Prologue

"Hell no dude–I mean, I'm straight. Kissing would make things weird." iling ko, hinihingal pa. I just had the most intense orgasm of my life. At ang mas malala? It was from my very own best friend of fourteen years. Wew.

I can't believe this. I cant believe I came just from having a finger in my ass and a bit of a blowjob. I mean, seriously? How did I even get to this point?

Humagalpak si Kael at nilapit ang mukha sa akin. I frozed, for a second, akala ko hahalikan niya talaga ako, pero may ibinulong siya na agad nagpainit sa mukha ko. "I already put my fingers in your ass, and we've already sucked each other off, but kissing is where you draw the line?"

Kumunot ang noo ko.

"Fuck you. I'm not gay."

Bahagya siyang tumawa. "I know you're not, Jace. I'm just pointing out how ridiculous you sounds, but sure, I'll humor you."

Naiinis akong umiwas ng tingin. I mean, he's not completely wrong, but I'm not into guys, and never have been. And okay, maybe our arrangement had gotten a little out of hand. Fine. Pero kissing? Ibang usapan na iyon. Like, come on man. Hindi naman weird na may limits ako, diba?

Naramdaman ko ang kamay ni Kael sa baba ko, pilit pinapaling paharap sa kanya. Nang muli akong tumingin dito, wala na ang mapaglarong ngisi sa labi niya.

Nagkatitigan kami, walang umiimik sa aming dalawa. Pinasadahan ko ng dila ko ang labi ko, bahagyang binasa iyon. Bumaba ang tingin niya roon.

Dahan-dahang nilapit ni Kael ang hinlalaki niya sa labi ko, gently stroking my bottom lip with his thumb. Nanatili akong nakatitig sa kanya. Halos hindi na humihinga. Marahan niyang binuka ang bibig ko habang hindi inaalis ang tingin sa labi ko, and I don't know why, I feel like I was hypnotized because I open my mouth then–

I sucked on his thumb.

Marahas ang naging pagsinghap ni Kael.

Dahan-dahan niyang nilabas pasok ang hinlalaki niya sa bibig ko, teasing my tongue, habang pabalik-balik ang tingin niya roon at sa mukha ko. It was weird, it doesn't feel like I'm looking at my bestfriend, I feel like looking at a different person. Wala na ang kadalasan kong nakikitang malumanay na ekspresyon sa mga mata niya. Kael's eyes held something sharp and unkind.

Ramdam ko ang pag-iinit ng mukha ko habang nakititig siya sa mukha ko. It was awkward, humiliating even. Yet a part of me enjoyed it. Help me god–I was sucking my bestfriend's thumb like a fucking slut–but fuck, I'm loving every second of it. Parang kinikiliti ang loob ng bibig ko sa kakaibang sensasyon. I can't stop. Fuck. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. This is messed up and somehow... really fucking gay?

Nagpakawala ako ng mahinang tunog, that almost sound like a whimper nang alisin niya nag hinlalaki niya sa bibig ko. Shit.

"Get on your knees."

He pushed my head down until I'm faced to face with his pants. Before I could think, naramdaman ko nalang ang sarili kong nakaluhod sa harap ni Kael, binababa ang pants nito. And there I was, facing his hard, fat, and long dick. Kinagat ko ang dila ko, hindi inaalis ang tingin doon.

I swallowed hard, I ran my tongue over the tip, and slide my tongue over the swollen head, tasting the precum before taking him deeper into my mouth. The salty, musky taste hit my tongue. The taste was still... strange but not terrible.

I heard Kael grunt, his hand traveled to my hair–fisting it. I almost choked nang maramdaman kong inanggulo niya ang ulo ko that allowed him to push deeper. Namasa ang talukap ng mata ko, but I only opened my mouth wider. Inangat ko ang tingin ko sa kanya. His eyes were fixed on my face, dark and hungry as he slowly pushed his dick deeper into my mouth. Sinalubong ko ang tingin niya, feeling embarrased. Gamit ang isang kamay, paulit-ulit ang suklay ni Kael sa buhok ko pababa sa tainga ko–and it's making my head spin.

"Fuck." mura niya. "You look so fucking hot with my dick in your mouth."

Huh?

Nagulat ako roon. Kael never talked like this since we started getting each other off.

Usually, mabibigat na paghinga at ilang mura lang ang naririnig ko mula sa kanya, but never words aimed directly at me. It was embarrassing how much it affected me and I hated how badly I wanted him to say it again.

"Look at you." Kael said, stroking my ears down to my cheek, hindi inaalis ang tingin sa mukha ko. "You look so eager for it–you look like a fucking slut. Touch yourself again for me, gorgeous."

I moaned, hindi ko mapigilan ang nakakahiyang tunog na lumabas sa bibig ko. It was humiliating how impossible it was to stay quiet. Every sound he made, every touch, every filthy words nake my stomach twisting. I feel my own dick straining again.

I was about to touch my own dick when he suddenly pulled himself out of my mouth. Nagtataka ko siyang tinignan nang dali-dali niyang tinaas ang boxer at pants niya. May kakaibang ekspresyon sa mukha ni Kael na hindi ko maipinta kung ano. What the hell? Why did he suddenly pulled out–ni hindi pa siya nilalabasan?

"What the–saan ka pupunta?" naguguluhan kong tanong.

"I–" Tumikhim si Kael. "I should head home."

There was something strange in his tone, almost distant. Pinapanood ko lang siya habang dali-dali niyang inaayos ang pants niya. Hindi rin siya makatingin sa akin ng maayos.

"Huh? Past midnight na. Stay the night here." sabi ko.

Kael grabbed his jacket bago umiling. "I can't. I'll see you, Jace."

Bago pa ako magsalita, he was already heading for the door of my apartment.

Fucking hell. What was that?