登入Finn’s Pov
It seemed like I had accepted my fate way too soon. I should have fought it, and asked for a change.
But in this world, scholarship students say nothing. They don’t make demands, they just follow.
My suitcase weighed my arms as I dragged it down the polished hallway. The aid? Gone, the second he had noticed who I was, he had turned the other way with a scoff and left.
I had to do the one thing I hated most about this school, walking through the unending corridors, trying to find the right path. And I did.
I stared at the door, 1A, top floor, legacy building. This was the athlete's building.
No.
My stomach twisted, but before I could make that decision to run, the door opened. Revealing the face, I hoped I didn’t have to see.
There he stood, tall proud, and eyes glowing with menace.
Knox Cole.
The master who pulled strings.
How did he do it?
“Right on time,” he muttered, his voice rumbling through my body. I stiffened, but not from fear, from something I didn’t want to admit.
I was weird, my brain wasn’t processing things straight. I should sum it up to exhaustion.
He leaned against the doorframe, his eyes raking my form, studying me, probably looking for more things to break me with. I wanted to ask him why. Why did he take the humiliation to my family? That job was the only thing that she had going and now, she was lost.
But I knew that was what he wanted. If I asked, he has won.
“This is a stupid idea,” I hissed.
He smirked, stepping aside as he gestured for me to get inside, “Get in roommate,”
The word hit harder than a slap. It felt like a boulder had been slammed into my chest. Roommate, that was it, I would spend the whole of my existence in this school rooming with the boy that has ruined my life.
He was going to kill me!
I looked around the empty hallway, maybe if I squinted hard enough, I would wake up from this dream. Nightmare.
“I am not staying here,”
He hummed, “Would you prefer to risk your scholarship? That doesn’t sound like a bad idea, don’t you think so?”
Silence.
His eyes were on my face, as he watched me, enjoying every second it took as my resolve broke.
I had no choice.
He knew that.
Of course, he did.
The smile was back, this time, brighter, he had won.
I hated that smile.
I took a deep breath, counting slowly in my head and when I opened my eyes, I took that one step, the one that I knew was about to change my whole freaking life. I stepped into the trap, the one that had no incentives in front. Nothing to make me waver.
The door clicked shut.
Loud.
Final.
“You look nervous,” Knox muttered, as he circled me, as if he was scrutinising his prey, a purchase.
“I am not, just revolted at the sight of you,” I hissed.
My eyes widened, shit! I never learn, do I? I should just close my mouth and stop poking the bear.
“Good.” He stopped in front of me. He was close again, too close. Making it hard to think.
“I would hate to think that I have frightened you,”
“You don’t,” I said with a scoff.
A lie.
My pulse throbbed, I could feel the nerves in my stomach burning, something that happens when he is this close. It was fear. Just fear.
His eyes flickered to my lips, fast, intense. Something flashed through his eyes, cruelty? Hate?
Or? Something that shouldn’t be.
Intrigue?
He stepped back, the cold look returning in his eyes as if he was angry about something. But the distance was good, it made it easy for me to breathe. “Your bed is on the other side of the room, make yourself comfortable, grant,” he said.
My lips curled in a sneer, “The name is Finn, not Grant.”
I should have a lock around my lips.
He chuckled, “I know, but Grant boy sounds fitting, don’t you think so?” His tone was condescending, his way of reminding me that I didn’t belong.
‘Say nothing, don’t push it.’ I repeated the words in my mind.
I turned, walking over to where my bed was, if I survived tonight, I was going to have to find a place to stay.
A FEW HOURS LATER
Darkness engulfed the room, my mind had become a battlefield, my eyes darting around, looking for where the enemy would jump from.
Knox hadn’t returned, not like I was worried for him, but I would sleep better if I knew that he was here asleep, without any chance of him waking up in the night to hurt me. I wouldn’t put it past him not to try to suffocate me in the night.
The door opened with a soft click, but loud enough to have my heart racing. I scrambled from the bed, landing on my feet just as the lights came on. I shuffled to the corner; my blanket wrapped around me as a shield.
He stared at me for a second, something flashed through his eyes, “relax.” He muttered.
Right, because that is what the lion said to the antelopes, just before he pounced.
He moved closer, invading my space as usual. Didn’t they teach him that crowding is bad?
My eyes found his face, under this light he looked… he looked less menacing, his black eyes drowned me. I shook my head, fighting off the thought. A thousand and one things and scenarios and all that I am worried about is how black his eyes shone.
“Did you have my mother fired?” I asked.
He said nothing, his eyes on my face… lips, watching me.
He raised his hand, the action caused me to flinch, eyes shut as I waited for the impact.
Nothing.
I slowly opened my eyes.
“If I wanted to hurt you….”
His fingers brushed against my wrist, right on my pulse point.
Barley felt. But heavy.
My body went still, an electric jolt waving through me with just a touch. He was messing with my head.
“You would already be bleeding.”
