Lahat ng Kabanata ng Once Her Bully, Now Her Beggar: Kabanata 31 - Kabanata 40

DYLAN I knew something was wrong but I didn’t know what to expect, the girls rushed ahead while I walked behind them trying to act calm but my mind was racing badly in my chest like it was going to jump out, the fact that I didn't know what to expect drove me crazy. I wanted to ignore them and act like I did not give a shit but it was impossible. “What happened?” Elliott asked for the hundredth time rushing behind the girl that came to break the news but she didn’t say a word and kept on running while we followed. I could feel Elliott and Caleb’s eyes on me, probably about the fact that I held a straight face and I wasn’t panicked like the rest of them. I followed them quietly, my heart racing with every step. We walked all the way to the back of the school where the old buildings were the ones they used before everyone was moved into the main school building. The place was quiet and almost felt abandoned, with dust and broken windows here and there. They didn’t say a word to

DYLANWatching her like that made the guilt brewing in me eat me even more. She was broken and I made that happen just because I had to feed my ego. It was all fun and games when I always poked at her. The fact that she could not stand up for herself and would always cry over the same stuff over and over again made me unable to stand her at all. She would rather run away from a situation than face it, she was spineless and weak and that made me go harder every time. I thought that one day she would stand up for herself but it never happened.But I never thought it would get to the point where she would want to end it all, just like everyone else I enabled what she did I couldn't lie to myself anymore. Even seeing her lying in her pool of blood I just watched as others struggled to help. I wanted to but I just couldn't.I was reliving my trauma, and it brought flashes of what happened when I was fifteen. I have struggled to keep that image out of my mind and have done so for three year

“Is that why you are here?” I asked my voice laced with disgust “No not all sweetie I rushed here immediately the nurses called me. I promise” she immediately said“I am begging you, please. It would kill me if he sees me for the horrible mother I have been” she sniffling I ran my hand through my hair everything just felt too overwhelming for me to handle“I won't” I breathed out“You promise?” she asked and nodded“Thank you, I love you,” she said placing a small kiss on my hand“I really do like him, Nova, I am in love with him, he has to be the one,” she added. I didn't want to remind her how she said that about each and every man that came into her life but it still never worked out and just let her have it. I didn't have a choice but to support her.“We are going to get through this, I promise” she stretched her hand to my face wiping my tears away as hers ran down her cheeks. I hated to see her cry, worse I hated that I was the reason to make her cry.“I would like to get som

DYLANI had to show up in school like everything was fine, I got home that night feeling even worse than I was already feeling, I couldn't sleep until the sun rose and I still had to get out of bed to attend practice early in the morning. I played so badly that the coach had to send me to the bench twice, my mind was all over the place and I couldn't think right. Images of the bloody scene took over my mind and kept replaying over and over again I just wanted it to stop.“What’s wrong Lennox? Has drama rehearsal been hectic?” Stanley laughed in my face he had a cast on his broken nose and several bruises still healing on his face but still had the audacity to laugh in my face“Watch your fucking mouth” I stood up from where I sat coming face to face with him“Relax it was just a joke” he tried to laugh it off, fear flashing across his face as he saw the anger in my eyes“I dare you repeat yourself” I spat through my teeth, grabbing a fistful of his vest, I have been feeling like punch

“Should I call the doctor? What is it” May asked debating if she should comfort me or run out to call someone“No I’m fine” I quickly wiped my tears away, she stared at me closely not knowing if she should believe me or not“How was school?” I tried to change to topic“Please Nova, tell me whatever is happening please” she begged not dropping it“I’m fine” I tried to brush it off again“You were shaking when I walked in, I tried to wake you and when you did you started crying” She counted it out to me“I just had a nightmare and it felt too real that's why” I admitted avoiding her gaze “Do you want to talk about it?” she asked and I just shook my head, I didn't want to even think about it at all“If you ever need to talk I am right here,” she said giving my hand a little squeeze “I know” I smiled back at her “How was school? Where is Kelsey?” I asked“Kelsey is taking a call outside. She will be here soon,” she said“School?” I asked when she said nothing about my first question, I