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CHAPTER 22-The Last Night Across The Hall
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Staying with him CHAPTER 128- The Last Session Before Leave
She told her last client on a Thursday in late October.Not told about the pregnancy — all seventeen clientshad known for months, the body having made theknowledge unavoidable well before the summer andthe specific one-by-one tellings. She told her lastclient before maternity leave that the next sessionwould be their last until the spring.She had been thinking about how to do this for weeks.The maternity leave was a professional event as wellas a personal one, and the professional event requiredthe specific care that all endings in the consultingroom required: the preparation, the acknowledgment,the giving of the right amount of time to transition.She had arranged for each client to have the sessionsthey needed before the break, some of them movingto Aisha for the duration, some of them taking thebreak and returning in the spring, some of them at apoint in their work where the spring was a naturalcontinuation.The Thursday client was the last one.She had scheduled th
Staying with him CHAPTER 127- What He Says Back
He had said the thing on the Wednesday evening, thething that had changed the shape of the fear, and shehad held it and sat with it through the night and thefollowing day, and on Thursday evening she told himwhat the holding had produced.I want to tell you what I found, she said.He was at the counter with the evening tea and heturned.When I held what you said last night, she said. Aboutthe after being what the child will know. About thebefore being the material of the after. She paused. Iheld it for a long time. I am still holding it. She satdown at the table. What I found is that the fearchanged shape. She looked at him. It is not the samefear it was yesterday.What shape is it now, he said.She thought about how to say it.The fear yesterday was about the unconditional love,she said. Whether I could hold it. Whether the childloving me before I had earned anything from herspecifically was something I knew how to receive. Shepaused. What you said changed that. I unde
Staying with him CHAPTER 126- Her Fear, Named Properly
She named it on a Wednesday evening in Octoberwhen she was thirty-six weeks pregnant and the birthwas four weeks away at the most and probably less.She had been carrying this fear for longer than shehad been carrying the other fears. She had named thecloseness fear to him in June and it had beenreceived and held and the holding had helped in theway that holding always helped, which was not toresolve the fear but to reduce the authority it had overher, to make it a known thing she was in relationshipwith rather than an unnamed thing she was managedby. She had named his fear back to him in July, helpedhim put it in the room, sat with it with him until he wasin it rather than alone with it.This fear she had not named.She had been examining it for months. She knew theshape of it, the specific architecture of it, she couldhave described it to someone in the professionallanguage with precision and accuracy. But she hadnot said it out loud to him because she had not yetfo
Staying with him CHAPTER 125- What He Builds
The cot arrived in a flat-pack box on a Thursday inOctober, which was not the way Damien had intendedit to arrive.He had intended to build a cot. He had said this inSeptember when they were clearing the secondbedroom and she had said, you could simply buy abuilt cot, and he had looked at her with the expressionhe used when he considered a suggestion and foundit technically possible but personally incorrect. Thesuggestion was received. It was noted. It was notgoing to be followed.The flat-pack box arrived on a Thursday.She came home from a session at five and found thebox in the hallway and she looked at it for a momentand she went into the living room and found him onthe floor with the instructions. He had alreadyseparated all the components into groups and had anotebook open beside him. She recognised thenotebook. It was the notebook that had appeared sixweeks into the pregnancy, the list-and-diagramnotebook, the one that contained everything he hadmeasured and p
Staying with him CHAPTER 124- Marcus At The Academy
She found him in the office on a Thursday in October,which was where she found him most Thursdays now,the chair at the edge of the far pitch having beenreplaced, sometime over the summer, by the chair inthe office.The chair in the office was different from the chair atthe edge of the far pitch in a way that mattered.The chair at the far pitch was where you sat when thewatching was close enough to feel the sessions. Shehad sat beside Marcus in that chair and she hadunderstood, from the position and from the quality ofMarcus's attention in it, that the watching from thatchair was not oversight but presence, the being-there,the specific physical proximity to the thing that hadbeen the whole of Marcus's professional life for fortyyears.The chair in the office was where you watched fromthe window.She found him in the chair in the office, on theThursday in October, with his tea, watching from thewindow. The broken blind had been fixed — Damienhad fixed it in September, which he h
Staying with him CHAPTER 123- The Room
cleared the second bedroom on a Saturday inSeptember when she was seven months pregnant andthe clearing could no longer be postponed by thepretence that they had more time.She had been aware of this for several weeks — thepostponing and the pretence — and she had allowed itbecause she understood that the clearing was notjust the clearing. The clearing was the finalacknowledgement that the thing was coming, thephysical making-room, and you did not make room forsomething until you were ready to let it arrive. Theyhad been ready for months. They had not been readyto clear the room until now.The room had contained, over five years of the flatbeing theirs: the books that had been read and notrehomed, which had accumulated in a specific cornerand had now been relocated to shelves in the livingroom and the hallway; the suitcases they used twice ayear, which went under the bed in the main bedroomand would stay there indefinitely; the Christmasdecorations in the well-organ
Staying with him CHAPTER 7: The Morning After
She woke up and knew exactly where she was. No foggy confusion, no blinking at strange walls. Just the solid weight of Damien’s arm across her waist, the unfamiliar slant of light through his curtains, and that smell—his smell—that she’d stopped pretending she didn’t like days ago.She stayed still
Staying with him Chapter 6: The First Night
She lasted until midnight.That was the honest truth of it. She lay on his sofa with his blanket pulled up to her chin and stared at the ceiling and listened to the rain and told herself she was fine, she was comfortable, she was absolutely not thinking about the man sleeping fifteen feet away from
Staying with him Chapter 5: Staying
Maintenance said three days.Three days to fix the pipe, treat the damp, assess the flooring, do whatever it was they needed to do before the apartment was liveable again. Olivia stood in her doorway on Monday morning and looked at the state of it — the warped floorboards, the smell of wet plaster,
Staying with him Chapter 4: Caught
She woke up before him.6am, grey light coming through the gaps in his curtains, the television having switched itself off sometime in the night. For a moment — just a brief, disoriented moment — she forgot where she was. Then it came back. The flood. The knock. The blanket that smelled faintly of
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