Mag-log inKenz’s POV
Chapter TWO I stared at the text for so long, not knowing what to do. Why the hell was Jeremy texting me? He had ignored me completely after spending the entire summer together, yet those few words he sent shifted something in me, and I really hated it. I finally decided to reply, not warmly, just cold and short. “What?” I was not the vulnerable Kenz of last year. I was about to turn off my phone when he sent another text. “Woah, one word replies? Doesn’t sound like my bunny.” Fuck, I was irritated to my guts, yet I just could not ignore him. “Bunny.” I hated that name so much. It reminded me of how stupid and easy I was. I used to like it when he called me that, but now? It just sent shivers of disgust through me. I shoved my phone into my pocket, then stood up to leave. My reflection in the mirror caught my attention. Pale, brown, and lean. I looked like there had been a zombie apocalypse attack on me, but it did not matter. Nobody would care either. “Kenz! Come downstairs and greet the visitors!” my mom yelled from downstairs. “Oof.” I sighed, trying to get the thought of Jeremy away from my head. I walked downstairs calmly, greeting the guests in the hallways. It was the usual robotic talks and exchange of fake pleasantries. “Oh, there he comes,” my father announced my arrival like I was some prince. I looked around. The entire house was filled with deaconesses in colorful gowns chatting and gossiping, while the men in their usual suits talked about politics and all of that stereotypical shit. I wondered who the people in Greenville put on this classy demeanor for. I mean, let us accept it, nobody here had a million dollars or anything, yet they acted like they were relatived of Bill Gates. “Here’s our future surgeon,” one of the pastor's wife said dramatically. Another one grabbed my cheek. “Haha, this boy is too handsome.” “Any girl in mind?” the priest asked. “No, sir.” “I’m focused on passing my exams...” Before I could finish, my mum jumped in. “Relationships distract young people too much,” my mum said. “Oh please,” another woman laughed. “Let the boy enjoy small things while he can. Soon, he would not even have the time to speak with his family or gather with us like this.” I quietly slipped away to the kitchen before they asked me more unnecessary questions. All I could think about was the text Jeremy sent earlier. “You presented yourself well,” my mum said while stirring the chicken soup in the pot. “Thank you, Mum.” I grabbed a drink from the fridge. “You know, everyone downstairs thinks I mistreat you.” “Whatever, Mum,” I said, sipping my ginger ale. “You’re ignoring me now?” Another message popped up. “Can we talk, please?” Jeremy texted. “Leave me alone, dude,” I replied, knowing fully well I did want to meet him. “Kenz!” my dad shouted from the living room. “Come greet Father Benedict.” I groaned and sluggishly went down the stairs. Father Benedict stayed near the fireplace sipping wine while everyone worshipped him with attention, even though he looked odd. “Haha, Kenz, you’ve become a man now,” he said while looking weirdly toward me. “Your mother says you have plans of studying abroad.” “Hopefully,” I replied. “Hopefully?” my mum chuckled. I corrected myself quickly. “I mean yes, Father.” “Well, if things do not work out, the church is always open for you to serve in. No occupation is better than serving the Creator.” This mentality right here was the core reason why half of the masses in Greenville did not aim for anything higher than middle class. They had no ambition or anything. I smiled at the old man while he patted my shoulder. If only he knew how badly I wanted to lose myself completely. Dinner had started twenty minutes ago. Everyone gathered around the large table while conversations passed around. “Kids these days are turning into something else,” one woman said. “Social media is rotting their heads. I’m afraid it’s also destroying their morality.” “That LGBTQ stuff especially.” Not now, please. This was not the type of shit I could bear right now. I adjusted my plate while preparing myself for the conversation. One woman shook her head disappointingly. “Very disgusting people.” My father replied, “That’s why kids need strict homes.” My phone buzzed. It was Jeremy. “Come outside.” I ignored it. “Bunny.” I gulped, but I stayed persistent, knowing fully well I was eventually going to fall for it. “Leave me alone!!” I replied, smiling softly. “What’s wrong? You haven’t touched your food,” my mum asked suspiciously. “I’m fine. I just need air.” “Nobody leaves during