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Arianna's Pov
The first thing I noticed when I woke up that morning was Noah's breathing. It was wet and sounded like he was having difficulty breathing. I pressed my hand to his forehead, and the heat burning through my palm confirmed what I already feared. He was running a fever. "Mama." His voice was small, and hoarse. He opened his eyes slightly, squinting them to block the sun. "I'm here." I smoothed his hair back and forced a smile even though my heart was doing something ugly in my chest. "Mrs. Kate next door is going to watch you today, okay? Just for a few hours. I need to go to work today." "But mum, you promised to stay home today with me." He said, voice small, and it made my heart feel heavy. I had promised to stay home today with him to make up for not attending his school's PTR meeting, last week. "I promise baby, just for today. I'll get you lots of goodies. I promise. Then maybe we could go to the park this weekend. Good?" He raised a brow, brushing a strand of his hair backwards. He pouted out, and I had to exhale to relive myself. Four years old, and he's quite understandable…..or pretending to be. His hazel eyes catching a glint of sunlight. God. He had his father's eyes. Those eyes that once made me feel complete. Now looking at them, I can't help but remember him. He nodded and closed his eyes again, too tired to argue. I got dressed in the dark, pulled on the uniform, tied my hair back, and swallowed two painkillers for the headache I'd already had for three days straight. Then I sat on the edge of the bed for just a second, and let myself feel the weight of everything before I packed it back down where it belonged. I crossed the street over to Mrs Kate's building. She answered on the second knock. A woman in her late fifties with kind eyes, came out. She looked at Leon bundled against my side and opened the door wider without a word, like she knew what I was about to do. "Thank you," I said. The words felt thin compared to what I actually meant. She just waved me off. "Go. Don't be late." I kissed Leon's forehead, told him I'd be back before dinner, and stepped out into the cold. I hurried, heading towards the subway. I was going to be scolded again today. For the fifth time in a week. James is gonna kill me. I bit my lips, anxiety kicking in. I thought of all the possible things to say to him, but none. I couldn't afford to lose this job, not for anything. I disembarked from the train, and trotted. I took a deep breath as soon as I got to the door, counted one, two, three, and pushed it open. The kitchen smelled like grease, and heat the moment I walked in, the sharp clang of metal on metal filling the room. I slipped behind the prep station and grabbed my apron from the hook, my fingers already moving to tie it. "You're late." James didn't look up from the cutting board. Well, he obviously didn't need to. I could feel the irritation radiating off him from ten feet away. "Seven minutes," I said. "I'm sorry, my son.." "I don't care." He set the knife down then, and that was never good. James with a knife in his hand was annoyed. James without one meant he was actually angry. He turned and looked at me with a flat, tired expression, the one that shows he had run out of patience weeks ago. "Arianna, This is the fifth time." "I know." "I have a kitchen to run. I can't keep covering for you when you stroll in whenever you feel like it." "Seven minutes," I said again, quieter this time. He picked the knife back up. That was the end of it. "Get on the salad station, and don't touch anything in the cold section until you've washed your hands twice. We had a health inspection last week." "Yes. Sorry." I moved to my station and got to work without another word. I had been working at the Meridian for eight months. It wasn't glamorous, it wasn't meant to be. It was a hotel restaurant that catered to business lunches and the kind of people who ordered wine by the bottle without checking the price. I washed dishes, prepped salads, and occasionally helped the line when they were short-staffed. It paid better than the laundry job, and it had benefits that technically existed. Liam had gotten me the position. Except he hadn't framed it that way, he'd handed me a card and said the hiring manager owed him a favor, and that I should call if I wanted it. He didn't make it a big deal. That was how Liam was. He had a way of helping people that didn't leave them feeling small. I had done him a favour, according to him. On my way back from an interview, years back, I had stumbled upon an old woman struggling with bad eyesight, and needed to get to a certain destination. I had helped out of generosity, and had carefully guided her to the location. And it turned out to be Liam's grandmother. She had Alzheimer, and always found it hard to remember certain things. Liam had thanked me. I told him anyone would have done it. He said that wasn't true. He had offered me money then, and I hadn't taken it. I didn't need money, I'd told him. I needed stability. Somewhere consistent, where the hours were predictable enough that I could plan around Noah's daycare schedule. He had nodded slowly. Three weeks later, the card. The lunch rush came and went in a blur of orders and cursing and James barking at the new line cook who kept oversalting the pasta. I kept my head down and my hands moving. That was how I survived most days. If I kept moving, I didn't have time to think too hard. It was just after two