Mag-log inZareth’s POV
I awoke with a headache pounding and the dread that something was so, so wrong. I remained motionless under the thick blankets for a few seconds, gazing at the ceiling above me, which I didn't know, and flashes from the previous night came one after another. The club. The private suite. Silver eyes. His hands. The mate mark… I had to sit up quickly and immediately regretted it as pain shot through my body. Every muscle ached. My legs were shaky, and my head was wobbling so much I held on to the edge of the bed to stay upright. “Oh, goddess…” Last night's dress was thrown by my side of the couch and my other clothes were all spread out on the floor, and my face burned instantly. I checked around the suite in a rush. Empty. The stranger had left. There should have been relief after that realization, but there wasn't. Somehow, the silence made everything worse. I carefully got out of bed, not thinking about the disorganized recollections in my mind. His deep voice in my ear. His lips on my neck. The sense of being completely out of control. I tripped toward the bathroom. As soon as I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror, I froze. A dark bite mark was there, just above my collar bone. Fresh. Visible. Terrifying. I lightly touched it, my fingers shook. “No…” The term barely came out of the mouth. I looked at the mark and was in disbelief, and every second, panic was driving me further and further. Only mates were marked by wolves. I started to breathe irregularly. This couldn’t be happening. I didn't even know him. I can only recall half of the night. How could some man I never met claim me as his own? And worse… Why had I let it in? I grabbed the sink for support as another memory came into mind. His lips to my neck. His hand gripped my waist and his voice was rough and near my ear. Mine. In the face of fear, heat rushed into my face. “No, no, no…” I repeated the process of turning on the faucet and splashing cold water on my body over and over again, hoping to blot it out somehow. It didn’t. The mark remained. Bright. Obvious. Real. I tried to keep my cool to think clearly. Fighting in the bathroom would do no good. I had to get away before anyone could see me. If Maevyn found out, she would ask questions I can't answer. Questions I didn't even know how to answer myself. I looked in the elegant bathroom, and I found some makeup by the counter. Most likely left behind for guests. Goddess bless rich people and their vanity. I carefully applied make-up over the bite mark so that it was not noticeable anymore but still under my collar. I then put on last night's clothes and tied my hair up around my neck for extra protection. Despite all this, I felt guilty. I looked ruined. Taking one last horrified glance at the mirror, I hurried out of the suite. Outside the hallway, there were only two guards standing by the elevator. But neither of them stopped me and one looked at my neck for a moment before looking away quickly. I was humiliated in an instant. Did they know? Did they smell what occurred? I lowered my head and ran out of the building. As soon as I walked outside, the cold air hit my face. The early dawn fog had settled over the city streets, and a few lonely wolves wandered through the quiet morning. I was still feeling my head pounding as I ran along to the transport station close to the club area. The further I walked, the more my heart was filled with dread. What had I done? When I got back to the Black Hollow land, it was just starting to dawn on the mountains. The pack grounds were very desolate. The servants moved around quietly, packing up the luggage and sealed boxes without making eye contact with me whatsoever. The air was electric! The news had already reached the area. We were all aware that the Alpha had banished us. I quietly entered through the side door, hoping that no one would notice my raggedy appearance. Unfortunately, Maevyn noticed right away. I was in the hallway, and she said, “There you are!” I was beginning to wonder if you've been kidnapped. I flinched slightly. Maevyn scrunched her face at me. “Are you okay?” I replied too soon, "Fine. She glared at him with suspicion. “You went out for hours last night.” “Upstairs I went to sleep.” Not really a lie, but... Maevyn studied me for several seconds before taking a dramatic breath. “Well, next time you want to disappear when you're intoxicated, at least give me a heads up. I almost started a fight with one of the bartenders.” I managed to smile weakly, anyway. My sister came closer before she lowered her voice. “You really do look awful though.” That was because I had slept with a stranger and been marked like an idiot. But, of course, I couldn't say that. “I’m just tired.” “Fair enough.” Fortunately she forgave. Mom appeared out of the study a few minutes later with a few papers in her hands. Selene was not in the same condition as Maevyn, she looked completely worn out. Dark circles under her eyes and her usual calm expression was delicate this morning. She quietly said, “Breakfast is ready.” Let's head off in the hour. Those