MasukNikolaiMy heart was in my throat.I couldn’t breathe.I didn’t dare breathe.Jeremy sat close to me in the station, his hand over mine, trying to walk me through my breathing.I couldn’t.I jumped up again, pacing around.Of course I knew this was all bullshit. It couldn’t be my baby. It couldn’t be my pretty boy. It couldn’t be Nathaniel.Tears pricked my eyes.Clinton stepped forward, squeezing my shoulders in an attempt to comfort me.“It can’t be him, right? It can’t be fucking him, right?” My gaze turned to Jeremy, wanting him to give me something… anything.His eyes were emotionless.And it was damn deliberate.It broke me.“You think it’s him?” I whispered, feeling all the demons in my head crawling beneath my skin.Jeremy calmly stood up.“What I think doesn’t matter, Niko. But you keeping your shit together definitely matters.”Hearing him…Sounding so emotionless…I snapped out of Clinton’s hold and charged toward Jeremy.I grabbed him by the collar, slamming him against th
NikolaiIt’s been two days now.Bloody two fucking days.I think I’ve completely lost my sanity over the past forty-eight hours.“You need to sleep, Niko,” Jeremy said as we studied the city layout spread across the table. Maps, CCTV locations, hospital records, traffic routes, phone logs—every possible lead lay scattered before us. We had searched every place Nathaniel could’ve gone, and every single trail had gone cold.I blinked heavily, my eyelids burning with exhaustion while every muscle in my body screamed for rest.I shook my head, dragging a hand through my hair. “I can’t sleep, Jeremy. I can’t let him down.”My baby had been missing for two days.Somewhere between searching every corner of this city and getting nothing in return…I had completely lost it.I hadn’t eaten. I couldn’t remember the last time I’d showered, and every time I closed my eyes, I saw Nathaniel smiling at me before walking away… only to disappear. The thought alone made my stomach twist.Jeremy slid a b
Nikolai“Will you fucking chill out, man?” Clinton hurled from across the room.I was currently at the Elite Mansion.And I wasn’t fucking okay.Nathaniel wasn’t picking up my calls or replying to my messages.And some fucked-up feeling of déjà vu kept crawling beneath my skin.I mean…I know he won’t leave me.He promised and made that extremely clear… but…Shit!I needed to stop all these shitty thoughts.Nathaniel would never leave me.“You see, man…” Derek said, lying on the chair opposite me, his body slumped upside down with a stress ball in his hand. He continued, “This is what love does to a person. It makes you all fucked up, man. It’s complete bullshit.”Though I would love nothing more than to punch his stupid excuse for a face, I had better things to direct my energy towards.Besides, Nathaniel wouldn’t approve of me potentially killing someone.He’d already talked about me getting professional help or something like that. Not that I liked the sound of it, but if my baby w
Nathaniel“Why are you staring at me?” I paused, with a piece of pancake in my hand.Nikolai shook his head, his body leaning lazily against the counter… where he was looking deliciously shirtless.“Not at all, baby. I just like staring at your pretty face.”I blushed hard, shifting slightly as an involuntary whimper escaped my lips.My butt was very sore.After the whole bedroom lovemaking, Nikolai had forced and pinned me against the bathroom wall before downright fucking me again.I literally limped into the dining room, trying my possible best to ignore the fact that everything hurt.Yes…Yes…I know I was the one who wanted and tempted him in the first place, but he took it too far.“Then stop looking at me… It’s making me uncomfortable.” I glared, tossing the pancake into my mouth.“Uncomfortable how?” Reaching down, he slightly adjusted his cock through his grey sweatpants, where it was so damn obvious how huge and outlined his dick was.He was tempting me.No.He was mocking m
NikolaiI felt fingers tracing along my chest.My brows furrowed in my sleep.And then I felt it again, the tingling sensation running along my skin, almost burning me.Opening my eyes, my breathing becoming slightly laboured.“Baby?” I frowned, my head trying to understand the view in front of me. I had to blink, making sure it wasn’t my fucked-up imagination playing with me.“Good morning.” Nathaniel’s bright smile welcomed me. Lying low again, he pressed a kiss to my chest.My body immediately reacted to it, my chest constricting, but in a good way.Trailing his lips down my chest to my abdomen…I quickly caught his head, already breathing fucking hard.“What’s going on, baby?” I asked breathlessly, my gaze weaving through his soft features.He was shirtless, with just a tight cotton boxer hugging his waist. His hair was all messy, and those damn pretty eyes of his were definitely fucking messing with my head.“Kissing you, of course.” He responded so casually, while giving me a kn
Nathaniel“Baby…. You really don’t have to.” Hurled Nikolai, as we walked hand in hand towards the beach.It was pretty late, with the stars decorating the night sky… and the refreshing breeze was everything.“Baby…..”Annoyed, I snapped a glare at him.“Yes! Nikolai.”He jumped backwards, raising his hands in the air.“Shit… I’m sorry, baby.” He crooked a smile.Inhaling deeply, I closed my eyes, allowing the soft waves of the ocean to clear my head.Deep inhales and exhales.Opening my eyes, Nikolai locked eyes with me.He whispered again, “You really didn’t have to, you need rest, remember?”And it was the softness lacing his gaze towards me which had my heart melting inside.The way he looks at me…. It’s something I will never get tired of.“This was where we agreed to be boyfriends…” I hurled, my eyes adjusting to the ocean ahead. “And also our first official kiss.”“Fuck, baby, I fucking remember.” He breathed out. “I was so fucking addicted to you…. I couldn’t think straight… a
NikolaiMy chest hurts.And I just can’t explain the feeling properly.Probably it started when Nathaniel told me to leave, or when I clearly saw the pain in his eyes, begging me to leave.He couldn’t even stand my presence, and that thought had something hard choking me.Eventually, I slowly backe
NathanielPlating the creamy pasta and salad, I sighed, shaking my head.“Can you quit the staring? You’re creeping me out.”When I turned slightly, I found Nikolai seated there, his gaze completely fixed on me. Unmoving. Intense. Like I was the only thing in the room worth looking at.I had to bre
NathanielWeird.What’s he doing in an ice cream shop?He doesn’t actually seem like someone who’s up for these kinds of things.I stood, frowning hard as I watched Professor Leo hurriedly walk out.My phone vibrated in my hand again.I answered the call, sighing heavily.“Hi……” I said, clutching h
NathanielI was completely flushed with embarrassment, especially with Nikolai who had his fuck me eyes downright staring at me.He urged again, pushing the fork towards my lips, “Eat up baby.” And then he leaned to my ear, “I need you all strong and healthy if you’re going to take up my dick and t