when the manager, a thin woman named Celia who always looked like she vaguely disappointed in everyone, appeared at the kitchen door. "Arianna." She looked around the kitchen like she wasn't sure she wanted to be in it. "Mr. Reyes needs someone for the VIP floor. One of his girls called in sick." James looked up. "She's on prep." "Prep can wait." Celia looked at me. "Can you manage it?" I didn't know what Mr. Reyes's girls were being asked to manage exactly, but I knew that the VIP floor paid a service supplement and I knew that Noah needed medication. "Yes," I said. Celia handed me a small card with the room number on it. "Upstairs,in the private lounge. You go in, you serve what's asked, and then you leave. You don't linger, you don't make conversation, and you don't look directly at the guests unless they're speaking to you." She paused. "Mr. Reyes's instructions." "Understood." She looked at me for a second longer, like she was deciding whether I was up to it, then she turned and left. I changed into the spare black uniform in the staff room, pinned my hair back more carefully, and took the service elevator up. The VIP lounge was different from the restaurant downstairs. Everything here was more expensive, low lighting, leather seating, a bar. It smelled like expensive cologne and old money. There were three men already inside when I entered. Two of them were seated at the far end of the room, laughing about something. The third was standing near the window with his back to me, and his phone to his ear. I moved quietly to the cart near the bar and began setting up the service tray. I kept my eyes down, the way Celia had said. I was efficient about it. Pour, arrange, don't look, don't linger. "Hey." One of the two seated men was looking at me. He had a loosened tie on, his florid face looked like that of someone who had already been drinking before he arrived. "Come here." I crossed to him with the tray. "Can I get you something, sir?" "I'll have another. And…." He reached out and caught my wrist. The tray wobbled, but I steadied it. My whole body went still in the way it did when I needed to think fast and react slowly. "You're very pretty," he said, like this was a new information I'd be grateful for. "Leave the tray." "Sir." I kept my voice flat and professional. "I'm here to serve drinks." His friend laughed. "She's telling you no, Marco." "She's not telling me anything." His grip tightened. "Sit down." "Let go of my wrist." "Or what? You gonna spank me" "Or I will." The voice came from behind me. It was quiet and completely levelled. The kind of calm that doesn't need volume because it already knows it's the most dangerous thing in the room. Marco let go of me, and I turned. The man who had been on the phone near the window was now standing a few feet away, his phone gone, his hands in his pockets. He was looking at Marco with an expression that wasn't anger, but more like he was patient. And then I saw his face, and the breath left my body. It's been five years. Five years and a faked death and a city between us, and the first thought my brain produced was: he looks the same. The second thought was: run. I didn't run. My legs had stopped working. Nikolai looked at Marco for another second, just long enough to make the point, and then he looked at me. Something moved through his expression, quick and unreadable, and then gone. "She's mine," he said simply. "I don't like people touching my things." Marco muttered something and reached for his drink. His friend had gone very quiet. Nikolai hadn't looked away from me yet. I couldn't read what was behind his eyes. I didn't know if that was better or worse. "Niko…." I started. "Careful," said the man who had been standing near the door the whole time. I hadn't noticed him until now. He was watching the exchange with a faint, private amusement. He raised his glass slightly. "Voss's wife might have something to say about that."NIKOLAI PovShe was gone. That was the information Petrov delivered to me in the flat, careful voice because he understood that what he was saying was going to produce a reaction and was bracing for it. Ms. Costa had left the search perimeter on foot. Approximately forty minutes ago. They had assumed she had gone back to the cabin. She had not gone back to the cabin.I looked at him. "And you're telling me this now.".He said nothing. There was nothing useful to say.I turned away from him before I said something that went beyond the situation, which was already bad enough without adding to it. Noah was missing. Arianna was missing. It was dark, and the search team I had doubled was combing land they couldn't fully see, and somewhere between the property and wherever she had gone she had slipped through every layer of security I had put in place as cleanly as if it hadn't existed."Hospitals," I said. "Every one within thirty kilometres. Check whether a child matching his description
ARIANNA POV"Ma'am." Petrov appeared at my side. "It's getting dark. We should get you back to the mansion while the team continues …""No.""Ms. Costa ..""I said no." I kept walking. "I'm not going anywhere without my son."He didn't argue further. I think something in my voice made the argument unnecessary. I had stopped sounding like a woman who could be stopped and started sounding like something else — the stripped-down version of a person, the one underneath all the composure, that only came out when the thing it was most afraid of was actually happening.The light was going.The sky at the edge of the tree line was shifting from grey to something darker, evening was arriving, while my son was somewhere in it. The flashlights came out. Three of them at first, then five as more men arrived from wherever Petrov had called them in from, their beams cutting pale lines through the undergrowth."Noah!"My voice had gone rough. I had been calling his name for almost two hours and my
