LOGINThe light switch clicking off should have told me everything. It should have been enough to make me turn around, walk back to my room, and let the rest of the night die where it belonged.
Instead, my hand finally found the door.
I pushed it open slowly, my breath caught somewhere between my chest and my throat, bracing myself for whatever I might see.
But the room was empty.
The bed was untouched, the covers still perfectly made. A single lamp glowed faintly in the corner, the only light left on. There was no Lucas. No Sophia. Just an open window, curtains drifting lazily in the night breeze, and the faint sound of voices drifting up from somewhere below.
The balcony.
I crossed the room quietly, my bare feet silent against the cold marble floor, and stepped toward the window. Down in the garden, half-hidden beneath the old oak tree Lucas' grandmother had planted decades ago, I could see them. Sophia stood close to him, her hand resting lightly against his chest, her face tilted up toward his like she was waiting for something.
Lucas wasn't pulling away.
He wasn't pulling her closer either but he wasn't stepping back, and right now, that felt like the same thing.
"Do you remember this spot?" Sophia's voice floated up faintly on the wind, soft and wistful. "You used to say this was the only place in this whole house where you could actually breathe."
"Sophia"
"I'm not asking for anything, Lucas." She looked down, and even from this distance, I could see the practiced tremble in her shoulders. "I just needed a few minutes. Away from everyone watching us. Away from all of it."
I gripped the edge of the curtain so hard my knuckles turned white.
Away from everyone watching us. As if I were some kind of intrusion into a love story that had already been written long before I existed. As if this house, this marriage, this entire life I had spent three years building brick by brick was nothing but a set they were both waiting to walk off of.
I should have said something. I should have opened that window wider and asked exactly what kind of wiring problem brought them both out to a garden at one in the morning.
But I didn't.
I stepped back from the window instead, my chest tight, my eyes burning with tears I refused to let fall. Not for her. Not for him. Not tonight.
I walked back through Sophia's empty room, closed the door quietly behind me, and returned to my own, to the bed I had shared with a husband who was currently standing under a tree with another woman, telling her she was the only place he could breathe.
I didn't cry. I had promised myself I was done crying over Lucas Ashford.
Instead, I sat at the edge of the bed and stared at the locked drawer across the room. My countdown notebook was in there, waiting. One hundred and seventy-nine days left now. I almost laughed at the timing.
Sleep never came. I lay awake until the first gray light of dawn crept through the curtains, listening for the sound of the bedroom door, for Lucas' footsteps returning. They never did. Sometime near five in the morning, I finally gave up waiting and got out of bed.
The house was silent at that hour, the kind of silence that belonged only to the earliest part of morning before the staff arrived and the family woke. I made my way downstairs, telling myself I needed coffee, needed something to do with my hands that wasn't waiting.
But somehow my feet carried me instead toward Lucas' private office.
I don't know why I went there. Maybe some part of me wanted proof of something I already knew but hadn't let myself admit. Maybe I just wanted to feel close to whatever version of him existed before Sophia came back and rearranged everything I thought I understood about my marriage.
The door was unlocked. Lucas rarely locked it he trusted the house, trusted his family, trusted that no one would dare go through his things. I hesitated in the doorway for a long moment, my hand resting against the frame.
This is wrong, I told myself. Turn around.
I didn't listen.
The office smelled like him cedar and expensive cologne, the same scent that used to comfort me in the early days of our marriage, back when I still believed comfort was something he was capable of giving me. Moonlight spilled through the tall windows, catching on the edges of his desk, his bookshelves, the framed photos of the company's skyline projects.
I wasn't looking for anything specific. I told myself that, even as my fingers trailed along the edge of his desk, even as I opened the top drawer out of nothing but restless curiosity.
Pens. Business cards. A spare set of keys.
Nothing.
I almost closed it and walked away. I almost let this be the end of it one more sleepless night, one more thing I chose not to see.
But then my eyes caught the corner of something tucked beneath a stack of files in the bottom drawer. A worn leather notebook, its cover soft and cracked with age, nothing like the sleek modern planners Lucas usually kept.
