Masuk
Ayla's POV
Snow fell in a slow, quiet drift all around me—not in the kind of way that would make it look magical. Just endless and white and cold.
It settled over everything—the trees, the ground, and the rooftops—like it was trying to cover things up. Like if it piled high enough, no one would remember what was buried underneath. Like blood had never soaked into the ground beneath my feet.
The cold bit through my thin, worn hoodie. I tugged it tighter anyway, more out of habit than hope. It wasn't nearly enough to keep me warm. The cold in me was bone-deep—had been for years.
I tried to shake it off and turn my focus to something else. The scent of pine trees filled my nostrils, the air smelling fresh and clean. Woodsmoke drifted from the packhouse, but there was always something lurking just underneath—something sharp, something metallic that reminded me of blood, even when there wasn't any.
I stopped at the edge of the road, my gaze drifting towards the packhouse. It glowed ahead—warm, jolly, and inviting. Everything I avoided.
A group stood near the entrance, their laughter filling the night air. Real laughter—easy and loud. It hit something in my chest that I didn't have a name for. I couldn't remember if I'd ever laughed that way. I pushed the thought aside quickly.
I stepped closer—not urgently. I was always the last to arrive. I kept to the shadows mostly. It was easier that way.
My nostrils flared and I froze. Something twisted inside me. The smell hit me all at once, drifting from the packhouse—roasted meat, potatoes, and something sweet underneath it all—cinnamon, maybe pumpkin pie—rich and warm and impossible to ignore.
My chest tightened before I could stop it, and a heaviness settled in for just a moment.
Christmas.
The day I hated most. Not because I never cherished the season—I did, at one time—but because of what it was intended to signify.
Family.
The word held no meaning for me anymore. I swallowed, trying to shake the feeling, but tears pricked at my eyes anyway. Sadness had a way of finding the cracks no matter how tightly I held everything together.
A group brushed past me on their way to the packhouse, shoulders knocking into mine without slowing. One of them clipped me harder than the rest.
"Hey, watch it!" he yelled, spinning around. His gaze caught mine and a sneer pulled at his lips.
I steadied myself and looked down. It was easier like that—avoid contact, don't look up, keep a low profile.
"Don't bother," another boy said. "It's just the mute stray. You won't get anything out of her."
They laughed like it cost them nothing.
I kept my eyes down and didn't react. I'd learned early that reacting only gave them fuel.
I was five when I stopped speaking, as if not speaking meant I didn't feel. I didn't remember deciding to go silent—it just happened. It was as if a switch had been flicked off somewhere deep inside me and never turned back on.
What I did remember came in flashes—scattered and brutal and never in the right order.
A huge, angry fire consuming everything in its path.
The smell of burning fur, blood, and smoke was so thick it stuck in my throat.
My mother's hand slipping from mine, slick with blood. Her eyes were losing their light—going dim.
My father's voice calling out—and then silence.
My body tensed as the memory shifted: a pair of red eyes, fixed on me—watching.
I always believed it was rogues who had destroyed my pack. Some days I wasn't so sure. I couldn't remember clearly—it was so long ago, and the rest of that night was tucked away somewhere deep, buried with my voice.
I pushed it all down. There was no space for it here.
"Hey. Mute."
My shoulders tensed before I could stop them.
I didn't turn. I didn't need to. I already knew.
Their footsteps were slow and deliberate—like they wanted me to hear every single one. The sound vibrated through me. My heart rate climbed until it actually hurt, but I didn't run. Running only worsened it. They would chase me like prey and enjoy every second of it.
The air changed as they got closer. It became heavier, dominant, and warmer somehow—but not in any way that helped.
The triplets.
They always moved together. The three brothers could have been the same person at first glance—same height, same dark hair, same cold blue eyes that seemed to cut right through you. But up close, they were different in ways that mattered.
Kael stepped into view first. He didn't rush—he never did. Everything about him felt deliberate, like he'd already decided how the meeting would go before he'd even arrived. His eyes found mine—pale and icy and completely indifferent.
Even before the title of Alpha was officially his, it already sat on him like it belonged there.
Ryker came up besides him, already smiling like the moment was the best part of his night. For him, it probably was. He'd be Kael's Beta when they took over the pack, and something told me that day couldn't come fast enough for him.
