Wakey Wakey

I squeeze my pillow tight around my head, trying to drown out the pounding on my door. I barely slept last night. Every time I closed my eyes, Kane's face was there again; too close, that stupid smirk, his voice in my ear.

It's ridiculous. Why can't I stop thinking about it??

"Ughhh" I hear Lydia throw her covers off

The least she can do is see who the hell is banging on the door since she ditched me last night. Lydia opens the door and let's out another annoyed groan.

"Great. It's you two"

No. No. No! I immediately know who she's talking about. Two very large bodies dive on top of me. I've gotten used to it from years of them waking me up like this.

"Get off!" I yell

I roll and one of them falls to the floor while the other wrestles with me to get the pillow off my head. I can't deal with them today, and by them I mean Kane. The pillow is ripped from grip so I throw my arms over my eyes instead.

"Wakey, wakey"

I peek through my arms to see Kane sitting on top of me, on knee on either side of my hips. Usually, I would buck my hips and throw him off of me but for reason now that seems.. intimate.

I wonder if he even remembers anything from last night.

I throw my arms down. “What the hell do you two want?”

Kane’s fingertips press into my ribs, and I immediately tense; he knows how ticklish I am.

“Is that any way to talk to your two favorite people in the whole wide world?” He smiles at me and it’s the first time I’ve noticed how nice his smile is. Usually when he’s smiling at me it’s because he did something that makes me want to slap it off.

“Kane, be nice if we want Vi to buy up breakfast” Landon says from the floor

“Uh-uh, no, I have bought you two breakfast for the last three weekends” I sit up and shove Kane off of me

“Exactly, it’s basically tradition at this point and you can’t break tradition” Kane says and Landon nods in agreement

I rub at my temples. The two of them are going to cause my head to explode one day.

“I could go for some breakfast”

I whip my head to the side and look at Lydia in utter betrayal, but she’s not looking at me she’s looking at Landon. She has a huge crush on him but he’s sworn off relationships and only does casual hookups now.

His last relationship ended really badly after she cheated on him so I can’t blame him for not wanting to get into another one for a while.

“Fine” I throw the covers off and slide out of bed “You two wait outside while we get ready”

They jump up, and scurry out the door. Such simple creatures.

I turn to Lydia and cross my arms over my chest. I’m still pissed at her about last night.

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said I wanted breakfast”

I scoff “That’s what you think I’m mad about??”

“What else would you be mad about?” She’s turned away from me looking through her closet and I feel my temper spike.

“Maybe because you ditched me at the fucking party that you made me go to last night!”

She turns to face me, clearly caught off guard. We’ve been friends for almost a year now and this is the first time I’ve yelled at her but it’s definitely not the first time I should’ve yelled at her.

“I didn’t ditch you..”

“You did ditch me and you do it every time. You drag me out to a party and then you disappear”

Her mouth opens and closes a few times like she can’t figure out what to say. I do feel a little guilty about getting angry with her, but I'm also tired of being ditched at parties I didn't even want to go to in the first place. 

“You’re right, I’m sorry. I’m a total bitch and I will do anything to make it up to you”

“How about you just don’t ditch me at parties anymore?” I should tell her to not even ask me to go to them anymore but I already know that will never happen. I'm honestly not even sure why she loves going to parties so much, she's not a big drinker and she doesn't do drugs

“Deal” She turns back to her closet and pulls out a long floral dress. "Is this too much for breakfast?" 

"You never ask me for fashion advice" I narrow my eyes at her 

"I only asked if you thought it was too much" 

"Yeah but what you were really asking is if Landon will think it's too much" 

Her mouth drops open and she scoffs. She's never outright admitted that she has a crush on him and I've never called her out on it. I'm not sure if she thinks that I would be upset with her or something. Me and Landon don't have that kind of brother sister relationship. I would never mark him off limits to my friends. 

"Why would I care what Landon thinks?" 

"Oh, I don't know, maybe because you have a big fat crush on him" 

She shakes her head and scoffs again. "I do not have a crush on him" 

Her voice does the highpitched thing it always does when she's lying. She goes into the bathroom to change and when she comes back out she looks me up and down. 

"Is that what you're wearing?" 

I look down at my outfit. I have on a black cropped T-shirt, black sweat pants, and my checkered vans. It's not an out of the ordinary outfit for me. 

"Yes, you're just trying to change the subject" 

She sighs. "I don't have a crush on Landon. I mean, he's attractive and funny and smart.." 

"Ugh, yeah. He's awful. I can totally see why you don't have a crush on him." 

She cuts her eyes at me. Lydia is one of many people that don't appreciate my sarcasm. 

"Well, you're obviously in love with Kane" 

I stare at her for a second before I burst out laughing. I'll have to add her to the list of people who have accused me of being in love with him. 

"I'm not in love with Kane" 

At this point I need to have a T-shirt made that says "I am not in love with Kane Wilder". 

"Really? Who do you keep that first aid kit for then?" She points towards the bathroom 

"It's for everybody"

Lydia raises her eyebrows, obviously not believing me.  

"Uh-huh, and why do you always order your burger with no onion when he's with us even though you love onions?" 

"I can never finish the whole thing.." 

"Right, so why did you write his history paper for him last semester when he was "sick"?".

"He would've failed..." 

"You can explain it away all you want Viola, but it's obviously to everyone that you love him." 

I want to tell her she has no idea what the hell she's talking about. I care about Kane, I've never denied that but I'm not in love with him. 

I'm not. 

A loud bang on the door makes me jump. "Hurry Up!!!" Landon yells from the other side

I roll my eyes, grab my keys and head for the door. I don't bothering arguing further with Lydia because she's wrong. 

I'm not in love with Kane fucking Wilder.