Chapter 4

I tried every way I could to get Yan to open the door to his room and I took everything he liked, I wouldn't accept anything else. He just wanted his father to give him as little attention as possible. I was sorry because I knew what that feeling was, so I couldn't really do anything to ease what he was feeling. Without thinking twice, I decided to call Charles and ask him to come and talk to him. Before that we tried something again, but with no result, I read, I also thought it was strange.

“Friend, I have to go, I can’t stay here with you! But call your Charles, he has to sort this out.

“But of course I'm going to call because I have no doubt I don't give a damn what he thinks!

I was never a mother, but I knew how much he missed him. Age doesn't matter, no matter how old it is, we will always miss ours. Even more so when we don't have a father present who doesn't participate in anything like Doctor Charles, he was practically the boy who felt alone and with the pain of abandonment it was as if he had no one. I saw that Lia left shortly after it was time for the other employees to leave, so I was alone with Yan.

“Hello Charles, could you come here please? Yan is not well and I don't know what to do, all the employees are gone, it's just him and me!

“Gabriela, is he feeling ill? If you haven't, I won't be busy, I'll be in a meeting in a bit, so turn around, don't forget you get paid for this.

"Hi! I know I get paid for this, but it's your son and today is my first day!

“Of many, Gabriela, if this one comes!

So it was as simple as that, this heartless man spoke to me on the phone and without another word he hung up, not even caring if he was really being naughty or not, and I was honestly thinking how this could be happening to me and I decided to resolve it somehow. hungry and in another hour he was going to leave that room and come talk to me. As I was alone I went to the kitchen to make something for myself to eat, I was starving and when I least expected it, Yan came down with his eyes swollen from crying asking for food, he was very hungry.

“I finally thought about Yan that he was going to die in that room? Sit here and I'll put some food for you if you want, because I'm going to look silly, no, that doesn't fill your belly!

“Aunt Gabriela? Will my father be late today?

“Yan, yes, but since you left the room, we can play Leco, what do you think?

"Good idea! Who knows, maybe when daddy arrives he won't play with us?

“I don’t know that anymore, unfortunately!

After eating we went to the games room where we spent the rest of the day playing and Dr. Charles didn't show up. I then went to bathe Yan and put him to sleep, but he asked me if he could sleep with me, he was too sad to be alone. That once again moved me, how needy Yan felt and how could you say no to a child who just wanted love and attention? That was impossible, so I let him stay in my room and sleep with me without any problems, I just hope he doesn't disturb me.

We ended up sleeping and Yan stuck to me without letting me move and I didn't even care, I remembered that I was like that with my mother too. So it was past time, I got up, went to the kitchen to get a glass of water, I found Doctor Charles arriving with a woman who looked like a call girl, I pretended I didn't see, I hid under the kitchen table so he didn't want to. see me and only left when he had already gone up to his room. What hatred I had for my son, I didn't have time, now I had too much for other things.

I went up to my room and started to hear the woman's screams, she sounded like a crazy woman moaning so loud that it was impossible to sleep, but I think Charles asked her to stop because the noise was too much and I managed to fall asleep with Yan glued to me. When it was very early I woke up with the chickens and went to the kitchen to have a coffee and realized that someone had put a blanket on me, as I slept without one and when I woke up I was covered, I imagined it could be him, I felt ashamed, because I was wearing a nightgown. When I'm comfortable drinking my coffee, Doctor Charles comes down with his wife and tells her to go through the kitchen, I didn't want anyone to see her, but unfortunately they got beaten up when they saw me.

“What are you doing up at this hour, Gabriela?

   “I always wake up at this time, so I don't have to wake up late because you want me to!

   “You are very abused, girl! But I think it will work for you to take care of my son.

   “Feel free, I’ll go up, I don’t want to disturb anything!

I felt that he was ashamed of me and was completely embarrassed, he certainly deduced that I heard the screams from his very pleasant evening. I left him looking and went to my room to sleep a little more and then he went upstairs and I pretended I was already asleep and watched as he opened the door and covered me up again. Plus all the politeness and delicacy he could have with me plus the first impression and the one that lasts and honestly, he wasn't fit to be the man in my life.

   We still live in a culture where the importance of the father in the life of a child, regardless of gender, is belittled and diminished, as if he were less essential or of lesser value. We forget that the time has passed when women were forced to take care of the family and the home and men were responsible for supporting the family and everything related to what would happen outside the home, participating very little in the social life of their children and , consequently, of all family members.

   Although the woman is biologically responsible for providing the child's first food, this should not exclude the father's presence in the child's decisive moments. Labor laws also don't help because society is still not convinced that fathers really need to be more involved in their children's education.

   Often the father himself dismisses this priority, even though he thinks that the mother has an inherent understanding and her involvement will only hinder the process, believing that this is not even that important. Although the mother is associated with the biological aspect of the process, the father should never exclude himself, much less think he has less value in his child's life.

   Parents need to realize that education should be seen as joint growth in the same way the child was conceived. The child has to receive care and affection from both sides and also build his personality through the perception of life from both the father and the mother, and this development should not happen with just one influence and one spectator. Barring exceptional cases, if the father continues to be an expendable person in the child's life, time will only strengthen this idea and it is very difficult to reverse all of this.

   “Perhaps this man has suffered enough and seeks refuge like me to ease his pain.” (thought Gabriela)