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CHAPTER 20:The Conversation They Almost Didn't Have
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Staying with him CHAPTER 110-The Telling Order
She told Priya first, which was the only possible order.She called on the Wednesday morning before her firstsession, which meant she was calling at eight fifteenfrom the tube, one hand on the overhead bar and thephone against her ear, the train doing what trains did,and Priya answered on the second ring with the toneshe used when she already knew something hadhappened and was checking the register of it.What has happened, Priya said.I am pregnant, Olivia said.A silence.The specific Priya silence of genuine surprise, whichwas different from her processing silence and her I-already-knew silence, both of which Olivia hadbecome expert at identifying over twelve years. Thiswas the real one, the half-second before thepersonality caught up with the news and thepersonality reasserted itself over the receiving.Olivia, Priya said.Yes.You are. Pregnant.I am.On purpose, Priya said. Not to be intrusive. I am tryingto establish the nature of the thing.Not in the specific sen
Staying with him CHAPTER 109-How She Told Him
She did not build up to it.She had thought, on the tube, that she might need to.That she would sit him down and there would besome sort of approach to the thing, some preparationof the room for the sentence, the preamble, the wayshe had always built architecture around theimportant statements. She had spent years not doingthat, years of learning to say the important thing whenit was ready rather than when the architecture aroundit was complete. She did not do it now. She camethrough the door and he looked at her and thearchitecture was entirely unnecessary.I am pregnant, she said.He went still.Not the surprise-still, though surprise was part of it.The other kind of still, the kind she had come to knowas his first and truest response to something thatrequired the full weight of his attention beforeanything else could happen. She had seen this still inkitchens and in cars and in a registry office in the rain.The stillness of a man receiving something true. Thestillnes
Staying with him CHAPTER 108- The Tuesday
She found out between her second and third client ona Tuesday in February.She had suspected on Sunday. She had known onMonday in the specific way of knowing something youhave not yet confirmed, that you are carrying at arm'slength to maintain the fiction of uncertainty whileknowing the uncertainty is not real. She had boughtthe test at the pharmacy near the practice on Tuesdaymorning, before her first session, picking it up withoutceremony, without the examining of the moment orthe building of it into something more than what itwas, which was a woman who needed to know a thingand was buying the equipment for knowing it.She put the test in her bag and she went to her firstsession and she was good in it, fully present, the workdoing what the work did when she was doing it well.She went to her second session and was equally goodin it. Between the second and the third session therewere twenty minutes.She went to the bathroom at the end of the corridor.The bathroom had
Staying with him CHAPTER 107-December
They drove up on the twenty-second and her motherhad been cooking since half past seven and the housesmelled of the specific combination that meant shehad been in the kitchen all morning with opinionsabout everything coming out of it and was notinterested in suggestions.Fifth December together. She had been thinking aboutthe number on the drive up, watching the motorwayunwind the way it always did, the country flattening asthey went north. Five Decembers. The first she hadbeen nervous and the managing of it had been visibleto her in retrospect, the way the managing of thingswas always more visible in retrospect than in themoment. The second was the year of the city and thedecision made together at a table. The third their firstmarried Christmas, the door closed, the draught gone.The fourth the retirement still recent, both of them inthe transition period, the academy new and the flatstill adjusting to the different mornings. The fifth —this one — felt like simply go
Staying with him CHAPTER 106- What Priya Says Now
Priya called on a Tuesday evening in April and said,can I come over, and Olivia said yes, and Priya arrivedtwenty minutes later with a bottle of wine she hadclearly bought on the way, still in a paper bag from theoff-licence three streets from Olivia's flat, and theexpression of a woman who had been carryingsomething she needed to put down somewhere thatcould hold it.This was a different Priya from the one who had comewith the good coffee in March of the previous year.That Priya had been sitting with twelve years of relief,the specific relief of having watched something shehad been waiting for finally arrive and been there forthe arrival. This Priya was sitting with something morerecent and less resolved. Olivia could see it in the setof her shoulders and in the way she put the wine onthe table without making it into a thing, which waswhat Priya did when the occasion was not forperforming the occasion.Olivia poured the wine. She sat across from Priya onthe sofa. Sh
Staying with him CHAPTER 105- Marcus, Slower
She had been watching since February, when she firstnoticed the chair differently.Not the chair itself. She had watched Marcus use theplastic chair at the edge of the far pitch since Octoberof the previous year, the slow delegation of thestanding to occasions that specifically required it, thehip and the body setting the terms now rather than thewill. She and Damien had both noticed the chair andwere both not saying anything, moving around it withthe particular carefulness of two people watchingsomething they were not yet ready to name. Notavoidance. Just the waiting for the right moment, theunderstanding that the naming of a thing changed it.What she noticed in February was something elseentirely.She was at the academy on a Thursday afternoon todrop off documents Marcus had asked her to helphim navigate, a registration matter that had arrived inthe post in an envelope with a government crest andthat Marcus had handed her at dinner four weeks agowith the expression
Staying with him CHAPTER 7: The Morning After
She woke up and knew exactly where she was. No foggy confusion, no blinking at strange walls. Just the solid weight of Damien’s arm across her waist, the unfamiliar slant of light through his curtains, and that smell—his smell—that she’d stopped pretending she didn’t like days ago.She stayed still
Staying with him Chapter 6: The First Night
She lasted until midnight.That was the honest truth of it. She lay on his sofa with his blanket pulled up to her chin and stared at the ceiling and listened to the rain and told herself she was fine, she was comfortable, she was absolutely not thinking about the man sleeping fifteen feet away from
Staying with him Chapter 5: Staying
Maintenance said three days.Three days to fix the pipe, treat the damp, assess the flooring, do whatever it was they needed to do before the apartment was liveable again. Olivia stood in her doorway on Monday morning and looked at the state of it — the warped floorboards, the smell of wet plaster,
Staying with him Chapter 1: The Neighbor from Hell
Olivia had a system.Not in an obsessive way — or at least that’s what she told herself. It was just that life ran smoother when things were predictable. Coffee at seven, two cups, no sugar. Breakfast with something quiet playing in the background — Sade, maybe, or just the sound of the city waking
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