My hands were shaking slightly as I lifted it out.
The moment I opened it, I understood why he kept it hidden.
The first page held a sketch a house, hand-drawn in careful, deliberate lines. A wraparound porch. Large windows facing what looked like a garden. Underneath, in handwriting I recognized instantly as Lucas', were the words: Our home. Somewhere quiet. Somewhere just for us.
I turned the page, my heart pounding harder with every line.
Names. Children's names, written and crossed out and rewritten, like he'd spent hours deciding. Sophia written beside each one, small hearts drawn in the margins the way teenagers doodled in the backs of their notebooks.
Honeymoon plans. A list of cities Paris, Santorini, Kyoto with notes beside each one about the best time of year to visit, the best hotels, things she would love.
Page after page of a future Lucas had built in his mind long before I ever became Mrs. Ashford. A future with a house I would never live in, with children whose names had already been chosen by two people who weren't me, with a honeymoon to cities I'd never been invited to dream about.
Not one page mentioned me. Not one line, not one crossed-out name, not one small careless heart.
Three years of marriage, and I had never existed anywhere in the private corners of my own husband's mind.
I don't know how long I sat there on the floor of his office, that notebook open in my lap, before I heard footsteps in the hallway outside.
Fast ones. Familiar ones.
I barely had time to shove the notebook back into the drawer and push it shut before the office door swung open and Lucas stepped inside, his shirt still half unbuttoned from the night before, his hair disheveled, his expression unreadable in the low light.
He froze the moment he saw me sitting there.
"Emma." His voice was careful, too careful. "What are you doing in here?"
"Couldn't sleep," I said, forcing my voice steady even though my hands were still trembling in my lap. "I came down for coffee. I must have wandered in without thinking."
It wasn't even a good lie, and from the way his eyes flicked briefly toward the bottom drawer just for a fraction of a second, just long enough for me to notice I knew he didn't believe me either.
"You've been gone all night," I said instead, before he could ask anything further. "The wiring problem take that long to fix?"
Something shifted behind his eyes. Guilt, maybe. Or something closer to panic.
"Emma, it's not what you think."
"Then what is it?" I stood slowly, my legs unsteady beneath me, my eyes never leaving his face. "Because from where I was standing, it looked like you two were having a very quiet, very private conversation under a tree at one in the morning."
His jaw tightened. "You were watching us?"
"I went looking for my husband," I said. "I didn't expect to find him standing somewhere he clearly didn't want to be found."
For a long moment, neither of us said anything. The silence between us stretched thin and sharp, the kind that felt like it could shatter with one wrong word.
Then Lucas' phone, still in his pocket, began to buzz.
He hesitated, glancing down at it, and something in his expression changed the instant he read the screen the same look he'd had the night before when he thought Sophia was in danger.
"It's Victor," he said quietly, already turning toward the door. "He needs me at the office. Now."
"At six in the morning?"
"Emma, I have to go."
And just like that, he was gone again, leaving me standing alone in his office with a stolen glimpse of a future that never included me and a growing certainty that whatever Victor wanted a
t six in the morning had nothing to do with business at all.
