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Prologue
Limon Correctional Facility
Limon, Colorado
Eleven years ago
Nala Porter fumbled with her purse, trying to find her wallet so she could have her ID to hand. It never ceased to amaze her how she could put something right at the top of the damn bag, just right there, and how the object promptly disappeared into it, like it had just gracefully dived into an ocean’s murky depths.
She wasn’t really paying attention to her surroundings, since she was focused on sifting through the junk that seemed to just appear without any effort on her part, and anyway, she was seriously distracted by the news that had been confirmed just that morning. She was happy about it – thrilled, actually – and she hoped that her husband would be, too, despite the present circumstances, which were, admittedly, less than ideal.
The autumn colors on her journey down from Denver had been spectacular, all gold and orange and red, and had just amped her mood up ever higher. It was an easy ninety minute drive from the city to the prison, and she’d done it every week for two months now, managing around her work as a dental receptionist and the strict visitor times and rules.
Nala was hopeful that her husband would be out in six months, maybe a bit sooner. He’d assured her that he’d been on his best behavior, and she believed him. After all, this was his first time in jail ever, and considering his personal, professional, and social associations, that was pretty amazing.
“Hey,” a gruff voice said now, startling her mid-stride. “Wait a second.”
She gasped, and looked up from her purse, her driver’s license in her hand; she now wished that it was her pepper spray instead. Then she saw who was speaking to her and she relaxed. Marginally.
Wheels Jordan, President of The Road Devils MC, was standing in front of her. He was a tall, bald man with a huge beer gut and a wild black beard flecked with gray, and the coldest eyes that she’d ever seen, except for that absolute fucking monster Ice Johansson. Right now, he was standing between her and the door into reception, and she had to deal with him quickly. She only had an hour to visit, so every minute was precious… especially with what she had to talk to her husband about today.
“Hi,” Nala said in a small voice; she knew how Wheels felt about someone like her being married to one of his boys, and she was always unsure quite how badly he’d treat her. She cleared her throat, opted for friendly small talk. “Are you here to see Cole too?”
“Yeah,” Wheels told her brusquely. “But first, you and me need to talk.”
“Is it – can we –” she faltered under his withering gaze, gathered up some courage to finish a sentence. “Can we please catch up after I visit Cole? I have something kind of important to –”
“No,” Wheels interrupted. “And you won’t be seeing him.”
Nala paused, her thoughts running wild suddenly. Maybe Cole was hurt? But then how would Wheels know that? Surely the prison would have called her if something had happened.
“You mean I can’t see him today?” she asked. “Is he –”
“I mean you won’t be seeing him ever again,” Wheels cut her off once more. “Here.”
He thrust a bunch of papers at her, and she took them, mystified. She skimmed them, saw that there was a bunch of legal jargon but it all seemed to fly over her head – until she saw the words ‘dissolution of marriage’.
Nala looked up at Wheels, utterly stupefied. “What is this?”
“You’re getting divorced,” he informed her. “You’re signing these papers right now, and then you’re getting in your shit little car, and going home to pack. I don’t give a fuck where you go after that, but you’re not staying in Denver. Don’t even try, you stupid bitch, because I’ll get you to leave the city one way or another. It’s your choice if you go easy or you go in pieces.”
