LOGINWhen I blinked my eyes open, I was staring at a white ceiling.
Hospital. I was in the hospital.
Who brought me here? Skylar? I sat up as soon as I had that thought, looking around, my chest tightening when I saw nothing but just my bags waiting for me. There was no one waiting for me to wake up. No one is at my bedside asking me how I am. I was all alone.
I drew my knees to my chest, wrapping my arms around them and pressing my face in between. I sobbed quietly, wishing it would lessen the pain in my chest, but it didn't. The pain only grew worse when I thought about what I've lost: my husband and my child.
Why do these things keep happening to me?
I wiped my eyes and stood up, picking up my phone. I stared down at her number, my heart in my throat. My mother was the only person I could think of calling right now. We barely spoke since I got married, and we haven't seen each other since then.
I dialed her number, holding my breath. She picked up after a while. “Well, look who it is. The married woman who forgot–”
“I’m no longer married, Mom,” I said quickly, and she stopped. It was silent on her end.
“Lost another one and the bastard decided he’s had enough?” she asked, and I closed my eyes as I felt the pain in my chest again. I pushed the lump down my throat, not wanting to deal with that matter.
“I want to come home, Mom. I have no money, and nowhere else to go.”
“Hmm,” was all she said before she fell into another silence. And then, “Home is different though.”
I blinked at the phone. “Wh-what do you mean?”
“I remarried.”
A ringing went off in my ears, and I blinked rapidly as if it would help me understand better. “Y-you remarried?”
“Yes. Did you expect me to stay alone after my only child left me?”
“But–”
“And I sold the house.”
I suddenly became dizzy and had to grab something to stay standing. “You sold the house,” I repeated in a whisper, my eyes burning when I thought of all the memories of my father gone. “How could you?”
“Because I had to move.”
She didn't sound guilty or remorseful. She didn't sound like she cared: she sounded like I was bothering her. I had hoped I could get a bit of love and sympathy from my mother. I thought she would at least ask how I was doing, but she just sounded irritated.
“I need some money,” I said as I wiped my eyes, and she scoffed.
“Kaidora, you’re twenty-six years old. You can’t always expect me to rescue you.”
When have you ever rescued me, though? The reason I got married was to rescue us.
“Please, mom,” I begged in a whisper, choosing to swallow those words. “I have… I have nothing. Nowhere to go.”
“Hmm. You can always come here. The mansion is enormous, and there are enough rooms that you won't get in my way.”
“You… you want me to come live with your new family?”
“That’s what I just said, Kiadora.”
I shook my head even though she couldn't see me. “No. Just give me some money, and I'll sort myself.”
“Hmm.” This time, her silence was long and heated. “Okay then.” I released a breath. “But… you’ll have to come take it yourself.”
My hand clenched around the phone. “Why do you want me there so bad?”
“Because I want my new family to meet you. That’s all.”
It was never that easy with my mother. I knew she had some ulterior motives, but I was desperate and had no choice. “Okay.”
“Good girl. I’ll send you the address.”
She ended the call, and I stared at the address she sent to me.
~.~
When I got to the house, someone was there to meet me. A man who looked to be in his sixties, well-dressed and polished.
“You must be Miss Kaidora?” he asked.
“I am,” I answered, trying not to stare with my mouth open at the enormous mansion. It looked like a castle.
“Right this way, ma’am.”
He took my bags from me and led me into the house. I looked around as we went deeper into the mansion, and into a room where my mother was seated. I paused at the door when I saw her. She looked well-dressed and perfect, like she always is. Everything in place. She raised her head from a book and looked at me, her eyes trailing from my head to toe. She tsked and returned her eyes to her book.
“You look rough. I heard you’ve gained a bit of weight, but this is more than a bit.”
And that was it. No questions about how I was doing. No welcome. Nothing. I refused to let the hurt linger and walked towards her, taking the seat opposite her.
“You can at least ask how I am,” I muttered, and she looked at me, closing her book and uncrossing her legs.
“I don't need to. You’re miserable. It’s evident on your face.”
I bite my lips, refusing to say what I want to. She pointed with her chin to a bag resting beside her legs. “Cash.” I stared at it before I stared at her. “Now. Dinner with the men, but first…” She stood up. “You’ll have to change out of that sorry dress. You have to look presentable.”
“Presentable? Why?”
She was already walking away. “You’ll see.”
~.~
My mother dressed me in a dress that was too revealing.
“I-i can’t wear this.” I tried to cover my chest with my arms, but she just swatted it away, tsking.
“I see nothing wrong with the dress.”
“Everything is wrong with it!”
I was exposed with nothing to hide behind. My folds were on display, my stretch marks bare for everyone to see. The curve of my stomach stood out, and just staring at it made my cheeks heat in embarrassment.
“Please, mom,” I pleaded, closing my eyes when I felt them sting. “I can't… I can't wear this.”
She said nothing, but I felt her watching me. Finally, she said, “Fine,” and I released a breath.
I changed into a more decent, loose gown, but my shoulders were still bare. I could deal with that. My mother circled me slowly, pulled my shoulders back, then stepped back, evaluating, as if she were inspecting merchandise.
She held my shoulders, smiling as she arranged my hair. “You’re still my daughter.” I didn't like this. Not one bit. “Come on. Let’s go meet your family.”
We left the room, but just as we were coming out, I bumped into someone.
