All Chapters of I want this Alpha: Chapter 11 - Chapter 20

As days passed, Asher’s quietness ate away at me like a creeping toxin. He moved around the compound as if I were invisible, all commands and chilly glances that consistently dodged meeting my eyes. Whenever I deliberately stepped in his way he acted confused or abruptly recalled an appointment elsewhere. He was a terribly bad performer or he assumed I was foolish enough to believe him.Spoiler: I wasn’t.Yet the more he dismissed me, the stronger the uncertainty within my chest grew. Perhaps Nina was mistaken. Perhaps I was only envisioning the sparks, the attraction, the connection ripping me apart whenever he passed by. Perhaps he truly considered me fragile. Perhaps he viewed me as the girl who couldn’t keep pace, who required protection, who wasn’t deserving of being claimed.That idea, harsh and degrading lodged itself firmly.Therefore I acted as any young wolf would.I was spying.I followed patrol routines closely. I eavesdropped by the meeting rooms. I stayed close to the ga

Nina possessed a talent for disregarding the word no. A frightening, powerful talent. That’s why I now found myself in the midst of one of her "pull-yourself-together-or-I-will" gatherings, encircled by booming music, blazing fires and wolves that obviously had no concept of emotional pain.“This " Nina yelled above the drums, throwing an arm over my shoulders "is known as distraction. Welcome it. Cherish it. Allow it to embrace you.”I snorted. "I’m wrapped in sweat and loud sounds.”“That’s the spirit " she joked, glancing upward. "Just don’t make it seem like you’re at your burial.”The glow from the fire cast a warm orange tones with shadows flickering energetically over faces that seemed far too happy for my mood. Wolves chuckled around toppled logs. Shots were handed out in cups. A bunch ofyoung wolves attempted to cook something on a stick that I had a suspicion wasn’t edible.Usually, I enjoyed get-togethers. They made the group seem vibrant, secure, united.This evening, al

Darkness weighed down on my back following the incident with Enid. The light shining between our fingers, her gaze fixed on me, the terror gnawing at my chest. I rode to the far end of the territory, where dense pines stood and the chill settled relentlessly. It was the place silent enough, for what I had to attempt next.I retrieved the encrypted communication gadget from my jacket pocket, my thumb poised above Jasper’s channel. Contacting him was the last thing on my mind, yet the first necessity. The connection had broken a boundary and deceit was a privilege I no longer had.The device emitted a crackle when I linked the channel.“Jasper " I uttered, my tone hoarse.A prolonged silence followed. Then "Asher?" His voice was wary, reserved, as if he already suspected something was wrong.“I need to speak with you " I stated.“About what?”I breathed out slowly pushing the words forward. "It’s Enid.”Silence. The type that bore significance.Jasper’s voice returned, now softer. ". My

I awoke to the light of dawn seeping past my curtains, and the sharp, irritating ache pressing behind my eyes. For a moment, I lay still gazing at the ceiling attempting to recall why my body felt as though it had been torn apart and discarded by a creature with too many teeth. Every inch of my body ached. My arms, my ribs, my legs and areas I was fairly certain weren’t meant to hurt.As I attempted to sit upright, the room swayed as if caught in a washing machine’s spin setting. I collapsed back onto the pillow with a breath.“Hold on, hold on Moonfire Barbie " Nina said as she came up next to the bed. "You’ve been unconscious for ten hours. Perhaps attempt standing once you remember your name.”I looked at her, puzzled and drowsy. "What… occurred?”She paused briefly, which was always an indication. Nina paused when she was on the verge of delivering unpleasant news or when contemplating if she should consume the final cupcake without informing me.Then she breathed out. "Asher brou

The next day, I stationed two guards outside Enid’s workshop before sunrise, when the compound was still yawning itself awake and the smell of oil clung to the air. I told myself it was strategy. Reinforced security. Heightened alert. Standard Alpha decisions in unstable times.None of it stopped my wolf from pacing like I had locked him in a cage made of bone.“Rotation every four hours,” I said, voice steady. “No one in without authorization.”One of the guards, Finn, tilted his head. “Including the mechanic herself?”I shot him a look sharp enough to shave steel. “Especially the mechanic herself.”He opened his mouth, thought better of it, and nodded. Smart man. Curious wolves tended to live shorter lives.I turned to leave and nearly ran straight into the problem I was pretending I didn’t have.Enid stood at the edge of the workshop, grease-stained sleeves rolled up, dark hair tied back in a messy knot that always made something in my chest ache. Her eyes flicked from me to the g