LOGINJUNE;
I took the stairs, one at a time, hand tight on the railings. They were already seated, Mom, Mr. Grayson, and that boy, but their cutlery still lay perfectly, glasses remained untouched. The aroma of different delicacies wafted through the air into my nostrils. But I still hated the idea of this dinner. It should have been just my Mom and me, on our little dinner table, maybe having some rice and grilled fish, something simple and not dramatic, like the array of dishes that lay across the long wooden table, as if it were Christmas. Rich people and show-offs. They always love complicated meals. I sighed slightly. My eyes fell on him, not like it was the first time since the staircase. But I just noticed his eyes lit up. Why was his lip lifted at the corner? I darted my eyes around me, maybe I had worn my clothes inside out. Why was he looking at me that way? God! I hated those eyes on me. I hated how they suddenly made each step heavy. I hated the way his face shone in the light, like he wasn't the same boy who had nicknamed me earlier today. “Come on, honey… The food is almost getting cold,” Mr. Grayson’s voice reached me. I bet the man just wanted to win me over. Why was he being too sweet? It was already enough that he stole the quiet life we had, and fathered this uncouth boy. Mom stretched out her hand, beckoning me to come over, I shuffled to the table, pulled the seat, and… “Can we all eat now, ugh?” That was him. Of course, it had to be him. Always impatient. Always trying to ruin things. "Do you always have to rush about everything?” I rolled my eyes at him, lowering myself onto the seat. The foam felt really soft against my butt. I wouldn't lie, this felt good, too good, better than the hardwood that always had my butt hurting by the time I retired to bed every night. But I hated one thing about this seat, the position. It made me sit right across from him. His blue eyes darkened at once, he stopped halfway with the fork already in his hand, he didn't expect that I could speak to him here. He should be dreaming then. I would never let him, nor anyone taunt my mom or me in this beautiful cage. “June,” Mom's hand clasped mine, “that was rather harsh for your brother,” her voice low. He scoffed. “Brother?” I pulled my brows together. Did he just scoff? This boy could be so annoying. My jaw tightened at once. “He's not my brother,” I muttered low, staring at his face through the edges of my eyes. My fist formed on my thigh right under the huge table. I hated the smirk that sat on his face. I hated the crisp white T-shirt that caught the light thereby illuminating every delicate carve of his face. You know what I hated even more? I hated that I noticed all of these. “Okay… Okay, guys,” Mr. Grayson dropped off the glass of water he had already grabbed. “I think you both got off on the wrong foot. It shouldn't be that deep you know, especially when you both would be in the same house, attend the same college and study the same course,” “What?!” We both yelled. We hadn't let him finish. “No way! I'm not going to study the same course as this girl… That's not happening!” He screamed, spun halfway on his seat so he could face his Dad, hand pointing at me. “Very well then, feel free to quit! The air would surely feel lighter with you gone from there!” I blurted, picked up the fork that lay by the plate. Hand gripping tightly, letting all my anger out on it. “June!” That was Mom. I hated the look in her eyes. I hated that I made her angry. But it was his fault not mine. Why can't anyone see how much of a jerk he was and how much he was trying to get under my skin? Mr. Grayson chuckled. Easing the moment for a second. Then he clasped both hands under his jaw. “I expected this… But what I didn't expect was that you two would disrespect us this much!” He thundered. My body shook at his tone. Wasn't he the man who chuckled just a second ago? “Ronan, you would apologise to June immediately!” He continued. Oh, that was perfect! I was starting to think Mr. Grayson wasn't bad for Mom after all. “Now, I said.” He roared. The flicker, the one that had been in his eyes since I got to this table, I watched it disappear. I watched his mouth as he mumbled the words out. I responded loudly, even though the apology had come from his throat and stopped at his tongue. Then I noticed it, the cold way he darted his eye at his dad, like he was stopping words from flowing. I took my fork, started digging on the plate Mom had pushed before me. We ate in silence. Thick air, just the darting of eyes, and the clattering of spoons against porcelain. But when I retired to bed, my eyes remained fixed on the ceiling. My mind kept replaying the scene. I didn’t like what happened. But I couldn’t let myself be shadowed. That’s what all these men are good at. Ronan. The name kept recurring in my mind. I could still see his face as he munched in silence. I could still see his finger tapping judiciously by the side of his plate. And the look on his face, it was the type that says “the battle line is drawn.” Well, I was born ready. And for this night, I had the last laugh.JUNE;The front porch of the hospital was unusually crowded with people. At first, I had no idea who was who, or what was happening, but Mom’s hands circled mine tightly as she whispered the press into my ear. My eyes went wide. They swarmed around Mr. Grayson, poking microphones and cameras into the air like weapons. Was this what he meant whenever he said the press would attack? They gathered like a swarm of bees, ready to sting.Mom tugged me harder, pulling me like some secret agent toward the cars parked in the lot. I had never experienced anything like this, my feet stumbled on the pavement as I watched the reporters almost lynching my stepdad to death with their questions. Flashes went off nonstop, lighting up the evening like fireworks. We moved fast, weaving between parked cars, it was only safer because Ronan was already in one of the vehicles. The nurses and the driver had helped pull him through before the swarm of reporters arrived.Mom exhaled heavily when we got close
