LOGINMillie's POV
[Background Song: Chris Brown's "Under the Influence”]
Millie Jones gripped the edge of the passenger seat, her knuckles pale against the worn leather. The journey was almost beginning to seem endless. The highway stretched endlessly ahead, flanked by dense pines that blurred into a green haze as Richard drove. She hadn’t said more than ten words since they left the house three hours ago. Why bother? This trip had been doomed from the start. Her mother, Adrianna, was supposed to be here. The three of them would finally be doing the “family bonding” thing Adrianna had hyped up for months. But at the last possible minute, her mother had called with that familiar, airy excuse.
“There is a work emergency. One of the partners needs me on a big case. You two go ahead and have fun!”
The subtext was always the same, another weekend with whatever new fling had her distracted this month. Millie’s stomach twisted at the thought. Her mother’s infidelity wasn’t new, but it still stung like salt in an old wound. And now she was stuck with him, of all people. Richard. Her stepfather of six long years. She couldn't believe he had lasted that long. She stole a glance at him from the corner of her eye. Then her thoughts drifted slightly; Forty-five, broad-shouldered, with salt-and-pepper hair that somehow made him look distinguished rather than old. His hands rested confidently on the steering wheel, veins standing out against tanned skin. He wore a simple gray henley that stretched across his chest, the sleeves pushed up to reveal forearms corded with muscle from weekend projects around the house. Objectively, he was attractive. Millie hated that she noticed.
“You okay over there?” Richard’s voice was low and steady, the same calm tone he always used even when she was being difficult. It irritated her.
“Fine,” she muttered, turning back to the window. The air conditioning hummed, but the late summer heat still pressed against the glass.
Her tank top clung lightly to her skin, and she tugged at the hem of her denim shorts, suddenly self-conscious about how much leg they showed. Her hair was quite messy. The air played swiftly, enabling her hair to swirl across her face. Stupid. It wasn’t like he was looking. The music played all along.
“Your mom said she’ll try to join us tomorrow if things wrap up.”
Millie let out a bitter laugh. “Sure she will.”
She crossed her arms, pressing her thighs together against the seat. The car felt smaller with every mile. His scent was something woodsy and clean, like cedar and soap, which had already filled the confined space. She’d always hated how good he smelled. It made the resentment feel messy. Richard sighed but didn’t push. That was his way. He was patient and unshakable. The perfect counter to her mother’s chaos. Sometimes Millie wondered if that was why her mom had married him. To have someone steady to come home to after her storms. It didn’t make Millie any less bitter about the way he’d inserted himself into their lives when she was still grieving her real dad. They stopped once for gas and snacks. Millie wandered the aisles of the dusty convenience store, grabbing chips and soda while Richard filled the tank. When she returned to the car, he was leaning against the hood, scrolling his phone. His eyes flicked up as she approached, lingering for half a second on her legs before he looked away. She noticed. Or maybe she imagined it. Heat crept up her neck anyway.
Back on the road, the terrain shifted from highway to winding mountain roads. The pines grew thicker, the air cooler and sharper with the scent of earth and water. Millie’s resentment simmered, but something else threaded through it now. A restless energy she couldn’t name. The car jostled over a pothole, and her hand brushed his thigh as she steadied herself. She yanked it back like she’d been burned.
“Sorry,” she mumbled.
“No problem.” His voice had dropped a fraction. He cleared his throat. “We’re almost there. The campsite is supposed to be pretty isolated. Good for getting away from everything.”
Everything. Including the complicated tangle of feelings she’d been shoving down for years. Millie shifted in her seat, the friction of denim against skin suddenly noticeable. She pictured the tent they’d packed… one large family tent, because her mother had insisted it would be “cozy.” Now it would just be the two of them. Alone. For days. By the time they pulled into the gravel lot at Lakeside Retreat, the sun hung low, painting the water in shades of molten gold. The lake stretched out, it was calm and inviting, ringed by towering evergreens. A few distant campsites dotted the shoreline, but theirs was tucked away at the end of a short trail, private and shadowed. Perfect for solitude. Or trouble.
Richard stopped the engine. “Home sweet home for the next few days,” he said.
Millie climbed out, stretching her legs. The air smelled of pine needles, damp earth, and woodsmoke from someone else’s fire. Birds called overhead. It would have been peaceful if her pulse wasn’t already racing for no good reason. They unloaded the car in relative silence. Richard carried the heavy tent bag and cooler while Millie managed the sleeping bags and food pack. His biceps flexed under the weight, and she caught herself staring before forcing her gaze to the ground. Get it together, Millie. He’s your stepdad. She thought to herself silently
The campsite clearing was perfect. The flat ground near the water, a fire pit already lined with stones, and enough trees for privacy. They worked together to set up the tent, the instructions spread on a nearby log. Richard’s presence was impossible to ignore as they snapped poles into place. He stood close, his arm brushing hers as he reached for a stake. Warmth radiated from his body, and she caught that cedar scent again, stronger now with the exertion.