fellowship,” my dad said, trying to keep a smile on his face. “I’ll be back,” I replied. “Kenz...” my mother tried to pat my hand and make me sit, but I had already stood up and begun walking outside. The cool air instantly hit my skin, and I felt goosebumps rising along it. I crossed the block. “Jeremy?” I asked, unable to see due to the darkness. Jeremy did not look any different. He was still the bulky, good looking guy I always had a crush on. “I didn’t think you were gonna give in,” Jeremy said flirtatiously. “I don’t have time. What do you want?” I replied. I did not want to give him listening ears after everything he had done, but still, I could not resist him. “Aye, chill, bae. I just wanted to see your pretty face,” Jeremy said. “I know I did you wrong last summer, but please let me make it up to you. How about I buy you dinner?” I knew I wanted this, but I also knew I could not be seen in a restaurant eating dinner with another guy. Greenville was indeed a weird place. I declined the offer. “No, I have schoolwork. Sorry,” I said, almost hesitating. “Well... okay,” Jeremy said, looking disappointed. “I have to go now. My dad’s waiting for me,” I replied. Turning back, my hand was suddenly held by Jeremy. He pulled me closer to him, his fingers wrapping tightly around my waist. Before I could even react, he tilted my head and kissed me. After Jeremy kissed me, I stepped back immediately, fearing we had been seen. “Just one dinner? Or we could just talk up in your room,” he said with a smirk. Fuck, I was already melting. Why did I have to be so weak? We sneaked back into my room through the window carefully, not wanting to alert anyone. The air in the room was tense and weird. “Still the same boring old room. It looks like a library,” Jeremy said, scanning around the room. “Shut up,” I replied, moving closer to him. I wanted this badly, and I could not control it. I pulled him closer in one quick drag. “Possessive much?” he said, leaning in while placing his hands on my neck. I could feel his warm, minty breath against my face. “Kenz? Are you in your room?” my sister’s voice came from outside the door. Shit.CHAPTER FORTY SEVEN KENZ’S POVThe game continued.I couldn’t tell you who won.I couldn’t even tell you what the score was anymore.Every few minutes, my eyes drifted toward the tunnel the trainers had disappeared through.Dan never came back.The crowd slowly found its energy again.People cheered.The band played.The referee blew his whistle over and over.But it didn’t stop me from getting lost in my thoughts. .“Kenz?”Fiona nudged my shoulder.“Hm?”“The game’s over.”I blinked.“Oh.”She studied my face for a second.“You wanna go?”I nodded almost immediately.“Yeah.”Neither of us spoke much as we made our way through the crowd.Students poured toward the exits, arguing about the refs cheating and bad fouls.Usually Dan would’ve texted by now.I whooped their asses.Or…Coach almost killed Jason today.Something stupid.Something that would’ve made me laugh.My phone stayed silent.“It’s probably nothing serious,” Fiona said softly.I looked at her.“I know.”But the wo
CHAPTER FORTY SIXDAN’S POVGame days always felt the same.The locker room buzzed with nervous energy.Some of the guys blasted music through a speaker.Others taped their wrists in complete silence.Someone kept throwing a basketball against the wall even though Coach had already yelled at him twice to stop.I sat on the bench tying my sneakers.One knot.Then another.My daily routine.Everything before a game was a routine.It helped keep my head clear.Or…At least it used to.“Ladies.”Every head turned.Coach walked into the locker room with his clipboard tucked beneath one arm.“If any of you plan on embarrassing me tonight, tell me now so I can fake a heart attack before tip off.”A few guys laughed.“I’ll save you the trouble, Coach,” Jason said.“I’m definitely embarrassing you.”Coach pointed at him.“I believe that.”The room filled with laughter.Even I smiled.“Listen up.”The laughter slowly died down.“This isn’t just another game.”Coach looked around the room.“Scou
CHAPTER FORTY FIVETORIA’S POVI had been standing there staring at the same canvas for what felt like forever.My instructor walked over and said something that snapped me out of it.“You’ve been staring at the same canvas for ten minutes.”I blinked a couple of times and looked up from the paint smeared across the canvas. Honestly, I hadn’t even noticed how long I’d been holding the brush without doing anything useful.“What?”She smiled and crossed her arms.“You heard me. Where did you disappear to in that head of yours?”I glanced back at my painting.It looked almost exactly the same as it had twenty minutes ago.I’d barely touched it.“I was thinking about stuff.”“I can tell.”She tapped the side of my easel.“Unfortunately, thinking doesn’t count as actual painting.”A few people around us laughed.Heat crept up my cheeks, and I laughed too, trying to play it off.“I am working on it, I swear.”“You’ve got another forty-five minutes before we wrap up for the day,” she said, h
