All Chapters of The Last Three Months of My Life: Chapter 11 - Chapter 14

He could keep his late-night regret.He didn't love me. Not really.And I sure as hell didn't need his pity.Johan went quiet.After a long moment, he said softly, "Yara... I'm the one who can't live without you.""Oh."I nodded and kept petting Blackie.Maybe I was too calm. He suddenly lifted my chin, making me look at him."I'm saying I love you."He looked dead serious, like he was making some sacred vow.I couldn't help laughing."How much is your love worth?"I brushed his hand away and lazily stroked Blackie."If you'd said that in year one, I would've lost my mind from happiness."In year three, I still would've run back to you with every stupid feeling I'd been holding in."Even in year five, I probably would've loved you like an idiot."But Johan... this is year seven."I watched the color drain from his face. "For seven years, I stayed by your side. I measured every word, handled everything myself, and gave you every ounce of love I had. Now I'm tired. Your

"They're not the same.""How are they different? Johan, whatever you can do with Lily, I can do with Shawn."I watched the panic and frustration in his eyes, and my smile faded."Why do you get to protect Lily like she's made of glass while I'm supposed to just suck it up? You want someone to be the bigger person so badly? Great. You do it.""Yara..."His voice went hoarse, a pleading look flickering in his eyes.I scoffed and looked away.How much could he really love me?***Shawn came.Johan glared at him from the living room while I pulled Shawn into my room.Johan followed us to the door, his face dark as a storm."Yara, do you have to keep trying to make me jealous?""You can leave anytime."My voice stayed flat."I just want to spend what's left of my life quietly with Shawn. Go back to wherever you came from."I was tired of him standing there, playing devoted boyfriend.To my surprise, Johan held himself back.I was done with him.Whatever he did for Lily, I