Cole let himself into his trailer as calmly as a man could after having his entire life torn open and rearranged in the space of a single night.He had slipped out the back of Satan’s Bar because he couldn’t face the thought of having to explain any of what had happened to his MC brothers. The engagement party had still been raging when he left, laughter and music spilling through the walls while Ice and Vixen celebrated the beginning of their forever, and the irony of that had almost made Cole laugh as he walked alone across the gravel lot toward his bike.Forever.Christ.He had believed in that once.The trailer was dark and cold when he entered, smelling faintly of smoke and coffee. He locked the door behind him and stood there for a long moment, keys still in hand, staring at the narrow kitchen, the worn couch, the boots lined by the door, the empty space that had never really stopped being empty no matter how many years he lived in it.Then he went straight to the bathroom and t
The motel room smelled faintly of old carpet, industrial lemon cleaner, and the kind of stale cigarette smoke that no amount of repainting ever fully erased from walls. Despite the rather yucky environment, Luna had fallen asleep within seven minutes of climbing beneath the stiff floral comforter, which made the place suddenly feel like the best hotel in the entire goddamn world.Nala stood beside the bed for a long time after that, watching her daughter sleep curled on her side with one hand tucked beneath her cheek and the other wrapped around the stuffed bear that Cole had won at the state fair more than a decade ago.The bear looked ridiculous now, worn nearly bald in spots, one button eye slightly looser than the other, the tiny fake leather jacket cracked along the seams from years of love and travel and being dragged through childhood. Nala had attempted once, when Luna was four, to replace it with something newer and softer and less heartbreaking, but Luna had cried for nearly
Nala froze, her hand on the office door. Slowly, she looked back over her shoulder at Cole, and when she answered, her voice finally broke completely.“No.”Cole wasn’t surprised, but it fucking hurt like hell anyway. “Did you ever talk to her about me?”Nala sighed. “She used to ask me why her dad didn’t want her.”The words hit Cole like a bullet straight through the chest, and for a second, he genuinely forgot how to breathe. He could suddenly see every single year of his daughter’s life laid bare in front of him with brutal clarity.Real days, real nights. A little girl asking questions Nala had no good answers for. A little girl watching other fathers at school events and birthday parties and grocery stores and soccer games and quietly realizing that she was missing something everybody else seemed to have naturally.And Nala carrying all of it alone.Jesus fucking Christ.Cole pressed the heel of his hand hard against his sternum like that could somehow stop the crushing pressure
Nala stared at Cole in stunned silence, the words still hanging between them like smoke.And I’ll hand you the matches, baby.Baby.God. It should not affect her the way that it did, not after everything that’s happened between them, after eleven years of fear and grief and loneliness and anger layered so thickly over old love that sometimes she honestly couldn’t tell where one emotion ended and the next began.But the second the word left his mouth, something inside her reacted instantly and treacherously, some deeply buried part of herself remembering exactly what it had once meant to belong to this man completely.Baby.She used to hear it murmured against her skin in the middle of the night while his arms tightened around her half-asleep. Used to hear it spoken with quiet amusement every single time she got herself worked into one of her little tempers about something. Used to hear it growled softly into her hair when he came deep inside her. And for one horrifying second standing
Nala looked down immediately, but not before tears slipped free, silent and furious against her cheeks. That was how she cried, he remembered suddenly with a force that made the years between them feel terrifyingly thin: never loudly, never dramatically, never asking anyone to notice, just tears escaping despite how much she clearly hated the loss of control. He remembered the way she turned her anger inward first because vulnerability offended her, the way she had once stood in his kitchen in nothing but one of his shirts and told him she was not a romantic person while leaning into his hands like she wanted to live there. Eleven years disappeared frighteningly fast standing this close to her, and the fact that love could survive that kind of distance felt less beautiful than cruel.Somewhere deep beneath the grief and rage and betrayal, another realization began taking shape inside him slowly, terrible in its clarity. Wheels hadn’t just destroyed his marriage, he hadn’t simply tak
Cole swallowed painfully, his gaze shifting briefly toward the narrow crack in the office door where warm yellow light spilled into the hallway, because somewhere beyond it slept the little girl he should have known from the moment she took her first breath.The little girl whose first words he had never heard, whose first steps he had never seen, whose birthdays had arrived and passed ten times without him even knowing what kind of cake she liked, or whether she was afraid of thunderstorms, or whether she woke cheerful in the mornings or needed time to become human.His daughter was twenty feet away from him, wrapped in his cut, exhausted and frightened because someone had tried to take her, and yet somehow the oldest wound in the room was still Nala standing across from him with eleven years of silence in her eyes.“Why didn’t you try to contact me after I got out of jail?” he asked, and though he tried to keep his voice steady, the question came out rough anyway, scraped raw by too
Prologue continuedRight away, she knew that was exactly the wrong thing to say. Wheels lunged at her again, and he made impact so hard that the back of Nala’s skull slammed into the brick wall behind her, pain bursting hot and white across her vision as the world tilted sickeningly sideways for a
Shocked, stunned, teary at those words, Nala shook her head. “Don’t say things like that, Cole. Don’t make promises that you can’t keep.”“Promises?” he echoed, suddenly furious and not at all sure at what, or whom. “You want to talk about those, Nala?”She paused, and Cole already regretted his wo
“Anyway,” she continued quickly, chattering to distract herself. “I got downstairs to Luna through the dumbwaiter.”Cole blinked. “The what?”“The old service lift built into the walls, it goes between my bedroom and the kitchen. The realtor thought I liked the ‘historic charm.’” A humorless laugh
Prologue continued“Wait,” she said, too numb to even be shocked or angry at the swearing and name-calling. “I don’t –”“Did I stutter?”She froze at the vitriol in his voice, really hearing him now. At a loss and in an effort to buy some time to gather her thoughts, she looked at the papers again,