“Oh! I’m sorry,” I said, looking up until my eyes landed on narrowed, blue eyes. The kind that looked at me like I was an inconvenience. My breath hitched, and I couldn't look away, because he was the most beautiful man I've ever seen.
ELIASHot? Yeah, right. What a fucking joke. Hot has to be the understatement of the fucking decade. This lady, sitting so close yet so far away from me, was glorious. A beautiful, tender neck that I wanted to sink my teeth into and feel her soft, smooth flesh. With boobs that called out to me, and I just wanted to squeeze my whole body in between them. A soft stomach that I also wanted to bite. Thick thighs that I wanted to crush my head. And don't ever get me started on her ass. No, don’t get me started, because the things I wanted to do to that ass were unspeakable. “Uhm… thanks,” she muttered, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear, that beautiful blush blooming on her cheeks like a rose, and I wanted to lick it.Hot? Elias, you fool, what were you thinking?I said nothing–couldn't–and just kept staring at her. She shifted uncomfortably, and I had to force myself to look away. I cleared my throat and stood up. My work was done. I’ve apologized, and I'm finally free from the g
I turned towards the voice, and my heart dropped when I saw Elias step out of the shadows.“W-what are you doing here?” I yelled, holding my chest as if that would stop my heart from racing so fast.“Waiting for you,” he answered in a low whisper as his eyes trailed over me, and that was when it hit me that I was still wearing the dress. My cheeks heated, and I looked around for something to cover myself with, but came up short. “Looking for something to hide behind? Perhaps an overcoat gown and coat?”My cheeks heat again, but from anger this time. I pointed at the door. “Leave.”But he just kept staring at me. “So you’ve had it in you all along.”“Had what?”“Fire.” He took another step closer to me, his eyes fixed on my chest before they rose to my eyes. “I thought you only knew how to keep your head down and shoulders curled.”“Please, leave my room, Elias.”But he just kept walking toward me. “I don't want to.”“But I want you to.”“Sure? Your pheromones say something different,
My eyes were wide as Roman’s lips moved on mine, soft and gentle. But I still couldn't wrap my head around the fact that this was happening. So I stayed frozen, my hands tensed on my sides. His hands on my face shook slightly, and that made my heart race, but I still didn't move.He broke the kiss, just pulling back slightly, but he didn't drop his hands from my face. The look in his eyes was intense, and I didn't know if I was the one seeing things, but I could swear he looked desperate and tense. “Everything was real,” he breathed, an edge to his voice, his hands cupping my face a little tighter. His eyes moved from one feature to another, as if he were memorizing my features. “Every smile.” His eyes dropped to my lips. “Every compliment.” They dropped to my chest, but he quickly looked away and back to my eyes. “Every time I looked at you. Everything you think you saw was true. It was there.”My breath hitched, something uncurling in my chest, but I still didn't let myself relax.
Maybe I should have waited for him to make the first move. Me doing this would definitely come off as desperate, and that is what I was. Desperate. Everything that has happened tonight has made me extremely desperate. The heated glances that he kept directing my way all through dinner, the accidental brushing of our fingers, and eating dessert from the same bowl. And then his words. My God, his words. Those words kept playing over and over again in my head, and I don't think they’ll stop for a while. So instead of waiting for him to come to me, I went to him.I pressed my lips to his, letting go of his hand and cupping the side of his face as I kissed him, closing my eyes. His lips were as soft as I thought they would be. Warm, too. His pheromones spiked, and I couldn't help the low moan that slipped out of me. There was just something about his pheromones that made me want to lose my mind and give in to it. I felt the same way with his brothers, but his was different. Maybe becau
My throat tightened. I opened my mouth to speak, but no words came out. No one has ever spoken to me like that, not even before Skylar. I searched his face for the joke, the pity, the look that always came when someone realized they were wrong. I saw none of that. He was simply looking at me like I was something pleasant to look at, like I wasn't too much. “You’re exaggerating,” I whispered. He didn't hesitate in his answer. “No. If anything, I’m failing.”How could he say that? No, the most important question here: why couldn't I believe him? Why does one cruel sentence from Skylar outweigh every kind word I've heard today?The attendants think I'm beautiful. Roman called me magnificent, but that small voice kept whispering, “They’re mistaken. He’s mistaken. Wait till he sees what hides under these clothes, then he’ll look away too.”“What if you’re wrong?” I asked in a small voice, trying to curl into myself. “What if you’re only seeing what you want to see?”He held my shoulder
“B-boyfriend?” I repeated weakly.The women giggled, one of them saying, “Oh, honey, if he’s not your boyfriend, then he’s trying to be one.”I shook my head. “No, you have it all wrong. He’s my–” Stepbrother. But I couldn't say that because then they would judge, so I swallowed it down.“Well, whoever he is, he’ll have a hard time looking away. I mean, look at you! You’re stunning!”Me? Stunning? That sounded impossible. But as I forced myself to look at the mirror again and keep looking, I saw someone different. I didn't see something broken, or a mistake, or someone who disgusted others. I just saw… I saw a woman looking back at me. I didn't see the mirror as an enemy as I kept looking. I didn't want to turn away and block the reflection. No, I wanted to keep looking.“Here, let’s do this,” the senior staff said as she stepped forward and held my hair up. She tied it into a messy bun, stepping back when she was gone, smiling like she had something excellent, and she did. I didn't