“Hold this steady,” he said, his voice low and focused. His hand covered hers briefly on the pole, large and callused. A spark shot up her arm. She nodded, not trusting her voice.
As the tent took shape, the reality settled in. One big tent. Two sleeping bags side by side inside. No separate spaces. No mom as a buffer. Millie’s mouth went dry. She busied herself unrolling the sleeping bags, smoothing them out with unnecessary care. The fabric was soft, and inviting. She imagined lying there later, listening to his breathing in the dark.
Richard hammered the last stake with a few solid swings of the mallet. Sweat glistened on his forehead. He straightened, wiping his brow with the hem of his shirt, revealing a strip of toned abdomen. Millie looked away quickly, but not before the image burned into her mind.
“Looks good,” he said, surveying their work. A small, satisfied smile tugged at his lips. “You did great. Team effort.”
“Yeah,” she replied, voice tighter than she wanted. “Team effort.”
They built a fire as dusk settled. Richard arranged the logs with practiced efficiency while Millie fetched kindling. The flames caught, crackling warmly and sending sparks dancing upward. They sat on folding chairs, the lake reflecting the orange glow. The distant murmur of other campers carried faintly on the breeze… laughter, a dog barking once, but their spot felt worlds away. Richard handed her a skewer with marshmallows. Their fingers brushed again. Longer this time. Neither pulled away immediately.
“You’ve been quiet,” he observed, roasting his own. “I know this isn’t how you pictured it. With your mom bailing again.”
Millie shrugged, watching the marshmallow bubble and brown. “It’s whatever. Not like it’s new.” Inside, her thoughts churned. Why does he have to be so… decent? So solid? The resentment she’d clung to for years felt slippery here, under the stars, with his steady presence beside her.
He turned the skewer thoughtfully. “I’m glad you still came. Figured you might back out too.”
“And leave you out here alone?” She tried for sarcasm, but it came out softer. “Someone has to make sure you don’t get eaten by bears.”
Richard chuckled, a deep, rumbling sound that did unwelcome things to her stomach. “Fair enough. Though I think you’re the one who needs watching. You always wander off when you’re stressed.”
She glanced at him sharply. He remembered that? From family hikes years ago? The thought unsettled her. She popped the toasted marshmallow into her mouth, the sweetness exploding on her tongue. Sticky residue clung to her lips. She licked it away, aware of his eyes on her for a beat too long. The temperature dropped as the night fell. The fire popped and hissed. Millie pulled a light hoodie over her tank top, but the chill still seeped in. Or maybe it wasn’t the chill. Her skin felt hypersensitive, every rustle of leaves or lap of water amplified.
“We should probably turn in soon,” Richard said eventually. “Long day tomorrow. Hiking the trail around the lake, maybe swimming if it warms up.”
Millie nodded. They doused the fire and headed into the tent. The space was intimate, cozy, even. Their sleeping bags lay parallel, maybe a foot apart. Richard moved with quiet efficiency, changing into sleep shorts and a t-shirt in the dim glow of his lantern. Millie caught glimpses: the strong line of his back, the way his shorts hung on his hips. She turned away, heart pounding, and slipped into her own sleep clothes; a thin camisole and soft shorts.
They lay down. The lantern clicked off, plunging them into darkness broken only by faint moonlight filtering through the mesh roof. Millie stared up at the fabric ceiling, hyper-aware of every sound. His breathing. The shift of his body. The faint heat radiating across the small gap between them. She turned onto her side, facing away from him, but sleep wouldn’t come. Old tensions twisted with something new…something warm and dangerous uncoiling low in her belly. The resentment was still there, but it felt different now. It felt sharper. Mixed with a forbidden curiosity that made her thighs press together.
This is ridiculous, she thought. He’s your stepfather. Mom’s husband. But Mom wasn’t here. And Richard’s presence filled the tent like a promise…or a threat.
Beside her, Richard shifted again. “Are you awake?” His voice was barely above a whisper, husky with near-sleep.
“Yeah,” she breathed.
There was a brief silence. Then, softly, “Night, Millie. Sweet dreams.”
His words lingered in the dark, settling over her skin like a touch. She bit her lip, a confusing rush of shame and excitement flooding her veins. The trip had only just begun, and already the air between them felt charged, heavy with everything unsaid. Millie closed her eyes, but the images behind her lids; his hands, his scent, the way he’d looked at her by the fire…refused to fade. Tomorrow, she told herself, it would be normal. Just camping. And just family.
But deep down, she wasn’t sure she wanted normal anymore.