The light switch clicking off should have told me everything. It should have been enough to make me turn around, walk back to my room, and let the rest of the night die where it belonged.Instead, my hand finally found the door.I pushed it open slowly, my breath caught somewhere between my chest and my throat, bracing myself for whatever I might see.But the room was empty.The bed was untouched, the covers still perfectly made. A single lamp glowed faintly in the corner, the only light left on. There was no Lucas. No Sophia. Just an open window, curtains drifting lazily in the night breeze, and the faint sound of voices drifting up from somewhere below.The balcony.I crossed the room quietly, my bare feet silent against the cold marble floor, and stepped toward the window. Down in the garden, half-hidden beneath the old oak tree Lucas' grandmother had planted decades ago, I could see them. Sophia stood close to him, her hand resting lightly against his chest, her face tilted up tow
Was he trying to get intimate with me?Three years ago, I would have turned around. Three years ago, I would have melted into his touch and told myself this was enough that this was as close to love as I'd ever get from him. I used to convince myself that small moments like this meant something, that if I was patient enough, gentle enough, understanding enough, they would eventually turn into something real.Not tonight.I caught his wrist before his hand could go any further and pushed it away."Don't," I said quietly.Lucas went still behind me. "Emma""You spent the whole night defending her." My voice came out steadier than I felt, though my heart was pounding so hard I was sure he could feel it through my back. "And now you want to touch me like nothing happened?""That's not what this is.""Then what is it?" I turned to face him, and even in the dark, I could see the confusion in his eyes as if he genuinely didn't understand why I was upset. That, more than anything, told me eve
Emma's POVIf I was honest with myself, she was right. So why did my chest tighten so painfully that I could barely breathe?Then a thought struck me.Wait… was she the one who had left Lucas' study unlocked on purpose?"You left the drawer open," I said. My voice trembled, but not from sadness anymore. A hot, burning anger was beginning to spread through my chest. "You went into his private study and left it open for me to find?"Sophia smiled sweetly. "Lucas doesn't hide things from me, Emma. He never has. I wanted you to see it so you'd finally understand your place in this house." Her smile widened. "Common… you're just a temporary placeholder."My hands curled into tight fists, my nails digging painfully into my palms. "I am his wife.”"Only on paper," Sophia sang with a light, cruel laugh. "Look around you, Emma. Look at this mansion. Look at his family. Even at little Lily…. In just a few days, I've taken back everything that was always meant to be mine. Lily already wishes I
Emma's POVMy fingers trembled as I picked up the notebook and slowly opened it.The first page held a carefully drawn sketch of a beautiful seaside house with floor-to-ceiling glass windows, a wide balcony, and a garden overflowing with flowers. Beneath it, in Lucas's familiar handwriting, were the words: Our forever home. Sophy will love watching the sunset from here. My breath caught. Swallowing hard, I turned the page. More sketches filled the notebook—a cozy nursery, a warm family living room, and a spacious backyard with swings. Beside one drawing, he had written, First son… Alexander. On another, our daughter… Isabelle. She'll have Sophy's smile. My vision blurred as tears moistened in my eyes, but I couldn't stop. I kept turning the pages, each one revealing another piece of the future he had dreamed of.There were honeymoon plans for Italy, Paris, and Santorini, restaurant recommendations, hotel reservations, and little reminders to surprise Sophia with flowers. One page w
Emma's POVLucas shot me a piercing look, and for the briefest moment, I caught something in his expression guilt, perhaps, or maybe irritation at being interrupted. He cleared his throat and said calmly, "Emma, this isn't the best time for this." I almost laughed, and the sound would’ve been bitter, broken. Instead, I swallowed it. “When is the time, Lucas? After you're done showing Sophia around our home?"Sophia’s perfectly arched brows lifted slightly. “I didn’t mean to intrude,” she said softly, placing a gentle hand on Lucas’s forearm. The gesture was small, but it was so natural that it made my chest tighten.“Lucas insisted I come see the estate. It’s been so long.” Her voice was soft, almost apologetic, but the words hit me like a slap. He had insisted. The same man who had left our anniversary dinner without a second thought had insisted on bringing his ex-lover home. I kept my gaze locked on him. “I saw you give her the card.”His jaw tightened. “She’s family, Emma. You
Emma's POVAfter waiting for hours, my husband finally showed up on the night of our third wedding anniversary, just to tell me he's leaving to pick Sophia Bennett from the airport.I stared at him, wondering if I'd heard him wrongly.The candlelight between us flickered, reflecting off the untouched dinner I’d spent all afternoon preparing. His favorite steak had already gone cold. The cake I had ordered sat in the center of the table, its three tiny candles still waiting to be lit."I'll make it up to you," he said, already straightening his jacket. "Sophia doesn't know New York well. She has no one else to pick her up."‘No one else.’The words hit me harder than they should have because I knew exactly who Sophia was.His first love. The woman he had never truly gotten over. The woman he had once promised to marry before life pulled them apart. The woman Lucas had loved long before he met me—the one everyone believed should have become Mrs. Ashford.For three years, I’d convinced m







