next classes I just went home. My body was frozen and my mind was a hurricane. I could still see him standing there. Could still hear the sounds he made. Could still feel the weight of his eyes on me while he touched himself.I felt sick...I felt dirty. I felt angry at myself for not walking out the second he undid his belt.Why did I stay? Why did I sit there and watch? Why did I let him do that to me?I pressed my palms to my eyes. The darkness was a relief. I could pretend I was somewhere else. Someone else. Someone who had not let her mother's fiancé jerk off in front of her.The phone rang again and I looked at the screen. Colette.I answered on the second ring."Bonnie?"Her voice was different. More quiet a
Marcellus The rage started in my chest and spread outward like wildfire.I was in my office grading papers when it hit me. The memory of the night before...Bonnie at dinner. The way she had not looked at me. The way she had not spoken to me. The way she had smiled at her phone like it held the secrets of the universe and the worst if it all, the way she had said Goodnight Marcellus like I was a stranger.She had been texting someone. I knew who, it was the boy obviously before Clarissa even pointed it out. The hockey player with the blue eyes and the stupid grin. The one who had pushed his way into her life and made her forget who she belonged to.I had seen the way she looked at her phone. The way her face softened...the way she laughed. She had never laughed like that with me. Not once or ever in fact.I threw my pen across the room and It hit the wall and clattered to the floor. The sound was satisfying. I wanted to break so
BonnieThe hallway was empty as most students had gone home. The ones who remained were either in the gym or the library or the parking lot. I had told Bianca I needed to go to the bathroom and she had nodded and said she would wait by the front steps. But I did not go to
BonnieI could not look at myself in the mirror.There I was standing in the bathroom with my hands on the sink and my head down. The tiles were white and the lights were too bright. A girl I did not know was washing her hands next to me. She glanced at me once and the
BonnieThe painters arrived at eight in the morning.I heard their truck before I saw it. The rumble of the engine followed by the slamming of doors and voices calling out instructions to each other. I was still in my pajamas when my mother knocked on my door.
~Bonnie"Happy 21st birthday, Bon Bon!" Mum screamed happily, balancing a cake in her hands as I stepped out of my room, already dressed for school. I'd completely forgotten it was my birthday.I blew out the candle, leaned in, and kissed her cheek. "Thanks so much, Mum. I'll see you later, I'm la







