Lahat ng Kabanata ng Lovers In Disguise: Kabanata 111 - Kabanata 120

"Be that as it may, I couldn't just burn the notepad. It was as if those scrawled pages held all that wastrue about my life that no one else knew about. I didn't want Alice to read them so I went to work on aSunday evening to lock them in my desk, but couldn't do anything at all on Monday because theyseemed to be staring at me accusingly. So I called Sheila, feeling insanely stupid about that in itself,and practically begged her to read them. I was so insanely glad when she agreed, I droppedeverything I'd tried to work on before and just walked over to her office to drop the pad off."The days until our next session were endless. Alice constantly got on my nerves, then she wanted toknow what was wrong with me and got pissed when I couldn't tell her, and on top of that she ran intoBella, then threw a fit for days because you'd canceled your wedding. It got to the point where Iactually told her to stop being so ridiculous, which got me banned from the bedroom for the re

that there's nothing he can say to defend himself. Which is probably the truth. Strangely, that newlygleaned knowledge does nothing whatsoever to ease the rage boiling in my guts, in fact it only leadsto even more frustration.Until suddenly, something else he said makes sense."She knows, doesn't she? Alice knows. That's what she meant with 'You are just like him' – she meantyou're just like me."His loud, somewhat dejected sounding exhale is the only answer I get, but it's not enough for me."Just what the hell did you do to her?""I did nothing!" he shouts back, clearly agitated. "Nothing more than I've done plenty of times with herbefore! Not that you really wanna know, because you still see her as the pure girl seeking love whodoesn't really have an interesting sex life -""Bullshit! I know she fucks round just as much as you, and I've heard my fair share of details! I don'tgive a flying fuck about what she does or what she likes, but I won't stand by while you

"Well, that's pretty much it," he finally speaks up again. "You know, now would be a good time for astatement." When I remain silent he sighs, then rubs his face with his hands. "Guess I don't deserveone. Either way, now you know my side of the story. And I hope that when I tell you now that I'msorry about causing so much pain to everyone involved, that it's the truth. I really didn't think, not for amoment, that things could blow so out of proportions. If I could go back in time, I would tell myself toforget that insane idea the moment it came to my mind, and grow a pair and tell you guys that – I don'tknow. I'm not happy with things ending like this. That while I want to be with Alice, I'm not sure thatwill ever work or is everything that I want. And -"He inhales sharply, then looks me right in the eye as he goes on."And that while I will always see Bella as my incestuously attractive childhood friend, somewherealong the way you became just a little more than my

"That's not a no.""But also not a yes."We keep looking at each other then, and after a while it all just gets too heavy for me."Do you mind if I just hold you?""Of course not," she whispers, then brushes another kiss over my lips before she turns around, readyto be tugged into my embrace. I mold my body against hers, with her head pillowed on one of myarms, while I snake the other over her abdomen. We stay like that for a while, our fingers entwinedover her stomach, both of us lost in thought.I have no idea how much time has passed – it feels like hours, but has probably only been minutes –when I hear her clear her throat."You know, I really miss what we had. And I'm not even talking about the mind-blowing sex. Justus. Like after that first threesome, when we wereall lying in a heap of limbs on the couch with two boxes of pizza and a movie playing, and life wasjust so uncomplicated. I want that back."Her words make me yearn for just that, but I know that we

I half expect her to play coy and bite her lip, or add another remark that will dampen the intensity andturn it into something more comfortable, but she doesn't. Instead she makes him tilt his face up moreby bringing her own close to his, then kisses him, slowly but passionately. He hesitates for a moment,then joins in, his hands kneading her hips just where her tank top has ridden up, revealing a sliver ofwarm, smooth flesh.I also expect some of the residual jealousy that has been riding shotgun throughout our last threesometo rear its ugly head, but watching them just makes me unbearably horny.Bella breaks off the kiss by leaning back enough to grin at Jazz, her fingers idly playing with his hair."Does that feel weird to you?"He shrugs, still focused on her, the motion letting him push up her top a couple of inches more."A little, as usual."Not the reply she's been waiting for, but she laughs it off easily enough."But is that a problem for you?""I'd say tha