CHAPTER FORTY FOURETHAN'S POVCollege parties were not really my kind of thing. They got too loud with all the music blasting and too crowded with people packed into every room. Plus there were always too many people acting like they were not already drunk after a couple cups of that cheap stuff they served. Unfortunately one of my coursemates did not agree with me on any of that."You better not disappear after class today," Marcus called out as we walked out of the lecture hall. "We are celebrating surviving that mechanics test.""I do not remember agreeing to anything," I said back."You do not have to agree. We already decided you are coming." He threw an arm around my shoulder and grinned.I sighed. "I hate all of you.""We know," he answered like it was no big deal.By the time I got back to the dorm I had almost talked myself out of going. Almost. Kenz was sitting at his desk with his headphones on scribbling stuff into a notebook. He did not even look up when I walked in. I d
CHAPTER FORTY THREEKENZ’S POVI hadn’t planned on coming over.At least…That’s what I kept telling myself.Truth was, I’d been thinking about home all day.About the living room.About Mrs. Alexis asking if I’d eaten before I even took my shoes off.About Dan yelling at me for stealing another one of his hoodies.Funny.I still called it home even though I barely stayed there anymore.My classes ended earlier than usual, and before I knew it, I was already on a bus heading there with a bag of takeout resting on my thighs.Maybe things didn’t have to stay awkward forever.Maybe Dan and I could slowly find our way back to each other.Maybe.Maybe I was getting my hopes up.The familiar house came into view.Nothing had changed.The flowers by the porch were still there.Dan’s car still sat near the garage.Everything looked exactly the same.So why did it suddenly feel like I was visiting instead of coming home?I grabbed the bag of food and rang the doorbell.A few seconds later, the
CHAPTER FOURTY TWO DAN'S POV The door clicked shut behind me. I did not lock it. I just stood there with one hand still on the doorknob trying to catch my breath. My chest felt really tight. The kind of tight that made it hard to think straight. "What the fuck," I whispered to myself. I let go of the handle and stepped back until the backs of my knees bumped into the edge of the bed. I sat down quick before my legs decided to give out completely. The room stayed dark except for the streetlight coming through the blinds. I did not even bother turning on the light. I did not feel like I deserved it anyway. I buried my face in my hands. What the hell was that downstairs? No. I knew exactly what it was. It just was not what it looked like from the outside. Toria had not done anything wrong. She saw me falling apart and tried to help. She got me some water. She listened and did not push for details. She put her hand on my arm. That was it. That should have been all of it. So wh
Kenz's POV Chapter THREE “Shit,” I muttered under my breath. Jeremy pulled away from me so fast it almost made me laugh, but it would be stupid to do that with my situation right now. “Kenz?” my sister called again from outside my door. My stomach dropped. I was as good as dead. Ellie was
CHAPTER THIRTEEN KENZ POV The mansion looked like it had been ransacked. Plastic bottles littered around the floor and red cups were covered on every available surface. The smell of alcohol made me want to puke. I stepped over a pile of empty boxes drenched with alcohol. “
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN FIONA’S POV The funniest part about almost dying is that no one tells you when it’s coming. It’s not stamped. It’s just sudden. People always talk about the fear, the pain, the last voices you hear of the people you love. But nobody talks about how pathetic it is to be drown
KENZ POV CHAPTER ONE "Fuck Jeremy,” I moaned as his hands slowly slid lower. The kiss was the most erotic thing I'd ever felt.He pulled his top up, and I saw the most perfectly carved body.“Get on your knees,” he commanded with his calm but deep voice.I reached out for his trousers, maintainin