words were heavy on me, and I knew what they meant. Leave. Permanently. I took my time to slowly survey the house. It was never really warm here, but it was my home. Each hallway was loaded with memories. Each room contained a part of my childhood, including the painful ones. Now we were strolling away from everything. It took nearly a whole day to get to Ashbourne territory. The journey was mostly silent. Maevyn attempted to keep things light by discussing a few things that she recalled from childhood trips to our grandparents' home, but finally, even she was too exhausted. For my part, I spent the bulk of the trip gazing out the window of the carriage, as if I weren't thinking about the stranger from the club. I couldn't get my mind to cooperate, though. Occasionally, there were reminders of the night before, which came back out of nowhere. I was looked at by silver eyes. Strong hands at my back. His lips on my neck. Each time I went to the mirror, my face burned. I accidentally touched my hidden mate mark under my collar. What kind of man marks a woman who he doesn't even know? Why couldn't I not think about him? At dusk, the carriage had finally reached Ashbourne land. Black Hollow and Ashbourne were instantly distinguishable. The guards at the gate were welcoming us, rather than pitying us. As soon as we reached the estate, the servants came forward to assist us in unloading our luggage. No one complained that I'm not a wolf. No one was revolted at my very presence. It felt strange. Almost unreal. The Ashbourne estate was enormous, and the snow-covered forests, as well as the tall silver gates, were all around. The lights were lit in the mansion windows, and smoke rose from a few chimneys into the evening sky. As we were just about to get out of the carriage, the front doors opened. “Selene.” My grandfather's voice boomed through the courtyard. When I was seven years old, my mother was pulled into a tight embrace by a man named Alpha Torin Ashbourne, who was a lot older, as he quickly came down the front steps of the house. Finally, my mother broke down in his arms. “You ought to have been at home years ago,” Torin whispered. My grandmother Lyra Ashbourne was standing beside him and as soon as I came up to her she gently cupped my face in her hand. “You're getting too thin,” she said disapprovingly, before hugging me tight. I was choked with emotion at an unexpected moment. This was supposed to be the kind of family. Not fear. Not shame. Warmth. It was almost breaking my heart, when I realized. We all had dinner that evening in the great Dining Hall. For the first time in what seemed like an eternity, no one protested. Nobody insulted me. No one ever made me feel like I wasn't welcome because I just happened to be there. While my mother was explaining to Torin all the things Garrick had done, he listened attentively. At the end of this tale, my grandfather was in a rage. “That man was no good for you,” my mom's man said to her bluntly. “Twenty years ago I told you so.” Selene gave a tired smile. “It was my hope that he would change.” “No,” Lyra said firmly, “he won't.” “Men like Garrick only love power.” Maevyn took hold of our mother's hand and squeezed it lightly. “It’s going to be rebuilt,” she said softly. All that he sought to destroy.” Torin nodded slowly. “As a matter of fact,” he said, calmly, “I've already started to deal with that.” There was silence at the table. I frowned slightly. “Handling what?” “A new alliance.” Maevyn looked at him blankly. “Grandfather?” Torin folded his hands together. “One strong enough to bring the Ashbourne name back to its full glory.” His tone made me uneasy all of a sudden. He then fixed his gaze on Maevyn. “Well, I've made a mating alliance with the Crescent Veil kingdom.” The shock rippled through the table in an instant. Maevyn almost spilled her drink. “What?” “The royal bloodline of the Lycans has agreed to it,” Torin continued evenly. Specifically, the youngest Lycan Prince.” My stomach clenched in a way that it shouldn't have. Maevyn looked stunned. Nervous too. “Tomorrow evening,” Torin replied in a quiet tone, “you will be introduced to the official banquet.” There was a hush as the room fell silent. Then for some reason I couldn't explain, dread suddenly ran down my spine.Kaelor's POVI woke before my alarm, the way I always did lately, staring at the ceiling for a full minute before I let myself move. Sleep hadn't done much for me in weeks. I rolled out of bed, pulled on my gym clothes without really looking at them, and went out for a run before the palace was fully awake.The morning air had that bite to it that clears your head whether you want it cleared or not, and my thoughts went straight to the thing I'd been chewing on since the wedding planning started in earnest. Why had the nobles been so quick to blame Zareth for everything lately? Every whisper, every side-eyed glance in the hall, it all somehow circled back to her. I'd thought I was being careful. I'd thought I'd hidden it well enough — whatever it even was, the thing I didn't let myself name out loud even in my own head.Was I really that obvious?I ran harder, like I could outrun the question, which never works, not once in my life has it worked, and somewhere around the second mile m
