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I’m not trying to look beautiful for anyone… I’m only trying to look beautiful for myself…

"I am trying to make it right. I am trying to step fully into being the man you deserved back then." "You’re trying to buy your way out of a guilty conscience," I snapped, standing up so fast my chair hit the wall with a dull thud. The "unshakable poise" I had spent five years building was vibrating with a sudden, hot rage. I walked around the desk, the rhythmic click of my heels on the linoleum sounding like a countdown. I picked up the check and held it between two fingers, waving it like a white flag of surrender he expected me to fly.

"What?" "I bought a leather jacket I absolutely didn't need and went to a fancy dinner alone. Celebrated myself. Because I earned it and I didn't have to share it with people who'd just take it." She grins. "You should do something for you. Something frivolous. Something that's just because you can." "That seems irresponsible." "That's the point. You've been responsible your whole life. You've given everything to everyone. Give something to yourself for once." I think about this. About doing something just for me. Not practical. Not necessary. Just wanted.

“This is about you, not anyone else. Do what you will for yourself, not for anyone else.“ I took a deep breath. “Let’s forget about that for now.” I said going back to my food. “Let’s eat.” “Okay.”

I shut the door before he could reply. Good grief. I trudged back into the room, picking up my lace bra lying lazily on the floor when I heard it again. A fucking knock. This time around, I shut my eyes and took a calming breath. “You've got to be joking,” I muttered under my breath. Calm down, Naila. This was supposed to be about me. My escape. My reprieve from humanity. A peaceful Christmas holiday. Not a fucking ding dong ditch simulator. I stomped toward the door, ready to unleash seven years of rage on whoever was there.

When you can choose for Others, then why not for yourself…! Choice was like … “…….!!!!!”

I must do this to protect the ones that I care about. "I'd do anything for you guys..."

My own life. Time to stop saving everyone else and start taking care of myself. At least for a while.