Soren lingered just behind—the quiet one, always watching, the soon-to-be delta of the pack. He kept his distance and never directly joined in—not that it helped. His silence was its own kind of pressure.
"Well?" Ryker tilted his head slightly, trying to catch my gaze under the hood. A taunting smile tugged at the corners of his lips. "Did she go deaf too, or is she just ignoring you?"
Before I could shift back, a hand gripped my shoulder and spun me around. My balance slipped, but Kael kept me in place, his grip firm and unyielding.
He didn't let go right away. His brows furrowed slightly, like he was searching for something in my face. For a moment he just stared, his body heat filling the space between us even through the cold. It only made me more aware of how frozen I was.
"Answer him," Ryker sneered.
Then he laughed under his breath. "Right. I forgot."
Laughter erupted from somewhere behind them. I didn't look to see who had joined in. I dropped my gaze instead—not because I couldn't face them, but because I refused to give them what they were looking for.
"Pathetic," Kael said flatly, and shoved me back into a heap of snow.
"Thirteen years and not a word." Ryker shook his head slowly, almost impressed. "Do you even remember how?"
"Maybe she never could," someone behind him added.
More laughter. It echoed longer than it should have—especially tonight.
I didn't react—I hadn't in years. It was easier that way. They'd get bored and leave eventually. They always did.
Soren's gaze lingered on me longer than usual—not mocking, but not kind either—like he was working something out. His brows pulled together slightly, and for a moment it looked almost like frustration. Whatever it was, he kept it to himself. He always did.
A long, loud howl cut through the night, and everything stilled.
Kael's eyes flickered to me. "Don't wander off," he said coolly. "We're not dealing with you tonight."
Ryker snorted. "Maybe find yourself somewhere else to stay. This freeloading thing? Yeah. It's over."
They turned like I was already gone and didn't matter.
Soren hesitated for just a moment, his gaze flickering between me and his brothers. Then he followed without a word.
And just like that, it was quiet again.
I pushed myself out of the snow and let out a slow breath I hadn't known I was holding. My hands were trembling—not from cold, but from something harder to name. I pressed them against my sides until they stilled.
The space around me felt bigger, emptier, and colder now that they were gone.
The packhouse still glowed in the distance, full of warmth I wasn't allowed to touch. Laughter drifted out every time someone opened the door—bright and fleeting—before fading again into the night.
I stayed where I was. Where I belonged. Outside.
Then something shifted.
A frown pulled at my brows as my hand pressed against my chest before I even thought about it. It wasn't pain—not exactly. Just an unfamiliar stirring in a place that had been completely still for as long as I could remember.
I breathed in slowly. Just nerves, I told myself.
But the feeling came again—stronger this time—and I knew. I wasn't imagining it.
My wolf had awakened.
The packhouse door swung open before I could process it, and gentle eyes found me across the snow.
"Ayla," Luna Ria called softly. "Come, dear child. Everyone is waiting."
I lifted my gaze to meet hers and gave a small nod before I started moving.
But even as I walked towards the warmth and the light, I couldn't shake the feeling pressing against my ribs.
Something was about to change tonight—and whatever it was, there was no going back.