JUNE;I turned to look. Selene stood in the doorway, her hands tightly crossed over her chest, her mouth pouting in irritation. The hallway lights cast sharp shadows on her face, making her look even more annoyed than usual.I scoffed, not wanting to create a scene right there in the hospital. I moved to step past her, but she shifted sideways and blocked the doorway completely, her shoulder bumping lightly against the frame. “I am not done talking to you, slum girl,” she snapped, her voice low but sharp enough to cut.Anger rumbled low in my belly, hot and heavy. I was tired and fed up with her insults. I wouldn’t have her humiliating me here, in this hospital too, after everything that had already happened today.“Look around you, Selene,” I found my voice, taking one firm step forward so I stood right in her face. My shoes squeaked softly on the tiled floor. “This is not your father’s palace, nor Westbridge Uni where you have your cohorts hanging around you. You will watch your nex
JUNE;I sat in the armchair available in the emergency room, the machines beeping steadily around us. Shortly after we arrived at the hospital, Mr. Grayson had gotten a call that required his attention and had hurried off, promising to return back soon. Mom had walked out to the pharmacy too, leaving me alone with the quiet hum of the monitors, and Ronan who had not opened his eyes since we got here. My head rested on my hand, propped up against the wall. I had barely gotten any sleep last night, and this morning we had rushed back here. My eyes felt weak and heavy, begging for rest. I was dozing off while trying to stay awake, my head nearly hitting the side of the bed when his voice reached me.“You should take a nap,” I snapped awake. It was Ronan. He was wide awake, watching me with those familiar eyes. “Not comfortable, but it would help.”My words hitched in my throat, refusing to fully form. The sleep disappeared from my eyes in an instant. Then he groaned, placing his hand t
JUNE; I sat quietly on the metal bench in the hallway, my elbows resting on my knees while both palms supported my chin. Every few seconds, another machine beeped from one of the rooms, reminding me that somewhere behind those doors, people were fighting battles no one else could see, my own battle sat heavily inside my chest. Mr. Grayson's words refused to leave my head. They replayed over and over again until I felt as though he was still standing in front of me on that balcony. "I'm not asking you to pretend, June. I'm asking you not to feel anything." How could anyone ask another person to do something like that? Feelings weren't clothes that could simply be taken off and folded away. And to top it all up, he had wanted to get me out of the mansion. Somehow, I made it easier for him. But somewhere within the past few minutes, he stood there at the balcony, pleading that I move back into the mansion, like I was a stone to be rolled in and out of a particular spot. I l
JUNE;“I… I am,” the answer stumbled out. The insides of my palm had grown damp, I rubbed it against the rough denim fabric of my shorts, the ones I had pulled on hurriedly after Mom’s call. “I am June.”“I see,” the older doctor nodded, pushing his glasses up a little. “It would definitely be hard not to recognize such a pretty face even in the worst case of TGA.” The doctor's lips parted softly, I saw what he did there. Our faces looked like the word tension itself, like the world was coming to an end, that man had made a mental note to soften the air just a little. But Mr. Grayson, my stepfather, wasn't having it. He shoved forward fast.“What are you playing at, Dr. Sterling? What's the bloody TGA you're talking about?” He grunted. “That's my son lying in there. And you're…. cracking jokes?” His voice was bouncing off the roof, my face fell to the floor. Doctor Sterling straightened up. “Calm down, Victor. I have been your family doctor for years now, you should…”“Exactly why
JUNE; The hospital hallway felt colder than it should have. Maybe not just from the cold air conditioners humming at the ends of the hallway; I could tell the chill sinking into my skin didn't come from the hallway's temperature. It came from somewhere much deeper. Somewhere beneath my ribs, where guilt had wrapped itself around my heart and refused to let go. I should have given him a listening ear. Ronan was lying on that bed, unconscious, and it's because of me, because I was always running away instead of fixing things. I stood beside the glass door of Ronan's room, my fingers curled around my elbows so tightly that my nails pressed into my skin. Through the narrow glass partition, I could see him, his clipped finger moving at intervals, the only assurance that he was still breathing. White sheets covered him up to his chest, a bandage was wrapped heavily around his forehead, disappearing beneath his dark hair like it was hiding a deadly secret. His face looked unusuall
JUNE;My phone buzzed on the tiny foam mattress that held my body. The springs of the bunker squealed under me as I turned, stretching just enough to grab it. It was Mom. Finally, the network coverage had steadied for a while. Her voice came through warm and cheerful, the sound of her munching on
JUNE; “Thank you,” I muttered as he dropped my box right on the green shrubs, beside Romy. He stood, watching me. His lips were quivering like he had words. Words that had gone heavy at once. I moved my eyes away from his intense stare, but unfortunately, they landed on Selene Arkwright and her
JUNE:I shut the book tight. Fast enough like it was some deadly piece in my hand. What the hell was that? I met Romy's eyes, the wide-eyed girl already knew what she had done. She had slipped the book into my hand right before we boarded the bus for the long trip.“What book is this?” I had asked,
JUNE;The quietness of the library was all I needed. Even though I could barely concentrate on the book that lay open before me. I had walked out of the last session without glancing back. Ronan’s eyes stayed on me the whole time, like he was praying the last teacher would leave already.Soft foots