Zareth's POVI sat on the edge of my bed long after the palace had gone quiet, chewing the inside of my cheek the way I always did when there was no clean way out of something. What was I supposed to do with this baby?If I told him, it would ruin Mae. That much I knew for certain. I had seen the way she looked at him lately that soft, unguarded way a woman looks at someone she is starting to fall for, even when she won't admit it to herself yet. The wedding was only two weeks away. Two weeks. There was no version of this where the truth came out gently. It would gut her, and she didn't deserve to be gutted for something she had no part in.So I was left with only one choice. I had to get rid of it before it became a problem no one could undo.I reached for my phone before I could talk myself out of it and opened the browser, my thumb hovering over the search bar longer than it should have. Then I typed it in anyway healer, near me and scrolled until I found one close enough to walk
Zareth's POVI stared at Kae the moment he fell my wolf cried out mate sound that seemed to come from somewhere behind my eyes, not my mouth."Help him," I gasped, turning to James. "Please." I grabbed his hands without thinking."Hey. The guards have it covered," he said, one hand coming up to my cheek, steady, grounding.I nodded, though it didn't feel like enough. The nobles around us had gone quiet in that specific way rooms go quiet right before the whispering starts — and sure enough, it started, low voices already trading theories I didn't want any part of. Someone near the back said the word "unstable." Someone else said "omen." I left the hall alongside a few nobles who'd decided to head home rather than wait around for gossip to finish forming itself into something uglier."I'll help him out," James said. "You remember your way back, right?""Yes," I nodded, and meant it, though my legs still felt strange under me the whole walk, like they belonged to someone slightly less s
Kaelor's POV"Babe... the baby. Come on, don't go back to sleep."Zareth's face hovered over mine, her hand warm against my cheek, and I sat up fast, half-convinced I was still asleep and needed to prove it to myself. I stood, stretched, and there across the room — was a crib. A baby inside it. The most beautiful baby I had ever seen, and somehow, impossibly, mine."Babe, can you get him, please? He's hungry," Zar said, adjusting the strap of her pale blue nightgown.I crossed the room and lifted him out. He stopped crying almost the second the bottle touched his lips, gumming at it with a toothless, lopsided grin that undid something in my chest. I carried him to Zar, who held out her arms, and the moment he settled against her he latched onto the bottle like the world had just been set right again.They looked so soft together. So easy. This was the life I'd wanted without ever letting myself say it out loud.It didn't feel like something I was watching from outside. It felt like m
Kaelor's POVMate, my wolf cried out at the sight of her name in my own head, which was ridiculous, because she wasn't even in the room yet.My thoughts wouldn't sit still. I couldn't hold myself together around her during meal times anymore, not since that night, and my chest did something unpleasant every time I thought about it, which was constantly.I sat at the dining table wondering if she'd come at all. She hadn't the last time. I hated how much I was keeping track counting empty chairs, checking the doorway — especially considering I was the one who'd told her to fuck off.I couldn't get the image of us kissing out of my head. Or that night. I couldn't forget that night if I tried, and some shameful part of me didn't want to.I kept reminding myself the wedding was for the kingdom, that it had to be this way. Mae was good. Beautiful. Kind, in a way that made all of this worse, not better. But she wasn't Zareth, and no amount of reminding myself of duty was going to change th
zareth's POV But be warned: "What is written cannot be unwritten. What is hidden will not stay hidden." It read, in a very tiny line.Whatever.I need a break.Screw this.I dropped the book back on the shelf and strolled to my room.It was almost dinner time.I went into the dining room, everyone ate, and then we went off to our rooms.I didn't feel sleepy, so I went to the art gallery. I stayed there for some time, looking at the paintings and wondering what the artist really thought, in order to escape my own thoughts. Every painting has a story.I pulled out my phone and it was 10 p.m.As I walked through the hallway of the palace, I encountered silence — everyone had retired to their rooms."Shhh…" I heard whispers.Curiosity got the best of me.I slowly approached where the sound came from.It was coming from Sab's room. I hid behind a statue just a few steps from her door.The door was open."It seems the wedding plans are going smoothly," Sab said."Yep," Vi answered."How ca