Finn’s povThat was the only way to save him the stress; that was the only way to save him the embarrassment of seeing how my family lived.“What are you trying to say?” I sighed. “I'm saving you from all the troubles, Knox. Why don't you want to take the offer? Your father doesn't have to know you're gay. You can return to Calista.”He scoffed. “Is this about my dad, or the fact that your attitude changed the moment you heard me saying I want to go spend the holiday with your family?” I froze; he got the memo. I slowly started to realise how impossible everything was. I couldn't believe how fast he was able to know what I felt.“I don't want to be saved. I love you!” I scoffed. “Love? You have to be kidding me. After everything your dad said? You're supposed to be scared.” He stared at me confused, his eyes fixed on me with his face pale.“I don't care anymore. What I want from you is simple. I want you to love me.”I sighed, shoulders slumped.“I can't.”“What are you so scare
Knox’s PovI stared at the door, too stunned to stop him from leaving. Was it something I said?I tried to rethink what I had said, but there was nothing bad there, or was he still trying to process what was going on?” I exhaled, trying my best to be calm. I still couldn't understand what I had said wrong.“Maybe he needs some time alone,” I tried to make that sink into my head, hoping that things would help.By the time he returned to the room, I noticed how he walked in. Head lowered, almost like he wasn't trying to get noticed.“Finn?” I muttered, but he didn't respond. He walked straight to the side of his bed and tried to make his bed.I watched, stunned that he didn't respond to me. What the hell was going on with him?“Finn…” I called again, and this time I finally got up from my seat and walked towards him. However, when I attempted to touch his shoulders, he pulled away.He gave
Finn’s PovI paced back and forth, my hand trembling as my mind roamed around the reason Dean might have called him. He obviously did something wrong by beating Ace up, but I feared that wasn't the reason.What if the main reason he was called was because he hurt Calista?My heart thudded, and I felt my chest tighten. I really couldn't go to the Dean's office; my presence would be questioned, and that wasn't what I wanted.“You have to stay calm. I'm sure he'll be back soon.” I tried to pep myself, but that wasn't happening.Just when I felt I was about to explode, I heard the door open. I snapped my head towards the direction, my body following.“Knox.” I wasn't calm; I took quick steps and hugged him the moment I could.The hug was long, and he hugged me back, but I pulled away, my eyes searching for him. “I was so worried.” I started. “What happened?” I kept asking questions, but he remained quiet. This only made me worry more. The look on his face showed me there was definit
Knox’s povThe next morning, Finn was already prepared for class. I could see the worry in his eyes when he reached the door.“You're skipping class today?” I sighed.“There's one thing I didn't tell you last night.” He blinked, raised his brows, and immediately let go of the doorknob. He walked over to my side and took a seat. “We... We can talk later; you're going to be late.” His brows furrowed. “I have like thirty minutes. Does this also have to do with why you're skipping class today?” He paused for a few seconds. “Did you actually tell her we were a couple?” I shook my head, my eyes showing surprise. “No, that's not it. It's about my…” I sighed, lowering my shoulders.“It's about my hockey career.” He widened his eyes, blinking. “You got in trouble with the coach for beating up Ace?” I nodded. He took a deep breath to calm himself down and then placed his hands on my knees. “What kind of trouble?” It was becoming harder to say now that he was staring at me.“I was suspe
Finn’s PovI stood out in the hallway, my back resting against the wall with my left leg relaxing as extra support.I was tense. Sweat formed on my forehead, and I wondered what would happen.Would she be able to convince him to return to her? I exhaled, running my hands through my hair. However, I snapped my head towards our dorm's door that had been drawn open, and my eyes trailed Calista as she ran past me.She sobbed with her palms over her eyes, running as fast as she could.My eyes widened, and only one thought played in my mind. What exactly did he tell her?I didn't wait; I increased my pace, shutting the door Calista had left open behind me.I noticed how Knox was seated on the bed, eyes staring at the floor blankly. Whatever he told her was definitely something that affected them both deeply.I saw the red mark on his cheek, probably from a slap he had gotten from her; I wasn't so sure.I pressed my lips, wondering if this was the perfect time to ask him what had happened.
Knox’s Pov “Look, I don't know what you're talking about, but you can't be here. Do you understand? This is my dorm.” She scoffed. “I can't be here. Yet, you share it with him; what a way to support equality.” “He's a boy!” “But he's not in your class.” She had responses to everything I said even when it wasn't as serious as she made it look. “Look, I appreciate you coming, but you have to leave.” She froze, then shook her head. “You still haven't told me what the hell is going on. I know you might not want to say a word to me, but believe me, I will find out.” I used my hands to massage my temples, mumbling a few words as she kept ranting. “Why does he suddenly seem so important to you?” She pointed at Finn, her gaze dark and threatening. At the same time, I noticed she had been trying to hold back tears. “You
Finn’s PovJason's attitude has changed in the past few meetings we've had. At first, he came off as a genuine friend, but now it seemed like something entirely different.I exhaled, looking over my shoulders as I walked back to my dorm. I felt he had feelings for me, but since he hadn't said anyt
KNOX’S POV“What do you want, Knox? Tell me, and I’ll give it to you if it means this stops.”I paused with my hand on the doorknob, the cool metal biting into my palm. I didn't turn around. I didn't want to see the desperation in his eyes, because looking at it made my own blood simmer with posse
Knox’s PovIt is hate at first sight.For him, for everything that surrounded him.“I have what you need,” Ace said, his smile eager as he dropped the folder beside me. I smirked as I stared at it, “That was a nice touch with the bander, how did you get that information?”He smirked, perking up at
Finn’s PovThere is something no one ever wants to see. No one wants to know what it feels like to be in front of the police station, eyes bloodshot red from tears as you beg for your mother to be freed.And there is something that shouldn’t be seen. A picture of my lowest, the mugshot of my most e







