Ethan notices the change in my expression. His jaw tightens. “Amelia.” I look away, towards the window anywhere but him. Because looking at him is dangerous, looking at him makes me remember too many good things and the good things are what make leaving so difficult. The room falls silent, the monitor continues beeping steadily. Outside, sunlight filters through the curtains. Morning. I must have been unconscious for hours, Ethan slowly sits back down in his chair. Neither of us speaks. For the first time, I notice a blanket draped over his shoulders, a half-empty coffee cup and several documents scattered across the table. Signs that he’s been here a while, waiting and Watching. The sight makes something inside me ache and I hate it, because no matter how much he hurts me… Part of me still notices things like that, still cares and still loves him. It’s pathetic, I know it is but heartbreak isn’t logical. It never has been. Ethan rubs a hand over his face.
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