(Millie POV)I picked a fight at six forty-five on a Wednesday evening because I am not, at twenty-three, the kind of woman who is good at waiting for explanations at night. I had been good at waiting for explanations for months. I had been good at waiting at the lake, in the garage, on the kitchen counter, in the pantry, on the lawn at the lake shore, in his bed, on the back porch, under the throw blanket in front of the bay window. I had been waiting with my body the way a person waits at a bus stop in the rain. I had been waiting for him to come to me with the explanation. He had not come. Adrianna was downstairs making dinner. He was not coming tonight either, and I was tired of being the woman he had spent the afternoon not coming to.“Mother,” I said at dinner.“Yes, baby?”“Did you ever have a roommate named Vivienne?”The kitchen went quiet in the way kitchens go quiet when something has been said that someone was not expecting. Adrianna set her fork down. “Vivienne Ashford?”
Richard POVThe photo came in at 11:48, three minutes after Millie came home and told me about the woman at Mercury.Vivienne Ashford — 11:48 AM[photo attached]The photo was of Millie. From this morning. From Mercury Café. From the booth next to mine. Millie was looking down at her toast with the angle that she holds toast when she is cutting it with a knife to make it easier to butter, and the reflection on the back of her phone was caught in the photo at the corner, and in the corner you could just make out the faintest suggestion of auburn hair, which was mine, which was Vivienne's, which was the only thing about Vivienne I have ever been able to identify at a distance.The caption read: “Pretty and young. Does Adrianna know? — V”I had been sitting at the island with a glass of water I did not want, watching Millie sleep in our bed and not yet going to her, not because I was being careful but because I was being afraid, and the photo came in, and the photo did the thing Vivienne
Millie POVMercury Cafe on a Wednesday morning is a thing I have learned to love. I sit at the corner table by the window and I order the same thing every time. A lavender latte and a piece of toast I do not finish, because Mercury is the only place in town where my mother has never once in my life walked in and asked for the check. Mercury is Adrianna-safe. Mercury is mine. I was on my second lavender latte when the woman sat down at the table next to mine. I did not look up. I do not look up at strangers at Mercury. I look up at Adriannas and Richards and Mrs. Halbrooks and the friendly checkout kid at the bookstore who will not stop making eye contact with me because I am, in his peripheral vision, possibly the twenty-three-year-old woman of his dreams. I do not look up at strange women. But the strange woman was looking at me. I know this because I was holding my toast at the angle that you hold toast when you are cutting it with a knife to make it easier to butter, and I was look
Richard POVShe had put the phone back in the wrong place.I notice where my phone is the way I notice where my keys are. I always notice. The phone is a MagSafe to a stand on the nightstand I put it on. The stand is angled at forty-five degrees toward the bed. The phone charger cord runs under the nightstand in a particular coil I have done every night for three years. The phone is always at a particular angle on the stand. Tonight the phone was at a different angle. The angle was off by perhaps ten degrees. The angle was off because a woman had picked it up and put it back and had tried to put it back exactly the way she had found it. Millie had picked up my phone.I did not say anything. I went into the bathroom. I looked at my own face in the mirror and what I felt about this was complicated. Shame because she had caught me, shame because she had caught me seeing someone I had not yet told her about, and something small and ugly underneath both of those, which was satisfaction. M
Millie POVThe pause lived in my chest for two days.“There's no her,” he had said. “There's no her.”But he had not said “there was never a her.” He had said something smaller, slower, more careful, and the space between “no her now” and “never a her” was the space I had begun to live in. It was a small, ugly furnished room of a space, and I had moved my things into it without deciding to. Adrianna was back. Friday at sundown, pink suitcase, perfume cloud, three new stories about Marcy and Dee and cousin Pippa that I would not remember by Sunday. The cab dropped her at the curb. Richard kissed her in the driveway. Long. Loud. The little practiced sound.“How was Tahoe, baby?” “Divine, just divine, you have to see this cabin, Richard, this… Richard, did you water the ferns? Millie's birthday gift… of course, the closet… of course.”I watched her unpack her suitcase in the master bedroom down the hall and I stood in the doorway of my own bedroom and I knew exactly what she had packed
Richard POVIt rained on the Thursday of the five days. Adrianna would not call it rain. She would call it "a little weather" if she were here, and she was not here, so I let it be rain. We could not go outside. Millie brought the throw blanket from the couch and laid it on the rug in the living room in front of the bay window, because the bay window looked out at the street and she wanted to see the street. She had been wanting to see the street a lot this week. She had a thing about Mrs. Halbrook now. I did not like the thing about Mrs. Halbrook. I did not like that Millie had started watching the neighbors on my behalf because I had asked her to and because watching the neighbors was not something I wanted her to have to do. I sat down on the rug beside her. She leaned into me immediately with the small cold thing of her fitting against the warm thing of me, cheek on my shoulder, hip against my hip.“We're playing a game,” she said.“What game.”“Truth. Dare. Quarters. Whatever.”I







