After The Divorce She Turned Her Pain To Glory のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 11 - チャプター 20

Ava Della SanchezI couldn't believe my ears, I felt like I was dreaming…"no...no….this isn't happening" I thought to myself turning towards Nickolaus, "Why should I sleep on the couch when the bed is enough for the two of us?" I ask my heartbeat, doing a thumbs up, that it shouldn't be up to this level. I don't know at which stage I might be forced to lose my sanity and give up on us."I don't care your mere presence disgust me and I can't stand you near me anymore," He said with a disgusting face like I'm a piece of shit. For some moment I feel my feet glued to the ground, as the sound of his speech repeats in my head, my heart reverberating so hard. I wanted to cry but suddenly lost my voice, I wanted to walk away but hell no! There is no way I'll keep on going into his demands. If I want this marriage to at least work out then.. I need to be up and doing.I suddenly got back my courage and ignored him, finding my feet back, I walk to the other side of the bed and sat on it, I was

Ava Della SanchezTears gathered in my eyes as they threaten to fall, my hands shook as I held the Divorce papers looking at Nickolaus who doesn't seem shaken as he stood waiting for me to sign the divorce papers. A smirk crept onto my lips as I wipe my tears welcoming the plan that just crept its way into my head and without warning.I held up the divorce papers in the air and wave it in his face without warning I tore them into shreds and scatter the remains on the floor.I look him straight in the eyes mustering up courage though I don't know where the strength came from, I close the distance between us staring at him eyeballs to eyeballs I muttered"I never ask for your hand in marriage, yes I agree I like you but I never for once initiated this, and if you feel you can just break down walls and walk away, then you must be joking, wake up" I muttered snapping my fingers on his face"We are dying together there is no way out" I wink at him and walk out, intentionally bumping my sho

After saying those words to Nickolaus, for some reasons, I thought he would have a second thought, maybe look at me or ask me why I said that….? But none of that happened. He left home with Sherly that day and since he came back. He hardly talks to me or even look my way. Not that I want him to do so.My physical being likes the way he has been on his own but my heart no matter what he do or does to me, my heart still yearns for him. I know I'm stupid, or might even be foolish but it's not my fault I've tried my best I try to stop loving him knowing that he doesn't want me not even my shadow. Yet! My heart wouldn't listen, every seconds and minutes of the day I feels like I won't survive. I feel like my best isn't enough like I have to do more I don't know what else is it that I should do but what I know is that I'm not giving up, I might have said to him that I'm letting him go but that isn't happening, the heart wants what it wants. Today I'm happy in a special way. The detective t

Ava Della SanchezI decided to clear my head, after the scene I saw a few minutes ago it dawned on me that this is going to be tougher than I thought. I decided to go to the park. I need to clear my head. A lot has been going on lately and my poor heart has been the one suffering it.I wanted to take my car keys but then I decided against it. I decided to walk to the park and as well clear my mind, I feel so suffocating at the moment. As I walk to the park which is not too far from our mansion, seeing different people go about their daily activities I can't help but smile, knowing that all these people have their different problems and destinations making us different races and that's why we're human beings. I'm now close to the park as I could sight it from a distance, I sighed and walked towards it. As I sat down on a bench at a corner in the park. I could see different couples with their kids, I can't help but admire them so much. This has always been my dream. This has always bee

19Ava Della SanchezI watched as Nickolaus left for work in a fit of anger without eating, Madam Perky served him his breakfast but he didn't touch it. I don't know why he's upset but surely I don't think it's me. I think I should make him breakfast and take it to his place of work. I walk into the kitchen, I couldn't think of anything I really need to make something exceptional this time."What are you doing child?" I heard madam Perky's voice. I smile "I want to make breakfast for Nickolaus since he didn't touch his breakfast"Madam Perky sighed and look at me with a concerned look, "You know what happened the last time you tried to do this?" She smiled at me"But I don't want to give up on him, I love him so much" I sighed knowing she's right"I know honey but don't fall so helplessly in love with him that yourself becomes unrecognizable, no matter what your happiness comes first okay," She said patting my shoulders, like a mother"Thank you so much for this" I smile and engulf