For my family, the days without me were like a dull blade, cutting a little deeper with each passing one.The first month, Mom was still calling everywhere, trying to find me.By the third month, she stopped doing that, but only because there was no channel through which anyone could reach the base.By the sixth month, she started suffering from insomnia.The doctor said it was psychological insomnia triggered by anxiety and prescribed her sleeping pills.Every night, Mom would take one and lie in bed, staring at the ceiling. Sometimes she would suddenly sit up, walk over to the storage room, and stand in the doorway for a while.The door stayed open because she wouldn't allow anyone to close it. It was as if so long as the door remained open, I might come back at any moment.Dad had aged a great deal. More than half his hair had gone gray, and his back had begun to stoop.He was never a man of many words, but one day during dinner, he suddenly set down his spoon and said, "I w
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