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Ayla's POVThree short raps — not Kael's measured knock or Soren's single quiet one.Ryker.I didn't move. Another knock followed, more urgent than the first."Ayla." His voice came through rough, stripped of its usual edge, like he was working hard to sand it down before it arrived. "I know you're on the floor."I frowned at the door."He can smell where you are," Tala said. "You're wolves, remember? No privacy."I dragged myself up, crossed the room, and opened the door.Ryker filled the frame the way he always did — too much presence for the space available, his shoulders taking up more of the hallway than was strictly necessary. His dark hair was a disaster, like he'd run his hands through it too many times since coming upstairs. A small bruise was already forming near his jaw from the scuffle downstairs. His eyes dropped to my face the moment the door opened, and something unfamiliar moved through them—br
Ayla's POVThe door didn't close as hard as I wanted it to.That somehow made it worse.I slid down it until I was sitting on the floor, knees pulled to my chest, staring at nothing while my heart hammered and my face burned. My hands wouldn't stop shaking, and I hated that — hated that one argument downstairs could reduce me to this. Hated that my first instinct was still to run even when I had nowhere better to go."You didn't run," Tala said."I absolutely ran," I snapped."You retreated strategically.""That's the same thing.""It's debatable," she said, entirely unbothered by my tone.I pressed my forehead to my knees and stayed there, breathing.The bond was pulsing in three directions at once—tangled, raw, and aching in a way I didn't have language for. I could feel all of them through it. The hurt. The anger. The guilt sitting underneath both of those things that they still hadn't learned to ca
Soren's POVA loud thud shook the wall between Ryker's room and mine.Then Ryker shouted, "Ow!"I stared at the ceiling for a moment without moving."You okay?" I called, muffling a laugh.There was a moment of silence before Ryker's voice came back, slightly muffled. "No," he groaned, and I couldn't help but chuckle at his clumsiness."Did you break something?" I asked, trying not to laugh."Yes," he hissed, his voice tinged with mock despair. I could picture him sprawled on the floor, shaking his head as he tried to recover from whatever mishap had occurred."Good."Ryker fell silent, and for a moment I thought he just went back to sleep; then his bedroom door opened and footsteps were in the hallway, and a moment later my door swung open. Ryker appeared looking personally betrayed by gravity itself."I think my shoulder's broken," he said, clutching it."You fell three feet; you're being dramatic," I rep
Ayla’s POVI knew I was in trouble the moment a wave of heat crashed over me, and Kael’s scent of sandalwood filled the air. My thoughts became foggy—barely my own.All I wanted was release from the excruciating ache between my legs.I tried to focus on what Kael said, but his words slipped through my mind like mist.“Kael was trying to explain that you had three choices,” Tala said. “You needed to pick one.”“What choices?” I managed to ask.“One, get marked. Two, mate with your mates. Or three, suffer alone through the aching pain.”“No option four?” I bit down hard as another wave hit me.“No, we were too far from any witches or doctors to give you something—”“That’s too bad,” I said dryly. “I wasn’t ready to be marked…”Tala chuckled. “He wasn’t going to mark y
Kael’s POV"She's in heat," Fenrir said. "This time it won't pass on its own."I didn’t want to discuss it then—especially not when it took everything in me to keep him at bay.I knew it would eventually come. I had noticed the changes in her scent over the last couple of days, but I never really took them to heart.Why would I? I thought the change was because she was slowly accepting us.Besides, there were so many other things that needed my attention.But when we got there, I finally understood what was happening.Over the last couple of days, there had been moments when her lovely berries' scent became stronger and even overpowering in small, warm doses.I knew it was only a matter of time.Ayla didn’t even notice the first waves; Soren and Ryker were oblivious to it. Their senses were good, but not as sharp as mine.I reminded myself I needed to keep control, so I busied myself with o
Ayla's POVThe walk back from the lake felt warmer than it should have.Ryker had been complaining since we left the water's edge, dragging the fishing gear behind him with the energy of someone who had genuinely suffered."I almost died," he said, for the fifth time."You were standing in waist-deep water," Soren said."It was freezing.""You deserved it."Ryker pointed at him. "You laughed.""You screamed.""I did not scream."Kael walked ahead carrying most of the fish without comment, entirely removed from the argument the way he always was when he'd decided it wasn't worth entering.Tala hummed softly. "This feels nice."She was right, and I was slowly running out of ways to argue with that.The cabin wrapped warmth around us the moment we pushed through the door. Snow melted from our boots, smoke and cedar were thick in the air, and the fire was still going from the morning.Ryker
Ayla’s POVThe closer I get to the packhouse, the louder the world becomes again—voices carry through the trees, followed by laughter and music. It sounds so bright against the darkness and quiet outside that it leaves a coldness under my skin.Every sound inside the packhouse hits my ears wrong; it
Ayla’s POVAlpha Jack and Luna Ria don’t stand in my way when I get up and head toward the door a second time. They know it’s time for me to leave.With one last silent nod, I exit the packhouse and slip into the cold.It’s dark now, the wind howling through the trees in the distance.I head toward
Ayla’s POVLuna Ria disappears into the packhouse the moment she sees me moving. I guess someone must have called her; otherwise, she would have waited for me.She and Alpha Jack took me in after the fall of my pack.I push the depressing thoughts aside and focus on my breathing. The closer I get to
Ayla’s POVThe forest is quieter this morning, as if everything is holding its breath, watching me flee from this miserable pack.I ignore the feeling and keep moving.I’ve only taken the basics—the clothes on my back and the money I saved from working at the coffee shop. It isn’t much, but at leas







