Lahat ng Kabanata ng Risking it : Kabanata 11 - Kabanata 20

On my way back to the bar, I was thinking of every possibility of what could have happened instead of me fucking him. How could I be so fucking weak?Because he makes you weak, my inner self mocked at me.It was true though. He had awakened something inside of me that I've never felt before and I was already craving for his touch, his kiss. I've never felt so alive with anyone and it was so passionate that I was already thinking about fucking him again.I shook my head, trying to get rid of all the inappropriate thoughts before handling the situation at hand.I wanted to come clean to Beth even now as I didn't have the heart to lie to her anymore. I can't pretend to date Zach. That would be the worse thing I could do to him and for how long can I go on?I was ready to face anything she throws at me. She would be devastated when she hears it but it was the right thing to do.Once I reached the bar, I paid the cab driver and rushed inside to find her chatting with some customer. She sen

'Just admit it that you missed me, Hazel' - J I got his cocky response almost immediately and felt a sudden rush through my body as I read his message. He was right.I kinda missed him and his cockiness and I loved when he used my name in a sentence. I couldn't wipe the stupid smile off my face.'Whatever, I'm going to bed.'I replied and kept chewing on my lips, anxiously waiting for his reply. This was all new to me and I loved feeling this way but I had no idea what the hell was going through his mind right now.'Is that an invitation?' - JOh my God!Only he could turn me on through a single text message. Fuck, I badly wanted him next to me right now and I don't know if it was the talk with Beth or if I was in a good mood but I started to flirt with him.'Maybe. Maybe not.' 'Fuck, Hazel. How can you make me hard without even trying?' - JIt was as if he read my mind. I squirmed on the couch, squeezing my thighs together and before I could send a reply I got another reply from

We were riding in his car again with the privacy divider between us and the driver, Stu. It felt like a Deja Vu moment. I chose to go with Jayden because for some reason, I believed him and I wanted him to know that I felt the same way as well. I knew we had a spark between us which is very rare to experience nowadays. He makes me vulnerable and never have I ever felt like this in my life before. I'm sure he has an explaination for the news I heard from Anna and it better be worth it. "I'm so glad you came with me," he whispered, rubbing my knees with his hand and placed a small kiss on my cheeks."Are you going to explain everything?" I asked, cutting straight to the point because I didn't want to fuck around anymore if another person was involved. I didn't want to be the other woman, for Christ sake."Yes, of course. First of all, the engagement was just a business deal. I wanted her father to invest in my company which he has for now but I'm going to break it off since I have yo

“Why do you look sad, Hazel? Did you break up with Jayden?”I gave Anna a glare as I stopped wiping the glasses.“Can you mind your own business for once?” I snapped angrily and with that she shut her mouth and continued to do her work. Beth was having a date night with Mason as usual and it was just me and Anna bartending tonight.I haven’t spoken to Jayden for the last two days and I was worried sick about him but at the same time I could understand that he was not having a regular job like me. He runs multiple companies and it can be hectic and stressful.“Can I get one of your signature drink?” I heard a deep yet familiar voice and looked up to find Zach sitting in front of me with a warm smile on his face. I was seeing him only now since last week and I didn’t know how to react immediately.“I...Hi..yeah sure,” I stuttered like a fool but started to prepare his drink. There was an awkward silence between us and the bar was not that much crowded as it was a weekday.“I haven’t see

"Zach!" I almost shouted in suprise as I had no idea why he was here given how awkward things were last night. If anything, I'm the one who should apologise for trying to kiss him at the slightest inconvenience like a whore."Listen about last night..." He started to talk and looked down, scratching the back of his head."I know, Zach. I'm really so sorry. I wasn't thinking straight and I was sad." I finished it for him as I didn't want to relive the moment through him again. I had damaged my reputation in the most horrible way possible and it was hard to make things right now. "No. God, no! You don't have to apologise for anything. I just didn't want you to think that I.." He stopped talking all of a sudden and went still, looking behind me and that's when I realised Jayden was right there. "What's going on here?" I heard his deep voice as he came and stood beside me, half naked with his pants hanging loosely around his waist and his arm wrapped around my shoulders. Fucking hell!