NIKOLAI Pov:The meeting ran forty minutes over.I sat at the head of the table and watched it happen with patience. The merger with Voss Industries had been on the table for six weeks. The numbers were clean. The strategic alignment was obvious to anyone who could read a balance sheet. And yet here we were, in the third hour of a conversation that should have taken forty-five minutes, because three men at the far end of the table had concerns they were enjoying having.Rafael sat to my left throughout. He said what he needed to say when he needed to say it and did not look at me with anything that could be read as meaningful, which told me he was either very controlled or still processing what I had told him.I couldn't tell which.The meeting ended. Hands were shaken. People filed out. I reached for my phone.I saw several missed calls. I didn't get to read the numbers before my father appeared at my shoulder."My office," he said.I looked at my phone for one more second. Then I p
ARIANNA POVThe shower helped, it gave my hands something to do, gave me somewhere to stand that was warm and enclosed and required nothing of me for ten minutes. I stood under the water and let my mind do what it had been doing all morning, which was to circle back to him.To the weight of his arm across me in the dark.He used to take me on trips.That was the memory that kept arriving uninvited. He would appear at my door with no warning, sometimes at midnight, and tell me to pack something light and not ask questions. And I would go, because I was twenty-one and in love and the questions I wasn't asking were the ones I already knew the answers to and didn't want yet.We went to Iceland once.We lay on the frozen ground at two in the morning wrapped in every layer we had brought and watched the lights move across the sky, and he said almost nothing the entire timeHe had held my hand. That was all, just that.I turned the shower off.Those were the days before I understood what we
NIKOLAI PovI woke up and didn't know where I was for exactly one second.Then I did.The ceiling was too low, too plain, none of the angles of my own bedroom — and the light coming through the curtain.Arianna.She was still asleep on her side, facing away from me, her hair loose across the pillow. Her breathing was slow and even. She had one hand tucked under her cheek and the other resting open on the mattress between us, palm up, fingers slightly curled.I lay still and looked at the ceiling.I felt better than I had in weeks. That was the plain fact of it, uncomfortable and inconvenient and completely true. Not rested exactly — I had not slept deeply, had moved in and out of it for hours — but something had released in me that had been wound tight for longer than I wanted to count. Some tension at the base of my skull that I had stopped noticing because it had been there so long it had become part of the landscape.Sex was one thing.I had told myself, more than once, that what h
ARIANNA POV"When can we go home?"Noah asked without preamble, looking at me with those dark eyes that had never learned to soften a question before delivering it. He was sitting up in bed with the blanket pooled around his waist and his hair still flattened from sleep, and he looked so much better than he had the night before that my chest ached with the relief of it.I stared at him.The honest answer was that I didn't know. The slightly less honest answer was soon. "Soon," I said.Noah considered this. "I miss Lucas," he said. Lucas was his best friend from the building, a boy two months older than him who Noah treated as both his closest ally and his primary competition, depending on the day."I know.""And I miss my books.""I'll get you more books."He looked at me steadily. "I miss our home, Mama."I crossed to the bed and sat beside him and pulled him into me, my arms around his small shoulders, my chin on top of his head. He let me, which meant he was still feeling fragile
ARIANNA POV My thumb hit the end call button so fast I almost dropped the phone.Nikolai's eyes were already on my face when I looked up. He hadn't moved. He just stood there at the bottom of the staircase with that stillness he used when he wanted you to feel like the room was closing in.It work
NIKOLAI My eyes never left Deleux yet his expression didn't waver, his face didn't twitch, he only stared into space while I struggled to believe his words.There's no way. Absolutely no way she didn't know.There's no way he would have punished himself, staying away from her for five years while
ARIANNA I let out a dry chuckle. “There's a name for that. Obsession,” but then I paused. “No, it's sickness. You have a wife and still behave like this? You should have a bit of shame, Nikolai.”“Shame doesn't exist,” he reached for my hair and a shaky breath ripped through me as he ran his finge
ARIANNA He was insane.That was the thought running through my mind as I paced the room. Locking me up in a room and separating me from Noah was probably the worst thing Nikolai could do. I haven't seen my son in hours. But I pushed him to the edge and that was certain. Five years later and perha







